Ooh which Trollope? Clair that’s good news about your day. I shall be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping scan goes well.
The gym where I go for fatigue group is going to be out of action for months, so I need to take a leaf out of your book Dizzy and just start walking!
Bit shattered so a quick evening all. Yay it’s Friday eve! Xx
Evening lovelies,
it’s such.a weight of my mind my boss said we’ll review it in 4 weeks and if I want to make it permanent I’d have to change my contract. I can just about afford to lose the money but at the moment I’ll still get something as it’s going back to a phased return.
I must say my employers have been amazing.
Delly there’s no baby yet,I think he’s happy where he is for a bit longer xxx
Thank you all for your thoughts re tomorrow xxx
Rubycat I’ve been thinking of you a lot this week xxx
Love and hugs Clair xxxx xxx
Clair,
When I dropped my hours down from full to part time, I always found I never lost as much money as I thought, because of the tax.
Anyway, I’m really pleased for you that they’ve given you a longer phased return, hope you’re going to have a glass of rose to celebrate.
xx
Evening all
clair I feel for you sweetheart. Work is such a huge part of our lives and when we are not happy there, it impacts on everything else in our lives. I have the patience of a gnat these days and I get so frustrated how people stress about the most ridiculous things. There was much debate the other week with my staff that they were unhappy having sugar sachets in the kitchen, and not loose sugar. They wanted ‘proper sugar’. WTF? Come on it does the same damn thing!! God I was annoyed. But I bit my tongue and off I toddled to get some.
I am rapidly running out of patience in work and i don’t think it will be long before I walk. Life is just too damn short and precious to waste it being miserable. My business partner is now ignoring me completely so he can shove it. All the money in the world doesn’t make that acceptable behaviour. I am truly fed up of the whole situation.
So, I think I have an infection of some sort under my arm and in to my node scar. Apologies for the gross description but I think it must be some kind of ingrowing hair in my armpit - remember it all fell out during rads and it’s never come back. Anyway the last few days this red and painful lump has appeared and it looks like a giant spot. It’s just under the skin and a couple of weeks ago it was a tiny pimple (definitely a pimple as I squeezed it if you get my drift yuk) and now it has turned in to this monster. The redness from it is now down to and passed my node scar. I’m seeing my doc tomorrow so I’m glad I didn’t cancel it after speaking to the BCN. Think I may need some antibiotics. It is VERY sore indeed.
When will all this stop? If I could swear on here, you’d all know in a few lines how I really feel these days. What’s the phrase…stop the bus cause I want to get off?!! So much has happened these last 16 months and I think I’m at my limit now. I need to get a grip, make some decisions about work and set about making a quiet simple life for me and my truly amazing hubby (and Mac!)
Cwtches all around form blowy Wales!
xxx
Lily, Clair and Beth what a rotten bloo** time. Hope you’re all feeling better soon. Beth, call out of hours if it gets any worse. Clair, I’ve been told I can consider a temporary change in hours as part of reasonable adjustments and I’m thinking about it. I think I have read that Trollope Dizzy. I liked it - not sure that’s enough of a critique for a book club though! Xx
Just logged on after very busy day, and oh boy, lots of grief, poor Lily suffering with the flu, get well soon, you poor thing, lots of rest and fluid, unfortunately not alcohol xx
Clair, so glad you’ve been able to reduce your hours again to ease yourself back into work, and Beth, I could scream and rant on your behalf, money (as long as you’re not desperate of course) is just not worth the grief you’re getting. I know I could never go back to the stress and pettiness I had to put up with in my job. I struggled before, but after the BC crap I know I’m neither physically or mentally upto to it now, so happy to be free of it all, albeit it poor as a church mouse, but I’ve a roof and food (and wine) who needs more?
