Hi @littlemy1 i totally sympathise with you and your anxiety etc, its is hell! Did they say how long you would wait for your results? I had to wait 2.5 weeks from my 2nd biopsies but had already been waiting for over a month from my first ones, if was bloody awful. I dont know why they couldnt tell me after the first one as they knew then! They have to discuss your results at the mdt meeting which delays it even longer. i received an appointment letter via text a day or 2 after the mdt meeting but with any luck you might just get a phone call, seems each trust do it differently. I have had to contact talking therapies and my doctor has given me some tablets as im not coping with my diagnosis and treatment, so reach out to your gp as they can help support in many ways. Keeping my fingers crossed for you x
Itās totally sh!te waiting for those results. In many ways it is still the worst part for me. I think many would agree.
Why donāt you give your BCN a ring? Even if she canāt tell you anything, a chat with her might reassure you temporarily.
While it is horrible, they want to be thorough. Whatever news you get, it will have been properly assessed so you get the right diagnosis be that a positive or negative result.
Keeping fingers crossed for you my love, and this is the perfect place to vent in the meantime. x
Thank you @Jaygo and @catlover2 
you know what I was like, who can I talk to to make me feel better and where people get it and thatās right here. I managed to calm my anxiety a bit at last tonight but then it shoots back up again! I def think a trip to the GP might be a good call. Itās all whirring round in my brain like the whirring vacuum thing. And that age old thing that helps, a nice relaxing bath and youāre staring down at a bruised boob and itās hard to get the focus back to relaxing. I was reading about how bad psychologically the waiting period affects you. Itās brutal.
I have never played so much Scrabble on my phone, watched so much Netflix, done so many puzzles or read so many books as I have since October. Anything to divert my brain from cancer.
It worked for me, as did this lovely forum. Another thing that helped was to journal stuff. It helped me get the thoughts out of my head and body. Recording not just the worries, but also the moments of feeling proud of myself for coping or succeeding at something.
Keep going, keep strong, and when you canāt be strong, come here. xxx
Yes honestly, the docs gave me a long appt where i just cried my eyes out, said things i didnt want to say to my family and actually felt abit better for it. You go up and down like a rollercoaster constantly so if the doc can give u something to help/or offer that extra support even if u dont need to use it at first its worth a try. X
Oh I think weāre kindred spirits with the Netflix and journally 
I have a diary on my phone that is usually just me ranting about stuff. I hadnāt done some proper pen to paper journaling for years till all this - then I started one and am 2 pages from filling the book! I must try Scrabble too. Feeling proud of yourself should be at the top of your list for sure. Knowing there is support on here is so lovely. Thereās good and bad on the internet - hereās the good with a cherry on top 
@littlemy1 I love that weāre good with the cherry on top here. I read my journal back the other night/early hours and howled laughing at just how guttural I am. I havenāt held back which is really therapeutic, but some bits are hilarious.
Maybe we all have a book to publish on this eh? Enjoy the Scrabble. I love it. x
Me and my husband now play scrabble
every night. Unfortunately he has started beating me - at Scrabble that is. He keeps selecting s rather than q and x and is a bugger for getting triple word scores in two directions.
So beware the smartarse spouse
Seagulls
That tickled my funny bone. Boo to your husband for not letting you win, the rotter!
hey lovely ladies well Iām not sure where my headās at right now. I spoke with my consultant today. Result of the MDT meeting - they were not happy with the results from the VAB. She says it wasnāt a good biopsy (from what I remember at the time it was ātechnically difficultā one) and not closer to a diagnosis. She doesnāt want to go straight for an excision because of the size and doesnāt want to cut away without diagnosis. She mentioned distorted cells which had been brought up after my core biopsy but I was too spaced to be paying full attention. So they want to do another VAB this time targeted with ultrasound. Not sure what I was expecting today but this was not it. Iād had an early call from the nurse to say the consultant would ring me after the clinic and I waited starting at my phone like anxiety was my middle name! She said there is still no way to know if this is malignant or benign and this is the best next step. I tried to remeber to ask all I could think of but she said I could call the team any time with questions or if I was āhaving a wobbleā. The weirdest thing is Iāve spent all my time since then instead of thinking just aaah what the heck now but just thinking how lovely my consultant actually is (and more supportive in a couple of conversations than some of my ābest friendsā have been to be honest!) Think I just have the old head whirl again! This is such a roller coaster
Iāve got one of those 
although it constantly amazes me how much he knows about the most random of things!
I feel like that would be a darn good book!