Hi,
Lisa thank you for the translation as I have never heard of gollering and thought it was galloping!!! You see all this time we have talked I have been trying to understand a second language lol! Stop taking the micky 
I was really sorry to hear you have more rain your way today. It is windy here tonight but not much else. The dog is barking at the wind blowing his tail!! The most excitement he has had for years. I think it was sensible of him not to come out if the car is playing up and I think he will be back.Keep us posted. Are you getting to work ok? How is the cough now? Getting soaked was not the best thing for you if you are still poorly. Take care.
Bev I am really sorry that you have this big step backwards in getting your life back to normal and even more so that it is hurting. I think the plaster immobilising it is usually helpful and good luck when you go.Will it be ok about work as if it is close to a long time off I think they join them together. Your Victor is just thinking oh no I will have to do Christmas shopping and dinner!! I am sure he will settle once he gets over the shock and disappoinment for you.
Well I had such a giggle watching celebrity and the trial. I think Italian accents are so lovely, I could listen to Gino all day. I think it is quite an interesting group this time, plenty of people to annoy us. Just a quiet day so not much news really. I bought a book and picked it up quickly and thought that looks interesting. Turned out to be a book written by a terminally ill woman saying goodbye to her 4 children! It starts as they have the funeral and open their memory boxes and tells how they all feel. I didn’t read this of course but it is supposed to be very light (how?) so will see where it goes. You just know what the woman is going to have don’t you! I think I am morbidly fascinated by it and keep reading little bits. Will let you know how it goes.
Love
Lily x
Thanks Lily, its probably my paranoid state kicking in re John coming through. Im managing to get to work fine as Im on the other side, however, off to Carlisle Thursday and Friday so thinking I might get stuck in the influx of traffic on a certain roundabout, however hopefully by the weekend a temporary rail track connecting the stuck areas will help things hugely. It is amazing really, i appreciate we live in a very rural area which is small and in the sticks, but hey we know how to pull together in times of trouble. Very small thing but we have even slashed (reduced) our secret Santa from £5 to £2 so we can give the rest to tenants who need things over xmas, as obviously our tenants are in need in the first place and to see the blokes from our homeless hostels drive 40 miles to help tenants who have more than them clear their houses is an inspiration to me.
Oh on the cough front, it hasnt been as bad (maybe the wine lubricated), tend to have a few coughing session then eases off. trying not to panic and think god thoughts (albeit the diet not going well!!!).
Lily keep us posted on your book, im terrible love a good weep. have you read PS I love you? My friend is a book freak and kept it from me for a couple of years, ive read it twice now as has my best friend and we went from hysterics laughing to bawling crying within minutes - fab book.
Well night all and Lily here is a proper Cumbrian phrase for you to work out. “Asa marra as gaan yam”!!!
oh p.s. for those watching the jungle, I was in hysterics at the trial and if you watched the jungle extra to watch Joe doing it was even funnier. Must watch it tomorrow and see Kim drinking those awful drinks, did anyone watch her trial the other day with the eating ones - oh my god, well when Katie done the fish eye (I have a weak stomach) I bauked and was actually sick, then I was sick again with laughing so much at Kim wrenching - cant wait until tomorrow.
p.s. Anyone been to see the film, my sister keeper, see the DVD is out and looks like a weepy so feel it might be added to my Xmas pressie list. Anyone else have a list, I cant think what to put on mine, but my mam was amused by my request for a hat, as swore blind after Chemo I would never wear a hat again, ah how we forget (thank god).
nite all xxx
Hi all,
Lisa you sound in great spirits considering the horror of what you can see but how wonderful that people will come to each others aid it really restores the faith in human nature. Let’s hope the government also chip in support like they did for the Banks! I am sure you will see John again and good on you for becomming involved that is a massive step so well done girl! inspirational.
Lily what on earth are you doing you need to revise your reading material just typical isn’t it I did a similar thing last year when I rented out the DVD Bucket List to be confronted with two dying men one receiving the delights of chemotherapy! what was I thinking of. Sometimes we don’t help ourselves do we.
