I ate a lot of cottage cheese with chopped up veg, and I can’t face that now
I haven’t gone off anything sweet and junky. Still eating the chocolate and donuts
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I just wish it had made me crave salad and Kale smoothies. Hey ho. I have developed a ravishing lust for blueberries though. That’s something I suppose, but a punnet a day might be pushing it!
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I just think eat what you fancy everything in moderation! I threw away half a pack of ginger biscuits yesterday - they kept me going on my sicky days through chemo - now the smell is awful can’t stand it! I wonder if it will change over time 
Well of course, my bloods are great today, so final chemo takes place tomorrow. I bloody knew that would happen! I was hoping my bloods weren’t good enough as the Oncologist had said we could just end it anyway, and we’re also off to Torquay this weekend, so I would’ve felt better to walk around etc if I didn’t have chemo tomorrow. But it’s obviously meant to be. Me and the sodding cold cap will have one last coupling before I can leave it behind and I can celebrate the completion of chemo in Torquay even if that has to take place mostly from the sofa!
I really can’t wait to be able to taste food properly again. I don’t have a horrible taste in my mouth, but sometimes I feel a coating inside, but mostly, since the start, ALL foods just taste wrong, and the textures are always wrong. It’s been so hard to eat at times which probably impacted my bloods - but this week I’ve been craving sugary foods, ate loads of sugar, and my bloods are great. Make it make sense hey 
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Arse.
@Mairead_49 Hope you’re over the worst of it before you go. Seaside is great - just a change of place is fab! It is bloody, sic, typical that they’d bounce back. Have to say not having to cold cap again was magnificent. The thing that is even better is putting away or getting rid of chemo stuff! I’d bought a temporary fabric drawer set to keep all my chemo crap in. It now has a new home in my mate’s caravan.
Months after finishing my mouth is still weird, body hair still a no show apart from hobbit big toe 
Onwards to the finish line lovely 
Karen 
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Can you not just ask them to end it anyway???
I could absolutely @Jaygo, but I feel like it’s fate telling me I need to go ahead with it, just like if my bloods hadn’t been ok, it would’ve been fate confirming I didn’t need it x
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Oh sods law!!! Knew that would happen. Maybe for the best , as now you won’t have future worries like “ did I have enough chemo? “ But this will really be the last , and hopefully you can start having normal tastes again! Xx
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Absolutely @nib32, and at least going through it tomorrow I’ll know it’s the final one.
I’ve just signed up for a programme with this lady who was recommended to me. Carolyn Levitt is a personal trainer specialising in strength training for women with breast cancer. She’s been through it herself and has a great knowledge of how to exercise whilst in treatment. I’ve just signed up for the self guided 12 week programme which was £60: Big Strong Lasses
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Evening 
Shitty Titty Squad
Day 2 of Rads 1hr there, 1hr back. 20 mins in the hospital. Very quick and straight forward for the treatment session. Today though, I had the breathing game … app on a phone infront of me, had to get my breath line into green instead of yellow and it had to stay within a white line! Weird version of bat n ball. I got weirdly competitive - only me. 
My silk squares arrived today; pop inside bra top on rad side so nothing catches or rubs sensitive skin. Bit bigger than i thought they’d be but 10 for £8 from Jeff’s shop with delivery. Bargain. I also checked about deoderant with radiologist - conflicting advice from everywhere. As long as it doesn’t have metal in it (yes, some do) fine to use either spray or roll on! I can ease up on perfume now, I was smelling like a hooker’s handbag!
6.20pm for rads appointment was bloody annoying! But hey ho zapping those microbastards so thinking positive. However, jaysus the cost of filling the petrol up for all the treatment travels, eeekkk. Who knew that old eejit with his war games would add another layer of FFS onto cancer!
Onwards we go, Shitty Titty Squad.
K
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@Mairead_49 oh bloody hell! That is just typical, just shows sugary foods can be healing too. But happy last day of chemo, now that its official! And 100% agree sea air is good for the soul.
@lumpybyebye you make rads sound nice and easy, thank you 
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How are you doing post surgery @tessie86?
@lumpybyebye are these just standard silk squares, or special ones for the bra?
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Hi @dilly doing really well, just feels a little bruised at times. In my second week of being off and feeling very lazy!
Starting the more advanced excercises today. Trying to work out when to take the dressings off, they say between 10-15 days which is a very wide date range really, I just can’t wait to have a shower and not a shallow bath lol
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I found that the steri strips started lifting by themselves so I just took them off as they did so, a few at a time x
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@Mairead_49 lots of love for your last chemo! Another hurdle complete after today!
@lumpybyebye glad the RT going ok, breathing game sounds fun 
I’m going to have a look at the silk squares might help for my flat side too to help with rubbing!
@tessie86 its not lazy it’s recovery! I have to keep telling myself that! So my dressings are still on (day 19) because my surgeon likes to remove and my appointment with him isn’t until tomorrow so not sure it matters too much just when you feel comfortable x
Lots of love to all 
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@Mairead_49 Hope it all goes well today and you have enough energy to enjoy Torquay and the sea air.
Just when I thought things couldn’t get any sexier… I lost my hair during EC (it’s slowly growing back now), my eyelashes and eyebrows are gone, and I’m completely lopsided since the tumour shrank from 5.4 cm to 9 mm (I know it is a positive). With my already small breasts, it’s all looking a bit sorry for itself—but as my daughter pointed out, at least my nipple is perky again 
Now I’ve received the “suggested” garment list the plastic surgeon wants me in straight after my DIEP operation—and for six weeks afterwards. The nurse suggested choosing black, just in case of any leakage and all that… very glamorous.
For some reason, the choice of models is really winding me up—along with the idea that being squeezed into “medical-grade spandex” is supposed to be comfortable.
The only upside I can see is that if I have to be trussed up like this for six weeks, at least radiotherapy won’t start until I’m finally out of it.
Surgery is scheduled for mid-April—fingers crossed for a cool, gentle spring, if I have to wear all that….
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@dilly I have a dressing over the top of the steri strips, have been told to take off the dressing after 10-15 days and then leave steri straps to come off themselves. Funny how different hospitals doing it differently.
@loupy oh wow, again amazing how different it all is, although I just had the lumpectomy and lymph node removed for testing.
Oh @prisci we all need to pray for a cool spring for you - but perhaps not as bad as they look 
@tessie86 I had lumpectomy and lymph node test in July and my surgeon was the same then, apparently he’s very precious about the dressing removal the nurses won’t touch it - I find it hilarious, I removed the dressing under my arm last time round as it was so painful rubbing and thought the nurses won’t touch was going to have a complete meltdown about it
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