Hi Girls
Annie here!
Feeling a million times better! I will see if I can get antibiotics preventitivly for my weak week next course!
Getting my bloods done today in preperation for chemo tomorrow, hope they’re OK. Going for birthday lunch at LaTasca now - treat for my sis before Hairyres at 3.45!
I live in sunny Blantyre, live (happily) alone in my wee 2 up 2 down house - mortgage for which, thank god, is paid, with my 3 cats - all sibling. I was laid off on the 5th jan and dx on the 12th! I was working P/T for BeCogent working on behalf of Argos. I loved it as it was friendly, pleasanr and stress free! I can go back to work for BeCogent when I am better, but I have been contacted by a lot of agencies in the past few weeks. I only want to work p/t now, and that is surprisingly hard to find! I love life, my famly (many of whom live in Blackpool) gardening, reading, doing courses (I’m a study junkie, but have little concentration at the moment)love cimena, gigs, reading, music, socialising. I am bored out of my box at the mo., was stir crazy at the beginning but now am too pooped to want to go out. And when I do go out, get so tired and need to come home! And now I am terrified of picking something (else) up!!! Cancer seeps into just about evry aspect of your life. I was sooo determined that I was going to use this time productively. HA!
Jo, I don’t know if this’ll help, but I take crystallised ginger and yogurt coated ginger and I have not needed antirmetics! I’m so scared I’ll get the dreaded constipation - it was AWFUL when I had it. Again, majool dates help there. I get sick really easily, so expected to be barfing all day and all night. Actually, everybody expected that! But the ginger really seems to work. Hope this helps. Even ginger ale might help.
Glad you had such a good day Sharon, and all of the nasty chemo will be flooding out your system as we speak! God you have had some time of it. I am 4 courses of FEC, cannot imagine a long prolonged regime. I am counting the days. It’s great that your surgery is only a couple of weeks away. Will you be getting the recon simntanously? I have not got that far in my thinking! I didn’t even know that Mr Musa didn’t do the recon! And I thought I was well informed. One stage at a time I guess.
My ‘plan’ is chemo, surgery to remove the tumour (mast or lump - don’t know which yet) and the rest of my lymph nodes (2 out of 5 were involved), then poss more chemo followed by rads as there was node involvement. Sounds about the same as most of you guys?
Helen and Fiona, how are you guys feeling now? I don’t know how you manage with young kids - tip the hat to you ladies!! Chmeo going well. I think one can cope with chemo, listening to your body etc, and not as traumatic as i feared. It is doing it’s good stuff to the tumour that have invaded us (does anyone else feel like that, kinda like the Alien, lurking inside you, unbeknown to you?) Anyway, I view it as the ememy and the FEC as my wee soldiers going into battle. Got to expect some collateral damage in battle. It helps me to think that it’s a war already won, and everythig is mopping up.
Carol from Maggie’s Centre called and left message, but I couldn’t answer the phone - no voice. Will call today. Iw as due to see her on day they have reappointed chemp to, so my diary is all shot again. Will call to rearrange everything. Must also get booked in the LGFB session as I have lost most of my lashes so my eyes are baldy (I had long lashes before) and I look unnaturally pale!!! No idea how to make myself look healthy and natural! The infection knocked 7 shades outta me - more than the chemo!
One thing I have started to do is campaiign for better benefites for us. I have never been sick for more than a week before this, and £60.50 a week is desisory. As I own my home, I can’t get help towards anything and being ill has cost me nearly £2000 since Jan, paying bills and cost of living. Savings are all but wiped out now - benefits will increase now as I am ill for more than 3 months next week. I contacted Tom McCabe, my MSP to bring this dreadful situation to his attention - will do the same for MP and MEP. They are all in recess now - get better holidays than schoolkids. I did speak to Kathleen, McCabe’s assistant and she was gobsmacked at what I told her - like everyone, she thought people given the news and treatment we are all getting at least would not have financial concerns. She truly was shocked and NOBODY has contacted them about this situation. So I am taking it upon myslf so to do. Those who represent us have no idea how their actions/inactions repercuss upon us. Care to join me?
I love campaigning. I have never done it on behalf of myself before. But I have been treated shamefully - Fiona, from the hour long phone interview to the form they then send you out that asks the most intimate and impertinant queations to see IF you would be entitlted to £60.50 p/w, with no disablity premium (I was already disabled) under this new ESA. Our representatives don’t seem to know about this new ‘benefit’ I want to make sure that no one else goes through what I’ve been through the last 3 months. Maybe should start a thread with our tales? Even those on company sick pay will suffer financiallhy, but those who don’t have will only get what used to be called SSP and is now the cursed ESA.
I feel less helpless if I can shame those who depend on our votes.
By the way, it takes just 10 letters from constituents for a MP to take something seriously. Not many. Think I’ll also contact the red tops and the broadsheets asking those newly diagnosed with cancer for their experiences with benefits etc. At the time when we need it most, we get next to nothing. At least I have.
Comments would be welcome. I have had 2 fronts to fight - using up my hard earned savings to stave off REAL poverty - my gas/electric bills alone are £135 p/m (thank god I had a couple of grand othewise God alone knows what I would have done)and fighting this horror that ha happened to us. It’s not right and it’s not fair. I am a hard working woman who has contributed all my life to the ‘system’ and have only been off ill when recovering from my 5 hours shoulder operation - I had 6 weeks of intensive physio 1 hour twice weekly once the bones had knitted and the soft tissue damage deminished. That is why I am disabled, do not have full range of my arm nad the nerves were damaged so I have restricted use of my right hand.
Anyhow, I am of the opinion that it’s better to organise not agonise and now that I am not befevered …
Good luck to everyone.
Angela, are you sure you are ready to return to work? The folk at your work sound great, but you have JUST finished treatment after a gruelling time!
Hope to meet you all soon, hope that I never get another infection in my life!!! The past fortnight passed by in a fog of coughing, dozing, headaches, aches, I was a regular snot machine!
Love and best wished to all of you, Pauline, hope you are rid of your line - that sounds scary! Havent met anyone who has had to have one of those. You always sound so upbeat despite everything!! Must get down to Maggie’s - I loved it there but have been too poorly lately.
Must dash - tapas await, maybe will have a half of San Miguels too (had 3 half pints of Guiness on Sat and ENJOYED them)
God bless and feedback on a political campaign of behalf of us and those even more vulnerable? I’ll do the work, but backup from from my peers would be great.
Love you lots like jellytots
Annie W.