Hi Fiona and girls
If I am truly honest, this has affected me a great deal. Am I to blame, could I have avoided it, will it come back if I continue enjoying a glass of wine!! When I was standing in my kitchen last night, bottle in one hand, corkscrew in the other, wondering what to do, I thought Goodness, a lot of harm has been done, doubts put in my mind that weren’t there before. I have made a lot of really close invisible friends here and what happened has spoilt that. Then I got to thinking, what about that cream cake I enjoy once a week, what about the Chinese takeaway on a Friday night. Then came the opposite, what about all the green veg, the wholegrain bread and cereal, the fruit I eat every day: lets calm down, put things into perspective and LIVE: yes, I am very emotional at the mo with my Dad’s passing, my son has been very poorly, not exaggerating, when he gets a cold or chest infection its life threatening, hubby says its far better to live and experience a life and enjoy it, be happy, than drudging through life and letting it become a chore. I too have strong opinions on this whole subject, but I hope, REALLY HOPE, that I have never been domineering or forceful to the extent that I affect any people’s lives to their detriment; the past thread did that to me and I am sure that BCC would not want that to happen again to any other person. I am just glad that we were not all in one room together as I feel that tempers would have been lost.
You are all very dear to me, if ever I come across as too forceful or closed to other opinions PLEASE tell me, we are here for one another and its important to give support.
I have had two glasses of wine, feel confident in what I am saying and love you loads. I do not want to be aggressive or pig-headed, but my son always says tell the truth, be honest and be yourself, he says I have a lot to give and a lot of love to share, but also for me not to be rude or argumentative, hope I have achieved what he tells me.
As a last little comment “did I, didn’t I” open that wine last night or not?
Love K