Good luck. It will be over soon however horrible it is. Reward yourself for going and looking after your health as well as you can. We are only human and it is ok to be afraid.
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I did it! I almost didnāt think I would when my anxiety peaked in the waiting room then when they called me in I felt my legs werenāt my own! But I got through it, extra numbing because I donāt numb easily apparently! And definitely the worse thing is the initial squash and holding still. My head went very weird after though - I used the bathroom before I left, did a kind of Chandler Bing dance and singing, āIām done!ā then sat on the toilet and did a little cry! Thank you so much everyone for all your supportive words and encouragement. Iām honestly not sure I could have got through it without you all 
@littlemy1 well done you! Seriously. Whatever happens now, just know that this is probably about as stressy as it can get. If you can do this, you can do ANYTHING.
I hope you are taking time out to be rightfully proud of yourself because you ought to. XXX
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Thank you 
my biggest challenge at the moment is keeping my one cat from making biscuits on my chest! Iāve been lazy and a bit sorry for myself today but feeling proud of myself too 
I was suprised they didnāt give me an aftercare sheet though. I know itās easy enough to Google but I did expect that (never got my glass of wine either - I took a nap that lasted hours and woke up past midnight!)
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@littlemy1 I think you can have that glass of wine tonight then. x
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Hi all tomorrow is results day and the week has been a stressy one but itās off the charts this morning. Any tips for minimising stress in this next 24 hours? It feels unbearable and unfortunately with my partner in the middle of a manic/mixed episode itās anything but calm here, so instead of supported I feel like everythingās closing in a bit.
I live with someone who has bipolar so I know it can be very hard not to take on their mood disorder as well as dealing with your own feelings.
I donāt have any sensible advice but I take to eating a lot of ice cream, hiding in a room I do not let him into, and reading a lot. Plus writing and reading messages on Breast Cancer Care which help me get a different perspective on my problems.
Yesterday I went on a long and muddy walk on my own which really exercised me and I went up hills and down hills so I viewed my own village from lots of other angles.
I have been known to go on my own to films, bars, tea shops, on buses etc. I do not want to be joined at the hip to anyone. Itās important to put yourself first.
You didnāt cause his illness, you canāt cure it and you canāt control it. I learnt this from AA as my partner is an alcoholic but not drinking now. Thatās a relief in itself.
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Get outside if you can @littlemy1 fresh air and a bit of a brush with nature will help. Sending you love and strength for tomorrow. xxx
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Hi. Sorry for the lateness. You have probably had your biopsy
now, and the though of if it always worse than the procedure. I have now
had 3 for microcalifications, not had a normal mammogram yet! Butā¦ all
3 have come back negative, as do the majority for califications. They just
have no way of checking them so have to do the biopsy. The wait is always
the worst and it is so natural to be totally scared. Big hug and good luck xx
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I went for my results today. Had my bestie with me, bracing myself. Iāve now been told that my results are indeterminate and have to have a vacuum assisted biopsy (and if thatās not sufficient then surgical option). Theyāre concerned because while the samples they got were ok, the area of microcalcifications is quite large (3cm) which the consultant said was on the slightly more worrisome (4?) side of indeterminate based on area size. My head is in the shed now because despite googling non stop (I know - stupid!) I hadnāt paid much attention to indeterminate and certainly hadnāt considered this would be me. At the time of my biopsy the radiologist took quite a few samples to prevent me needing more testing! I guess they do what they think is right. All that digging around and now I have round 2 and the worst bit - waiting for results part 2 
who said Monday night wasnāt a good night to drink wine?!
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Welcome to the Forums dear kim5. Annoying to have so many biopsies but good they were all clear.
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Thank you I agree the worst is the thought of it. Far more anxious in the waiting room than on the table (not that that part is fun obviously) but everyoneās been right about that
Sorry got so caught up with everything didnāt reply here. Iām sorry youāve had to deal with this too. Addiction issues with my OH too. So often they go hand in hand.
Sorry you are going to have more tests. I have only just seen and read your recent post properly. I have been running round in my usual headless chicken setting.
The diagnostic teams are as thorough as they can be because they do not want to miss anything. I think thatās good but it raises the risk of worrying patients. Worry will not kill you thank goodness but it is awful to experience. Try and keep busy and see friends, a film, distract yourself from brooding.
Keep in touch. I shall be hoping for a great outcome for you.
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Thank you I do wonder why they maybe didnāt do this kind of biopsy in the first place given what they said about the size. But I do trust them 
scheduled in for next Tuesday now. Iām going to have bruising on bruising 
I am going to try and distract myself this time though - I was rubbish at it last time!
I am not expecting you to look forward to the next appointment but if you can survive one trauma I think you will come through this one alive. Maybe not with flying colours but as good as it gets. I had the odd laugh at the absurdity of it all.
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I did joke to them last week as I was lying there being poked around at and they would randomly ask if I was ok and I said yes no problem Iāll have another one next week! Jokes on me there ha ha!
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Hi all I had my vacuum assisted biopsy yesterday and it was definitely less fun that the core. They had to top me up with that much of the adrenaline based anaesthetic and I was close to fainting. But I kept telling them, I donāt care, Iām fine if you want to take more samples so I donāt have to go through this again! They only took 5 which I understand is less than usual but when I googled it says that could be acceptable if they are x-raying throughout, which they were. Feeling very sore and sorry for myself today. I was also really downhearted when they said results can take longer for a VAB. I hope everyone is ok, sorry I just needed this space today as Iām feeling a bit emotional 
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No apologies required. It sounds like an ordeal so well done for going through another part of the assault course and swinging away battled but unbowed.
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Hi all, sorry Iām making this thread never ending, my brain is just exploding a little today. I hadnāt realised how niaive (or uninformed) I was. I thought it was a case of core biopsy didnāt get enough for a diagnosis so vacuum biopsy was conclusive - a yes or no answer. I didnāt realise that might not be the case. I was wondering why they wouldnāt pin down an appointment for results from the VAB till after the MDT meeting this coming Monday and then they tell me when I chase that itās because they donāt know what type of appointment that will be. Itās hard not to Google when they are a bit vague. So of course I have. Now I just really donāt know what to expect but at least if I had an appointment, a time, to speak about it that would help drain some of the adrenaline out of me. Whatever is coming is coming but just waiting for it and not knowing when the call will come is pushing my anxiety over the edge, like Iām dangling off a cliff but the dangler has left me on a hook and gone on holiday leaving me there. Itās that sort of anxiety that is consuming me entirely. Sorry, I donāt mean to waffle on Iām just really feeling it at the moment. It feels like never ending to get an answer. Knowing I may not still on Monday has come out of left field for me and itās all I can think about