Hi everyone,
After just terrifying myself, by reading some articles on lumps and bumps with a Google search, I decided a more positive course of action was called for, and so searched for a forum instead, and here I am.
Around this time last week, I found a lump in my left boob.
I don’t know how long it has been there - I don’t check my breasts regularly or properly - so it was purely by chance that I felt it.
It is very noticeable though, and to me it seems big, so think it wouldn’t have escaped my attention for too long.
Like said, the lump is big and is on the inner side of my leftie.
After a couple days of denial, I went to the GP’s on Wednesday morning.
My doctor had no trouble in feeling it, and I swear I even saw her eyebrows raise, as if she was thinking “Yikes!” when she felt it.
I asked her, “Is it bad?”, and she just said that I needed to go and get it checked-out.
She made an on-line referral to the hospital, and told me to wait a few hours, and then ring for an appointment.
She then said, " If they don’t give you an appointment that is within the next two weeks, call me back and tell me"…
This call for urgency, just made me think more so, that this is indeed bad!
Anyway, I have my appointment this coming Wednesday morning ( and will it please just hurry up and get here already!)
I have spoken to a lady at work, who had a lump ( which turned out to benign ) and she told me she had to wait for her results for almost a week after, to arrive in the post, and that I wouldn’t find out anything at my screening appointment.
This being the case, I was going to go alone, as I’m not afraid of the testing, just the results.
However, after just reading through a few posts, should I be taking someone with me? Did she have to wait for postal results because she got an ‘All clear’? Are they likely to tell me there and then, if the news isn’t so rosy?
I don’t have any family, and although I have acquaintances here, my friends live far away.
I’m suddenly feeling very alone
( I’m 42, with no partner or kids. Not that I’m unhappy about that. My life is good, and I’m happy. Just wish my loved ones were nearer, right now!)
Flitting between moments of calm and despair, right now!
I know I should wait until I know something for sure, but panic keeps setting in… How will I cope with illness alone? How will I afford illness alone? - I’m not exactly flush right now, anyway!
Am I going to lose my lovely hair? Am I going to lose my lovely boob?
OH LORD!!
Hugs to everyone out there. I need one for sure, so am guessing you do too!