Debs, Ellice, just want to wish you both well for your ops tomorrow. I didn’t know I had a problem until mammo either, comes as a shock to say the least. I am at the in-between stage and waiting for rads to start on 3 Nov. My wounds are well healed now six weeks on and I am experiencing little pain ( if any), you will get through this girls and it isn’t as bad as you might imagine.
Bigs virtual hugs Chrisxx
Good luck to Ann and Ellice. Ellice, mine was 3cm and I didn’t feel it till one day in the shower. Just breathe, let the surgeon do his/her stuff. You’re in good hands, the op will be over in a blink, then just rest and recover, take it as easy as you have to.
Debs, forgot, you might want to try out your bikini for coverage before Bali. If you get the blue dye injection to locate sentinels, it shows up on your boob. I’ve still got a pale blue mark on the top of mine, 9 months later! It’s fading, but it’s taking its darn time. Erm, sorry there Jackie, but it’s true. My surgeon said a couple of months. HAH! 
Chris, excellent that you have your rads schedule. Don’t know how your op went in terms of arm mobility, but can I suggest you do a good deal of stretching (up and back) so you’re not uncomfortable lying there. You’re only in position for about 5 minutes, and your arms will be in arm rests, but you do need to hold it. Remember the aqueous cream at least twice a day (you’ll work it out yourself), and towards the end and for about 4 weeks after, avoid bras that are tight against the treated area. It’ll aggravate it.
Zea, no need to be anxious about rads. Honest. It’s easy. I was anxious too, having fair skin and all. It’s absolutely fine. They do play pretty hideous music though. You might want to worry about that!
Hey all, well just had a glass of bailey’s before the midnight hour ( nil food or drink) check in time 700am weds 7th. Thankyou for all your kinds words and thoughts… and a special virtual hug to Ellice, sharing the same op day 
Zea i do hope you are feeling a bit better now.
And blimey what fun blue pee and poos to look forward to! LOL and a blue boob…everyones going to notice me on that bali beach;)
thinking of you & Ellice today !
Hi all
Just wanted to jump in here and comment on the blue boob comments.
My blue is fading but you can still see it… im 19 months from op!!!
Good luck to ladies with ops today.
hope all goes well with your ops today girls, i had mine in march first op i had ever had and was so scared but wasn’t as bad as I had thought!!! Good luck! love debs xx
Deb, Ellice, with a bit of luck you’re home, or at least resting up and comfy in the ward. Stay cool, stay groovy, rest and take it easy. That’s the first big step out of the way! 
deb *waves* at home now with my little pink bag containing my wound drain tube and bottle… LOL. All went well, feeling very relieved i got the op bit out of the way. a little sore but nothing bad, didnt need any painkillers afters.hope all well with you girlies xx ~Deb~
Hi Ladies
Just a message for a fellow Scouser…orrite kidda laaaa!!!
Keep your chin up.
xx
ps I’m waiting albeit very anxiously for the results of my core biopsy x2…done today.
Doctor didnt mention FNA just went for Core biopsy…said he needed 4 from lump but then changed his mind to just 2…lump is 34mm!!
Does this sound right?
hey well done Deb - hope you feel better v soon xx
hey chester babe…*hugs* awwsss… my fellow scousers allways give me a lorra lorra smiles.
But poor you what a shit having to go through 2!! sounds a little confusing for you … no wonder u r feeling anxious.why dont you ring the breast care nurse tomorrow and check it out with them. they are the experts. i think reading too much on this forum can be a positive thing but also a litle confusing for us newbies, and it seems to be what type of cancer it is rather than the size of lump it is in some cases.i think i am on a strange op high… when u said 34mm i looked at ruler next to pc and thought OMFG… but then i realised it was only in cms not mm’s !!!
thankyou chipper for kind words…xx
ps… blue boobs… OMG from what i see of my poor boobie it looks like its been dipped in some nasty full of e numbers bright blue sherbet. Iam going to have to seek out a matching bikini top or maybe a cute tattoo !
Hi fellow scouser,
thanks for your message…i think i was shocked when the doctor told me the size firstly because he described it as “large” and I think because what i could feel didnt feel big. I know its only mm but its scary when you read that some tumours are less than 2cm.
I am hoping that all will be well, trying hard to think positive…holding on to the fact that most lumps turn out to be benign.
I havent really got anyone I can talk to at the minute about this other than you ladies (thank god I have found this site)…I think my hubbie thinks I’ve got an admirer on-line…lol. I think it hit him today when we were in the clinic and he had to wait outside in the waiting room, he said even though we didnt know what we were dealing with (still dont)he feels a bit helpless. I think he has been trying hard to put it all out of his mind, he’s the type that doesnt worry until there is something he can do. He doesnt realise that he has done so much already!
