Standing outside the dark, dark woods.

Ah, Pizza! I am famed in my house for frisbee-ing pizzas, I see that as my culinary speciality and has been for years. I can burn a kettle of water if I try hard! You’d think I’d be able to keep it in my head for 10 minutes that there’s a pizza in the oven that needs to come out, but I have great difficulty not getting distracted. (One of my most masterful frisbees came out quite an even shape so the kids kept it on display on top of the cupboard, just to tease me with it.) And I can’t blame any of that on BC, I’ve been doing it for years. Also burn carrots fairly often, and porridge is particularly nasty when cremated.

Mary, be careful with cup cakes, someone might be along soon to steal a couple to use as falsies! (You’d have to read back quite a few pages to come up with the new use for baked goods, but someone suggested chocolate eclairs might work… all very silly stuff!)

Blue wee was a giggle, wasn’t it. I’ve still got a bit of a blue patch on my boob but now that it’s again covered up with a dressing and steristrips I can’t tell whether it’s fading. The blue is also mixed in with the yellow, purple, red and green of the bruises, so it’s difficult to tell.

Lif - can I have the link for your bikers - thought I had bookmarked it to sponsor when I got paid, but in true chemo style, can’t find it! Also listened to you on the radio yesterday (via iPlayer), so upset I don’t live in the area because would love to join the group, doing something seems so much more positive than sitting around talking about BC (although that does have it’s uses). Perhaps I can become an honorary member and join in something when I head down to that part of the world in the summer!

Sorry Icantsleepfairy is visiting but at least cricket on TV!

Love to all

SJ xx

Mary, if it makes you feel better, I have NO unwanted facial hair left (as well as some leaving that is V wanted). For the first time in a number of years, my trusty tweezers lie unused. Have done 3 fec and 2 tax- so it has taken a while. Lovely smooth armpits too!

Sophie, know what you mean about the ‘face furniture’ thing. Short of lining up some frozen peas, or perhaps fish fingers would be better, can’t see what we are to do. Mine are very thin now, and were always pale. Clinique does a very good blonde pencil. As you say, the brow powders are good - but not always compatible with hot flushes, specially the ones that you combine with wax! My top tip would be, get a good basic ‘nude’ type trio of neutral shades of eyeshadow. That way you can ‘build’ your eyeshape back up. If you use the darkest shade as a liner, it gives the effect of lashes. It also means you are at less risk of pulling or rubbing your remaining lashes off. If you DO want false lashes, the advice is to use only surgical glue with them(according to LGFB).

And for all you ladies challenged in the cooking department - mind you don’t singe the rest off rescuing burning pizzas!!

Tracey xx

Good grief, the clearing does look a state this morning - chocolate wrappers, empty bottles (from meds as well as wine), and strange, blackened disc-shaped objects that smell vaguely of peperami…

Lif, I’ll be searching you out on BBC Somerset when I get back later - need to copy your poise and flair, though I won’t be able to use sheep as a point of interest.

Got to go, helping a friend to clean flat after moving all his furniture out. Back to clearing later, bucket refilled with sand and lodged firmly on head. (I’m actually using a couple of frisbeed pizzas at the bottom to stop the sand from falling out.)

Mary Grace, I’m near Salisbury, and this particular outfit runs classes for women in Wiltshire and East Hampshire… if that’s any good?? Would be fab to get you on board, could you fib and say you live nearby, even if you don’t? Sarah (90210!!) is down for it…

Sophie xx

Tracey, hadn’t thought about hot flushes wreaking havoc with inexpertly applied make-up… hmmm, this is going to be even more tricky than I had already envisioned!!! May well end up refusing to go out unless wearing shades and baseball cap with brim pulled well down. Then will prob. be refused service in petrol station unless I remove my disguise… then resulting debacle will all be recorded on cctv and will end up on tv a few years down the line on caught on camera.

Maybe I’ll just stay at home for next six months, only venturing out to hospital appointments and to walk dogs after dark…

Or maybe I’ll just remember that one of the good things about hitting 40 and beyond is that you really can be invisible to a good percentage of the population anyhow… too old for ogling and too young to be barged past…lol

Sophie x

Oops sorry all for leaving burnt pizzas everywhere. As CM said you’d have thought 10minutes wasn’t too long for me to remember but I’m a little distracted. I might also be responsible for a fair few of the bottles… Eventful week, surgery, nodes appearing to be clear, finally received Decree Absolute (big cause for celebration!) and then suddenly last night the “whatif” gremlin came and broke up the party… “what if the nodes aren’t clear, results only 70%, what if margins aren’t clear, what if grade goes up, I probably need chemo and that’ll louse up my holiday plans as well as costing more in merkin glue.”

Think I fought him off by this morning but I probably made a right mess of the camp. Oh and my enthusiastic chauffeuring and shopping has caught up with me today. Or maybe it was frisbeeing the burnt pizzas?! xx

Mary- I’d just deal with one thing at a time! For me, that is going to be a large glass of red wine tonight, if my rotten taste buds do not make it taste like dog vomit…

Sophie, I know what you mean about invisibility! But I’m not quite ready to let this shove me into the pit of advanced middle-age quite yet! I might not be able to claw my way back out…

Tracey x

Ps, have set-up a chef’s tent, for the gastronomically challenged campers. All the gremlins are chained to the ovens, and are being made to prepare, exquisite, mouth-watering (yet nutritious) food for us all. I think I might even have seen the fat one from Masterchef in there earlier…

If you’d like the link to donate to bike challenge S-J, send me a PM.

