Thanks Caron for inviting me in, hi everyone, hope you don’t mind me gate crashing! Let me introduce myself.
I’m 37, married to a saint and have 3 beauutiful kids a 2 year old girl, and 2 boys aged 4 and 6, (who, by the way Gail, are both always playing with their willies too, thought that might have stopped by 6 but hey ho!) I’m extremely lucky. Life was just peachy until this Summer when i found the dreaded lump!
Saw breast surgeon who gave me all clear beginning of Aug, told me nothing to worry about, It’s a cyst,don’t loose any sleep, he said! So I didn’t, in fact quite the opposite, got pregnent instead!!! Oh joy, months of throwing up again, but hey it’s all in a good cause! not to be, then got a letter for a follow up appointment, just to check if cyst had dispurssed by itself. I must admit it was so so tiny and I am a bit squeemish so i didn’t really look for it. So to my horror it was still there so breast surgeon (diff one) said no I agree not worried about this one but as you’re here will get the nurse to stick a needle in to pop it! It was at this point that the nurse, not a surgeon said she wasn’t happy about it so could she send off a sample. This obviously came back dodge and had to have a core biopsy and needle bi-op of armpit.
lump bi-op came back as deffo cancer but armpit looked clear, so original surgeon said, don’t worry, you can continue with pregnency, lump is so small we’ll nip it out under local and take a few lymph nodes just to be sure but not expecting any probs. Preggy sickness in full swing now and starting to look fat, then came back 2 weeks later to be told, oh dear sorry didn’t achieve clear margins and found the big C in 2 of the 8 sample nodes in armpit.
Then had to terminate, which after having 2 miscarraiges (1 of which was very late) and an ectopic, i found very difficult. So 3 days after termination then had to go back into hospital to have wider excision, including removal of nipple, nice!, and rest of lymph nodes removed. Took quite a while to recover and wouldn’t let me home till drain removed.
so just started 1st of 3 X FEC/3 X T on Weds of this week with rad due after and then 5 years tomoxifen.
Lost count how much money i’ve spent on my hair, It was very long, so went shoulder length 7 weeks ago, then short Bob 3 weeks ago, and Posh Becks this afternoon, bought two wiggy’s and several headscarfs, this flammin illness is costing me a fortune! even looked into eyebrow tattoos but thought nearly £400 was taking the Wotsit a bit!
Sorry this message so long, it’s just the initial get it off my chest one, and next time I won’t waffle so much, I promise!
Thanks to everyone though for being so welcoming and supportive, guess that’s what get’s us all thru this rubbish time of our lives!
Jo XXX