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Hi Everyone

Kelly - hope your house hunting goes well. I always enjoy looking regardless of price. So sorry about your veins Ali. That is so horrible, isn’t it? I hate it when that happens, though 7 goes is an awful lot Ouch! And well done starting the Christmas shopping Mel. Expect I shall be in my usual panic at the last moment! Hope your cold gets better soon.

Had a great evening yesterday. My dear colleagues came bearing flowers and a huge book of memories for me which reduced me to tears. We had a good gossip and a laugh. It was just so nice to see them again. And the nibbles went down well, as did the wine, and no one seemed to look at any remaining dust! They liked the wig better than my old hair - cheek!

No real plans for today - expect I shall mooch out to the shops and have a quiet time generally.

Lots of love

Dilys
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Hi all,

I am quite a high at the mo! Enjoying a nice glass of rose cava right now!! House hunting went ace. We weren’t planning to put ours on the market 'til prob March 08 and so weren’t seriously looking just browsing really. Well, that was the plan…

Saw the most awesome new build and are v.v.tempted. Its the last one left on that development and if we go ahead we’ll be in by christmas!!! Seems that there’s loads of deals to be done and we’re hoping for part-ex so we don’t have the hassle of selling ours. Got someone from Wimpey valuing ours on tues so hopefully they’ll offer us a good price! It all seems to be moving really quickly but both sets of parents said ‘what are you waiting for, go for it!!!’. So watch this space, I’ll keep you posted! Life’s too short to hang around I reckon!!

Take care and love to all,

Kelly
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Hey Kelly

That sounds so exciting, go for it. So much less hassle if you can part-ex, and especially at the moment, the house market is soooo slow, you should be able to pin down a great deal. After everything you’ve been through together you deserve some excitement, and what a new start it would be too.

Hope it works out for you.

Hugs
Ali
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Hi Kelly

Oh great, good for you. That would mark a real change for you wouldn’t it? Fingers crossed for Tuesday when the valuer comes round. Is it far from where you are now? Or just a better place?

Enjoy that drink!

Love

Dilys
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Hi ladies,

the new development is literally 5 mins away from where we currently live which is ace. Really hoping the valuer comes up trumps on Tues! At the end of the day they want us to buy their new house so hopefully will offer us a sensible amount for ours or they won’t get a sale. I know we could put it on the market ourselves but that sounds like far too much hard work for my liking!!

Off for lunch shortly with friends, well just one now as her hubby has man flu so don’t want him anywhere near me!! Gonna go back to the housing development to see what my mate thinks. Will lay it on thick to the lovely ladies there about what a sh*t year we’ve had!! They are meeting with the big boss on Weds to see what awesome deal they might be able to come up with. Keep your fingers and toes crossed for us!!!

Thats about all really! Me, me, me!!! Apologies for this totally self indulgent post!

I hope you are all ok,

Take care,

Kelly
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Have a great lunch Kelly, and good luck for Tues - a nice new home - you deserve it.
A xx

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Dear Kelly

Everything crossed for you. As Andra says you so really deserve a break right now. Get on and indulge yourself!

Love you

Dilys
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Hi All,

Feeling a little low tonight. Not looking forward to seeing the consultant wednesday as everytime I see him - its always bad news! last time I found out I was HER2+
so I hate to think what he will say this time! Im waiting to find out if he will change me to Taxotere this time or will I have to go the full course of 6 x Fec. Then I got Fec no:4 The very next day (dependant on bloods) thats if dr does not change it to taxotere. OH seems to be shutting me out and spending more time by himself, he says there nothing wrong but I know otherwise, I have been with him 17yrs.

Well fed up sorry for moaning - still trying to wake up from this sh_tty nightmare! again sorry for the self pity…

better go know before I start bubblering again…

Should be ok once I had a good sleep - thats scarce again…

Love to all
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Mel
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Oh Kelly Fingers Crossed for Tuesday!

Mel
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Hi Mel

Sorry you feel rubbish. I really hope you get something positive from Cons on Weds. Be nice to come away happy for a change. I felt like every time I went it was either bad news or ‘we don’t know’…‘we’re not sure about that’…‘we’ll have to wait and see’. The last time I went to see the Consultant though I came out thinking ‘Right…we have a plan, chemo nearly done, surgery booked, Rads in Jan’…so I’m sure you won’t be that far behind me - and somehow it seems a little better.

If you do change to Taxotere, it is OK - not marvellous, but just OK. I had my 2nd on Friday, my weekend has been relatively ‘normal’ but now have the start of the aches and the sore mouth, but I know it only lasts 3-4 days, so it will pass.

Hope things with Hubby improve too, it is hard sometimes to open up I think, for them and for us - I know sometimes I just sit and mull it all over and don’t share it and I’m sure my husband does the same.

