Hi everybody, Thanks to anyone who has previously replied to me on other threads. I am really struggling today after a very long and stressful time at the hospital yesterday. I cannot fault the care there and everyone was absolutey lovely but i am now dreading gong back for biopsy results and I am not sure how long that will be. I did look at my notes and it said 27mm lump and they also want me to have an MRI which makes me think they can already tell its not good!. I know there is still a possibility it could be nothing but with biopsies in 3 different places including my good side I cant help thinking it will be bad news. I am at work and trying to be normal but keep having wobbles when I think I am going to cry. Not good in front of a class of children! I am so used to being in control and supporting others so this is so hard for me! I cant bear the thougth of the stress it will cause my family and am trying to play it down in front of them but I keep getting waves of panic and worry. Very unlike the normal me!! Thanks for listening. It helps to be able to put on here how I really feel. Claire xx
Hi Claire it’s a horrible anxious time and until you know what you are dealing with and what happens next it is very difficult to cope with every day life.Did they explain to you why they biopsied good breast and why they were sending you for MRI ?
Hope you get good news Claire, but if you don’t,don’t panic most breast cancers are very treatable and there is a very good chance you will be ok.Lots of support here too.
Hi Claire,
Did they the mention lobular cancer at all? The way lobular cancer presents itself can make it very difficult to see on some scans, so MRI is the best way to check both breasts. Also, I think MRI can differentiate between differing types of breast conditions, not just cancer, so please don’t alarm yourself because MRI is required. Take care and sending big hugs, Ann x x
Hi Claire, just Seen your post… I’m in a very similar situation as you and also feeling very scared though hiding how Bad I’m feeling from everyone.
Ive had the biopsy, now waiting for MRI appointment, like you, fearing it’s worse than initially told. Scan to see if/ what’s going on deeper in breast!? I’ve been told it’s grade 2 Lobular cancer and its 27mm in size. Told highly unlikely able to have lumpectomy as breast area dimpled and creasing… Prepare for possible mastectomy… Which that and idea of chemo us freaking me out!!!
Sending you love and hugs and to let you know that I’m new on thus forum but the support I’ve had over past 2 weeks has helped a lot! Trying to stay positive to fight this us hard but we can do this!!! Xxxx Tina
Good chance you won’t lose your breast or your hair Claire if you are diagnosed ,if you do you will adjust and the hair loss is temporary, you can have very good results with reconstruction too .Not a given you will get fat either!!!The losing control thing is a biggy,you really do have to surrender yourself to the medics for x number of months ,but you come to terms with it,have a rant on here and get on with it.It becomes less overwhelming.
It’s not superficial at all , they are things we all worry/have worried about and affect how you feel about yourself.
Someone recommended the “Headspace” app,haven’t used it myself though.
Hi!
Claire and Amanda, I’m so glad to hear that the doctors in Canterbury and Ashford are lovely and helpful! Although there is no reason to expect that they’re not, it is very helpful to hear from others about their experience with them beforehand. Thanks!
Claire, will be thinking of you tomorrow and keeping my fingers crossed!
Nicole x
Tattie holidays?? You near Aberdeen Tandy? Long time since I’ve heard “tattie holidays” mentioned!! ? x
Hello, I’m new here. I found a lump on 11/9 and saw the GP the same day. I was referred to breast clinic and am going on Friday (25/9). I am at moderate risk risk due to family history, plus I am diabetic. I have been panicking and unable to sleep but am glad that it is nearly Friday. I would really like to know how likely I am to get an answer on Friday. I am going to breast clinic in Cheltenham and it is consultant, mam/US and biopsy one stop shop - does anyone know if I will find out on Friday or will I have to wait weeks for biopsy results? Thank you
Hi Effie,good chance they will be able to tell you one way or another on Friday,sometimes they are not 100% what they are looking at though and need to wait for biopsy results which take about a week.Hope you get good news.
It’s very anxiety provoking hard to concentrate on anything else until you know.