They made it!! Delirious and sore and in quite a bad way but they did it!!! I was making bacon sarnies and strong coffee at 11.30pm last night for the quick break at Wellington…offered them my steroids but they just took the ibruprofen!!!
My other daughters patrner and friend joined them for the last 100 miles so there was 5 of them cycling with a car in front and a car with huge flashing orange light behind! They went across the Torpoint ferry at Plymouth and a stranger was so impressed he gave a donation …amazing!

With some money added in from one of thems employers they have made over £3000 for Cancer Research…what amazing guys…none of them had even cycled 50 miles before this…and it was 220 in 24 hours!

Congratulations all round, including the bystander who donated.

Cheryl

Scaco, thank you sooo much for torching THAT tent, I went back to it yesterday, but found a pile of ash, so had to turn around and come back to the camp fire straight away, will keep it burning for your return after FEC2 tomorrow! Loving the new pic too, am not far behind you in hair style, btw is there a Dyson Animal in the woods somewhere?

I don’t want to lose eyelashes either, but was advised against falsies on my LGFB session, due to possible allergic reactions to the glue and later on pulling out baby eyelashes as they try to grow back every time you take them off. I think it’s Benefit that does an eye defining palette, same people that do the ‘Browzings’ but it’s a bit pricey. I am practicing with eye shadows and pencils…

Choccie, hope you had a fab evening yesterday , sounds like you’ll be busy today too! Can you tell me where I can get a bucket of sand for my head? Wednesday FEC2… jitters are underway!!

I was going to go to the Pizza tent last night, but someone had burnt them all (glad I’m not the only one!) :wink: so ended up in the restaurant tent. Found a very nice little Malbec wine, liked it so much I’ve been out to buy some today, so may be indulging for a night cap…

LiF, have posted on Pink thread re hero cyclists, Well done all, Fantastic! Xxxxx

Hip hip hooray to the cyclists!!! Amazing!! I hope they can all sit down with ease tomorrow.

That dyson is hidden in a pile of leaves so we’ll go and find it when it’s really needed. It’s really needed in my house right now, but who cares!! Much more important things to keep an eye on in these woods.

Day 3 after 2nd chemo, massive woble tonight, the idontwanttobebaldanymore gremlin firmly attached as well as whyme and hatechemo imp buzzing around my head…Usually so positive so come on…whose hogging all the feel good fairies, please can I borrow them just for a little while…please send them to the tent flying the black flag (the one with all the cig smoke escaping from the flaps) Thanks guys, hope wont need them too long but reckon another night of insomnia is in store…Love Alison x

Hi Alison, I’ve sent you the sleepthrothenight fairy and told her to give you my love at the same time. I shall be following in your footsteps shortly.

CONGRATULATIONS to the cyclists and Thank You!

I’ve managed to cremate several truckloads of pizza - They DO make excellent frisbees and it doesn’t matter if the local hell hounds nick 'em down the park! I’m thinking I’ll be meeting the local fire brigade again once I’m on chemobrain! (Last time it was the car in the middle of A272, chaos reigned)

love & hugs
Helen

…am I glad I’m not them but WOW! Well done. Virtual sponge cushions and rings on their way. Know for a fact that all gremlins and witches are toooo tired to be arsey tonight, so sleep well, Barbara

Alison, I’m sending you a calming Lavender Fairy for tonight, she’ll help even if you can’t sleep. She comes with shoulders to lean on, tissues if you need them and has an ‘It’sGonnaBeAlright’ blanket to wrap you in. ((((((hugs)))))

Anyone seen a tent with a fluid retention zapping elf in it! I am swollen all over particularly my legs and ankles…bloomin tax again methinks!

Hi Alison, sending the Haveagoodrest and Feelbetterinthemorning fairies your way.
Funny how the gremlins sneak up at night, I’ll go out and Stoke up all the fires to scare them away.

Along with burning various delicacies I could do with some kind of dry cleaning tent (for me not my clothes) as my clingfilm dressings itch like heck and smell truly revolting. I dont get dressings off til Tuesday and am meant to be meeting friends tomorrow. Without putting too fine a point on it, bathing in a few inches or hokey kokey’ing in and out of shower have left me smelling like a pole cat (though come to think about it I don’t actually know what a pole cat smells like - is it American for skunk (animal not the type you smoke) or something different).

Must stop the inane ramblings and get back to the itching and firelighting.

Love and sweet dreams to all fellow campers xx

For all you frisbee makers - get a wee timer that doesn’t go off til you switch it off ! I’ve not even started chemo yet and my memory has gone already.
I’m still baking like crazy but after visitors have gone tomorrow (they expect loads of home baking) it’s back to healthy eating! Did I tell you I’ve put back on about 10lbs since diagnosis!

A wee timer, now there’s an idea :wink: I’ve been trying to drink more water and I reckon I could set a record. Is there a special category for blue wee?

Seriously though it’s a great idea although usually I’m not too bad, it was just the night before surgery and everyone kept ringing, my sister was here to spring me from jail (Erm hospital, rather) and I burnt three in a row by thinking they needed just a minute more and then remembering again just too late.

Can we do a weight transfer? I have lost a load since dx and I was scrawny to start with!