Well I spent 4 hours at the hospital yesterday to have staples removed (I didn’t even know I been stapled!) the wound re-dressed and a hard plaster cast put on it. Unfortunately I still cannot place any weight on the foot so now it is even trickier due to the weight of the cast. I am so fed up with hopping. I was asked if I wanted a christmas decoration cast but I feel so grumpy I didn’t think it appropriate so I have gone for purple! The good news was the consultant didn’t think I have any problem with my bones and doesn’t think a bone density scan is necessary so that made me feel better.
Be back soon someone at the door!
Bev x
Hi only me again, just a quick note. I had a call from the hospital today relating to the trials I took part in and CNN want to interview me. Everyone is supposed to have their 15 mins of fame I just wish mine had been for winning the lottery! still really exciting stuff that they have made such a breakthrough. I will keep you posted.
Bev x
Wow - what a lot of news - unfortunately not all good you poor luvvies. I’ve had a hectic week so have been reading but no time to post - so trying to catch up now. Sorry if I miss anyone - including the newbies - too many pages to scroll back through.
Firstly - Lisa, how awful for you and everyone around you. I think you posted a photo of Cockermouth last summer? I had no idea you are so near all this terrible weather and flooding - just hope you are OK, and the family. Your spirits seem really good so button down the paranoia You’re doing great and I think dealing with John in the right way, let’s hope things continue well.
Bev - again - how awful - I mean the leg/ankle break not your 15 minutes of fame! Tell us when that is showing and we can have a watch. So sorry about the break - it must have been so upsetting being away from home let alone missing your holiday. Hope you mend well and get some tea and sympathy!
Lily - hope everything is going well with you and the achey feet are coping with any shopping. 200 quid in Primarni, goodness they must have had to restock LOL I was in there today for a few bits and pieces but didn’t spend anywhere near as much.
To everyone else, Lorraine, Peacock, Julia - hoping you are all keeping well and the weather isn’t affecting you too much. I really thought we’d have a lot of damage here last night as the winds were so strong but all seems OK and woke up to bright sunshine - how weird!
I’m also loving The Jungle despite saying I wouldn’t be watching it this time round. I can’t stand the eating trials an ED and I sit with our eyes shut and fingers in our ears so we can’t see or hear. I’d puke like you did Lisa so know exactly how you feel. I could watch Gino all night - he’s lovely!!! I think he’s a good bet to win (so far anyway).
As to books, I steer clear of the big C being a main story line. I had a book from a friend and read about one third of it and there it appeared the Big C so I decided not to read the rest. It surrounds me all the time so I certainly don’t want to read a story about it as well! I also remember reading a book a few years back - I think it was called I don’t know how she does it - and that also had a Mum dying of BC and mentioned the list of things for her hubby to do when she’d gone - very sad (however, quite practical!!)
Thinks that it for now. YD is back for a few days until Sunday so will hopefully see her although she’s seeing boyfriend and other mates. Working in between as well - phew! As Lily guessed, trying to get as much work in as possible before Christmas.
Take care all, will catch up again, hopefully no more bad experiences for any of us.
Nicky xx
hi everyone
just a quick one, weather not been so bad here, were lucky, i do love lying in bed listening to the wind though. snuggled all up. but how them poor people are coping is hard to comprehend.
no celebrity tonight, football instead great hey!
been shopping again, brought grandaughter a doll, the best friend ones, its as big as her.
now im going to have a moan.
i cant believe it, i havnt felt up to eating lately only having soup some meals, and ive still gained 5lbs its really getting to me! i feel so bloated and tummy has niggly pains and i cant lie on it at night. waiting to see oncologist, but theyve put my appointment back a week, so its not till second week in jan. unless they change it again when they recieve scan results. its worrying me a little.
have to get the christmas decs out soon. only 1 month to go.
take care all x
Hi,
Lorraine if you are worried it might be worth phoning them and saying can you be told over the phone or get in earlier. You have to weigh up knowing but the worry of going for results with the not knowing anything worry. Did that make sense? Just seems like worry whatever!! I have the lipofil specialist in Dec, the onc in Jan and the foot man in Feb. Hmm a lot of hanging around hospitals!!Lorraine I always put on weight if I try to lose it, I think maybe we take on water to fill the gaps ha ha! Very annoying though. I am eating fruit for lunch and my stomach really doesn’t like it, haven’t weighed myself yet. As soon as I reduce my calories I get a dull headache so no incentive at all. Take care and the dolly sounds like a winner Decoration time hooray, Victor will groan!
