oh Beth, no wonder you feel drained, also sending hugs
ann xxx
Beth, so emotional for you both, that must have been so difficult. Sending you hugs, and prescribing at least a glass of your favourite tipple and a cuddle with Mac and hubby.
Evening al
momentous day today and I think I have finally made the decision to hand in my notice ASAP. All sorts of nonsense happening this week again and after chatting everything through with my counsellor earlier and my hubby this evening, I think the time has come to say enough is enough.
I’m always tired and really sore still and apart from all the general work s**t, my counsellor is right when she says I haven’t taken enough time to heal physically and I’ve pushed myself back to full time work too quickly. I think I have finally realised that I need to stop for a while and physically fully recover, let alone anything else.
I have to give 3 months notice so it’s going to be a while before I can stop, but once that clock is ticking I’ll be able to see light at the end of the tunnel which will be a good thing.
I think I feel sort of relieved to have finally made the decision.
In my session today I remembered that she’d asked me very early on after surgery whether I thought my diagnosis would lead to a change in work/career and at the time I was very insistent that it was a Noooo. How things change. Doesn’t it alter our perspective on stuff and what’s important and what’s not?
anyway, saw doctor today and he’s happy the infection is almost gone so no more pills. He says he can feel thickening in my armpit and says it’s probably scar tissue but to get the clinic to check when I’m there in April. I’ve started doing those exercises again as I don’t seem to have to the movement or comfort I used to have in that shoulder and armpit area so see if that makes any difference. I’ve noticed that stretching up with that arm to shut the boot of my car is a bit of a struggle so see how it goes.
Is is it just me, or is this damn BC something that just keeps on giving??
big hugs to you lovely ladies and thank you for letting me whinge yet again!
xxx
Beth, I’m not surprised you’re ready to do this, as soon as you went back to work you were being put under huge pressure, and working with a complete****hole as well. And you weren’t really recovered from the surgery and rads. I don’t know how you’ve stuck it out as much as you have. So congratulations on making the decision, just go for it. It’s just a shame you have such a long notice period, do you think you have to abide by that? It sits a bit oddly with being self employed.
Anyway, I just wanted to say, well done for making it this far, and for making this decision. I will be so pleased for you when you can put a stop to all this hassle and aggro, you just don’t need it when there are so many more important things in your life.
Guys
Sorry I have not been around much the last couple of days, been a bit busy with housey stuff and work.
Well I finally went and had my hair cut this afternoon, boy did it need it. I came home to find that Colin had managed to get out into the garden and was sitting on the patio in the sunshine, that feeling of seeing him there was better than having won the lottery, I was so thrilled, I have been wondering if he would ever get out there again. To make the most of it, and I know it was a bit early, I poured us both a glass of wine and we sat there for a good hour. It was fantastic 
Hope everyone is well, I am going to try and catch up on todays activities on here. Will be around a bit more over the next couple of days
Helena xxx
Good for you Beth. I’m amazed how you’ve managed to carry on & deal with all this carp. There are loads of new opportunities are out there waiting for you. I now realise I was so lucky to be well supported by work & able to take the time I needed, when i hear of others experiences.
Lovely to hear about Colin today Helena, its so good to value these moments.
Hi Blueleyla!
love to you all
ann xxx
Blueleyla
that’s good advice! I stopped the exercises after my rads finished at Christmas and the last few weeks things definitely feel tighter do I think you’re right and I need to start doing all the stretches again. It can only help!
I’ve always had a bit of a laugh and that, combined with a thorough understanding of sarcasm has seen me through many a problem!! I still try to see the funny side of things but struggle some days!!
Helena - what you said about your darling Colin made me feel all emotional for you. It sounds like such an achievement for him and I can just picture you both out there with a glass of something. Long may it continue.
Dizzy - thank you for your lovely words & thoughts. I’m self employed, in a partnership with that k**b and but are contracted to another company. It’s all a bit complicated but part of the contract is that in order to leave, I must give 3 month notice. It’s a long time, but at least I can cross each day off!
Xxx beth
Hi Blueleyla welcome and thank you for sound advice - I must remember my exercises! Beth I’m sooo pleased you’ve made your decision. Must be a huge relief for you. I know it’s an odd thing to suggest, but given you probably could do with some recovery time, are you able to have some more sick leave at least part of your notice period? Rubycat I love your pictures - I wish I looked that gorgeous! I bet you were queen of the gym and the cathedral!
Your picture takes some beating too Beth.
Helena what a special day for you. It was a day to be outside and I’m so glad for both of you. Tomorrow the big Westminster trip for me - finding my passport for security was a bit of a panic, but found safe just where it’s always been! How is everyone else? Lily how are you doing? Xx
Beth, i guess at least it gives you a chance to think about the future and to get as much money as possible out of them before you go. Do you think he’ll be surprised? Anyway, you can cross the days off till it’s over, maybe you should put a chart on the wall…
Helena, what a lovely surprise for you, and how great for Colin, I’m so happy for both of you.
Hope you enjoy your big day tomorrow Janey!
Hello lovelies, wow what a day!! And I don’t just mean mine.
Fantastic news Beth I’m so pleased those few months will fly past xxx
Helena that’s so wonderful Xxx
I’ve been very.emotional all day,. something that happened at work that really hit me hard and I just kept thinking how lucky I am to have a healthy family and how life can change so quickly. Well I knew that anyway but with my new grandson being so tiny and.precious it just made me more emotional. I cried for a long time when.I got home.
Then later in the evening I was reminded just how ditsy I’ve bcome I was relaxing after my bath when my friend text to say she was on her way. I had no idea what she was on about but apparently we’d.arranged to meet up for something to eat and a catch up.!! I’d totally forgotten…
I did the quickest change of clothes and dash of eyeliner and went and had a lovely catch up. I feel much better now.
