Big hug coming your way Jane… I am feeling anxious this week too… I am
Anxious cause I need to have chemo! It does matter what we are told the anxiety continues but I take courage from some of the ladies on this site who are further along and tell us that it gets better… ?Xx
Haha… in my post it should read it DOESN’T matter what we are told…
Jane and Ann, big hugs. I feel like I am THE most anxious person in the world. My lovely consultant sat on the bed with his arm round me all the time he was talking to me today. Made me feel so much better! He has a wicked sense of humour though. I asked if the oncologist was nice (terrible fear of putting trust in new people) and he told me he was horrible with fangs and claws and everything. I though my humour was dark!!
I was told initially that I might not need chemo and I asked if I could have it anyway just to make sure. I was told,“No!” Then I found out I needed chemo and was upset. I sometimes think that I would worry no matter what and if I had no reason to worry I would make it up!
ladybowler - get a good nights kip x
Jo - I think we are the anxiety twins!
Strudel - thanks!
Hopefully I’ll post tomorrow with the first one out of the way and be badgering you all for advice !
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Scotty, definitely anxiety twins. Good luck tomorrow and please let us know how it goes. xx
Strudel, sorry you are feeling anxious. I get what you mean about going back to work. I’ve driven myself mad at home.
Charl, giggling at your wig moment ? and also your Minerva coil…wasn’t she a character in Harry Potter.
EmilyT, well done in your day at work. I contacted my boss today to see whether I should do a bit of work during treatment and she told me to stay off and treat it like a ‘mid-career Subaru all!’ Made me feel a bit better about the work/not work anxiety.
Helena, hope you have a restful evening and a good night’s sleep.
I’m doing a little bit of gin teasing with my 18 yo daughter as a treat. xx
Well plucked up the courage to ring work as my sick note runs out on 6th and was due back for a shift on 8th (don’t see the consultant until the 10th for diagnosis confirmation!) so thought what’s the point in going back for 2 shifts then potentially off again - they were SO lovely and totally understand and already have my shifts covered for the next 6 weeks! I do plan on going back depending on treatment plan in between but another worry ticked off 
Now where’s that glass of rose? ??
AnnCann - big hugs, I’ve got to have chemo, but have cheered myself up looking online for all the beautiful scarves and hats I’m going to buy.
Charl - hahaha, love your wig adventure, I can see why you and Strudel get on, she’s nuts as well ??
Scotty, that’s how I want to be before my chemo. I’m not worried about my hair, eyebrows etc, just about being sick. I’m a wuss when I’m sick. I hope it all goes well for you.
Jane - I was told that I would have to have chemo from my first meeting, then as my results turned out to be a lot better, I was worried that the weren’t going to give it to me. But, they were always going to give it to me as my cancer was aggressive. Now, I’m jealous of the ladies that have the onco testing and you, who don’t have to have it. While I was there the surgeon told me I was cancer free and then in the next breath told me that if it comes back they will just cut it out again (not sure if I felt that was reassuring or not - still absorbing that one) I have moved over and there’s plenty of room in my kryptonite pants for you. Sending you huge big hugs.
Emily - that’s what I’m a bit worried about on Monday when I go back to work - how tired I will be. But I am looking forward to returning as I love my job. I will try and upload a picture of Lincoln. As usual, your stories are brill, that one brought a big smile to my face ?? Don’t you worry about chemo, I get travel sick, coach sick, vertigo, car sick (sometimes when I’m driving myself) I was sick whilst pregnant, I got sick from the anesthetic and the morphine, so we will manage together - I also want to be able to swap scarf tips ?
Helena - it sounds like you are getting sore. I hope the Hello Vera works and that you have a good nights rest. A big huggle for you tonight my lovely friend. 
Jo - have a lovely night with your daughter.
Strudel - huge big hugs for you, I’m bored at home as well. I hope you feel better once you’ve chatted to your BCN.
EM 67 aka Emma, are you o.k, we haven’t heard from you for a couple of days?
Hugs go and love to everyone.
Susan
Aaaagh - I posted before I was finished.
Alex, that’s great news that you don’t have to go back to work yet. Enjoy your Rose.
Zena - take all the help you can get, in fact, play on it ??? have a lovely evening.
In readiness for me becoming as bald as my lovely OH, I have started to look at scarves etc. As the least girly girl known to man these look bloody complicated. I can just about manage to put my hair up in a towel! I might need lesson and tips from the fashionistas among you - or just stick to a beanie until May!!
And sick on the train and also on planes.
The one place I don’t get sick on is the boat or in sea - how weird is that!
I’m just going to ask them for all the anti sickness pills there are ??
I’ve already ordered a black sleeping cap in cotton and a purple and a black head scarf. ??
Scotty - I am the least girlie female on this planet- I don’t even own a dress or a skirt, but I do have waist length black curly hair which I tie up in a big bun. So I am looking how to tie a scarf with a bit of height and a bit down my neck. I’ve had to watch videos on line ??
If it’s available ladies you all should ask to be referred to ‘Look Good Feel Better’. I’m not sure if it’s national but I’ve been told it’s lovely and you get loads of free expensive makeup! Got to be some perks right? Xx
Charl - the nearest one to me is at a Maggies centre miles away so you’ll have to give group tutorials!!
Also live in jeans. You could set up a group Skype lessom on how to tie a scarf! I think the Youtube hits will be rocketing soon. I’ve been looking at anna bandana as they seem quite cheap - any other good sites out there?
Hahaha - it’s normally when I’m making the car drift round corners - I wish ???
Scotty - I’ve been looking at Amazon - the scarves are quite cheap and my sleeping hat is about £7.00, I intend to wear this under my scarf as added protection. This means, hopefully, that it doesn’t matter what material the scarf is, because to top it all off I get eczema and suffer from psoriasis on my head.
Honestly, I was not top of the list when they were making the perfect human being. ???
Jo C I’m not even sure I can blame predictive text for Minerva ?.
Scotty I haven’t been on the course yet, hoping to get on it before I lose my eyebrows (next round I think) but I’ve heard really good things about it from others.
I have used a few headscarf tutorials on internet. I’ll try to put a link on but mostly I have used hats. I got a few from the place that suppplied my wig but also have bought some good ones off Amazon. Look for ones made from bamboo - they are really comfortable. I have been using them mostly and then sometimes brightening them up by wrapping a scarf around them.
On nights out I’ve worn my wig. Can’t be bothered in the daytime though. (Unless of course random carpet men turn up!)
Big hug to all you ladies. Stay strong and positive ?? x
Hi ladybowler yep will be having 20 sessions 15 and 5 boosters x
My beautifully, ugly Lincoln. On the back of the boat, in the office with me (he comes to work with me) and with my daughter, so you can see the size of him.
Aww cool Jane…I’ve got my first appt at rosemere cancer unit at Preston hospital on Friday…she did tell me about the tattoos…may get a proper one on my a foot too lol