Nicky well you are seeing YD a lot after all that worry. Does she miss home or is it the fella she can’t resist? Probably a mixture of both.Well the big spend in Primark was becasue I had him cornered and he couldn’t get away and I knew he would want to go home asap. So my last chance to have a pack horse. I am trying to be very sensible about carrying weights as I have seen so many pals get lymphoedema after carrying heavy things or repetitive movements. I think you just forget or life goes on and you have to do things if it is your job or on your own. oooh I will fight you for Gino’s attention, definitely:)Take care and enjoy having her back.
Bev hi. Please tell us if you will be on tv so I can catch you on sky.What could be better tan helping the next generation out with this rotten disease, well done.Well the book was about daughters and i didn’t look at the back just saw it was a prize winner and reviews about it making them laugh and cry. I read non-stop about cancer and research going on so it is unlikely to shock me too much. If it does I will bin it. Staples out sounds horrible, did it hurt? I hope not and the cast will help when you get used to it. Glad you didn’t pick green for the cast or dogs might think you are a tree or bush while you are standing still :)Poor you x.
Lisa yes I was hooting (thats laughing to you) about Stuart and Gino in the tube. I was also nearly sick watching Katie when the eye popped and blood ran down her face and then watching Kim. Hilarious! Well I haven’t seen that film but I read the book last year and couldn’t put it down. Not sure if I want to watch the film as they have changed the ending and the book was really gripping at the end. Why do they do that? I also have another book of hers but MD has taken it while I read the other one.I have a good feeling about John and if in doubt don’t forget all men think below the waist. If their tummy and ? are both happy, they are ecstatic ha ah.My apologies to any of that variety that might read this, just kidding Hey great idea to save money on pressies and help others.
As for your phrase does it mean ’ you like marrows if you have no yams?’
Love
Lily x
ha Lily. Phrase means (i dont use it), Hi friend, im going home!!! lol. I agree, why do they change films, love the ps I love you book but i really didnt enjoy the film, they always seem to change some of my favourite bits. Gino is lovely and roll on tomorrow when they drink those drinks, yuk!! You have a way of making me blush well sort of, dont be getting excited and getting a hat, hardly romance of the century!!!
Bev thanks for your comments. Ouch cast sounds painful but If I was going for a colour mine would be purple too, or lime!!! Hope it didnt take you too long to hop to the door. Im please your are going to be on tv, keep us posted.
Nicky, I did post a pic of Cockermouth, it is devasting for them but Workington is really feeling it with the transport issues, planning to allow to hours tomorrow to get 45 mins away but friends are allowing 2 hours to get 20mins away and cant see it improving much for a long time, even with additional temporary train line and extra buses there’s still huge detours which cant be rectified until a new bridge built, boo hoo, i never even thought about bridges collapsing with floods, used to go on the very bridges at least twice a week. Good cd’s in car I think. hope you manage to get some time off to chill at xmas you sound like a workaholic!!!
Lorraine sorry you are having a worry, really hope you can get results faster if you know what I mean and hopefully its nothing, could be allsorts of things but we do link it to the BC dont we, well I do, take care and rest and get some better food in you, maybe the soup is bloating you. Ive put a few pound back on but I do know why, need to get more off before 5th Jan when see plastic surgeon.
Well update on my not so love life - might see at weekend, depending on blasted road, if traffic eases off he might land but its up to 2 hours instead of 20mins. Its hardly a big romance and cos havent seen him since sunday it will be like starting again - dont know that much about him, need to have more personal chat rather than current day chat and very basic texts (well he is a man!!).