Much love to you.all Clair xxxxx
I wonder if I’ll make the 10 o’clock news?! I’ve just pinned my pink ribbon onto my wrap - too uncomfortable still to wear my mac - I need a purple something for the suffragettes! Xx
Beth, I do love the picture you inserted of lovely Charys, staring google eyed, whilst she was having a bath in the sink!
Hope everyone is ok? Am off to bed nowxx
Gawd, what yer all like, as they say in various parts up 'ere. None from where I come from, or currently AM. Just taking the mickey out of my Northerness.
Corr-Clair - Keep listening to my title for you!! And all of the rest of yers - Luscious (Lesley), Juicy (Janey), Lascivious(Lilly - look it up Lesley, cos you’re still the luscious one!) Darling (Dizzy), Sweet (Sue), Buxom (Bethy-boo), Raunchy (Ruby),. Now who else? What the flip did I call Charys?? Charming - err was it? Did I not come up with a more “suggestive” name than “Charming”!! You do realise don’t you, I’m likely to have to dredge back through all them there earlier posts to find the answer, cos knowing you lot, no-one will give me the answer… Charlatan-Charys, narrrr. I could come up with lodsa CH words, with the help of a dictionary, I add. Doesn’t matter to look back at what I said.
Charismatic-Charys! That’s gotta be it!! Um? Yeh - deffo.
Who’ve I left out?? Let me know.
I’m likely to be on, at a more sociable hour tomorrow. Have some major apologising to do.
Till then,
Lotsa love to everyone and lots of catching up on you to do,
Doollallier-Delly xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Ps. Thank You for your kind enquiring emails. Haven’t yet had chance to read all of them, but thanking you in advance, despite what you may be telling me to do!!!. xxxxx
Hello flowers. Hoping my lift to the station hasn’t forgotten me ?Off to Westminster as part of celebration of winning team of the year Helena. Delly lovely to have you back and it’s crafty Charys! Xx
But before I say anything, or owt else, as we say up here. I just need to get this one in for the start of our day.
May all our “VAULTS” be filled with alcohol !!!
Goodness (polite) there’s been a whole loada bananas goin on here. Why would I expect anything else from a load of feisty wonderwomen.
I DO need to apologise first though. Sorry to the two persons I reacted in public to. Not the place to do it - totally out of order. I do HUMBLY apologise to you both for that.
I also need to apologise to you ALL on here for causing unrest and such uncomfortable feelings. Had I been keeping up with reading posts, my heated reaction would likely have been de-fused by the likes of Jobey’s, Darlin-Dizzy’s, Corr-Clair’s, Curvaceousness’s reactions and warnings. Unfortunately, I didn’t read them until after my diatribe, but thank you all anyway.
I’ve also now responded to your emails - thank you very much for them too.
I’ve already expressed my glee about Charys’s results to her in an email and read back to a few grey hairs (mine) of posts to get the gist on a few things, but not all!!
Janey - Phew, is that Lesley a good one to have on your side. Madly impressed - what. Definitely a strong defender of your corner. Hope you get your work probs sorted to your benefit soon, otherwise send the “heavy” (Lesley, of course) in and let her sort 'em out. Am not sure what or if you’ve yet had your definitive Genetic results yet? Got a bit confused in posts with that one.
Bethy-Boo - I can’t help feeling a bit fearful for you, but that’s based on my own having to give up my own biz and professio. I’d have preferred to have done it with “something” else in place the other side of it, but couldn’t in the end. But, I was totally self dependent. If you are in a better financial position, with your husbands financial and mental support to you, then I too say, with gusto, “Good Luck” and go for it gal. As like everyone else has said, if you don’t need to, why keep bashing your head and having it bashed back. Still don’t know what you do.
Am gonna go for the time being, before I lose this post. Thanks for being “there” for me and still being here.
God, have I missed you all. I have ticked off sorting a car and had my eye op done on Tuesday, just gone. Had my pre-ops Monday and offered myseld up for a sacrificial cancellation, not expecting it to be the next day, but why not. It just delays my being “hot” on sorting through a pile of things that I’ve shelved whilst being “cold”, until I can get back to driving again. Not the painless, walk in the park procedure that I’d been told, and therefore expected - very uncomfortable having a dirty great needle stuck into and waddled about in your eyeball, even with drops that supposedly numb. Don’t believe it. That was the worst bit though. Am doing great so far, despite looking good for horror film rehearsals!! But then, I’d already had a few of those without a bloodshot eye. Just get upset or annoyed, grimmace, and let my shirt buttons pop off while my expanders expand. I don’t even need to turn green!!
Helena, I went all wobbly with you talking of Colin making his way out to the garden before you, sitting in the sunshine. Yey !!
Corr-Clair, haven’t quite caught up on what’s happeneing with you yet. Will carry on catching up later and give the old/young eyeball a rest for now.
Love to everybody
Bloodshot Delly - Mwahahahahaaaaa. Bring on Halloweeeeeen. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx pop, pop pop << shirt buttons!!!
Yeh Janey - that’s what “you” all call her, but not going back to the Fluffy Burlesque Girls line up, many moons ago. Have a wonderful day xxx
I’m on the train woohoo! Despite living in London for years, I do feel like the town mouse. It’s been so long since I’ve ventured out on my own! I straightened my hair in honour of being smart, had a massive hot flush after my coffee and now completely frizzed!! Hope you all have good days. Rubycat I meant to say yesterday I like being of same mind! Xx
PS Clair did you see me wave from the train?! Xx
Did you wave to me too ? You’ll go past me. Lucky you weren’t there yesterday with your flushes then…my neighbour was…it was really warm and sunny.