It’s good that they are going to see you . Totally understand that you must be feeling miserable and I’m hoping it helps just writing it down and I know you are trying not to upset others but if you do have a good sensible friend that you can tell how you really feel and let go a bit with then it might help you . I unloaded on my poor hairdresser about the worry I’m currently having over my vision yesterday .It made me feel a lot better - admittedly I felt bad about it but she said she’s used to it. @noots has a point about the counselling as well I’m lucky in that we are offered assistance via work and I did ring the helpline a couple of times .
Sending love xx