Hi MJK good to hear from you. ?
Sorry to share something yucky but 6 and a half weeks on an the scab has finally gone from my heart scar. I am all healed up and everything is smooth. He really did do an amazing job. I was expecting to look like a Cornish pasty from collar bone to belly button but it is very neat and quite easy to hide if a choose to.
I just have a tiny white stitch poking out at the top. I hope it disappears. Mum keeps threatening to pull it with tweezers ?
Making the most of this afternoon … back to hospital tomorrow morning for blood test and heart scan!!!
Misyangel I managed to remove it today! Yay! It was like soft cotton. Not like the fishing line in my boob at all. Did not like the idea of something absorbent dangling out of my skin. Was worried about infection.
All gone!
Treehouse very happy you got that stich out no bother ???
shi xx
Pleased to hear you are feeling better today Andi sometimes a distraction is just what we need isn’t it!!
Jay good luck for heart scan today treehouse glad you got that stitch sorted
Going paint shopping this morning then a visit from my nephew who lives in Spain haven’t seen him in 2 years so looking forward to it xx
I feel like I i am i no man’s land territory atm need to get over recur anxiety with ny TN ststus that is it for me ? what now??!!!
Have to keep my busy as my mind wanders to this when i have nothing to focus on surely this can’t be normal i hope not!!!
Mishy have a great time with your nephew ???shi xx
Thanks ladies for your thoughts - blood test first and heart scan second - all done!
Remembered advice from chemo days re blood test, tight sleeve - couple pints of water an hour before and lots of hand clenching - excellent result - vein found straight away, needle in and blood out - all done in 2 minutes!
Heart scan - had to wait 15 mins before she could access my records but then once called in all done and back out in 10 minutes! Heart was found - hubby was not happy as he couldn’t see his name etched on it…! Got home to find next appointment in the post for 3 April!
That’s it now til 13 February - onc review.
So not very proud of myself but had a complete meltdown at work re holidays again. Manager confirmed no hols for me at Easter or May half term. I said that wasnt good enough, how much stress they are causing, burst in to tears and walked out to another office. My boss (male) just left me to it, gone to a meeting on the train in Wakefield and wouldn’t be back today. He is also on hols (!) all of next week. Just heard on news East Coast trains have been delayed at Newark all day because to fatality on track. That is sad that someone was so alone and down that that was the only way to deal with it. My boss has been stuck on the train since 10am. I dont feel at all sorry for my boss, the other person I do.
Looked at my contract and I can go on full pay sick after 17 March as have to wait a year from 1st day of long term sick. Husband suggested I dont take hols and request all 7 weeks off in one go over summer or every Weds until I have used my hols. They have to agree to something.
Oh well hope you are all well and enjoy the weekend.
Heather
Heather big hug. I understand your frustration and your feelings after you reacted. I think ( correct me if I got it wrong) but there are 2 things going on here ( at least there would be in my head)
1 . We have been through so much sh*t that we have different priorities and want to live a better happier life with our family- every moment ( holiday) counts.
2. Control. We have had so little control over our life over the last 9 months that when we are told what we can / can’t do we don’t like it!!!
( I am struggling not driving and being at the mercy of husband and mum) I love and appreciate them but I have very little control over my life and now and again it gets to me. I just switch off which is how I coped in hospital- not sure it is healthy.
I have spent the evening making a last minute job application for an admin job at my son’s school. Closing date is Monday 9am. It is less hours, less money but term time only so no holiday issues. I must be mad, but hoping PIP may make the difference in finances for a year. Fingers crossed for PIP and a new job!!
Oh Andi, hope I wasn’t being too harsh but glad you are feeling better and more positive. I know you’ve had a really tough year. Got everything crossed for you for results day , good that you didn’t have any nodes involved and now you’ve had mx it will hopefully be onwards and upwards.
I’m quite a practical person and tend not to dwell on things too much by keeping busy but I’m not always sure it’s the best way to be as I also shut a lot of the emotion off. I worry that it might all catch up with me eventually
It’s a great idea to plan for your year off and start thinking of more enjoyable things. I’ve loved the past few weeks of finally feeling well and able to exercise, lunch/ dinner with friends, shopping and meeting up for coffee. I only have another week before my return to work.
I phoned my boss to explain about going on Cape and he was amazing. Just said come in next Weds and we’ll put together a plan for the next six months working round what might be my worst days and including lots of working from home and shorter days.
Treated myself to a FitBit Alta HR, will see how well I actually sleep compared to how I think I sleep.I even set it up myself, no IT assistance required.
H
Evening ladies, just to say I won’t be on here for a couple of days as I’m off to London for the weekend! More birthday celebrations…! However, I do wish you all a happy and healthy weekend of doing lots of fun (but not naughty!) things!
Take care xx
Hi h, sorry you’ve been put in the position you have. I think you should go and have a free half hour with an employment lawyer as it’s looking like a crafty constructive dismissal for a few of you, are there redundancies on the horizon and their are being unreasonable bar stewards hoping that people leave rather than pay them off? Take a copy of your contact to the lawyer and tell him what’s going on and then let him find a hole in your contract, then request a meeting with hr. write down a big list of dates and any meetings you’ve had since diagnosis and who was there and what was said before you meet her, they will know you mean business and all you need to do is advise them you’ve consulted an employment lawyer, don’t let hr get any more info out of you than that. Get your ?on and poker face and keep ? ??shi xx
I dont think they are trying to get rid of me, the block on holiday applies to the whole department, which is around 20 of us. There are 3 of us with children so we cant just take hols when we want like the others. Husband has applied for a job as currently freelance but work is so quiet. If he gets it then I think I will leave my job and take a break and find a work from home job. I work to live not live to work so maybe timeout is what is needed.
H
H Wishing you and husband lots of luck with job applications, I hope you both get them. The school one for you will be perfect. I am just st so sorry you have been put under all this stress and the total lack of empathy from your manager, how can anyone be so cold? ??shi xx
So at 8:00pm last night I get a sore throat, swollen glands and temp of 38.4. I took paracetamol but was then worried that I had an infection somewhere. Rang 111. Was told a Dr would do a home visit by 10:30pm. At 11:30pm we call 111 again to be told a Dr would phone within the next hour. At 00:45 a Dr phones. She can come out but I’ll have to wait. At 4;30am there’s a knock at the door. Turns out I need a weeks course of antibiotics, throat is all puss like. Taken first lot of tablets for today but the won’t kick in properly for 24hours. Feel shattered having had next to no sleep.
Andi ???blooming heck lovely what a ???glad your dr finally got out and you have tablets, try and rest as much as you can and have you got some honey that you can suck on to soothe throat and act as antiseptic till tablets kick in? It might help. ??shi xx
Heather. We can become Fitbit friends and help each other we can do tasks together on the app that allows us to see eachother and compete!!! Although at the moment I’m struggling 3000 steps per day. Next week I’m setting myself a goal of 5000 steps on work days and 8000 weekends. (When the evenings become light maybe I’ll be able to do the 10k??)