Angela Carole good to hear from you both Carole i had a bone scan for same thing was all clear must be quite common rib pain my onc said its off rads still get shooting pains under arm and in boob having an endoscopy in a couple of weeks plagued with tge indegestion etc since chemo started but thry feel its unrelated but needs investigating im hoping everything is ok with that interesting about the gastro resistant asprin apparently there is a trial for TN called add asprin but my onc won’t let me take part due to my stomach issues i really wanted to do it too as i have no other drugs to take just have to hope everything worked well i may try those asprin anyway I’ve othing to lose!! Does anyone find they get conflicting info from different professionals, my onc told me slightly different outcomes to surgeon he said i was over 50 % in my favour not to get a recurrence yet surgeon said 80% in my favour quite a drop it really at first it shook me up and thought its this stupid bloody TN status, not what i wanted to hear at my follow up sent my anxiety levels through the roof, although he did say after 3 years the odds keep getting higher then after 5 year’s its very good odds!!! Just starting to feel ok again, So im bloody pleased there’s no breast related apps till my mammo which is soon ? I hope your diep reconstruction is ok you both Angela that is a bit of a ? having to put weight on isn’t it!! You already have both already been through the ringer so its a shame you have to wait for surgery but im sure you will love your new boob
Tatanya missa and everyone hope you are all good sending you ? bye for now girls i will def enjoy Bamburgh xxx
Hi Mishy
Just those got I’d let you know I had an endoscopy a couple of years ago for really bad indigestion and chest pain/upper abdominal pains. I’d been very stressed because of another medical issue and taking ibuprofen for it. I didn’t feel or know anything about endoscopy. I opted for throat spray and tranquilising drug. Mine was diagnosed as gastritis. Took omeprazole, lansoprazole and ranitidine for ages and changed diet and it eventually got better. No alcohol for a year or so because it made it much worse. I still have to be careful with diet and alcohol and can’t take anti inflammatories, but otherwise ok now.
You will probably find yours is also down to stress and possibly taking NSAIDs.
Thanks for the heads up on that Carole i suppose stress would make total sense given what we have all been through!!! Im pleased its not painful procedure!!!
Yeah Carole, I agree it’s probably impossible to ever feel like we did pre cancer. Sometimes I almost feel like I’m pretending things are normal. Everyone around me seems to think everything’s normal again. I try to keep any anxiety to myself.
Michelle, I’m with you on the memory loss. I’ve still got chemo brain. Starting to think this is the new normal. Also have aches and pains since treatment finished. I couldn’t get to the end of the hokey cokey with my grandson the other day I was absolutely knackered. I’m 43 and feel old.
It’s my sort of cancerversary today. The day I was told my boob and lymph nodes looked highly suspicious but that I was in safe hands. ?
Also the 2 year anniversary of the day my dad just dropped down dead at 69.
The family are all going out for a meal tonight. I’m going to try my best not to get drunk and cry. X
P.s. forgot to add; Michelle, I know it’s easier said than done, but I chose to ignore statistics. I once put my stats into the nhs predict tool. Off the top of my head it gave me just over a 60% chance of being around in ten years. That’s just not good enough for me. Unless I get hit by a bus I’ll bloody well be here.
None of these stats take into account things like age, general health, over all wellbeing and a millions others things that make us all unique. X
Ah Angela bless you i know how you feel re your dad anniversarys and significant dates do get to us im like you try to hide anxiety from others then certain apps or dates trigger it on the whole i keep it under wraps the aches and pains must be something we all get after this you are young Angela so don’t blame you for feeling like that im slightly older at nearly 47 but feeling like an old lady sometimes its my sons 21st next wed a year to the day i was at one stop clinic biopsy scans and being told sorry it looks suspicious try not to think about it til results back i remember walking iut with ive got cancer in my head then pretending i had been to town after work xx Angela i hope you can enjoy your meal if you need to cry, have a cry you are bound to feel it today sending you my ?
Thanks Michelle. I think it’s just an emotional time. I’ve just cried imagining you pretending you’d been to the town while having the cancer monster at your door.
If I cry tonight I think some of it will be relief. It seems absolutely crazy that a year has passed and we’ve been through so much. I suppose we were off our heads for quite a bit of it, so no wonder it went quickly. ?
And my dad wouldn’t want me being morose either. X
It will be Angela you seem like me the one who holds it together and always strong and there for everyone… But we are still human with feelings and sometimes we need a little TLC!!! Take care and speak soon xxx
It will be Angela you seem like me the one who holds it together and always strong and there for everyone… But we are still human with feelings and sometimes we need a little TLC!!! Take care and speak soon xxx
Pressed the wrong button and posted before I’d finished!
Angela and Mishy, you both should give yourselves a big hug for coming so far and for putting so much of your precious energy into caring for others, bless you. Anniversaries, scans etc are always a hard time. And yes, you’re allowed to cry and to still be scared sometimes! You can never go back to life as it was BC (before cancer!), but in many ways it will be better, and you will definitely appreciate the good things more.
I had 15 years before my recurrence (which was nearly a year ago and to quote the great Elton John, I’m still standing!), and I can honestly say that I lived in a different way and got more out of my life than I would’ve done pre cancer. Because I finally grasped how precious life is. Not that I was living some kind of perfect happy life, but I had more courage to do the important things and not take anything for granted.
You are two very brave ladies, like so many others on here, and you’ll keep on coming through!
And now please let’s have some proper spring weather, it’s what we all need.???
Hi tatyana.
It’s lovey to hear from you. What a great post.
You’re absolutely right, that in some ways things will be better. They are. The good things in my life are in technicolour now and the rubbish things barley get a thought. I still get moments where I’m terrified, but not very often.
How are you? Xxx
Hi Angela, sorry for late reply, only just seen yours as I’m not on here so much at the moment. I’m doing ok, not sure yet whether the new chemo is working but I’m feeling quite well on it so that’s good! So glad to hear you are not feeling the fear too often now. I love what you said about things being in technicolour. There’s some lovely technicolour sunshine outside my window just now! xx
Tatanya lovely to hear from you i hope the treatment is doing its stuff but glad to hear that you are doing ok your last post was very heartfelt and inspiring thank you x ladies hi just checking in hope you are well Angela hope you enjoyed your family celebrations my own were good last week sons 21st first time in a long time i felt so happy it was lovely to get all the family together really enjoyed my time at Seahouses and Bamburgh it was just what the doctor ordered went for long beach walks relaxed and just enjoyed being there its a place we like to visit x
