Hi Blaine13(hope I got that right)
I haven't been on the forum for a long time , but just read your thread and I wanted to say I too was diagnosed with Breast Cancer Jan 2012 .
i have just had my fourth operation on Saturday which was a small skin graft and lipofil in my left breast and mastoplexy to my right implant (I had a bilateral masectomy in June 2014 .)
i am very lucky as my surgeon is very good at her job, and even though it does feel never ending I think this will be my LAST op please God !!
I don't know if this will help you or not ,but I do hope you feel more confident after your surgeries
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I know, it isn't fair is it. Removing the cancer is one thing, but reconstruction is an entirely different ball game when things do not go according to plan.
Perhaps try to focus on the things you like about yourself and submerge yourself in lots of activities which can keep you busy and make you feel good about yourself. I know it is hard as all you want is for everything to be over and done with and to be able to look at yourself and say 'it's okay'.
Hang on in there...
I couldn't read and run so thought I would leave you a little reply.
I had left MX almost 6 years ago now. Had expander put in and then permanent implant six months later. This did not take as my skin was far too thin and stretched. So it had to come out and I had LD flap recon in several stages. The whole process took 4 years ( which included surgery to the healthy side). In total i must have had about 7 ops from start to finish. My advice is find yourself a good to excellent PS. There are some fabulous surgeons out there who can work wonders on us BC ladies. At the end of the day, this is something which YOU have to live with for the rest of your life, so I don't think you should have to accept being lopsided. I have reasonable symmetry now and some kind of cleavage. I did not have this to begin with, but my second PS worked very hard to try and make the best of a bad job. I am left with lots of scarring, so don't tend to look at myself too hard, else I do feel sad. But i can get on with life now, whereas before, I couldn't because the outcome needed to be right. I have not had a fat transfer, but I do believe that several attempts are necessary, in order to achieve the required result? It seems to work well for some ladies, but not all.
Why is your new implant smaller than your other breast? Have you had radiotherapy, as this can sometimes cause problems with skin and implants? Do speal to your PS and let he or she know you are unhappy with the result.
Really feel for you and hope you get sorted soon.
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