Hi maria
Do you find you are much less tollorant of people as time goes on. Like you im getting to be very direct. If your friend is not speaking to you over that shes no friend. You can do without them. No one xan understand unless they are going through or have veen through this. Thats why its good to have acess to you lovely ladies xxx
Hi again just read through the posts. Should have done that first. Your son sounds lovely how old is he? How did you get on telling your older son? You sound like you have a very close relationship with your son. Hes a brave little boy and will keep you strong and fighting. I have three daughters and two grandaughters 11& 8. They ask a lot of frank questions and i get letters too from them. i have always been honest with them but at thier level of understanding. Like - will the cancer go nanny, will you get better. I just say no it wont go but the doctors give me special medicine to keep me well. - Sending you a big hug and another one. Xx
Thank you for your message Steph J. I’ve had a really busy and stressful for few days. Thank you for your comforting words. I shall look into maggies and yes think support from fellow ladies aka girls lol ? Probably the best. Others just don’t understand and say cruel things.
Hello Maria12
Haven’t been on here for few days or night. Doesn’t mean I haven’t though of you all. It’s been really busy here. Not in a nice way. Hoping can settle tonight and sleep. You too. X
Hi maldives , yeah i am finding my tolerance levels of people a bit low , but think thats cause this thing is constantly on my mind .I have a couple of friends who are great but lately have me feel suffocated , its sounds ungrateful , but im not , im just so independant usually and the constant fussing and telling me what i should do did get me down a couple of days last week .my youngest boy is 12 and he kept asking once chemo and surgery is done will it be gone , told him i dont plan on going anywhere and the consultants have said no different they seem quite postive that chemo will shrink it for surgery and removal of underarm lymphs .he also just been hit with this bug thats bern doing the rounds so think he is finding harder to deal with today as he feels so poorly .my eldest is 26 and lives in london and plan to see him on sunday , it maybe easier for him as he has not lived at home for 7 years due to uni . we only see each other every few months since his move to london x
Hi pineapple hope your feeling a little better , start my chemo next week .have a feeling im going to struggle with it .Not had any treatment yet apart from the scans , marker clips bloods ect .as its been everyweek of something irs all hitting me already .seem to be constantly tired .past 2 days my lymph nodes have ached which has made lifting my arm difficult , yesturday had marker clips in and probe to look at my ovarys , this morning i felt so dizzy i struggled to get out of bed .so god help me when i start chemo lol x
Hello Maria12
I just want to send you hugs and my very best thoughts.
I’m so sorry you are going through this.
I feel your fears re chemo and managing. I’m worry about how to get myself through the coming weeks and months…keep hearing the others on her say day or day by day…
Don’t have a magic wand…if only…just sending you my best and letting you know I’m listening. Hugs
Thank you pineapples , im now starting to dread having to start it keep worrying about whst could go wrong .Hate the fact im feeling like this as im normally a very strong person who gets on with things .having my line put in today so going to talk to hospital as ive been feeling bit weird this week .feeling like i cant keep up with my breathing and yesturday i stuggled to get out of bed as i kept feeling like i was going to faint , not things ive really had before so god help me when i start chemo lol x
Hi pineapple , had a good normal day yesturday .regarding the picc line the nurse doing it was lovely and tbh it was nothing like i thought it would be lol i felt sick just reading the leaflets and im the biggest woose when it comes to needles ( low veins) .slight pin prick and feeling of something going up your vein but not in a bad way and literally only for few seconds all done in 20 mins and that included making sure i felt ok after , slight pain like a pin prick whilst moving arm in the evening but i just took paracetamol , hope this reassures you a little .i asked about breathlessness and lightheadedness she said it could be animia, dehydration or axiety , been told to up my water intake …when does your chemo start ? X
Thank you steph xx