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Morning all
feels rather decadent to be drinking coffee and watching call the midwife at 9am on a Monday morning. Certainly beats being in the office.
Hope eveyones week week starts off well
xxx
Morning glories. Ann have a good journey back. I remember says no goodbye to my sister in Australia the other year, so a big hug for you xxx Clair how are you doing today and Beth enjoy some TV time! Just arrived at our cancer centre for my last reflexology and then a haircut courtesy of an early Mother’s Day present from my girl. I shall float home later - last Monday off for me today, so planning on enjoying it! Xxx
Hello girlie’s, I’ve put my big girl pants on and pulled my self together. I’m spending the the day with katie and we’re watching films together. Thank you for your love and support xxxx
Hello Willows,
Just caught up on your posts. So glad you’re feeling better Clair, you’re going through sh*t at the moment so you’re allowed to have a downer, but do get on the phone to the gynae secretary and see if you can get an earlier appointment. I bet if it was one of your family and not you, you’d be on the phone raising hell until you got them seen earlier. Fu ny how we get our boxing gloves on and fight for our people but not for ourselves.
Ann, 27 hours in a plane, rather you than me, still, you’ve had the trip of a life time and everything has its price.
Himself and I went and picked up our new specs this morning. Mine were same prescription but I treated my self to a pair of reactor (I know that’s not how you spell it, but I don’t how how you do) lenses so I don’t have to squint when reading in the garden this summer. Wore them round the shops and as it’s sunny gave them a test drive, worked a treat.
Went for a coffee and bacon buttie and bumped into his friend and wife. She’s just over halfway through her rads and feeling exhausted already. She’s having a rough time from her boss who’s pushing her for a return to work date. Dusted off my HR hat and gave her some advise, think she felt better after speaking to me, hope so. I did tell her to get herself on here too.
Right, Escape to the country is on, love that xx
Hello all!
I’m sitting in the sun being a bit lazy, I spent most of this morning digging and weeding at the allotment, and then took Daisy to the woods. So I’m currently planning what to plant this year, and what seeds I need to buy.
Janey, that sounds a lovely way to spend your last Monday off. How is your daughter settled in her new place?
Clair, I hope you’ve had a lovely time with your daughter. Those big girl pants, sometimes they’re a bit hard to find aren’t they? And it’s no wonder, when you have pain and worry, it’s a horrible thing to be going through.
Ann, hope you have a good trip back and aren’t too jetlagged. It must be sad to leave your son, but aren’t you looking forward to getting home and sleeping in your own bed? And it probably looks a lot more like spring here now.
Catch you all later, I need to get to the garden centre while I still have some get up and go…
I used to have a little plaque with this on in a previous job. It’s so very true.
Had a good but busy day today. Lots of little jobs done and thought I’d try and get as many done today as I could so the rest of the week was a bit more chilled out.
Clair love, I hope you’ve had a better day today. Those big girl pants work wonders for me!!
Thinking of you all out there in the big wide world. Sending hugs xxx
oooh it sounds as if everyone has been having a lovely happy day today , that is so great.
I was very good today at work, someone tried to “pass” work on to me and apologised they thought it was something I did, I very politely but firmly put them in their place 
Right off to get a cuppa and sort out dinner, catch you all laters xxxx
That’s lovely Beth, next time it’s raining let’s all strip off, put our big girl pants on and go outside and dance in the rain and wait until the neighbours call the police. What can they charge us with? Nothing that will stand up in court, that’s as long as we get a lady judge of course xx
Evening girls, I’ve no.idea where my mood came from yesterday but I’m in a better place today.
Helena I love your bench and I managed to get out and do a quick tidy up in the garden today I can’t wait until the weather is better and I can really get to it and go girl glad your keeping everyone in thier place 
It looks like everyone has had a fab day let’s have many more xxxxxxx
Beth I love that saying and Lesley I love the thought of us all dancing in our big pants xxxx
I started reading the cancer whisperer today and although it can be a bit hard going at times Sophie Sabbage the author has some very good theories. There is a lot about diet detoxing and removing toxins in your environment I’m not sure I’d be as thorough as she is but we’re in totally different places
The best bit and the bit that I can identify with is how you see yourself and the situation your in, of course we’re all different but her attitude in how you think makes sense I’ve got through nearly half the book and would highly recommend it. If anyone fancies reading it when I’ve finished pm me and I’ll pass it on and maybe we could keep passing it around xxxxxx
I’m off to watch some hannibal it’s another one of my favourites TV series xxxx
Hello everyone,
And please forgive me - I really struggle remembering everyones names and to mention them all.
Finally getting the feeling that I really am moving forward.
Actually managed to work 3 full days last week. Mind you I really paid for it on Friday and Saturday. My limbs were like lead. Thankfully all ok again today!
We had lovley spring weather here in East Sussex for most of the day. It was surprising to notice, when I left my ‘office’ at 18.00 that it was still a little light outside!
Spring really is on the way! The birdsong at ‘unbelievablyearlyinthe morninghour’ is very telling!
Wishing you all a good and happy week.
Hugs
Sue x
Hi Sue, that’s fab news xx what a cute lamb pic it makes such a difference when the weather is nicer xxx
i posted on the radiotherapy thread but wanted to let you all know how I got on today:
Well my appointment with the Oncologist went very well.
His words “you are cancer free, prognosis is extremely good and you have recovered exceptionally well” I did ask if that meant I was cured of cancer, he said that they do not like to use the word “cured”. He told me to go now and enjoy my life. He will see me again in six months, but that is only because I felt a bit nervous about it being another year, when I will have my mammogram and clinic apt, so I am booked in for late August. He did a thorough exam which he was pleased with, bit of thickness at the top but he said that was the result of the op and rads. Asked how I was getting on with the Tamoxifen, no problems.
