Cath are you going away or just having some time off? I hope it gives you some time to chill and that you do actually chill a bit (although you are probably planning to climb mount everest, whilst refitting the kitchen and learning a new language or something like that!)
That feels like forever re the mammogram. Have you chased yet?
I hate waiting it’s soooo awful.
Yay for the four shift count down in any case! Xx
You are not bad you just never stop! ?
Do you know what you want to say on Thursday? Is that when you’re going to talk about reduction in hours?
Time at home is nice. Make sure you do some stuff for you in addition to the haircut lol.
Yeah re mammogram, whatever you think, don’t leave it too long though as you will just end up worrying xxx
Sounds like a plan.
Also re hot flushes. It doesn’t have to be accupunture, I’m sure there’s loads of things you can try. I’m sure there will be something that works for you! I know how you feel re work. It is hard. Hope you have a good day xx
Yes all OK just shattered all this concentrating is making me really tired.
You are doing well with the running it’s the habit and persistence that’s important. Big hugs x
Hooray for weekends! So glad to have finished the week xz
Oh no!!! How frustrating! Hope you’re OK. Hope you get a response on Monday! I’ve been so lazy today.just done a bit of cooking and washing. Soooo bad. Must improve tomorrow!! Xxx
Sounds good (trying to be in bed earlier) I need to sort my sleep out too.
We met friends and their kids and went to the cinema and for dinner, it was nice. Then I can back did a bit more cleaning buy not that much lol. Hope your last week before holiday goes OK xxz
Oh no that’s so frustrating. Hopefully it will get sorted tomorrow. How are you feeling?
Work was ok I think although trying to sort the health insurance out makes me really nervous and emotional and it’s horrible talking about it to people I don’t know. And I’m panicking I can’t do the job. But apart from that all is OK lol x
Yay!!! glad it’s all OK! Can’t believe you fractured your ribs and they didn’t tell you. Ridiculous.
Nothing sorted yet. Still getting my head around the job. Company is shakier than I thought so need to start doing some stuff quickly. Nearly your holiday hooray x
Yay fingers crossed it’s a good day and goes quickly.how long are you off for? Xx
Sounds like just what you need, just get through tomorrow Eh? Xxx
Yay enjoy xxx
Wow the medal /win is a great achievement you must be so proud.
But definitely sounds mixed with everything else going on! Hope you’re OK. Xxx
Yeah you’re bound to get ill as your body slows down!! Hope you’re chilling a bit though. I’m OK thanks. Told thr lady thst works with me (who hadn’t meltdown) about the cancer stuff today. We were chatting and I thought I may as well get it over with. It’s still part of who I am. It’s difficult to explain things like why we don’t have kids etc without context. The work to do is big and I feel strangely unmotivated but I am tired so hoping to sleep tonight lol.hope you have nice things planned for your week off and the boys are all OK and sorted out now x
Yeah, you are right, it’s part of who we are, it just feels a bit much to tell people sometimes eh? Sounds like you are enjoying a bit of space to breathe. Still can’t blooming sleep! Hope you have fun (?!//) with your mum’s washing xxxx
Arhh sorting! Good luck xx
I think it’s normal to feel like this my lovely. Of course you just want to be the same as you were. And you are still the same person, it’s just the experience thst you’ve been through shifts certain things. Also as I’ve probably said lots of times, the type of treatment you’ve had is not something you just snap out of, it takes way more time than you think - and you’re still going through it, although only four to go of the nasty jabs eh? Hurrah!! That’s the other thing about keeping so busy, when you slow down, your brain catches up with pesky thoughts!! I think that it’s OK to keep pushing yourself, because otherwise you will never know what you can achieve, however if you do keep pushing yourself, you need to make sure that if you can’t quite do everything you think you should, you’re kind to yourself and don’t beat yourself up.
I had a meeting yesterday which showed that the business was a ton more shaky than I realised - so might only have 6 months not the year I thought. Hubby isn’t happy with me. Don’t know whether to just see what happens or talk to my old employera whilst they are still missing me argh xx
Hey thanks for the advised kind words I really
appreciate it. I spoke to him again today and feel a bit better. There is stuff that can be done to turn it around. So I will just see how it goes. Regardless it’s done now and I need to give it a shot.
Will just put extra away and build a buffer lol.
Have you had chance to think about any more re yours? How was your mum? Hope all is OK xxx
Sounds like you’ve done some thinking eh? I’m sure you can make it work financially if you need to. You will have more time to plan stuff like finances if you reduce your hours lol ( lots of bargain shopping!!) seriously though, maybe run the figures, it might help? Sounds like a nice chat with your mum. Hurrah it’s Friday tomorrow xx
Aw glad you’re having a nice time.
I’m having another existential meltdown about work.
Had a weird conversation with the FD today. Him and the MD are both really up and down about everything. A few things he said made me feel really nervous but I do kind of stick with the fact that I wanted a change and a challenge so I need to get on with it. Also I’m not sure his motivation for telling me stuff. And some of the things he said made me just think I’m a terrible judge of character and a bad decision maker. Also the lady I work with said she was having a bad day again today so I spent most of the day not talking to her as I didn’t want her to be upset and then I compensated by chattering on and oversharing stuff. Which then makes me hate myself as it mostly involves me telling stories where I’ve done something stupid/embarrassing to make her feel comfortable with me. Argh. The lady I booked the coaching from emailed me today to check in and I told her a bit of this and she said I need to be kind to myself. But mostly I feel like I’m rubbish and a terrible judge of people and situations and that I’ve made a silly decision that will cost me any financial security we had.