Hi everyone
I’m hoping someone might be able to offer some insight or advice - I am in a bit of a mess.
After surgery, FEC chemo and radiotherapy for ER breast cancer, My oncologist started me on monthly Zoladex injections in April, and a month later added in Exemestane. I was 48 when diagnosed, regular periods etc no sign of menopause although my periods stopped dead after my first dose of chemo and that was that.
I had a bit of time off after the surgery, but managed to work all through chemo, radiotherapy, and have just kept going through it all, it wasn’t always easy but I did it.
Two weeks after the first Zoladex injection, something happened and I ended up sobbing most of the weekend, I wondered at the time if my response was a bit disproportionate and maybe secondary to menopausal things as I am not given to emotional outbursts, but anyway I soldiered on, I’ll get through it, I thought, it’s bound to take time to acclimatise.
Over the next 2/3 months things got worse. I worried, I got stressed, tearful, anxious, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t concentrate on anything and lost my appetite so badly that I hardly ate. I stopped listening to music, avoided my friends, just felt very low and generally rubbish. Tried talking to the BCNs, but the only one I got on with has retired, the others just aren’t very good frankly, and don’t seem to be able to say anything that I haven’t thought of myself. I talked to my GP and the nurse at my GP practice, and they are lovely and are trying to help, I have meds now to help me sleep, but my query to you ladies really is about the hormone therapy itself. I saw my oncologist 6 weeks ago and told him everything, and he stopped the Exemestane, but it hasn’t made much difference. I saw him again nearly 2 weeks ago and he said “ok maybe it’s the Zoladex” but anyway I have stayed off Exemestane now for 6 weeks and still feel crap. I am due Zoladex again next week, but thinking I will not have it, and see if I feel any better.
There are other things happening in my life at the moment, I have had a bereavement, my daughter is leaving to start uni, I have had to have a CT scan this week due to the weight loss and pain in my breast and my bones/joints but to be honest I am not concerned about recurrence as the weight loss is explainable as I hardly eat, and the pains are due to the sudden menopause I think, a lot of it is aches and pains that had anyway that are worse now as I’ve got no oestrogen - anyway it’s all being fully checked out and I’m not worried about that. Counselling doesn’t appeal to me because I do get fed up of talking about it and I do feel as if there is a physiological cause of the way I feel - I don’t know, as soon as I started thinking about stopping the Zoladex I felt a bit better - obviously I am involving the BCNs and the oncologist in these decisions.
But has anyone else had problems on these two types of hormone treatment and if so, what helped? If anyone has stopped or changed from Zoladex & Exemestane to something else, how long did things take to improve? I’m actually off work at the moment, I can’t believe I managed to work through it all and have only now had to go off sick! I do wonder if the way I feel is just down to a combination of things, but people that know me and who are also medically qualified have said that the things I’m describing sound very hormonal, and I know that I normally cope with life a lot better than this!
Thank you so much for reading and if anyone has any experience to share, I’d be very grateful!
J x