Tracey thank you for your posting! Yes you are right it is important to try and keep busy. I teach part time at a secondary school and I am back to work today for the last week of term. Not sure if I am physically ready, but thechallenging behaviours and the delightful antics will certainly keep me busy.
Good luck to all the Ladies waiting for the test results today. Anxious times, but you will get through it … One step at a time. I will be watching for your News. Big hugs to you all.xxxxxxxxd
Hello ladies, I didn’t sleep too well - I bet none of you did either - but I’m feeling ready to hear whatever I get told today. It’ll be so much better to have some answers and be able to make some plans if necessary. Good luck everyone, fingers crossed.
Hello again!
Bit tired now - and didn’t finish assignment - wrote half of it… (its drivel compared to what I’d normally do!). Have emailed and asked for an extention as its due in tomorrow… and I just can’t concentrate.
Anyway… just having a cup of coffee, not even very nice coffee (my tastebuds are rubbish at the mo!) - oh flipping heck… deep breath and everything will be FINE!! Why? Cos the cat has just winked at me!! 
Good luck to all of us, those I know, and those I don’t.
Am logging off now… gotta go get ready…
Good luck Lozza!
I got a call from the hospital to say my results aren’t quite ready yet and the earliest appointment they can now give me is 2.00 pm on Thursday. It’s so frustrating, I was all psyched up and ready to go. I’m going to work tomorrow and Wednesday as I’m going stir crazy at home.
Well… don’t know what made me think I was so special!! It would seem that I’ll be on this roller coaster a while longer.
Sorry I didn’t come on before - its been a wet and emotional day… Apparently I have grade 3 IDC - flipping heck am already gettting into the lingo… WLE in January - altho to be fair the surgeon did offer me christmas eve!! (I said - only if he dressed up as Santa!). then radiotherapy and tabs (providing the SLNB come back clear - otherwise Chemo). I expect you all know the treatment anyways!!
Breast care nurse **** was wonderful and I have my very own ‘Haynes’ manual! Am trying to keep hold of my sense of humour… its ran away a few times today… but hey… I was brave! (most of the time!).
Hope everyone else is okay and those that were waiting like me had good results…
It just seems so surreal… like its not happening to me… 
guess that’s normal too… 
Hi Lozza,
I’m sorry to hear the news wasn’t good. At least now you know where you stand and what you have to deal with. It sounds as if the medical staff looking after you are good. Best of luck!
Hi Lozza, sorry it was bad news. You’re almost exactly two years behind me - I was DX on 15th December 2010 (my full DX is on my profile), had my WLE and ANC on Christmas Eve and came home on Christmas Day. Not the best Christmas ever for me and my family, but I just wanted to get it out. I then had FEC-T chemo from January and then rads in June.
Two years on, I’m currently NED, back at work full time and generally getting on with life. I need to lose some weight and get fitter and I have slightly numb fingertips and a touch of chemo brain, but apart from that, life is good!
Glad you’re being so well looked after, and try to keep that sense of humour, although the humour may get a bit dark at times - it sometimes helps just to tell the cancer to f**k off 
Oh, and surreal is definitely the right word - we’ve all been there!!
Love and hugs to you,
Jane xxx
All the very best to you
Hello Lorraine,
I was hoping that got good news today but it looks like you are on the Big Dipper for a while longer. I am so pleased you have not lost your sense of humour as you are going to need that over the next few months. My BCN was also great. I was able to ring her if I didnt understand anything. When you are new to this game everything seems a bit of a blur but gradually you will see through the fog again and be a different person. You will never be the same again , you will see life in clear glasses and be able to sort out the things you really want to do.
Let us know if you need to know anything. Sending you a big bear hug tonight that you will sleep a bit better. I guess it is time to tell your children now or was you going to wait till after Christmas. It can be such an emotional time of year but you will know what is best for your family. Love Tracy xxx
Lozza I’m sorry to hear your news but loving your attitude and SOH
I am about 6 weeks ahead of you and was diagnosed the same and with the same treatment plan although you trump me on grade 3, I was/am grade 2 
I’m not as knowledgeable as the other lovely ladies on here but if there are any questions about anything to do with what happens next for you please feel free to ask or message me on here
Good luck
Funki x x x
Same stage as you when got results today Lozza. Grade 3 high grade comedo necrotic. WLE booked 2nd Jan with SLNB. Was told me this isn’t going to kill me. Radiotherapy follows (as is standard). Not so happy about that but expected it.
Thoughts still with all those others who got or are getting results. This site had me VERY well prepared for today. I’d had to wait 18 days since my 6 core biopsies. Seeing as it’s only supposed to be a week this did seem excessive but I was very clued up by today.
V
Hello ladies
please forgive me for writing collectively to you all rather than separately - I wouldn’t normally be so rude…
Well the deed is done… kids (well adults really!) now know and once the shock and tears had passed, we spent a lovely evening together eating pizza with 2nd son planning a family trip to London to a show! In fact I felt a bit of a fraud at times… then I’d suddenly remember… etc etc
Have told work… that was hard… somehow saying the words out loud makes it seem real…
Thank you everyone for you kind wishes, your hugs and your love. I will try to be positive in my outlook…and not inward looking. My work colleagues have been lovely and I have had several messages of support. I am not working tomorrow… line manager will be ringing me though… I can’t even think about work… and I’ve always been such a workaholic … guess that’s normal too. Hells bells - I’m just bloody normal!! 