Take care of yourself.
Hope everyone else is OK and had good weekends (hopefully more sleep than us - we still have croupy kid!!!)
Hugs
Ali

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Hi All

Sorry not been on much last few days, but oh my god, did I just get bashed by a double decker bus or what!!! Had first tax on Wednesday, Thursday was OK, but since Friday feel like I have done 10 rounds with Mike Tyson. Went out on Friday to get kids out and think was bad decision really, as not felt that good since, and also from Wednesday’s knock-on effect of the kids up in the night, never caught up. Starting to feel a little more human now, although back, neck and legs still feel achy and my tongue is an alien in my mouth, and to top it all, am constipated - having to take Senna now!!! Had another 4th birthday party to tonight, can’t keep up with it all.

Mel, am so sorry not been in touch and that you are feeling really low. I do hope things pick up for you, but know what you mean about the onc, as we have only ever got bad news, but remember, it has to get better surely, and hopefully Wednesday will see things turn for you. And with the OH, I think it is a man thing, as they don’t know how to open up or face things really, I have a similar thing really, but it is hard, as we need their support and help for us to face all this crap. Let us know how you get on with Onc, not sure you really wanna start tax, worst I have felt from all 4 chemos thats for sure, but have read the first tax is the worst - I do hope so. Good luck with your bloods too.

Hope everyone else is OK too, not really got the energy to catch up with everyone individually, and off to bed in a mo, to see if can sleep better tonight. If anyone else has tests, chemo or appointments this week, wishing you all the best of luck and keeping everything crossed for you.

Take care and catch up tomorrow - hopefully be more normal tomorrow (whatever that may be).

Lots of Love
Dawn
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Hi All

Mel - hope you are feeling better and fingers crossed for good news from the onc on Wednesday. And give your OH a big hug, maybe that is what he needs. You are the same as me - I have the onc that day and hopefully the last tax on Thursday.

Dawn - if it is any comfort the first was the worst for me as well. It hasn’t been so bad this time and now I am looking at the last one. It passes, though how you can do children’s parties at the same time is beyond me!

Off to lunch with a friend shortly so more this evening. Much love to all

Dilys
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Afternoon All,

I am feeling ok crap night again - but I think that is the worry of seeing Dr Scoble on Wednesday! and again the not knowing what to expect or what happens next! I need something to aim for - does that sound stupid!!! I have to get round the idea that I may have to have 3 x FEC then 4 x Taxotere. that takes me past xmas I was hoping the chemo would be over by then!

Anyway! I hope you are all well and no worries as such! Not looking forward to the tax as it sounds awlful!.. but ho hum we just gotta get on with it!!!

OH is bugging me BIG TIME!!! anyone one to put a bid in for him I will put him on ebay!!! or just have him!!! I dont have two kids I got THREE!!! PLease help me! there is no hope with him… Bless do love him really.

listen to me self pitying again! sorry I want to be positive but it the mo I am finding it really hard…

I hope everyone is ok and this dull horible weather gets no one down.
I think I might go out and meet some mates for a coffee!

Take care
Love & hugs
mel
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Mel

Shame you don’t live here, the weather is lovely and sunny. Ooops sorry, you prob don’t wanna hear that, if you feeling low. Just off to tescos now family outing … oh what fun.

Sorry not gonna offer on your OH, as I have three kids too most of the time … although the little ones are cuter!!! LOL

Lets hope you get good news wednesday and thursday goes without a hitch too!!!

Take care
Love
Dawn
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Hi Mel, Dawn and all

Just had lunch with a dear friend and discovered all OHs can be rubbish sometimes. I thought hers was perfect but no. neither is mine. He is still out with his mates getting happier and happier (until he comes home!). Stick with women for good sense and strong love, though mine can have his moments.

Seriously though Mel, are you ok? It is a horrible time and we are all here for you. Tax is vile but it passes like everything else about this rubbish disease.

Loads of love

Dilys
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Hi,

I’m ok Just emotional and crying over every stupid thing! Even a woman phoning asking if I want Life Insurance!!! I darent tell you my reply…Anway I hope your lunch went well Dilys… OH is trying but we are both highly emotional - the build up for Wednesday! Told you I was having to good a run now I’ve hit the bottom and I dont know wether I got the bottle to climb back up!

I need a laugh… anyone got any ideas - I have already done the staring up into space in Morrisons, the car park oh the bank the other day. Im sure someone is going to section me soon…

Love to all and hope all are well.

xxxx
Mel
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Hi Everyone

Kelly, GOOD LUCK today with your house hunting and finding out if can part-ex. Makes life so much easier to do it that way. Keeping everything crossed and let us know how you get on.

Mel, so sorry you are still feeling low. Hopefully once tomorrow is out the way, you will start to feel more happier and know whats what and then get your 4th chemo out the way too on Thursday. Sure you won’t get any bad news. Last time I saw the onc in Sept, it was pretty pointless really, and didn’t tell me anything. So I was all worked up for no reason. You have definitely got the bottle, the willpower and the determination to climb back up from feeling rock bottom, and we are all here to help you on the way and keep you smiling. I promse.

