Hello Sandra,
Your no whimp, good luck for tommorow,
Thinking of you
Best Wishes,
Isabelle xxx
Jackie, I love to read your posts but I still get out of breathe…If you read all of my postings you will see the trick for broad band is to hoover the modem ( my son studied computer science for 7 years to tell me that one, but it worked). Only off work for 2 weeks but no driving for more, tell him you are a long distance lorry driver. Good luck for your results on Friday.
Sandra, you don’t have to be strong all the time, I can see I am going to have to bully you on this point as well as the reading of threads that frighten you.
Hugs to all
Maria
Hi Ladies
Jackie, sorry how did l miss you, must have beaten me to the post!!
Mmmm Maria knows all the tips from her well educated son (Hoover it), but hey if it works!
I think l will be ok after the first chemo, it is just that start!
No as you will see on my post, l was on the phone!
As for me weeing every where, oh don’t like the idea of that, think l will get one of those ‘turkey basters’ take the rubber end off and shove it up!! at least l will have wee that goes down the toilet! my own plastic willie! Lol!
Taken so many notes about chemo, hopefully something will work!
Isn’t that awful when they know the results and you don’t, turns me into mrs angry!
Oh for goodness sake your doc must be a man! what are they like, just put the tears on and tell him you can’t cope, wont be far wrong!!
we are all on the edge!
Isabelle, Ahhhhh Bless you, but l think l am a wimp, always thought l was fairly strong, but this has proved how wrong l was!
Maria, Where would l be without your bullying and guidance? you can be my adoptive Mum!! oh ok perhaps sister!
And if anyone else has posted while l have typed all this rubbish, sorry l have missed you
Hugs
Sandra xxx
Sandra,
you are so not a wimp. It is scary stuff but you will come through it. I had tearful days but your positive attitude will help you so much.
Had a tearful episode yesterday when I went to rads scan. Broke down when they started talking about tattoos to help them find the right place every time and I just lost it as I have always hated tattoos. Now have 3 and they are so tiny that I really don’t know why I made such a fuss but we never know when the tears will strike !!
Will be thinking of you
K x
Hi K
Well that made me laugh, because like you l have always hated tattoos, when my youngest was about 16 he wanted a tattoo, and l said no way! and now he laughs, because he say’s “Oh it’s ok for you to have a tattoo, but not me” l still wont let him and he is 33 and married with 2 children!! don’t think he really wants one, just think he winds me up now!
Thank you for your lovely words
Take care when do you start your rads?
Sandra xxx
I was really concerned about the tattoos ,my OH has some , but then he´s ex navy , thats allowed . I´ve always thought ,"How awful to be a wrinkly 80 year old woman (pray god I get there ! ) with a wizend snake around her ankle like Nora Batty´s stockings !
However Ijust ended up with some very uninteresting dots , I was quite disappointed !
I thought I only had three , and then I found another just the other week ,very strange.
Hope it went well for you Sandra ,how many rads have you got Kay ?All the best ladies ,
Kris
Hi,
start rads on Monday and have to have 20 sessions so roll on 9th July !!
Find out on 22nd June if I need to have my ovaries out as a precaution as can’t go on Tamoxifen due to having a blood disorder. Will all depend if I a menopausal or not.
Thought I would try to make you laugh again Sandra with my total panic discussion with onc at last chemo. I found a lump under my arm around the scar from the lymph node extraction just the day before my last chemo and started to panic.
Get to chemo and onc comes in and asks how I am. Told him I had very achy bones and was a bit concerned. He replied that it because of the injection to keep my white cell count up so felt a bit silly. Then I told him I had found another lump and was very concerned so he asked me to undress so he could check it out.
He had a good feel under my arm and then asked me to show him where it was so I did. He had a feel and then with a grin told me it was my rib !!! Told him I didn’t have one the other side so he replied that with them taking 24 lymph nodes out there was not as much flesh therefore skin was closer to the rib.
To say I felt a total Pr*t is an understatement but we all had a good laugh about afterwards.