In the meantime…
Toria - am so sorry to hear your news - big hugs and shared tears to you. My date will be posted to me…
Funki - am loving your name… I’d steal it for myself but that would be plaigarism!!
Tracy - Thank you - bear hug gratefully received! Am trying hard to KEEP the sense of humour going… and am relieved its out in the open now… just a few others left to tell… but the main ones are sorted and to be honest its a relief not to keep it a secret anymore.
Alto - You wouldn’t believe the VERY colourful language that has come out of my mouth!! And to think some had thought I was a lady!!
Thank you everyone for all your support… its been an emotional day to be sure!
Raising a cup of cheer to you all. xx Lozza
Hi Lorraine,
Well done on sharing the news with your grown up children. I know it was difficult for you but it would have been worse if you had kept it from them over Christmas (in my opinion) ! I can just hear my daughter shouting " Mum why didnt you tell me "
So now you are going to have a great Christmas, enjoy each others company, spend lots of quality time together and I love the idea of going to London to see a show that is great. I am off to Paris on 12th January on Eurostar with 7 other girls to celebrate one of our friends turing 60. I think it is the new 40. I am the Big 50 next November so we will have a great time.
Take good care of yourself and I will catch up with you when your treatment starts. Love Tracy xxx
Hi Tracy
Thanks for replying - so lovely to log in and see something there!
Funny old day… have had several people tell me I should have gone with the surgeon’s suggestion of having my surgery on Christmas Eve. Don’t really need to hear that… its got me doubting myself now.
Spoke to my line manager today… she wants me to go to the Awayday tomorrow which has been planned for our department. But they’ll be talking about planned stuff for the year… and I don’t feel (at the moment) I can plan anything or even think ahead… cos if I do think ahead… I just cry! Sorry - having a ‘wet’ one!! But on the upside - I told her that! I think she got it…
Might just go to bed… tomorrow is another day… it can only get better.
Lots of love Lozza xx
PS - How wonderful a trip with the girls - great fun!! Am hoping to be able to do that next summer perhaps! Weekend in Brighton Am trying to think positive… Happy Christmas lovely lady… bless you xxx
Hi Lozzaroony sorry not good news for you looks like you have a good sense of humour to me, that will keep you going but when it doesn’t just hop on line and talk to the lovely lades on this site they are an inspiration. I am new to the site not good with lingo but will give it a go I was diagnosed on 15th November 2012 with IDC had my surgery on the 7th December SW, WLE, TM and SNB post op results day today bit nerves when waiting for diagnosis the clinic was running 2 hours behind hope not like that today. No what you mean about it being surreal iv had surgery still not sunk in that iv got BC not even cried yet. Any way going for a bath and getting ready for appointment at 10.30 love to all ANN.G
Goodluck Anne, fingers crossed for Good news. I will check later for your results. Xxxxx
Hi Ann
Am thinking of you lots and so hope it goes well for you today. Big hugs xxx
Hi lozzarooney. I was dx in july following routine mamo and recall with IDC. I had a 2 week Hol booked early August then my surgeon had her holiday so I eventually has the WLE and SNB on 6th Sept. Surgeon assured my the wait would make no difference and the fact she was happy for me to wait for her holiday too was reassuring as she coud have passed me to another surgeon if needed so you shouldn’t worry if your surgeon is happy. I was lucky that there was no spread to the nodes and she got clear margins. I was offered the choice of chemo as lump was 2.5cm and as I am young (I’m 52 so chuffed to be called young) and fit and chemo would give me an extra 3% on 10 year survival rates I decided to go for it as I needed to feel i had done all i can (for the kids as much as myself) I have just had my 5th round and it definitely is doable if it is necessary.
Enjoy your Christmas - January will be here soon enough.
Jayne x
Hello Lozza,
I know that your family and friends are going to start telling you that you are very brave! BUT if you dont feel it , then tell them ! Exactly the same as you told your Line Manager about the Away Day with work. I guess it depends how the girls will treat you. Do they always rely on you to come up with ideas ? Sometimes we have to learn to say NO , and that is a difficult lesson I had to learn during my treatment as everyone expected me to still be the life and soul of the party, the office clown, the caring mother, the devoted wife and a friend to everyone.
So try and use this time to recharge your batteries and just chill. Let others do jobs around you. I had a mx so needed to rest. I could not hoover or iron for several weeks so my Mum helped me , along with hubby and daughter.
Have a relaxing time at Christmas . Love Trace xxx
Bless you Trace - your response has come at the right time! Am supposed to pop into work tomorrow… a bit nervous to be honest. Then there’s the works do on Friday - dress up - but what to wear that doesn’t show a bruised boob!! Am not feeling my best but would like to be able to have some fun and let my hair down (haha its short!!)…
Will see what tomorrow brings… hate being a wet blanket… weather probably hasn’t helped as its rained all day!!
Thank you for being my ray of sunshine! Bless you sweetheart… xx
Hi Jayne
Thank you for putting my mind at rest re me choosing not to go in on Christmas Eve - you do start to question everything… well on a bad day especially!
I’ll be better tomorrow - today was just a grey day… have painted my nails red - random posting I know lol - but it makes me feel better to look at something pretty and bright!!
My lovely daughter has offered to take me out to find an outfit for friday - love her! Guess I’m just feeling tired and old… tomorrow when I wake up I’ll be young and lovely!! haha
Thank you for taking the time to post… it is so very much appreciated.
Lozza xxx