Thanks everyone for your replies and well done for keeping going. I really do believe that one day we’ll see how cancer has changed us in good ways. But for now it is still one.day at a time, for me anyway.
It has really helped me to read your messages this week and know I’m not alone. I wish I’d kept in touch with you more earlier in the process. I just found everything so overwhelming I couldn’t cope!
@chita I will have a look at the post treatment board. I’m sure there is lots of support there too.
Apologies ladies , the dreaded tax return loomed large over me and I could no longer avoid it! I had to get my head down and spend two weeks getting my accounts up to date. It was a huge relief to hit “submit” !
Hi @arty1, happy new year, happy tax return completion! I’m ok thanks, quite enjoying the fact that 2024 was now two years ago, I know it’s an illusion, but it has helped. I found my first annual follow up in November tough, but I was scanned to death (mammogram, MRI boobs, CT chest), so it did arrest some little fears including the rib pain, which in my case seems to be from radiotherapy. They want to repeat the CT chest in 3 months for no obvious reason that I can fathom, since the lung nodules they picked up pre-chemo are still completely unchanged. I’ve been having daily headaches since October that I still haven’t got to the bottom of, but a CT head scan was clear. I’m seeing a neurologist on Thurs about them. I went skiing at Christmas, it was fantastic, I was really lost in the beauty of my surroundings and concentrating on each run, so hardly thought about anything cancer related.
@flower5 good to hear that check up went well and it sounds like you had a full MOT! It’s reassuring that everything was clear - 2024 seems further in the past now doesn’t it ? I hope it stays firmly there!
I have been having Rib pain since the summer but a bone scan was clear.. so who knows what’s going on .. I haven’t had a follow ups or anything , but then I guess in your case they’ve needed to keep an eye on the lung modules .
The triP sounds amazing- so nice to enjoy other things that don’t involve cancer x
Hello my old chemo friends! I disappeared for a while - tried to stay offline and especially the Facebook support groups that had become a bit all consuming and not especially helpful for my mental state. I saw someone above describe it as an emotional meltdown after cancer treatment and that’s been me exactly! I feel I’m in a no man’s land of being ’well’ but feeling isolated from the rest of my peers as I don’t feel ‘well’ or fit or energetic or happy or ‘normal’. I feel in deep shock and miserable with my foobs and the totally rubbish Letrozole side effects. But I also feel fortunate and obviously joyous that I am out the other side and can get on with my life! But what is my life? What do I want it to be? Etc etc. basically I’ve been having an existential crisis since ending active treatment. Which was so unexpected!!! Even though other women had spoken about it. I just thought I was ok. But I sort of am really ok. And I go up and down with the foobs. Sometimes I’m ok with them and remind myself they are prosthetics and as such my expectations should be adjusted accordingly. And sometimes I just want to go flat rather than these wonky water balloons attached to my chest. What is really frustrating to me is that I have repeatedly been told by surgeon that I have a ‘good’ result. So I feel I should be happy and grateful!
Anyway that was not the reason for my post at all!! I went off on a self indulgent tangent because of what a lovely safe place this has always been.
The reason for post is my bloody hair! so shallow!!! It’s kind of cute and I get lots of compliments on it. But it’s sooooooo wiry and coarse. And any leave in conditioners etc make it feel like a product my helmet. So it’s either wiry and course and frizzy or is decent looking - although retains a bit of the wet look about it - but feels revolting and thick with product and like it needs washing but I know the washing will further dry it. Anyone else? Any tips? Will try and work out how to attach a photo. So far I e just had tiny trims to the bottom with the aim of getting it to a sort of bob, but it’s so wild I end up pinning it back every day. I had very straight heavy hair before.
