Hope you have a lovely time with your sister and your mum. That and the run sounds good.
Yeah I know re surgery. Will be over in a jiffy, I do need to work on not moaning so much and thinking before I speak! I recognise I have a real problem with hating myself but it’s always been like this. Not doing that well at improving it xxx
Yes nurse!
Hope running was good! Xx
Hey! All OK thanks. The took a big polyp out and are sending it off to be checked.
Was all OK and recovered quickly so that’s good. At least it’s over ?
How’s you? X
They have sent it off for tests. Still feeling a bit sore and spacey so think it will take a few days to be ok but as it’s easter I’m off anyway. Haven’t cone off tamoxifen I need to see what they say I think but have stopped zoladex which is nice.
A couple of weeks? Lol, at least he’s motivated, I need to do something as a kickstart and could do with someone pushing me! But do you have an idea when the side effects will reduce etc? X
Hey sorry I didn’t get a notification about this for some reason! How are you feeling now? Hope you’re better? And getting some sleep? All is OK here. Work is manic.roll on the weekend!! Xx
Oh no! You poor thing. That’s tough and you don’t need him being up and down in too of it? Do you know what’s causing it? I saw my friend who also has had breast cancer and we were comparing notes on all the things that affect you afterwards. The gift that never stops giving eh? X
He’s probably just up and down like the rest of us?
I think you’re right re treatment my policy has just been to do everything they say! Yay its friday! Hope you have a nice bank holiday planned? X
Oh no it sounds like you’ve been having a nightmare. You poor thing. Are you feeling all better now? re your hubby it feels like he’s angry about the cancer still and the only way he can voice it is directed at you. Maybe he needs to talk to someone? You can’t keep on like this, and you need to be kind to yourself my love.
You are not neglecting me, I’m here for you whenever it doesnt have to be every day! No movement on the dog but as I’m not going on about it we are getting on better, which is a nice break from feeling rubbish all the time. Results on Monday so we will see where we get to from there xxx
He sounds very up and down babe? Sorry work is rubbish. It’s not getting better is it?
Yes all OK thanks, he said it was a massive polyp so he was relieved it was benign ? but all good I just need to keep an eye out x
Wow well done you, maybe the injections are wearing off woo hoo!
Glad you’re brighter babe x
Yeah I still have those lol! I think they are worse for coming off the zoladex as my hormone levels are readjusting!
Need to have a big life decision chat with my OH, kids, job, life. Just giving it a few days as he’s been ill and is v stressed at work. Need to make a plan.x
Work is ok actually.bit more settled but not amazing. Think the change has been good for me lol x
Have you thought about trying yoga or meditation? Or even pirates, just something to help you chill?
Re our conversation I’m not sure when it is going to happen. We were having a good day and then from nowhere the dog went for me again. He went for my foot and really attacked it. Luckily I was wearing a boot so he didn’t break the skin but I’m bruised and was horribly shocked. My husband had to pull the dog off me. He said he was calling the breeder and I was so angry I said something along the lines of ‘about time too’. I’m cross with myself for letting it go so far. He said it’s all his fault. I’ve said he can think of how he can make it up to me and he just looked surprised. I just don’t know what is going on in his head. Today he said he’s really depressed and it’s like he can’t ever have anything nice and everything goes wrong and it’s all rubbish. I know that I have felt like this too from time to time. I don’t really know what to do. Also I have a stupid thing hanging over me at work (a correction on a doc that needs to be printed that I can’t amend and there is no one else as my colleague is off and I feel stupid that I can’t so it(and under pressure) urgh just feel rubbish. Sorry x
Thanks. I feel really bad about the dog too, but also I’m angry with him that I’ve asked him to sort it out and he hasn’t. He’s also miserable at work but won’t make a change because he thinks everything he does turns to rubbish. I think the dog just needs to go and then we will see what happens. Hope all is OK with you xzz
Work sounds full on. I tend to find its ok if one area is ok it’s easier to deal with another area that is tougher. When everything is tough together that’s when I find I’m on the edge.
But I’m sure I’m not aline in that. Hot flushes and lack of sleep is so rubbish. Hate them. Hope work is ok. Thanks for listening to me go on xxx
Ah thanks. Re work that sounds rubbish but I know what you mean! So he hasn’t done anything again he said the breeder was going to call him back today and it hasn’t happened and he hasn’t rang her. Before he went to sleep I said ‘are you going to call her tomorrow’ and he got really angry. It feels like the same cycle again and I dont know how to break it. The top of my foot is black and blue where the dog ragged it. I refuse to be scared in my own home anymore. I just don’t know what to do x
I told him I’d looked at other places to live last time and he just said he would move out. It’s been quite horrible but he has spoken to the breeder now and she will try and re home him or he might have to be destroyed. Feel better thst he’s finally had the discussion and hopefully we can move forward from this x
Yeah thanks for listening as ever! Now he’s actually taken a step I feel heaps better xxx
Yeah although not resolved yet!
I’m so sorry to hear that. It’s a blow every time. Hope it’s been caught early.
How are you feeling now the herceptin is finished? X
That sounds like you’re forcing yourself to be positive ar the end of maybe I’m reading too much into it.
Hope you’re OK anyway x