Well hope you all have a lovely day tomorrow, I wont be on, well at night anyhow, ive decided to stay at friends at Carlisle as have to be back there at 9.30am on Friday
Take care xx
hi everyone
thanks for all your advice re worries, giving it a little longer see if i here from oncologist, and will keep an eye on how things go.
lily
i know what you mean about putting weight on when you think of dieting, i sometimes think id be better just saying to hell with it and eating whatever i want, which coincidently im about to do, rhubarb crumble and custard, worth breaking the diet for.
keep thinking ive finished christmas shopping and then victor keeps buying more.
my mobile phones been playing up so hes lent me one, cos he sells used handsets, and i cant get used to it, keep sending stupid messages to wrong people, my friend sent me a text today, i tried replying and before i finished the predictive text it sent it, it just said urghhh, my friend thought i was dissing her text, had to explain about new phone.
lisaf
absence makes the heart grow fonder, so i hope your prepared for next time you see john lol.
nicky
enjoy visit from your daughter.x
bevvy
hope your feeling a bit better.x
peacock
hope you ok, not heard from you for a while?
take care everyone x
Hi,
well just a quicky (message that is) as been up marking late and still got a stack of tests on my desk for tomorrow yawn. Is it worth the hour of silence I get while they do it hmmm. Son’s parents evening tonight and was ok, well nothing bad and some very nice things said too. Mainly they want him to work like crazy - well if anyone knows how to bring that about please let me know:) He is very relaxed, just about horizontal but very nice
love
Lily x
hi everyone
lily what are you doing up that late. surely you can jiggle things around so you can get an early night. or dont you need any beauty sleep like the rest of us.
i know what you mean about getting boys to work harder at school. my 14 year old was doing well at maths(even though i never see him do homework)but this year he as changed teachers.(to a lady i know from our local breast cancer group)very nice she is too
but of course he doesnt like how she teaches and he is falling behind. says its no point asking her to help. so im waiting till parents night to discuss this. oh the joys of being a parent!
been back to doctors today, had terrible pain in tummy all night, hes sending me for blood tests. one good thing its putting me off food, well most of the time anyway.
just got a steak pie cooking for hubby, but
i dont fancy it.
talk more later, better rescue pie before it burns. x
Hi,
Lorraine hope this finds you feeling much better and that you did not have another bad night.Thinking of you buddy x x x x x x
I have been summoned for a swine flu jab with a letter informing me that I am immuno-compromised. Victor was laughing until I got to the next part of the letter which said anyone living with me had to have on too ha ha! Not that he worries about anything as he is really brave. Son had a letter before I did as he had pneumonia a few years ago. Thought we would go for a family outing together but they are booked up, no appointments for jabs for at least 2 weeks. The receptionist said well people keep phoning in , more and more. I rather sarcastically suggested that might be because the surgery had sent us all letters to do this!! Surely they know how many they sent out! Right speak more soon as little chap here over night
Lily x
Hi ladies
Catching up with all of your news. Believe me I’m not a workaholic (I think Lorraine said that), in fact I work less than Lily - who never complains about her hours - it’s just it interferes with my social time 
I had a course to go to on Monday which was a horrendous drive in rain, motorway and main A road so slow. It took me 2 hours for what I know is a half hour drive - so I do sympathise with the situation in Cumbria - and I only had to do it once! I don’t always catch up - although I do read the posts as I’m usually waiting for my 30 minutes (minimum) for my tablets to go down in the morning, I then rush around getting ready for work or a walk before work so don’t seem to get round to replying by the end of it all. I also avoid the PC in the evenings as my work day is spent in front of one. That’s my (long) excuse out of the way!
Sorry to hear you are not feeling good Lorraine - hope the visit to the GP will sort things out. To miss a pie - it must be painful 
Hope you pick up over the weekend and get out for a wlak if the weather’s good.
Lisa - hope you are dealing with all of the aftermath of the floods etc - that poor policeman and his family. Hope the love life isn’t affected too much by the long detours - maybe he’ll have to stay
Lily - ED has had her swine flu call up as well - she’s slightly asthmatic but nothing for me - I’m assuming I’m over the immune stuff since chemo finished 14 months ago (hooray)
Bev - hope the cast doesn’t cause too many problems - but I guess it is and will do! Literally what a pain.
