Is there a selfimagefairy in the woods - im having all sorts of thoughts wanting to think ahead to when the chemo starts, want to be well armed before i venture into these woods, does the selfimagefairy light the way? Shar x
Good luck for tomorrow Mary, I hope all goes well for you.
I was a Pixie and yep, had the very short brown dress and the cold legs to go with it, could have used some leg-warmers then!
Hope the new eyebrow is staying put and the other one has fallen in love with it and decided to stay!
MG - hope BF is behaving himself and running round after you. xx
Off to see BCN tomo to get rogue stitches taken out - wish she could have seen me earlier but hey ho, They kinda go with the Breast Angels as they’re purple!
Sleep well everyone.
xxHelenxx
Thanks everybody- better get to bed now.My daughter is taking me tomorrow and while I’m away OH is going to clean floors and everything else in bedroom and daughter and grandaughter going to change all the be. Going to try and let them spoil me although it’s usually the other way round.Not doing well with the merkin- can’t concentrate but I’ll get back to it.
After all your thoughtful posts Iknow what to expect and forewarned is forearmed. Talking about which as I’m a footsoldier in these bloomin woods what is my weapon?
Mary, flamethrowers are standard issue. The gremlins, witches, ghouls, imps, sprites and monsters don’t like them much.
And look what my little guests in the bakery yurt have made (with a bit of help from mummy, of course). My profile pic is currently of the cakes that will be sold at girlies’ school tomorrow, proceeds to BCC.
I reckon we could spare some virtual cakes, so dive in and help yourselves, they have special chemo-SE-reducing properties. Particularly the boobie cakes which have pale pink icing with cherry nipples.
Good luck Mary, hope all goes well tomorrow.
Your weapon can be whatever you choose just so long as it keeps any gremlins at bay. I find music and laughter good weapons, keeping busy, the love of family and friends, this forum but you could also choose a wacking big flame thrower and blast the gremlins to smithereens xx
CM fantastic effort with the cakes! You must be so proud of your girlies! Xx
I DID help! And I’m also feeling very virtuous as I didn’t eat any of the cakes (just three cherries).
CM your efforts are absolutely above and beyond. Though I have promised myself that I will put back into bc charities, I can barely think about what I’m doing let alone taking on other things at the moment. What you are doing with media, haircuts, cake sales and so on is just extraordinary xx
It’s all just doing SOMETHING while I’m waiting for the chemo truck. The waiting is driving me bonkers, so I might as well do something useful in the meantime. I know I’m not likely to be up to doing anything once that truck arrives so don’t feel bad that you’re not doing stuff, because you ARE, you’re working hard at coping with the treatment, and that’s a very tough job.
The media stuff happened by accident almost (I blame the sleepless night I’d had just before I sent off that impromptu email) and the hair stuff is my daughter, not me. Cakes was my other small one’s idea, I’ve just helped a bit (and paid for the ingredients - not cheap making all those cakes!)
Mary,
hope all goes well for tomorrow, will be joining you on Wednesday so off to bed for me now as have to be at hospital for 8.30 am for Ecg, blood tests & Xrays before chemo can happen 
Night all
Sarah.xx
morning ladies,
good luck for tomorrow Sarah,
love and hugs
Donna xx
I hope the tests are done swiftly and efficiently, and mean no delays. Generally all this just establishes your baseline, so they know what they are measuring against as you go through treatment.
Good luck, and good luck with FEC1, Mary and Sarah. I hope you get off as lightly as I did, and don’t have to sit around waiting so long.
Cheryl
Hoping the GoodNight’sSleep fairy has been visiting (well, some of you, she wasn’t at my place for long enough!) so visits to the Big Bad Hospital go well.
Goodnightssleep spent most of the night at my house, bless her, aided by two small glasses of wine with supper. (Take that, press reports!) I’m used to waking briefly at the end of a sleep cycle and falling asleep again in a few minutes 2-3 times a night, so this was a welcome return to normal.
I’m sure she’s got sisters–do you think they’ve gone to the Med to escape the storms? Or maybe they’ve been trapped by falling branches somewhere out in the woods.
Cheryl
Morning All
I have had a splendidly normal weekend.
Shar - the Selfimage fairy - known in the woods as WhatTheF**kAreYouLookingAt? is alive and well. She arrived with me last week and encouraged - nay, told! - me to shave my hair off. So, in an act of liberation I did. Hah! I thought. That’ll show you!! No guard on the clippers. I wore my wig twice but it was so itchy i kept scratching it, which then made it cock-eyed, which then made me think everyone kept looking and thinking: “Is that woman wearing a wig? Is she? Oy - Are you wearing a wig?” which seemed to defeat the object of going incognito. So now i go ‘Commando’. The theory being people will look and say:“good grief - there’s a bald woman” and then leave it. Of course I can counter this by going shopping naked apart from said Breast Angel’s merkin (red with three purple strands attached with beads on the end) and a strategically placed boa.
Welcome Sue, glad you found us. You should be warned, eyebrows are not as loyal as some other areas of hair and can’t be trusted. It’s in times like these that you come to realise who you can rely on.
The poem was v. lovely Had an idea for an anthem myself.
