Hi all
I seem to only come on here these days to have a moan (guilty as charged) Whoops.
Just need a grumble to people who actually GET IT. I’m 4 months past active treatment and 4 months into Tamoxifen and I’m STILL really fatigued.
I’m 36 - and I’m knackered CONSTANTLY.
I’m so so peed off at it all - I really honestly thought I’d be OKish by now and I’m not one to be a positive polly either! But when they said to me about recovery after all that is thrown at us, I thought “yes but they dont know me, I’m the duracell bunny and I never sit still for long”
Ha, the innocence of the first time.
Yes, I’m also on Tamoxifen but this is not helping.
I now feel like all support, emotional, mental, physical, spiritual has gone, because most people think I’m getting (grit my teeth so much my jaw aches) “Back to NORMAL” or that I should be.
Take last night for instance - absolutely shattered, did loads yesterday, felt fine at the time, went to bed exhausted. Could I sleep? No. Not a wink ALL night, no reason at all, not aching, not uncomfortable, worn out.
WHHHHHHYYYYY??? Then I feel stressed this morning because I’m so frustrated by it all and what this fatigue means for me…
IT reminds me who is boss - it’s my body who’s boss and not me.
But the problem is I’ve tried all this exercise thing, pacing myself through the day and all the tips, No caffeine, blah blah. I cannot find a medium my stupid damn body is happy with.
I’ve felt myself welling up with utter rattyness over the past week, which is churning away under the surface and isn’t like me. I just feel like biting everyones head off, then locking myself away somewhere for a week to be left on my own and then I want a hug and someone to tell me it’s all going to be OK, such a gamut of emotion!
Anyone else feeling like this?