He asked about the fatigue, I told him I recognise when it is coming and rest, but am trying to build my stamina levels up now but not overdoing it. He was surprised to learn that I was back to my normal work hours already but I assured him that I was being regularly monitored at work to ensure that I was managing.
At the end of the apt he hugged me, I nearly burst into tears but I would blame it on the tamoxifen
Helena xxx
Helena
that is fantastic news my friend. I’m so glad that the onc appt went so well today. It truly is another milestone that you have achieved and I like how they said to go an live your life. It’s why we’ve battered through everything we have - so we can get back out there and live life to the full.
Janey - I so glad for you too that your work mojo has returned. Can you ask it if it’s seen mine!!!
i get terrible stabbing pains in my breast on anD off. I asked my BCN about it on the phone the other week when I was trying to find out if I had an infection or not. These stabbing pains were unrelated to the infection and she said it was more than likely to be nerve pain which can take up to 12 months to clear after rads. I get these stabbing pains in addition to this kind of burning pain that I get where my boosters were. The only way I can describe that is like one of those Chinese burns kids give each other ( do they still do that?!). The more I do, the more I get these pains and driving gives me instant pain. BC is certainly a thing that keeps on giving isn’t it?! I don’t see the clinic again until April and that will be the first time I’ll have seen them since I finished rads at Christmas. I am going to have a whole load of questions for them that’s for sure.
Its a good idea to speak to your BCN and see what they say. Better to get it from the horses mouth so to speak.
So so today ive been back to the docs about this darned infection. ITS BACK. Different antibiotics for another week and they want to see me again next week. He’s happy enough that it’s nothing more serious than an infection and to be honest that thought never popped in to my head…it has now!! Anyways, because of my ‘history’ now they want to keep a close eye. ?
Our new bed was delivered today so I’m hoping that once I get used to it I might sleep a bit better. I can live in hope!!!
hope the rest of you lovely ladies are ok today.
Catch up later
xxx
Hiyer yes Janey I did/do have the stabbing pains! There were others too who I can recall mentioning it during the period during and after rt. After and during radiotherapy they were certainly awful, and I was told it was the nerves ‘reknitting’ or ‘being jangled’ doing whatever nerves do lol It felt like a sharp knife being jabbed in me, unrelated to any movement or anything. I’ve been unable to even think about lying on my front for the last 10 months.
Ok…so it gradually improved…slowly slowly over months and disappeared…then this weekend returned! Whats that about then ? it seemed to be shooting from under my boob right through it to the top and took my breathe away it was so strong. I can’t really describe it well. I’m not sure it’s helped you in any way to hear about my similar feelings. Has yours got significantly worse?
Helena, that’s how great I felt in November when I had my oncy visit too and got referred back to the surgeon. I can recall feeling so elated after being discharged from them and it’s such a nice feeling…I can feel your happiness. :smileyvery-happy:
So Helena, can I ask something…you are seeing your oncologist again in 6 months…but having your mammogram some time after that? I am only asking as I’m trying to working out when my actual mammogram will be. I finished treatment at the end of June, and am seeing surgeon for the first time next week. Is the mammogram done a year after the end of active treatment usually ?
I’ve not had anything like Beth’s burny pain, but I sometimes feel itchy internally too ??
Hello ladies
Just to garecrash this thread …if you are having itchy, burny or sore boob after lumpectomy …I got that too.
It was back in 2004 but for the first year or so …in fact I asked the oncologist at my first yearly appointment to double check my mammograme in case surgeon had left clips or scalpel in there !! Ha ha .
It does settle though and remember a lot of delicate tissue and nerves have been cut and also probably three incisions …cancer, drainage and lymph gland surgery ?
Hope this helps xxx
Thank you flowers. I had a brilliant call back from the bcn I had the most faith in. Yep sounds just like yours Charys and yours Beth - where I had boosters and also where lump was and nipple. She told me what I was describing is definitely nerve pain and will take about a year from the end of rads to resolve. She’s also mentioned a mini fillet for the big gap in the cup! Ho hum deep breath! She suggested I take painkillers morning and night as a precaution if it’s unbearable.
On a more positive note I came back from work, cleaned a floor and cut a mammoth pan full of purple sprouting brocolli from the garden - yum! I’ve checked carefully for caterpillars ? And looking forward to a feast. Also we have one bud about to open on our magnolia!
Beth - sorry I pinched your mojo today. I will let you have mine for tomorrow - I may have peaked!
Clair I’m definitely interested in the book you mentioned - meant to say yesterday.
Xxx
Helena, that’s so lovely to hear, I’m so glad it went well, and what a lovely man!
Beth, sorry to hear your infection is still there, I hope they find the right antibiotic this time. And what a good job you’re not working this week, at least you don’t have the objectionable partner to deal with as well. So time to pamper yourself this week.
Janey, I’m glad the mojo is coming back, but it doesn’t sound like you’re able to take good care of yourself, lunch at 3.45 isn’t good. I know it’s easy to get caught up in things and feel you can’t stop to take a break.
I do sometimes get a burning breast pain, usually when I’m doing something very physical like heavy lifting, but it’s usually only for a few seconds. But I think the BCNs are programmed to tell us that any breast pain is just nerves regenerating or the result of rads, they mostly don’t seem interested.
Sue, I’m glad your work mojo is coming back, isn’t it great when you feel you can manage things now that you couldn’t before? But we maybe all need to remember to take things steady because it’s easy to get carried away and do too much, and pay for it later.
But Fluffies, we’re all getting there, step by step. A big pat on the back for all of us!