Sing to ‘land of hope and glory’
Land of Tax and Fec
We are now within
But we all can cope
if we drink the gin.
one more step forward
we are on our way
we will do it together
facing day by day
once we’re thru the woods
our journey will be done
the dark days will be behind us
and then its just fun, fun, fun!
End with a rousing ‘Huzzah!!!’, a few revs on the bikes and a jingling of merkin beads.
Good luck to all with their FEC/Tax. My advice is drink, drink, drink (1st time here to say anything but booze!!) I didn’t have many SEs with FEC1 and none with 2. Obviously this situation can change any minute but think the water-logged approach is helping.
x
Like the anthem SCACO! Silvershar I agree with SCACO about the Whathef*ckareyoulookingat fairy. I have needed her services several times already.
Probably others among you have had similar experiences, there is little dignity in bc. I found rubbing one breast whilst sitting in a cafe (to make the SNB radioactive stuff disperse) gets you some odd looks, as did my first visit this morning to the doctors “hello I need to arrange an appointment to get my coil removed” (that woke up a few teenagers and middle aged men in the doctor’s waiting room).
I decided there are too approaches, either smiling sweetly and trying to look pathetic, maybe coughing and trying to look consumptive at the same time (gets you seats on buses) or my own favoured belligerent “what about it” expression.
Maybe wearing of the Breast Angels biker jacket with strategically placed studs and henna tatoos might enhance this (thankfully temporary) new image.
SCACO ROFLMAO just love the idea of stripping off (bar merkin of course)to distract attention from hair loss. Don’t worry we will club together to post bail for anyone who runs foul of the law with this one! xx
Hiya all,
I really hope everyone starting Chemo today has not had a rough ride and it continues to go OK, I’ll currently be joining you on Thursday.
rotfl at Mary Grace’s description of breast rubbing, been spotted doing similar too and got some really surprised looks!
Will send Whathef*ckareyoulookingat fairy over, she’s been very useful in helping coping with verydarkshadowsundereyes gremlin!
By the looks of things I’m going to have to bribe the GoodNightSleep fairy to pay a visit at least once between now and Thurs morning, anyone know her favourite tipple as I’ve got tuned into Heavymetalchurchbells gremlin at the moment and am finding it hard to break away! Any advice / spare flamethrowers welcome please!
I hope the swiftest fairy went to hospital with Sarah today and the makeFECpainless one went with Mary.
lots of love
Helen xxx
ClearMargins fairy and ResultsMonster must have gone away together for a long weekend, they have certainly not been seen in this part of the woods. I have another song, taken from Annie but with a couple of minor amendments.
“Results’ll be here
tomorrow,
Bet ya bottom dollar that
tomorrow
They’ll be here.
Just thinking about
tomorrow
clears away the cobwebs and the sorrow
till they’ve come.
Tomorrow, tomorrow, they’ll be here, tomorrow
it’s always a day away.”
I’ve given up climbing the walls as I’ve got to the top and I’m now running around on the ceiling.
The surgeon didn’t take tons away, just how bloody long does it take to look at two little scraps of flesh?
GP was very good today as always (this is the woman who gave me a big hug in the middle of the street when I bumped into her on Christmas eve) and she’s going to write to my surgeon to ask when chemo is likely to start so she can get me referred to the Royal Marsden for a portacath if my hospital won’t do it.
Because Results Monster and ClearMargins fairy have been absent for so long, ThisIsNotHappeningToMe has taken up residence and is trying desperately to shove my head back in my bucket and is filling it up with sand. Unfortunately she’s not doing too well on getting the head back in the sand but the whole cancer thing is feeling very distant. But all the worry must be doing me some good. I’m in such a funk that eating is the last thing on my mind so I have managed to lose a bit of weight just recently so my jeans are feeling a little loose. Not going to last (like the haircut I suppose) once chemo starts, but it’s nice to get the weight down, even if only for a very short time.
Did you all enjoy the cakes? The kids at school certainly did, and we made £163.20 by selling the cakes in my avatar, plus a few more from some of the girlies’ friends. And I didn’t eat a single one - aren’t I a good girl!
Hi CM,
Can’t believe the ResultsMonster is still missing with the ClearMargins fairy. I will be needing both but not until I manage to grapple with the HowdoIgetadateforthere-excision Monster and the Admissionsnotansweringphone gremlin. I rang this morning as Consultant said he would fit my ten minutes on the end of a surgery and this - in my simple mind - meant soon!
Oh no, the letter won’t even have been typed and/or sent to Admissions and Admissions have an answerphone message saying “Sorry I am away on vacation until Monday 7th Feb.” Erm, I thought that was today but no answer on any of the numbers all day. No one even estimating whether this week, next week, week after although BCN said in shocked way “oh no, it isn’t likely to be this week.” Aagh! Maybe we can climb the walls together.
Excellent news on the cake front. Many congratulations to all concerned.
If I see the Clearmargins fairy whilst running round with my hatchet and flamethrower (not for any good reason but just because…)I will point her in your direction, but can I have her back when you have finished with her. I will also be needing her… eventually x
This is really rubbish for you 2.
There MUST be someone out there who knows what’s going on.
CM - could you raise this with the BEEB? It may be a nice contentious issue for them to go on the back of the news from last week.