So you see this really is an adventure and fun and laughter can and will be had on the way.
Will be thinking of you tomorrow Sandra.
K x
Hi all. Maria why didn’t I think of that? I have always fancied driving a HGV a big green Eddie Stobart one.Re hoovering the modem I read that before but I have to use a dongle. 3 broadband engineers had to admit defeat and the 3rd asked if I had thought of moving house. I live at the end of 2 telephone exchanges ( living on the edge as usual)so am too far away to get a signal.Also there is no cable in my road, might be a project for Sir Richard to look at.Sandra turkey baster indeed.Iv’e never tried Reiki but can recommend aromatherapy massage.I probably missed the benefits of the first as I had to race back to work and the 2nd was pure bliss. When I am able to lie on my front I will be going back for another session. Wishing you well tomorrow and keeping everything crossed with your positive spin and attitude I am sure you will be OK and the nurses really do look after you well.You certainly are not a wimp but a wise feisty lady judging from your posts.Re the tattoos I had 4 US guided ones applied before chemo as it was thought that my tumour might disappear ( we all know what thought did don’t we?)and the surgeon would still have to remove some tissue. They are just 4 very small dots, no flowers or butterflies. Now after surgery I can still see 2 of them but they are tiny and just felt like a pin prick when they were done.My daughter had a tattoo done you can see it when she bends over in her jeans ( buiders bum ) I don’t know what possessed her but she was in her late 20s then so what can you say? Kris it is the unexpected tears that get us isn’t without reason or warning. Glad having the tatts done was easy peasy in the end. Hope all goes well for everyone whatever you are having soon. Hugs Jackie
Hello Sandra,
I hope that you are ok today and that everything was easier than you were expecting.
Best Wishes
Isabelle xxx
Not wishing to boast but I got SEVEN tattoos na-na-nana-na ! But when they said they could tattoo me, I said Oh no you don’t, cos I am a wimp & what with my veins being shot I have had enough of needles, thanks very much. This was at the planning session. So they said fine, they covered the ink marks with sticky paper that had to be kept dry, & said I could change my mind at any point. Two days later I’m in for first treatment, begging them to tattoo me ! I was allergic to the sticky paper ! Anyway the tattoos hardly hurt at all & are so small I can’t even find most of them.
My daugher has a dolphin on her shoulder, a rose on her tummy, a Chinese symbol above 1 breast that she assures me means ‘writer’, but I tell her it’s probably ‘chicken fried rice’ & a Celtic design along the base of her spine that she didn’t mean to get, she only went along with s friend who was nervous & got carried away. How jealous is she now when I say ‘Course you only have 4 tattoos’.
Hi Ladies,
Kris, when the oncologist showed me on a sheet of paper how big the tattoo would be l could hardly see it! although l didn’t have my glasses on! Chemo on Friday! xxx
K, Well not quite sure you would have said l wasn’t a wimp it you had seen me at 1am this morning, had a total melt down! not quite sure why, well yes of course l know, it was because l was visiting the wig shop today, and the chemo tomorrow, so what can l expect? l wish l could get my head round it all, yes l am going to have rotten days! cannot believe how much we all live on the edge!
Oh gosh the 9th of July doesn’t seem that long away, so fingers crossed it will go quickly for you!
What happened to the days we woke and had a pain and just put it down to old age! now every ache and pain is cancer! what are we like,
Gosh you mush have been so relieved, not sure if l would have laughed or cried! It is funny now, but still a worry!! paranoid or what (me not you) Thanks you for your thoughts for tomorrow, l will take them with me! xxx
Jackie,Thank you for your good wishes, be good to get tomorrow out of the way. only 4 small dots, poor you, never goes our way does it, you would think they would give us something a little pretty or colourful, don’t they know we need to be cheered up!