Hi Tina. Take it that you’re at ARI for your MRI tomorrow? They were really nice with me and my BCN phoned me with my results around a week later. Hope all goes well for you and that you get your results ASAP. Will be thinkin of you Ann x x
Ahhh, so perhaps your MRI Is going ahead at Dr ***? My friends mum was treated there for bowel cancer and she’s as really happy with her treatment. X x
Wishing all of you lovely ladies all the best with your scans etc. Tina, the breast clinic at ARI is really well respected and you really are in good hands. I think I’ve guessed who your surgeon is and she has an excellent reputation. Miss S carried out my friends lumpectomy, and she was so happy with the way her boob looked post surgery. I’ve also heard that she is highly skilled at reconstruction, so if a mastectomy is required, you will be in very safe hands if you want to head in that direction. Will look back in to see how you get on. Big hugs to all Ann x x
oops!! Sorry Anna from BCC!! Dr G’s is a local hospital in Elgin, so thought it was ok as long as I didn’t mention any specific individual.
Hope all went well for you today Tina, and all the best for your results tomorrow. Know a few different people who have been treated by different surgeons, and none of them have a complaint about their treatment. So rest assured, whoever you get, I’m sure all will go well. Hugs Ann x
Not a problem Anna. Thought I was ok to mention hospitals in general, but wasn’t entirely sure. It is a funny name for an entire hospital though, so I can totally understand your concern. ?
Hello all, would gladly welcome some support and advice as my anxiety levels are sky high at the moment and I’m having trouble concentrating on anything else. I found a moveable 1cm lump under my right breast nipple last year. I panicked straight away but as it coincided with me coming off the pill, I just put it down to hormones. I was referred to the breast clinic at the Kent and Canterbury hospital and saw the specialist Breast nurse (who is fab) who wanted an ultrasound done but was confident that the lump was nothing to worry about. So I had the ultrasound with the consultant, however nothing showed up on it (event though the lump was near the surface of the skin) and he said no further action needed to be taken. Anyway, I went to the gp a few times on off and mentioned my lump each time, however they undicated that they thought it was a ‘breast mouse’. Around 5 months ago I noticed it has got a lot bigger, however I had gone back on the pill so after looking on the internet I again out it down to hormones as breast nice can grow and be affected by them.
I have health related anxiety, with one of my worries being cancer. A month or so ago the lump was playing on my mind again, so I went to the gp who examined both breasts and arm pits and had a feel of my existing lump and said it didn’t feel like a cancerous lump to him, that it felt like a large breast mouse, but that he’d refer me back to the breast clinic again for my peace of mind. A few days after I saw the gp, my underarm felt sore, I had a scratch and notice a small smooth lump that was freely moving. Well this freaked me out straight away and as a result I went and saw a GP who didn’t know me and my health anxieties and set me off even more. He said that he would refer me asap to the breast clinic as he thought my original lump felt like a breast mouse but was quite big and would prob need removing and also he thought I could have a lymph mode up under my arm. I just went into panic mode straight away and haven’t been to work since. I keep looking at the Internet and to me everything is pointing to BC. The breast nurse I saw last time called me during the week as she recognised my name from before and she said that ideally I should hace had a biopsy done before as they had never specifically diagnosed a breast mouse. I explained to her how anxious I was and my health anxieties and she managed to fit me in to her clinic last thing on Friday. She was so good and very kind with me as all I am imagining is the worst case scenarios. She confirmed that my original lump had got a lot bigger, although it feels like hardened breast tissue and does move about, however she seemed more interested In the second lump which she thinks is a swollen gland and said she is ‘concerned’ with it and the fact it has appeared within a few days. She has booked me in for a mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy for weds this week.
It is all I can think about and it is consuming my every thought, I know it’s irrational but in my mind I have BC, am imaging how it has spread everywhere and that I will only have weeks left to live. I know that I am focusing on the worse case scenario, however I just can’t see there being any other explanation. My mindset is that if it is cancer I just want to get on with fighting it and getting it out of me. I haven’t been able to go to work since finding the second lump as I keep having panic attacks and breaking down. I don’t want to leave the house and have spent my days laying on the sofa of in bed watching tv. My husband is beyond supportive and is trying to put a positive spin on everything, however I can’t seem to think about anything else. My appetite has gone and I am also having trouble sleeping. I know I have to wait, but I just want answers.
Sorry for the long message!
Sarah