Janey, Dizzy, Delly, Rubycat, Charys and everyone else, I hope you’re all ok. I’m knackered. Busy day, nails done (always makes me feel better) shopping done then BC support group meeting this pm, didn’t get home until gone 6pm, was like being back at work again, yuck. Dinner coked and rewashed up after himself did it (he always misses bits) still, I don’t like to discourage him, might be better when he picks up his new specs next week, here’s hoping anyway xx
Beth what you said is exactly how I feel, I want my life back, the one where I can do 4 things at once, remember what I’m doing or saying. Where I can do my job and all the other home stuff I want to. Not to be permanently tired, forgetful and over emotional.
I’m so glad that I’ve got you all because you get it. Xxxxx
Lily get well soon my lovely xxx
Janey do it, I wish I hadn’t gone back so quickly xxx
Helena and Dizzy I didn’t.think of those things, less tax etc.
Lesley you sound like you’ve been really busy xxxx
Night all I’ve got an early start tomorrow and I need to start drinking my water by 7 am. Lots of love xxxxxx
Good luck tomorrow Clair. I’ll be thinking about you xxx
Clair, I’m a bit late to say good luck, but I hope everything went well this morning.
Beth, that armpit sounds really nasty, and like it should have had antibiotics a while ago, so I hope you get some today. It shows that talking to the BCN over the phone achieves nothing.
Your partner sounds like a complete and total**** and I hope you are able to walk away. He doesn’t deserve anything from you, since he’s incapable of acting like a decent human being on any front. And you have so many things happening in your life at the moment, I don’t know how you’re able to keep going when you have him to deal with.
Delly, how was your support group last night? And I hope the car hunt is going okay.
Lily, I hope the flu is starting to get better, it’s miserable when you feel like that. But I’m glad it didn’t happen when you were on holiday.
Helena, hope you’re enjoying your day off. It’s cold and windy here, but very sunny so I’m enjoying looking out. We got the grass cut the other day, so the garden no longer looks like a field. But I’ve run out of room in the composting bin, so there’s still lots of shrubs and climbers to cut down.
Hope everyone has is having a good day.
xxx
Hello Willows,
Just popped into say hello and hope that Lily’s flu is on the mend, wish Clair good luck, hope Beth sore armpit is improving and gp checks it out and it’s nothing to worry about, and that the a***hole of a partner has broken out in boils all over his face and bum, and wish everyone else a lovely Calm sunny Friday after yesterday’s naughty Doris. It’s taken longer than I expected as I’ve been reading Delly Delicious posts and laughing away, much better than Joanna Trollope. She’s got a new one out, will look out for it st the library but think her earlier ones are better than her most recent. Almost finished Kate Morton’s latest, love her books.
No sign of Charys still. Shes probably busy crocheting a life size model of the Great Wall of China or something.
Delly, I’ve taken a leaf out of your book and love talking to strangers now (used to get really embarrassed when my mum used to do that). Yesterday while waiting in the bus station for the bus to the BC support group meeting I had a conversation with a lady who had recently lost her husband. She said it was very sudden and theyd had no concerns over his health but he used to fret over her as she’d had BC 18 years ago. She said she had surgery, rads and tamoxifen for 5 years and had been absolutely fine ever since, made me feel so much better, though sad for her losing her much loved husband. I’ve had some lovely chats and laughs lately chatting to strangers in coffee shops, so much nicer than going to work.
rambled on as usual, anything to put off the dreaded housework xx
Hey LadyH - at last someone’s come out to play again. Dizzy and Lesley, both went off to do important things - left me on my ownio again sniff, sniff. Praps they’re too adult and sensible for me. Naaaa, I’m just having another day off from reality!!
Ooops, just noticed Lesley’s posted before me.
BTW, I took receipt of my Fluffy mug yesterday. Yes I like the design ON it, but I don’t like the design of the mug itself. Too muggishly old fashioned. Find the oversized handle too clumsy for my increasingly knackered hands. But not just for that reason, WHY, when there are so many much better shaped mugs out there?? Sorry girls, not my mug o’ tea this mug!! I’ll send a happy suggestion to change the design. I AM, however, and you’ll be glad to know/hear, TOTALLY satisfied with and by my selection of notelets, cards and wrapping paper. Some really lovely Snowdrop notelets, cos I do so love their delicate beauty along with their Spring is just round the corner significance. Hardy little things, aren’t they? Bit like all of us.