At least your daughters tattoo wont show when she is ‘old’ well hopefully by the time she is in her 70’s she wont be showing her builders bum!xxx
Isabelle, Chemo on Friday! well l hope l haven’t missed it, and got the wrong day! makes me wonder if l have put Thursday somewhere on here! Thank you for your Best wishes, hope your pains are easing xxx
Well as l said to K, l had a melt down at 1am this morning, but hey ho l am back and smiling, well almost, just want tomorrow to come and go.
The youngest son of my eldest son (it does make sense) has chicken pox again! the doctor said it is because he had a mild dose it all cleared up and he is now covered from head to foot! poor little man, and now l know l am not going to be able to see him until he is clear! that is going to be very hard, l see them every few days, he already has asked if he can come to me on Saturday, obviously he cant, just want to give him a cuddle!
Well wig day did not go well, firstly l could not get the same colour as my own hair, she said if l had brown, black or blond it would be no trouble, but l have an unusual colour, sort of red with brown and in the summer it looks as though l have put highlights in. So l was not happy that l had to have something different.
Oh and the NHS wigs, while they were absolutely fine, my big problem is that l have always had a parting in my hair!! and the NHS wigs are what l think are called ‘wefted!’ so you see no parting! the private ones have a parting and again ‘l think’ are called Monofilament, so l am going to have to pay for a monofilament one because l have always had a parting, and still want one!!when l say a parting, l mean it looks like the hair is growing through the scalp! l should be so lucky!
Would you believe, when we got back from the wig shop, l thought l will have a coffee and go and take the dogs for a walk to see my mum, sat down and 3 hours later l woke! could not believe l had slept for so long, l never sleep in the day, is this a sign of things to come!!
bought lots of sweets and fruit and drink to take with me tomorrow! worse than going out with the grandchildren for the day!
l’ll be back!!
Hugs to All
Hope you are all well, and all those chemo girls are feeling not too bad!
Sandra xxx
PS, girls l wish you wouldn’t pop on here while l am posting! Hi Divvy! always one that has to have more than someone else, glad l wasn’t at school with you!!
I always laugh when they have these tattoos that are in a foreign language, someone could be having a good laugh on them!
Hope you are well? xxx
Sorry Sandra,
I’m sending your there a bit too early!!!
That is just like me jumping ahead of myself, so good luck for friday,
Best Wishes,
Isabelle xxx
Sandra…
good positive wishes to you tonight for tomorrow. You are where I was a week ago and I remember it very well.
Sorry to hear that your wig experience was not so good as you would have liked, trust you to have hair in a special colour :-)) but nothing is impossible and you will get sorted out I am sure (or maybe you will be sooo special that it won’t come out in the first place then you won’t need new hair!)(hope that makes you smile rather then be upset as it was meant to raise a smile…I’m trying…I know not much made me smile last week.
This week has been difficult but I am still here with more medications in my cupboards than Lloyds Pharmacy!!! today I started with severe heartburn, trailed to two appointments (one in the middle of the night) to relieve it and now have developed the poops!!! Knowing my luck I will be on another appointment trail in the middle of this night!!! I even prayed for a little respite whilst sat on the loo…we shall see if loo prayers are answered…if they are I shall say one for you too :-))
Ok gonna stop now before I ramble too much and you fall out with me
Best wishes you WILL be ok
Hugs Suze xxxx
Hi Ladies,
Thanks Isabelle, l never know what day it is these days! xxx
Suze, Now don’t make me paranoid, if the hair doesn’t fall out l will think the chemo is not working! Lol!
Since my melt down this morning l have been fine, just want it to come and get me now!
Although perhaps not after your week! poor you, yes pharmacist’s l am thinking of swapping my husband for my local pharmacist, he is always chatting me up! Lol, just very friendly, him not me! oh well yes and me! would be really handy to have a pharmacist on hand though! If l had heartburn, l would think l was going to have a heart attack!! it never ends! you seriously expect to have your prayers answered while you were sitting on the toilet, have you no pride woman! what a thought knickers round your ankles and expecting respite from above!
Well l hope your prayers have been answered and you heart attack has gone! and someone has put a plug in the other end!
