Hi Ladies,
Firstly l would like to apologise for my wobble yesterday, not sure what that was about! sometimes my thoughts take over my mind a bit too much! So many ladies on here going through so much more than l am, today reading through what l had written l felt quite ashamed!
Jo, Thank you for your words and your broad shoulders! l will remember them for next time! Yes more games. busy, busy. busy xxx
Aqua, l only had a wobble to see if you would come out of hiding! really pleased you are well. Thank you xxx
Eliza, Yes my emotions are certainly all over the place! Frustrating is just the word, l have always been the one to cope in the family and with friends, and then it has all gone, l feel as though l can no longer cope, and l find that really hard. I had a hospital appointment on Monday, and a friend phoned at short notice to see if l would go to a meeting with her, l said l had a hospital appointment, she said “you are the only one l would want to take, you have always been there for me” l felt as if l had let her down. she understood l had an appointment, and her meeting was a last minute meeting, but l felt bad for her. xxx (love your photo)
Maria, my friend, how many times do you have to tell me? l know, but sometimes it gets hard! feel guilty for my self pity when l read what you have been through! and many others! still got some hugs in my pocket xxx
Jayne, oh l know that feeling, when you don’t know where to turn to! that is what l mean about my panic, gets to such an extreme sometimes! really want to try and stay away from drugs at the moment, l have never liked taking tablets at the best of times!
Pleased the acupuncture and cognitive behavioural therapy have been helpful to you, l have a massage booked for friday week, so will see if that helps me, although l do feel better today, just one of those days yesterday, that we all know about. Yes l do cry and l think it helps. Keep Well Jayne always read your posts, to see how you are xxx
Mo, Sometimes it is easier to be there for others! blocks your own pain out, or at least l try to! I dont go out to work, but my husband has a shop, and l do the accounts, l have a Mum l see and shop for everyday, and to be honest by the end of the day, l have never done what l had intended, never enough hours in the day, but still my mind wanders! l have two dogs, so walk every day! so l do keep fairly busy. Thank you for your words xxx
msmolly, yes early days, l do try not to bottle it up, and i agree, time is a great healer, l am more relaxed than when l was first diagnosed, when l would wake from sleep in a panic, now l wake and can relax a lot more, so yes it is easier. The milestones are something to be treasured, well done on your 2 year dx, wonderful news xxx
Maude,I do so agree with the good cry, although l cry in front of my husband, just cant help it, and l know he would sooner l did that than cry by myself. Both my sons have left home now, and l find the eldest l ‘try’ and hide my tears from, because l know he finds it harder, although he tells me if l need a cuddle and a cry he is there. my youngest is like his Dad, would sooner l cried all over him, than by myself. So l feel lucky to have three men to blub over!
My two daughter-in-laws and my mum get upset, so l put on a brave face for them, not always easy, but l try xxx
Tracey, Just cannot imagine what it must be like to have been diagnosed with young children, and l feel so ashamed to be such a wimp, when you all have little ones.
Yes l have always said, l don’t know how l would have coped without this website, it has been a life saver at times. And yes l feel very raw at times, so pleased you are two years down the line, have a wonderful life with your 3 little ones, or not so little now! xxx
Many thanks for all your words of wisdom and support ladies
Sandra xxx