Quick catch up from me. Have hardly seen YD since she came home but it was a boyfriend rather than a family visit. She seems far more settled now and that makes my life less stressful. I just get stressed about the whole transfer of money into her bank account in time for rent etc! Juggling the loans etc is doing my head in! Plus they get paid in blocks of 3 so by the time one term finishes we run out of loan money for her rent and have to use our own until we can pay ourselves back with the next instalment. I’m feeling really good at the moment and making the most of it. I felt so rubbish this time last year what with chemo ending and my rads to my ovaries I was feeling so rough and Christmas was nowhere near as good or as looked forward to for all the family. I know I live in 6 month chunks (between scans) so I’m making sure I (and the family) enjoy all the good moments, knowing it can change. With that in mind I’ll sign off, go for a walk - it’s sunny here atm, and have a good weekend - I hope all of you do as well.
Nicky xx
hi everyone
thanks for all your kind word
im off to sleep at my sisters tonight, a few problems at home, my son whos 27 moved in a while ago, and he has a few problems with drinking, hes not drinking as much, but weve had disaggrements over something and he became verbally abusive, so ive given him the lowdown. but was woke up at 7 this morning by his vomiting, of course its not drink, its food poisoning, anyway im a cruel mum, and he had to clean it up. besides that my husband is really stressed at the moment and talking to me horrid, and 14 year old as always been great, but how long before he picks up on the way people treat women here? so they can all be nasty together, im off for some peace!
people say how can they be like this, when your ill? but if you dont keep reminding them i think they chose to forget., anyway thanks for listening girlies, was going to do so much today, but cant be bothered now, think i’ll have some retail therapy before i go sis’s
take care all, have a great weekend x
Hi girls,
so sorry Lorraine to hear you are having a truly horrible time I hope your sister will give you some TLC what is the matter with the men in your life they should be supporting you not making life hard. I really hope the medical team can work out what is causing you so much discomfort. My thoughts are with you.
Nicky it sounds as if you are having a hectic but great time good to hear it hope you enjoy your walk in the sunshine I am soooo looking forward to being able to do that again. Being housebound has made me really grumpy.
Lily as always your post makes me smile thank you! and congrats on having a nice son I think that is far more important than being a whizz kid and if he is happy being relaxed then great.
Lisa hope all goes well at the next meeting keep us posted!
Well I am counting down the days I feel so frustrated and annoyingly am in pain. I felt really silly but had to go back to the hospital as I was really having panic attacks due to the plaster cast but they made me feel so much better as it is fairly common so I am not completely batty (yet) they made a slit from the top to the big toe and put straps around it so now I now loosen if off and not feel so claustrophobic, during the day things are fine but it is really ticky at night so roll on christmas! I seem to remember saying that last year too which is all a bit depressing.
Anyway enough of that hope you all have a lovely weekend and Lorraine take care.
new pic of me in wheelchair but at least the sun was shining!
love Bev xx
I’m sorry ladies its been a while since I have posted, internet connection still playing up and it is so annoying - in this day and age it is like the old fashioned dial up instead of broadband.
Anyway, hope that you all survived the awful weather that the UK has since the last week and you’ve managed to avoid the flu, cough, colds and swine flu.
Our YD has been off school all week, she was an emergency last week in casualty with awful coughing, closed up throat, difficult breathing and a fever. Swine flu is going around her school, but she was tested and the results were all clear. She is better now, although still coughing.
I saw the plastic surgeon yesterday about recon. It sounds a painful process so I have some decisions to make. Next week I have my first check up with the oncologist - last one was in Feb. I had a smear on Thurs, the gyne dr was very sympathetic and kind, although I found it pretty uncomfortable. She also checked my ovaries and said they had “gone to sleep” - what a lovely way of describing the menopause. Anyway, results of smear should be next week.
Cold and wet weather is forecast for here next week, good job we’ve got plenty of wood for the wood burner.
Sorry I haven’t read back on all the posts, I just thought I would make a quick post before it crashes again… any computer experts out there???
