Worried ++++

I haven’t posted on this site in a long time as i have just got to
5yrs since DX and was thinking its all onwards and upwards now and I have crossed that line of cancer patient and become a ‘normal’ and ‘well’ person.
However feeling very sad as I have had awful upper abdominal pain and am awaiting an ultra sound scan.

I just wanted to know if its possible that I could have secondaries from the BC in 2005. I had grade 2tumour no lymph node involvement but a large tumour. had a mastectomy and chemo.

Feel quite sad to be posting on here again, just hope its not a bad omen.

Ruth

Ruth,
I just wanted to offer you support this time of night when everything seems so dark…
I’m sure you are very sad. This must be such a nightmare for you.
Real pain is very worrying and of course every symptom we feel ‘could’ be the cancer returning…

How long do you have to wait until your ultrasound?
I do hope it’s not long as the waiting is pure HELL isn’t it?

I send you a very tight hug and hope the night is not too long for you. Thinking of you,
Welsh girl xx

Hi Liverbird

I’m sorry to read you’re having such a worrying time at the moment.
If you need to talk things through with somone or just have a little extra support please do remember you can give the BCC helpline a call and speak with one of the trained members of staff. The number is 0808 800 6000 and the lines are open Monday to friday 9 to 5pm and Saturday 9 to 2pm.

I hope this is helpful.

Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator

Hi Ruth,

I hope that night wasn’t too long for you…it’s an awful place to be in.

I think that when you have had cancer, you assume that you only ‘do’ cancer. We have to remember that we can get other illnesses with their associated aches and pains too. Anyone with abdominal pain would be sent for a scan wouldn’t they? A doctor has to arrange tests if they aren’t sure what’s going on whether you have had cancer or not…it’s their job isn’t it.

So…I suggest you take a deep breath, try and calm yourself and keep things in perspective. (It goes without saying that I totally understand and would be exactly the same…I can talk the talk!!)

Sheana x

Hi Ruth

I remember your postings from years ago, I think that we were diagnosed at about the same time? Its funny, but I have also been having upper abdo pains and got some bloods done last week because I couldnt face going to see my GP so you were braver than me! x I think that coming up to 5 and 6 years is a bit of a jittery time as people assume that all those memories are now well and truly locked up, but mine tend to leak out if I get worried, tired, run down etc and a few weeks ago I started to get pains in my rib and liver area, straight away I was back in ‘that’ moment!

Sending you lots of hugs and keeping everything crossed. Please let us know how you get on.

Much love
x

Hello Ruth

I just wanted to say I hope you don’t have to wait too long for the scan. In the meantime I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you.

As the others have said there’s a very good possibility that there’s another cause for your pain but I understand the worry very well. I’m coming up to 4 years since diagnosis but still worry that every new ache and pain could be BC coming back.

Take care and let us know what happens.
Anthi x

Thank you all so much for being there. Obviously this site has not changed and there are very many supportive women.
Lancs lass, I have sent you a PM.

Ultra sound in just over 2 weeks. yesterday I felt so ill but today much better so I am convincing myself its not serious.
Have so much to look forward too in the next 6 months don’t want to be ill.

Will post with results in a few weeks.

Rx

Hi Ruth

Just wondered if you have had your scan yet, I hope that you are feeling a bit better? I have been worried over the past few weeks about rib and abdo pain that I have been having, and finally plucked up the courage to see my GP last week to ask if she could refer me for a chest x ray. Anyway she prescribed meds for acid on the stomach and touch wood they seemed to have helped.

I am coming up to 6 years and family and friends think that it is all over now, but they just dont realise that once you have had bc you have to learn to live along side it forever. I think that you just get used to your body feeling like it does, but I find that any other stress on top of what I already have and my body tells me big style that I have overdone it.

Anyway I hope that you are feeling a little better, and thank goodness we all have the wonderful support of this site, and it doesnt really matter what stage we are all at because we have all experienced the terror of this illness and just know how the other is feeling.

Much love
Debbie xx

Hi Ruth
Have you had your scan yet? I soooo hope it is good news for you. I have not got upper stomach pain but I have got an ‘acidy sloshy feeling some days’. I went to see my GP who said I should have an endoscopy. aaaaaahhhhh ! terrified of the very idea. So, I will see my Onc next week and ask if I can have a CT scan to start witufh.

As some one said and my GP said it too us cancer ladies do get all the normal stuff - its just that we expect it to be cancer all the time.

best wishes, Grace