Hi Caroline, have messaged you xx
What a great thread … haven’t ploughed through all 9541 posts yet, but no time this morning!
I’m just off to the hospital for my mastectomy: LetsBeHavingYou! is my friend this morning! 
Oh Morwenna, thinking of you, hope all went well
kay x
Hi Morwenna wishing you speedy recovery.
Well i’ve got a huge christmas tree in my tent and lots of sparkly lights and tinsel in the trees around the wood so we are officially festive. So how’s everyone feeling about Christmas? Anyone else torn between putting all the cancer stuff aside and trying to enjoy it and feeling really not in a mood to be jolly and see lots of relatives (really don’t want to have to make an effort every day to put on wig and look respectable, but not going to try and explain to my nephews why I have no hair). Personally I just want it to be over as my first rads planning scan is on the 31st Dec so wish it would all get a move on as this is the start of the final leg.
Anyway, I’m off to skip down to the JM with my bottles of Baileys, tia maria and cointreau as I feeling in a mood for cocktails tonight…will be going via the deep gorge by the woods in search of an elusive sleep fairy. xx
Cancer stuff should always be put aside once we enter the woods, after all this is what this place is here for isn’t it?
I have tinsel and lights inside and outside my tent and used the telehandler from Benchland to put all the twinkling lights up high into the yew trees. Hope they don’t keep the people who are nesting up there awake!
I think I have caught a sleep fairy in one of my jars tonight so I am off with my prize…sleep well fellow woodies
Morning Woodies! Been busy in the land of NED, so popping back in to say hello to you all (hope Morwenna is recovering gently) (By the way, newish reasearch says not to lift the arm above shoulder height for first week, despite what the exercise sheet says - reduces the risk of lymphedema - just thought I’d pass it on, since I was VERY diligent, pushed my arm up the wall at an amazing rate of knots, and now have lymph!)
bacon calleth… mmmm… Hi Katy…
have a great weekend all - I’m on call and hoping it’ll be quiet…
love
Jane
I skipped off last night to see The Hobbit, didn’t finish until 10.30. By the time I was home there were a few dozy sleep fairies stumbling around, I grabbed one and tucked her firmly under my arm. Fortunately she gave it without too much trouble (might have helped with me whispering ‘my precious’ in her ear.
so a good night for me and now off to the shops with my daughter for Xmas shopping. Just popping into the JM for bacon sandwiches before I go.
having a day in tomorrow as wig needs washing Lol
have a good day all
kay x
I washed my wig at night, hung it on the shower head and it was ready in the morning… ! (Just remembered it was summer though, so that might make a difference!)
Today is two years to the day from my DX and two years to the day from SCACO first writing about the Dark, Dark Woods.
Woodies all, please light your flamethrowers, raise the two-fingered flag high and make sure your merkin is playing the Star Spangled Banner in her honour. Then get down to the JM and raise a large glass - I’ll be raising a very real one shortly.
Karen - we’ll never forget you, our beloved and inimitable SCACO. Thank you for leading us through the woods.
Jane xxx
SCACO I salute you! You described it just as it would be and we have followed your light!
Thank you
kay x
I still think of SCACO, and every time I check this thread, I see the beginning, and her inimitable courage and humour/ She could never have imagined how much of a life-line it would be to so many of us.
Karen - we salute you… and miss you…
Jane
Thinking about you Karen. You are often in my thoughts. Your thread lit our treatment and your warmth in real life kept us seizing the moment with you. Wish you were here with us and with your loved ones. Miss you lovely SCACO x
Never knew SCACO, but so glad she started this thread, such a safety net for so many, Rest in Peace Karen, my two fingered flag is flying high tonight xxx
Flame light an burning bright, winter Pimms’ a plenty clinking at the JM x
Just back from the cinema. Watched The Hobbit - wonderful film and the simple line drawings of middle earth etc made me think of our virtual woods. My two fingered flag is flying high above my tent tonight in memory of SCACO (Karen) - this thread saved my sanity and brought some wonderful angels into my life.
Bless you all and lets all pray for miracles this Christmas xxx
hi all
just out of hosp went to c my onc for scan results on thurs 13th but ended up going in early 4 bloods taking as felt like i had flu n wen they took my temp it was 39 so had to stay in came home sat 15th any way its thursday i feel totaly shit n b4 i c my onc i c …dont even no who she was but me n my partner r ushered in to her room where the nurse stays n a mcmillan nurse cums in to us so we no its gonna b bad news n considering how ill i felt i wasnt gonna understand or fully take in wat they r about to tell me but just being told its spread, to lungs and liver. totally gutted cant get my head round it feel like im back at square one crying again just so scared cos dont no wat it means or wat happens next as only had one cycle of fec now been told il b havin dif chemo but it been delayed cos of been ill so will b after christmas …i supose at least now i shouldnt b feelin ill so should get to have a good christmas with my beaufifull kids just want to no wat chemo im gonna have n y i prob wont have radio now just remember her sayin il have more intense treatment n 4 longer sooo gutted cant believe its now in liver and lungs just wen i was getting on with it n looking 4ward to christmas they have to throw this at us been told its spread is worse than been told u have it in first place n iv got this awfull bloody cough sorry 4 rant just feel soooooo bloody scared all over again my kids r stil so young 5 nearly 7 n 8 want to b around to c them grow up love em all so much cant understand wen they say its very agressive but treatable good job i have anothet ap with my onc on 20th cant cum quick enough just want answers to questions i dont even have yet lol could do with a bloody good drink but imnot even up to a virtuall one at min whys life so bloody hard n shitty wats any of us ever done to deserve to b goin through this cruel shit x
dont no y that repeted sorry x
2 yrs today that I first entered the woods with my woodies by my side, will forever be grateful to our beautiful leader & creator of the dark, dark woods SCACO, I think of her often with both love & gratitude & miss her humour & strength very much.xxxx
Scarey stuff, Shawshank. I’d be freaking out too. No wonder you feel like you’ve stumbled into the dark woods. We’re here for you, though. If you batten down that fear and look around you can see our lights. It’s extra bright in here these days as we remember our Founder SCACO, but it makes it a bit more warm and cheery than you might think when first you enter.
You might also want to call the BCC helpline Monday morning. They can do an amazing job of making it all make a little bit more sense as you wait (and wait and wait) for the meeting with the onc. Call the macmillan nurse too, all these people are on your side, it is really what they are hired for!!! But for those times when none of them are available, come on in to the JM and have a drink and feel free to rant and vent all you want. Here is a big <<<hug> for you, you deserve it. xxx </hug>
Shawshank I’m so sorry, that’s awful. I’m sorry I haven’t got the right words, or any advice to offer, but I couldn’t just read and run. The woods have been a place of refuge for me these last few months (thank you lovely SCACO, rest in peace) and I hope you find some of that here too xx