Dilys hope you are good today too and not got too much planned to tire yourself out. You always sound really busy … Thanks for advice on Tax. Am feeling lots better today, although back still aching and not sleeping as soundly as I was last week yet. But got the 2nd one in two weeks and am I dreading it … but as you say, and others have, the first seems the worst, so hopefully might be slightly easier. Last one I think is on 21st November, so gives me time to recover before my daughters 4th birthday at beginning December!!!

Ali, hope you are doing well this week too, as you had your second tax last week I think … and that your little boy is a lot better now and getting over his croup!!! Let us know how you are doing and what you been up to. Have you only got one more tax to go now?

Well, this morning I had a 9am appoint to see my Doc, as got a letter saying “in order to discuss your condition and future management, please arrange an appointment to see a doctor of your choice”. Well couldn’t see the doc of my choice when I called, but saw another that I like. Got there at 8.55 (OH had both kids to take daughter to preschool), and was seen immediately. Sat down and he looked at me blankly … I said well, I need some more contraception pills (not that things like that happen right now!!! LOL) and i got a letter from you!!! Well he took my blood pressure, did my prescription, had a look on his computer at a few of the notes/results/whatever on there and then that was it!!! No, how are you feeling, how you coping, etc etc etc. Makes my blood boil - what was the blimin point of that then … waste of my time, there time and the energy and cost of sending a letter. Ah well … what can we do …

OK, well hello to everyone/anyone else I have missed off. Thinking I should do my ironing, but really can’t be arsed … and still not back to 100% … although think kids are needing some tops …

Hope everyone is well today. Probably all fallen asleep reading this dribble anyway.

Take care
Lots of Love
Dawn
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Hi All,

Thank you for you warm welcome.

Had a fab weekend, though did spend yesterday recovering.
Our friends that stayed with us for the weekend left yesterday for new zealand…permanently. It was sad to say goodbye and I am really envious of them, for two pins I could have crawled into a suitcase and stowed away. I managed to hold it together until Carolyn got back out of the car and gave me another big hug, that was it - sobbing on the doorstep, I’m really happy for them.
Mel - I can’t think of anything witty or funny to say but why are my leg hairs sooo long and my head hair sooo short. have been waiting to see if they’ll fall out too, no such luck, i will have to go and veet them it’s no good. feel a bit like a gorilla - leg wise.

Lyndsey xxx

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Hallo Everyone

Kelly - hope you get some good news on the new house today! Despite this miserable weather.

Mel - how are you my love? Feeling any better? I do hope so. It is awful when you get down, and we all do. I find there is no rhyme nor reason to it really. Sending you a huge cyberhug anyway.

Lyndsey - welcome back. So pleased you had a good weekend with your friends. Must be so hard to see people go permanently though. NZis abut as far as you can go. You must plan a visit for when you are through this lot and have some hair back. Know how you feel! I noticed on Sunday that I am getting leg hair back again but nothing anywhere useful!

Dawn I do feel for you. How many tax do you have to have all together? I feel lucky it is only three in my case, and bloods permitting, the last one is this Thursday. I can’t wait. I shall be gutted if I can’t go ahead. Feel ok though at the moment so I hope you will continueon the up as well, and the next lot won’t be so bad. Your GP reminds me so much of mine! I got called to see the nurse at our practice a week or so ago and she didn’t even know about any of this. I have quietly binned the routine blood test slip - no way at the moment!

Hi Ali - you ok?

Well, had better go and do something useful like curl up with a book and a cat! Anything rather than cart the vacuum cleaner upstairs!

Much love to all

Dilys
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Hi all

Yuk yuk yuk…have had a rubbish few days, croupy kid STILL croupy and not sleeping. Hubby and I both knackered. For the past 3 days I have had the aches and pains from Tax #2 so feeling very sorry for myself. Other school mums have been great taking and picking Emily up from school - but I feel the novelty is wearing off for her. Waiting for Dr. to phone about Thomas as he is still sounding like Darth Vader!! Also I am fuming with my sister-in-law, she keeps posting ‘updates’ on her facebook profile/blog saying how ‘Poorly Poorly Sick’ she feels and ‘When will this nightmare end’…OH FOR GOD’S SAKE- talk about drama queen…I lost the plot last night and posted her a message (a public one too so everyone could see it) saying …‘Oh well at least you haven’t been pumped full of toxic chemicals, now get your arse out of bed’. Might be the makings of a family falling out, but I am so sick of people moaning when there is nothing wrong with them.

Dawn - Dr’s are so sh*t aren’t they,what a joke. Glad you are coming back to land of living though.
Dilys - like the cat and book idea, sounds heaven - hoovering is the pits don’t bother
Lyndsey - sad about your friends, but good place to visit when you are better - be a nice treat
Kelly - good luck with your house
Mel - sorry you are still not happy bunny. I’m sure it will pass, we are all thinking of you.

Sorry if i have missed anyone out, bit spacey still!
Take care
Hugs
Ali