Lots of Hugs for better days
Sandra xxx
PS. Well done for remembering suze, yes good luck with number 3 from me too Vicki, half way now! well done you, hope you are feeling ‘ok’ xxx
Vickie…hope your no.3 went well today and you are not doing bathroom duty too. Sorry to read about your blip this week, I think the days before treatment are very difficult, last week I was a wreck, this week I a just tired lol!!
Slowly I am getting my head round the SE’s and how to sort them…soo confusing about who to ring if there’s a problem as we have hospital, BC nurse, GP, district nurse and Christie’s …no wonder we get confused…not to mention the endless leaflets you need to troll through to see if your current SE is red amber or green status!!
Away for a couple of days to visit daughter in Southampton this w/e (SE’s willing)…hope your weekend is restful
Hugs Suze xx
Lol Sandra…
chatting up the pharmacist…but yes deffo a good one to have around…saves all the wondering who to call to explain your most recent effect. You could just go pick a packet off his shelf!!
My luggage for the weekend is all medication …no room for clothes.
Oh dear Heart attack!! I actually barely considered that one!!! Only because I felt like I needed a fireman to put the blaze out in my chest…yes my chest has been the topic of much concern to me thos year!!
And now you have painted the picture of me with my knickers round my ankles saying my prayers!!! It’s as if you knew lol and, no, I think my pride was removed during double lumpectomies!! I tell you I needed to pray at that point!!
Ok on that note I am going to pack my medicine bag
Hugs again Suze xx
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Hi Ladies,
Was really doing well this morning, went shopping then popped in to see my mum who hid behind the duster with her tears! at home now waiting for a friend to come with me.
A knock on the door and a 95 year old man l know, came to wish me good luck, but he left in tears as his daughter sadly died of cancer last year, and it all came back to him! what can you say, bless him, he keeps saying that he shouldn’t still be here, and so on! I tried really hard to cheer him up, not sure l succeeded, but l tried!
could have really done without both of them this morning, but there you go, feeling quietly confident!!
Gill, you are doing good, pleased to hear you have not too much sickness. I think were are bound to feel a bit shaky, so many worries about sickness and so on. would be awful if you were sick while out. I still have a problem sleeping on my ‘bad’ side, trouble is it is the side l sleep on, so if l start on my back, l usually roll over in the night and get woken up!
So in a couple of hours l will be intoxicated with my ‘Peachy Mother’ anagram! hope she is as sweet as peaches!
Speak soon!!
Hugs to everyone
Sandra xxx
I wish all you brave ladies a very good weekend , and am really keeping my fingers crossed for you all that your SE are´nt too bad .love to all ,
Kris
Hi Ladies,
Well l am back, at least l think l am!
Had my appointment at 2pm but didn’t get started until 3.30pm what a long wait, anyway got out at 5.45 so not too bad. l have booked the next one for 10.30am so hopefully they wont be too far behind and l will be seen on time!
Was on quite a high while l was having it done, but since getting home l feel a bit emotional, although not tearful! feel very tired and a bit nauseas probably psychosomatic! wish l hadn’t eaten so much today, but felt quite hungry, mostly snacks, anyway l have had lots to drink. feel as though l have a bit of a headache coming on, not sure if l can have a tablet for that, will have to look through all the paperwork they sent me home with!
They asked me if l was happy to do the immune injections myself, think l have already said they are for 10 days, starting tomorrow, seems our oncologist only started this a month ago, so l consider myself lucky, if they keep my immune system from crashing down that has to be good. I said will the district nurse come and show me how to do them, oh no she said we will give you a dvd to watch and you will be fine! talk about DIY, had a quick look at it, and it seems ok, so providing l feel alright they should be no problem!
Unless l brighten up, it will be a very early night tonight!
Hugs to one and all
Sandra xxx
PS. and for anyone else that didn’t get my ‘Peachy Mother’ which is my name for my chemotherapy it is an anagram for chemotherapy!! sure most of you got it, eh Maria? xxx