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No Answers, Just Waiting & It's Making Me Sick πŸ˜”

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intuitiveu
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Sorry, new to group and guess I posted on a reply

Hi, new to this group and I appreciate all the love and support shown here.

I am waiting on an 'urgent referral approval' for a mammogram and ultrasound.  Just saw my doctor yesterday, so they said to expect mid-week to get a call with the approval and information on how to schedule.  I have no idea how long it will take to get an appointment.

I have been very anxious since I connected the dots last Tuesday.  Unfortunately, I am awaiting pulmonary testing and consultation due to issues with my breathing too.  The dots I connect between lung and breast made me lightheaded.

I have 2 children 19 and 21 and both suffer from acute anxiety disorders.  I am compelled to keep it all to myself and hope for the best.  I needed somewhere to say this to someone.  Thanks for being here.

Right now I am feeling like I need a project or something to keep me busy and my mind engaged elsewhere.  Doing my best.  When I do stop, my heart rate leaps up, feels like I'm having an 'out of body experience.'  

Feels calming to write you here.  Thanks again.

CurlyTaurus
Member

Re: No Answers, Just Waiting & It's Making Me Sick πŸ˜”

Thank you for your kind words! I am in the US and the program here had a bunch of requirements (including being age 50-64) since I'm uninsured, but my coverage kicks in on July 1st so I will go see a primary care doctor and get a referral for the mammogram. All the "free or low cost" scans were booked until end of July and I CANNOT wait that long.

 

So my aunt has breast cancer and I told her what's going on.. she's concerned now but doesn't want me to think the worse. I can feel the lump because it's pretty big to the touch. My nipple is inverted with very slight discharge. Never really feel any pain, more like pressure. I have to wear a bra alllll day because it feels sore when it's just hanging out lol. The lump was very small and I first noticed it last year, but it was small enough for me to think it was due to hormones. Here I am 6 months later with a huge lump and all these symptoms.

The anxiety makes me sick even when I try to put it out of my mind. And I'm still in training for a new job, which is very exciting but the training alone gets me nervous because of the type of information I deal with. This was the cherry on top a BS sundae so I'm just over everything at this point ☹ I feel worn down.

I appreciate you @Evie-S and thank you for the well wishes and distractions. I definitely need the convo πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—

CurlyTaurus
Member

Re: No Answers, Just Waiting & It's Making Me Sick πŸ˜”

Yes, I'm in the US. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hopefully it's not cancer but I'm kinda in the same boat. Went to the ER to see if it was a cyst or abscess, they pretty much ruled that out but gave me antibiotics just in case... now I just have a yeast infection and no change in the lump πŸ™„πŸ˜” 

 

I hate that you're having to wait so long. I'm trying to stay positive as well but it's hard when you can see and feel the physical changes. I hope they don't take forever to get you the results but It's good you already got the biopsy out of the way... now we wait. I will be here @louby_lou69 πŸ€— you are in my prayers πŸ™πŸΌ

Evie-S
Community Champion

Re: No Answers, Just Waiting & It's Making Me Sick πŸ˜”

@CurlyTaurus and @louby_lou69 - I wanted to start by sending you both a big hug and strength while you wait for your tests/results. I was diagnosed and treated about 4 years ago and I remember that awful waiting time so well. I found this forum so helpful when I had treatment and I hope you both will/are finding the same.

@CurlyTaurus - I don’t know if you have spoken to a doctor about your lump yet? If you are in the US I’m not sure how the system operates there? It’s important to remember that there are many reasons for breast changes or lumps even, many are harmless. It could be a cyst or a fibroadenoma for example - I had a fibroadenoma when I was in my 30s, both are benign. I have a great book that reminds us that β€œfears are NOT facts”, so try not to let your mind race ahead and imagine the worst. And really try not to google symptoms as you will end up scaring yourself as Google really doesn’t know you or your specific symptoms. But you are doing exactly the right thing in checking out your lump, it’s so important to do that. 

See if you can find something to distract yourself from thinking about the lump, whatever it is that makes you happy - maybe a box set of a good TV series or movie. But we are all here to chat any time you just need someone to listen.

I really hope you get an appointment soon and that they find the lump is harmless.

Evie πŸ’•

 

 

louby_lou69
Member

Re: No Answers, Just Waiting & It's Making Me Sick πŸ˜”

You can wait here along with me.

I presume you’re in the USA? Sorry it’s such a long wait for you.

I found a lump just over 2 weeks ago and went for a biopsy last Tuesday. The dr is pretty sure it’s cancer, I presume because of the shape/size. But I’m trying to be positive. 

I get the results in another week or two so still a while to wait. 

CurlyTaurus
Member

No Answers, Just Waiting & It's Making Me Sick πŸ˜”

I'm a 29 year old mother of two.. just recently got concerned with a lump in my right breast. I'm amazed at how long it can take to get an appointment when you're symptoms are there and you have no insurance. It's scary because it makes me realize how many women are going through the same thing, it saddens me. 

 

I will be insured in July so I guess that's not too long of a wait now, but I've already been waiting for 3 weeks. Living with the anxiety of not knowing what's wrong is killing me, so I try to suppress it but then it hits me hard once it finally creeps up again. 

 

IDK... I guess I just wanted to tell someone so thank you for listening. Nothing but Love to you all πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