I feel dreadful not talking to my Mum and my sisters but I dont feel ready to tell them anything yet and get them worrying about something that hopefully will turn out to be nothing serious.
Its my mum’s 60th next week and everyone is looking forward to the party, I just cant say anything yet…lame excuse I know, I will tell them(if I have to, afterwards).
Big hugs for everyone. I admire you all and your strength xx
hihi scousergirlie
Yes i really feel for you at this moment in time not knowing is it or isnt it. I actually only told my husband and went along to my appts on my own. I kept thinking wait and see wait and see before i tell others. At the time I had my sons 18th and a big family weekend get together, I wasnt going to tell them but I was feeling so anxious about it all that I did and felt much better by doing so. But unlike you I knew for certain that it was BC. Do what you feel is right, dont do it cos you think you have to or what others will think or say. I know for me i tend too withdraw for a bit and try and sort it out in my own head first.
Your hubby sounds similar to mine he likes to be practical not good on the emotional side.Lucky for me he likes shopping cooking and doing the washing !!
take care Deb xx
Chesterbabe - Obviously, you must do what feels right for you but from my experience, it is better to tell it as you go along, rather than give them a big shock. They can cope with little bits of information each time, as can you, and they can be very supportive when you need it. Bottling it up seems to make it worse for me.
I know from experience what it is like to be on both ends. My father died from bladder cancer. We had had a family rift and I didn’t even know he was ill. The first I heard was that he had died. I think the rest of the family thought he would recover and then they would tell me, but it didn’t work out like that.
When my mother had bc, I knew from the start, and was able to be supportive every step of the way. When it happened to me, my husband and I made the decision to tell our son as we went along. He is 26 and had said before that he would want to know, and that it was easier to go through the journey with me. So, I told him that I had a doctor’s appointment, when I found the lump, and at each stage he knew what was going on. He has coped really well - love him. I think it helps to get used to the possibility of bad news, gradually.
Anyway, that is how it is for me. Everyone is different.
Best of luck. Ann xx
Just want to say hi guys thank god for the internet having been reading your post for a a week now and it has really helped had my op 2 weeks ago and get more info next monday re further surgery. Which of course no one wants. But Wanted to let you all know that just reading this has helped like above. My son is in his final year at college and just started dating (how old am I lol) told me the week I was diagnosed that life was really great and going well. As a mum it was very painful bursting that bubble but when my husband I did what a relief. My kids have accepted everything we have said and I wonder at how well as my mother died of BC 5 years ago.But they really do believe this is only a blip and the doc’s have got it all. Want some of their faith and it has really helped normalised me 80% of the time. love to you all
Thanks Ladies for your comments and support. I need to know one way or another before I say anything…i will decide what to do on Monday I think…???
Ive got my hubbie for support this weekend…he’s my best friend too…so that helps…and of course I’ve got you Ladies…
Speak soon xx
I have posted this on behalf of kentish lass
Regards
Janet BCC Facilitator
09 Oct 2009 14:38
Hi just wanted to say the whole thing freakd me out too found it difficult to talk to anyone at first and hated seeing all the breast awareness stuff as like you just found out. told my kids on saturday 3weeks after found out and slowly told nearest and dearest and found it very hard at first but its helping doing it slowly. Oh my god what a relief after telling the kids even though it brings tears to my eyes. found out 16th sept. the guys on this sight are fab
kentish lass
So sorry you had to join us but you really will get great support here. Often it’s easier to write about your fears, than to speak them aloud, but there is always the helpline if you want a chat and need an understanding ear.
Gradually, you will get used to the idea and be able to cope with each step as it arises. I was really strong until the Breast Care Nurse asked how my family were coping. That was it then. I was in tears. The thought that this was causing them pain was harder to bear than my own.
I had my op on 23rd Sept (WLE and SNB) and had my results this week - good ones, thankfully. I am now waiting for radiotherapy and hormone therapy.
I do so hope things go as well as possible for you. Let us know how you get on.
Love Ann xx
Hugs and more hugs Ann re you results.
Kentish lass… what can i say, yes it will get a bit easier and to take each step at a time.
My emotions are allover the place … after my post operation high…on the thurs i was on a complete downer by friday. For me I feel mutilated, aswell as the waiting for the results, but my next big step is seeing my body … my stitches.It’s all changed my life and i want the old one back… ggrrssss
thanks Ann good news re your results. Suffolkscouser I feel better today moving towards some normality slept for 10hrs last night haven’t done that in years. Its weird having your body sewing up and cut but when the brusing subsides it does look better. I keep thinking about one comment from another BC girl there are survivors 2million world wide and we are going to be in that club. Need to hold your hands whilest we go through this. fingers crossed for results tomorrow!! Hey have a day. hugs and kisses.