I’ve got to just share something daft that’s just happened. Like anyone else, I like a clean and sweet smelling loo! a few years ago, I tried out these “Fresh Discs”, Brill idea, as can’t put things into the cistern of many of these new type flush loos, and don’t involve something hanging in the line of fire, so to speak. They come in a special injection dispenser, that delivers ONE disc at a time. Don’t know why I didn’t continue with them, but I’m having to seriously consider whether to ever use them again. 'Cos . . . when I went to dispense the first disc of lovely smelling freshener onto the side bowl of the bowl, instead of just one - damn thing went and deposited the WHOLE EIGHT discs worth in ONE load!!! What?? Yes . . . I now have THE MOST incredibly wonderfully smelling loo in gthe whole world, me thinks. The thing that reeeeally cracked me up, was that they all came out with a suitably “farting” noise. Sorry to bring us down to toilet level humour, but I had to hold my hands up, laugh and then . . . just FLUSH!! Ha ha hee.
I’m buried in sweet smelling overflowing foam - naaa, not really.
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Hello my lovelies. I’m hiding in an office taking a snoozy time out and thinking of you all. It’s beautiful here today and I wish I was in the garden - currently ablaze with daffodils. Clair I hope you have some answers today and can then focus on the big weekend. Delly I still think it would be lovely to meet as a group, but thinking Bristol maybe more central for everyone and easier to get to? The Summer appeals to me.
Lesley I’m following your glam lead - nails not booked but haircut has been. I’ve discovered a marvellous conditioner for frizz. Unfortunately I had only a couple of hours sleep last night and used it to wash my face this morning! I don’t think my face was frizzy, but I guess my Anastrazole beard is now frizz free! Beth I hope today is a better day, if only because it’s Friday. Big hugs xxx
Hi lovelies just a quick update. I’m now the proud owner of a 6 cm cyst with a shadow behind it!!! & a thickening of the womb that they’re not worried about at the moment. So back to waiting to see what’s next
I’ll catch up later lots of love and hugs and thank you for the support xxxx
Oops should have said the cyst is on my ovary and pushing into my bladder which all makes sense to me now xxx
Blimey Clair, you don’t do cysts by half, do you? 6 cm sounds huge to me, no wonder it’s pushing on the rest of you. And your bladder is just going to make it even more uncomfortable and awkward. Anyway, I’m glad the process is under way, even if you have more hanging around waiting. And in a way, it must be nice to know you weren’t imagining it or it turn out to be nothing much.
Delly, sorry, I did disappear this afternoon, boring car service, but at the main dealer 20 miles away, so I spent a happy afternoon mooching round John Lewis and Laura Ashley Home while himself waited for the car. So I have seen and coveted loads of pretty things and decided I wasn’t paying that much for any of it, since we don’t actually need decorated cake tins and broderie anglaise pillowcases. So a bit of self discipline was required. I agree with Janey on a meet up, it would be better to try to be as central as possible, so we give most people a chance. So Bristol would be more central, unless anyone has a better suggestion?
Helena, lovely that you have some time off now, I forgot you had a week’s holiday coming up. You can start practicing your roll ups ready for April!
Lesley, if we were trying to meet up, is there anywhere that would be easier for you? I think it would be best in the summer, but there’s no harm in starting to think about the logistics of it sooner.
And everyone else, any thoughts?