P xx
Hi,
well I hope you got out for your walk Nicky. Money problems are a worry but I guess preferable to the other type of worry or even worse both at the same time. Nasty bit is over so sit back and enjoy the run up to Christmas and enjoy the season and good company. Just let it all happen around you and enjoy each moment. Well I was told my immune system is bouncing and even on chemo was fine so I am not sure I am immuno-compromised but working in a school everything is coming at me every day. I had a definite swine flu in my class last week but no-one else seems to have got it from that child.You just don’t know if you have already had it and just thought it was a bad cold. Anyway they can’t fit me in so no choice about the matter unless I stamp my feet and cause a fuss and I can’t be bothered to do that.
Lorraine cyber hugs matey and hope sis gave you a big boost. Glad littlun is nice to his Mum and hope the others get out of their negative mood and support you better very soon. It is a bit soon after your low spell to have to have all this. Oh they need a good kick up the backside. Yes I would make someone of that age clear themself up, good decision. Even more cyber hugs x x x
Bev I am sorry to hear your ankle is painful and that you have had to have it opened. What happened? When will the cast come off? Are work ok about you being off as I remember that you had your hours reduced. Love the photo but not what happened to you. Take care.
Peacock very sorry to hear your daughter was so poorly and must have been a horrible worry for you. Is your French good enough to cope with hospital talk as that must have doubled the worry if you are not. Recon is a long op what type are they suggesting you have? The thought of surgery and then recovering again must be daunting as I remember you did not have it easy in the last lot.Hope my ovaries have gone to sleep too - permanently. I find out in Jan.
Lisa hope you are out with your fella
Well lots of exams to mark so have been pretty busy marking. Went out to lunch to meet some relatives, arranged to meet them at a lovely place we know. Walked in, fell down the step as it was so dark and found they had a power cut and were only serving sandwiches. It was actually warmer outside in the sun than in the pub so moved on to another town, as the whole town was in the dark. ED and fiance came in tot ea and have only just left. Their washing machine is caput so they brought a mountain over and washed and tumbled it while we enjoyed X factor and celebrity. I will be lost when those 2 programmes stop. Son is at yet another 18th and the party had a neon theme. So he has gone in a bright orange vest top of mine with a ripped t shirt over it, a pink headband and a pink whistle which he drove us bonkers blowing. Have to pick him up about midnight as a dodgy place to walk home from. Will lock myself in when I go to get him. Nothing else to report.Still reading the book and of course the woman had cancer and has now left her journal to one daughter so all the big moments are revealed from that I presume. Very odd hearing about after the event and the other side but quite reassuring so far, will continue with it for now.
Better run
Lily x
hi all, quick pop in as off to bed.
Lorraine hope you have a better night.
Nothing much happening here, spend couple days at carlisle rather than sit in traffice, picked great time to come back only stuff for 10 mins but boy going the other was was a 2 hour queue, so had no visitor due to this but supposed to be coming tomorrow, we will see!!
nite all xx
hi girlies
im still not to cheerful,(sorry)but im very grateful for all your support. back from night at sis’s couldnt really relax because i knew i was going back today and the men in my house dont acknowledge how theyve been. and im tense and headachey, im trying to get the focus back on getting more positive, but it gets to you when your nearest and dearest are behaving badly.
oh well my sisters grandson came last night and he is the little boy who recently lost his mum hes about 6, hes so lovely we were making crowns and lanterns so i suppose at least he benefited from me being there, i had to sleep with mum because he had the spare bed, first time ive shared a bed with mum for years, shes 82. i was restless all night and uncomfortable, so i bet i hit the pillow tonight.
i wish i wasnt so sensitive sometimes, either that or had made the decision to leave years ago.
anyway im sorry to have gone on,
lily
sorry your trip out was spoiled by power cut, and hope you found somewhere nice. your son sounds like hes got a sense of humour, bet he looked good. ive got lots of pics of my kids in fancy dress, even ones i made when they were small, i can remember sitting sewing them by hand, mad or what.
bevvy
i can imagine its a horrid feeling being trapped in a mound of plaster. glad they found a way to stop you panicking. i think when youve done something like that it makes you feel very vunerable.we take freedom of movement for granted at times dont we?
nicky hope you well
lisaf hope you being a good girl!
peacock nice to hear from you, at least we know your ok.
lots of love lorraine,