Morning all wide awake since 4.30am again oh well at least my ironing is done and dinner is ready for tonight … damn fit but tells me 4 hours 20 sleep and called me a night owl grrr it’s not by choice. Hope everyone manages to have a good day xxx
Insomnia is awful .Only thing to do is get up and do something productive otherwise it’s easy to fill the lonely hours with anxiety and worry .At least tea is done eh ???
I know I have realised if I lie there I over think then I am tearful all day so better to get up and get cracking x
Hi all
had my first mammogram ( 72 years old and never had one …due to fear)… had some bloody discharge from right nipple , hence referral to Hospital. Can’t sleep despite sleeping pills. Can’t function. Lying in bed , thinking , what if it’s bc. I know something is causing the discharge…there’s so much support and encouragement here .
hope all goes well for everyone. Have the best day you can. Enjoy the sun! Who am I to speak. I am still in bed.
love and thanks for listening xx
The anxious waiting is truly awful,sometimes it’s impossible to focus on anything else.The middle of the night is just the loneliest time . Best to get up and do something to distract yourself if you can.Feather if your symptoms do turn out to be breast cancer please try and focus on the fact that the vast majority of breast cancers are very treatable and most of us survive this after a few months of upset and are able to move on with our lives.Lots of support here from people who understand .When is your appointment ?Jill.
Hi feather my wait from mammogram and core biopsy seemed horrendous however as strange as it seems once I got diagnosis I knew what I was dealing with and could plan ?
To answer a couple of questions , my appointment at the Breast care department, is on Thursday morning… then I will get my mammo results. I was referred by my GP. 3rd July, had mammo on 12th July, said I had to see Consultant for results…appointment Thursday 27th july…Can’t function. Tomorrow there’s a party to celebrate my grandon’s 2nd bday. I like my Prossecco so I shall binge drink…is that bad? That will help me sleep. My Gp is very good…I had a difficult divorce a few years ago,and when the GP saw what state I was in, he prescribed me sleeping tabs since then. So I get atleast 5 hours good sleep. However, tomorrow I will have to be at the party, where my Ex will be flaunting his new wife. So stressful seeing them together even after all these years…birthdays and weddings are most difficult…between all this, I’ve got a tough few days ahead, but I’m a tough old bird.
love and thanks for listening xx
Goodmorning all…yes Pat, I’m going to have a drink or two. Honestly, I hate family get togethers because of the ubiquitous presence of my Ex and his wife. I have not remarried, nor do I have a partner. I am on my own. Usually, I just go for an hour, after they have left, but this year, I have decided to be there regardless of their presence.
Must get up now. Promised my son , I’d make some samosas for the party…hope the weather gets better. Yes, they were hoping to have the party in the garden, but …
love and thanks xxxx
Good luck Feather -hope the party goes as well as it can for you and You enjoy your little Grandson.
Hi feather hope you have managed to enjoy the party and have a little drink or 2 or 3 or more ? X
Feather
Hope it goes really well for you, enjoy your grandsons birthday, sod the ex and his wife they are not important in your life xxxx
Well said Patricia,this forum has been a sanity saver for me over last 2 years.Please post and have a chat ladies if you are struggling ,you are not alone ,we understand .
Jill and Patriciamay
I totally echo your posts, we are here for you all, dont be afraid to post we totally understand and are there for you all xxx
Hi my lovely friends
Had a great time…I threw caution to the wind and had, not one, not two, not three glasses haha…I don’t know how I’m typing this…thought I’d flop into bed, but I had to come on here and see how your Saturday went. My ex and his wife were there, but I thought “sod them” ( quoting one of you, too light headed to remember ) . Totally put my mammo results to the back of my mind.
Have a lovely Sunday and keep calm …everything will be ok. We are not alone.
Love and thanks for listening xxxx
Well done Feather ,so glad you had a good day!!Sleep well!!!
It’s a very hard thing to explain to anyone who hasn’t been through this and yes very overwhelming at times .I always found it really weird how normal life seemed to go around you when your life was in total meltdown .
Yesterday in the supermarket a very rude lady barged in front of me in the queue the cashier said I believe this lady was first and i responded by saying thank you to the cashier and then said to the lady ‘you know what just push in I don’t care I going through a far bigger fifght than arguing over a spot in a supermarket queue’ and burst into tears she looked at me bemused and asked if I was okay but by this point I was incapable of answering her without being totally rude so turned my back on her. The poor cashier didn’t know what to say or do … why is it the supermarket seems to affect us all. By the time I paid for my stuff and loaded my car in my head I was saying stuff it (though not stuff lol the f word) and I was saying pull yourself together you can’t do anything about this just get on with it and don’t let insignificant people affect you x
A man shouted at my dog for jumping up at his dog while on a walk ,couldn’t stop crying all the way home .Little things tip you over the edge when you are under a lot of stress.
To be fair I did feel better after crying even if a tad embarrassed that it was in a public place ?
Having a good cry releases some tension .