Evening lovelies
saw a GP today. Funny have a better bedside manner than others!! She was a little sharp but confirmed that I do have an infection in my armpit which has spread to my node scar. She’s given me 7 days of flucloxacillin antibiotics, 4 X 500 mg per day, and I’m to phone her if it isnt completely cleared up by this time next week and she’ll give me another 7 days worth. She said ‘oooh that looks sore’. No sh*t Sherlock!! She had a feel around my lymph nodes in my neck and armpit and everything was fine in her opinion which is great. Hopefully by Monday I’ll feel a bit better but to somehow I have to try and figure out when I take these biotics - very 6 hours, 1 hour before food or 2 hours after??? Hmmmm
clair - how are you feeling about the scan today? You mentioned they were going to leave everything be for now which sounds positive, hope you’re ok love.
Dearest delly. Your post earlier has made me all emotional. What lovely things you said. Thank you my friend. I’m not keen to say on an open forum what I do for a living as you never know who’s reading, especially as I’m having a few issues. I will say that I work in the financial services industry though and have regulations coming out of my ears. My mum is still waiting to see if they will resume her chemo or not. The last 5 have not had any impact at all on her cancer - she has angioimmunoblastic Tcell lymphoma. It’s rare, with less than 2% of non Hodgkin’s patients worldwide having it. The chemo she needs almost finished her off the one and only time she had it last year and they’re not happy for her to have it again till she’s stronger. It was horrible waiting just the two weeks I had in between diagnosis and my op, so I have no idea how’s she’s holding it together almost a year after her diagnosis, when she is no further forward.
Janey - I think I need to take a leaf out of your book and find a quiet corner in work to have a snooze (or a scream!!)
Helena - glad you’re ur internet is sorted again!!! Rest up and surf the net this weekend my friend!!
dizzy, hope you are doing ok. Thank you for asking about me
lesley - how is your shoulder doing after your injection? Hope you are having some relief
i must finish on Delly’s toilet escapades!! Really did make me laugh!! I just have a vision of a fountain that’s had fairy liquid poured in to it!! Froth everywhere lols
who mentioned they had flu? Was it lily? Hope you’re feeling better today too xxx
lots of hugs all around
xxx
Hi all,
Clair, what a b***er, really hope you don’t have to wait too long before they tell you what’s next.
Janey, Im thinking of getting my hair cut off. It’s a big step for me. I very rarely wear it down, on a day slopping round the house I just wear it in a pony tail but when I’m out in public I loosely pin it up, and as it’s curly it just takes a few pins to get a “reasonable” tumble of curls on top and I straighten my fringe. It’s finding a short curly style that’s suits me and doesent look like an 80’s bad perm. I used to have a really short elfin cut but now I’ve got an old saggy face I can’t get away with it.
Bristol - I’ll have to check it out. Will have to get train to London then out again. My main problem is I can’t get on down escalators as I’ve got a balance problem. Having said that, I _think _i might be able to get a train from Reading, and if so I can get a bus from here to there. It takes an hour and half plus but that’s not a problem.
Dizzy, broderie angeleise pillow cases, NO, you wake up in the morning looking like you slept with your face on a cheese grater. Xx
Beth, our posts crossed. Glad you got your antibiotics, hope they kick in soon. Yes, some GPs really to go on a course for their bedside manner, It really doesent help when you’re feeling ill and worried to have to face an umsympathic doctor.
Enjoy your weekend and try and relax xx
Beth, I’m glad you’ve got your antibiotics, it’s a good job you went. It sounds like that infection has been building for a while. I hope you have a lovely weekend with your feet up!
Helena, they didn’t know who they were messing with, did they? Just you go girl…
Lesley, I think my face already looks like that in the mornings…
I had my long wavy hair cut about three months ago, I haven’t had short hair in about fifteen years. But I’m amazed at the number of people who’ve commented on it saying it makes me look younger. I was putting it off because I was resisting the idea of sensible hair making me feel old. Instead I’m really glad I did it, it doesn’t need hours of blowdrying to try to tame it. But going grey is still a step too far…
Beth I’m so glad you’ve got some antibiotics I hope they kick in quickly. Thank you for asking how I feel to be honest I don’t know half of me is glad I know it’s a cyst but the other half is petrified it’s something more nasty behind it. Xxxx