Feel like a good long session on the vodka today so think I might just spend all my day in the JM 
, have had a rotten couple of weeks so guess it may be well deserved.
In the real world today off for a chat with my boss about my return to work * shaking at the thought * even though part of my thinks it would be a good idea to go back and gain a morsel of normality back in my crazy messed up life and hopefully might make me less emotional with something else to focus on.
Hope all you ladies are keeping warm and well hugs to all
Angi xx
Hope your chat went Ok Angi? Don’t take on too much too soon. If you can manage to negotiate a phased return, that’s the way to go. Get the normality back gradually, without exhausting yourself. It takes a while to adjust to what you used to do without thinking. I couldn’t believe how tired I was at first.
I did 1 day a week for 2 weeks, 2 days for the next 2 weeks (not consecutive days either!) then 3 days (= M, W & F) for 2 weeks, then 4 days (Wed off) for 2 weeks then 5 days. then it was the school summer holiday so I had 6 weeks to gear up to ‘proper full time’ in September. I found that worked very well, and Occupational Health said they would have suggested something similar, if I hadn’t already sorted it with my HT. I still get more tired than I used to pre-BC though!
Just been tweeted this (QI)
We could do with him in the woods to scare away the gremlins. Second thoughts: perhaps he’ll scare the sleep fairies away too. Perhaps we can use him in the Benchland panto (sorry,‘nutivity’ (sic)) instead!
Hi Woodies, I’ve been locked out of the woods/forums for a week 
Stupid forum gremlins.
Hope all is good, I have my work party tonight, we’re going to a nice hotel and I plan on having a few gins 
Gonan have a swift one in the JM first tho x
Have a good party jelly, I’m off out next week - have bought some false eyelashes for occasion, I’m not a girly girl so this this could be a disaster… any advice welcome. I’m having enough problems trying to draw on two symmetrical eyebrows…
How did you go Angi? I stopped work back in June, thought I’d work through the chemo but - ha ha - how naive I was. Had another surgery 3 weeks ago and rads in Jan so not intending going back until its all over. Took a lot of getting used to not being there, but getting terrified of the thought of being back and its another couple of months away yet.
Still searching for an elusive sleep fairy, if anyone has one going spare please send it my way - the green tent next to the silver birch with the decking, hot tub and fairy lights everywhere. See you all down the JM, think its time to break out the Christmas mulled wine … Vx
Hi all.
was desperate for a sleep fairy but the raging St Eroids kept them away. AND with the website down I couldn’t commiserate wih anyone at 2 am.
needing a visit too the JM tonight. Have baited my traps wih lemon cake made by the Nigella fairy, mind you I wouldn’t t recommend her, she makes such a mess and eats most of it! If I get a spare I’ll send them to your green tent VJ. Fingers crossed!
Any recommendations for sleeping while steroids are doing their worst? Any alcohol related ips, and others of course, welcomed.
off to my hot tub now, zebra print onesie is nice and clean, ugg boots brushed, wig at the ready- see you all later!
kay x
I’ll try a mix of lemon and chocolate cake - how could any fairy resist??
Sleeping on steroids is impossible - I asked for sleeping tablets from my onc while on the high dose steroids, they gave me tamazepan and I still didn’t sleep. Just downed several glasses of wine tonight so I’ll let you know how that goes!!
Can’t wait to see the zebra print onesie, I shall put on my leopard print onesie and we’ll have a wild jungle theme down the JM tonight…
I didn’t sleep on the steroids either, sorry. I used relaxation and meditation techniques instead to try to relax, but not always successfully
Well my visit with my boss went really well I have been of work since the 9th of May so the thought of goong back has been worrying me but now I’ve been in and had a chat am quite looking forward to it am not going back untill the 7th of Jan and it’s a phased return at my pace which is great so to celebrate I will join the ladies in the JM for a drink or 3.
Hugs to all Angi xxx
Glad it went well, Angi, take it steady. (With the phased return, not the drink or 3! :))
Thats brill Angi, nice positive way to start your new year off.
Here’s a little rhyme created in the wee small hours while trying to nod off …
O sleep fairy, sleep fairy high in the sky
Above the tents in the dark wood do you fly
Not a thought for us girls in need of your spell
As we lie awake worrying all is not well
O sleep fairy, sleep fairy we watch you prance
As in out tents we do the duvet dance
If only you would flutter within our grasp
Your precious wings in our hand we would clasp
O sleep fairy, sleep fairy caught you at last
Into a jam jar and seal the lid on fast
Come back to my tent and stay here awhile
Already I’m relaxed and happy with smile
O sleep fairy, sleep fairy how magical you seem
For now when I lie down at last I dream
And as I fall into a deep, deep sleep
Your mystical ways I would love to keep
But sleepless woodies don’t despair
I’ll not keep her long, it’s only fair
that the sleep fairy spreads here magic around
So don’t worry girls you’ll soon by sleeping sound xx
Brilliant Poem!!! love it… sleeping on steroids is rubbish. I asked for (and got) Zopiclone, which DID help. Only took them when desperate. If you’re into tablets, the Sominex ones are good (also, not 2 nights in a row)… It’s all hard enough to cope with, without being exhausted too… my oncologist was fine about that…
but the poem’s so good - you didn’t waste the time!!!
Who’s up for a snifter in the JM tonight? Having a quick one before we go out for dinner with fiends (or friends!)
love to all in tents tonight
Jane xx
Hi ladies, please google this newly trialed bc drug its called Perjeta.
Hi all,
loving the poem VJ, needs someone to set it to music so we can sing around the piano in the JM. Did you have any music in mind?
am off to the JM now for a virtual drink, Baileys Latte and Twiglets sounds good to me!
kay x
Thank you for the Sominex tip, off to Boots tomorrow
Has anyone else been listening to Poetry Please on Radio 4? Someone, perhaps Roger himself, has just read Five Ways to Help You Pass Safely Through a Dark Wood Late at Night By Roger McGough (From Roger McGough – Collected Poems). Pick it up on IPlayer for radio, about halfway through, if you can. I won’t spoil the punchline, but SCACO would have loved it.
bbc.co.uk/programmes/b01p6szg
You can find it through Google books as well: books.google.co.uk/books?id=hteooTTpvsYC&pg=PT386&lpg=PT386&dq=Five+Ways+to+Help+You+Pass+Safely+Through+a+Dark+Wood+Late+at+Night&source=bl&ots=_BU-duYso2&sig=K9-7Pp5kedNsYJ4bNl-mV-A7Geg&hl=en&sa=X&ei=t8HEUOGFHInO0QWgkYCABw&ved=0CDcQ6AEwAg#
Love that poem Mezzomamma, just popping into the JM for a nice large Baileys (mines not out of date, never have it long enough for that to happen )
Sleep tight ladies xxx
Brilliant poem think I must have spent to long in the JM was broken yesterday:( 1 too many I guess but was feeling quite grand abouut work and spoiled myself with a drink and can safely say not in a hurry to do it again.
Looking forward to getting the christmas tree up this week and finishing off my christmas shopping feel much more positive about things at the moment and the crying has been much less over the past couple of days so hopefully the tamoxifen is settling in
Have a great day everyone hugs to all
Angi xxx
Great to hear you are feeling more positive Angik. That’s half the battle isn’t it? I sometimes have days when the family say ‘your halfway there’ after FEC3 but when I can’t catch the Positive Thinking fairy, I think ‘but three more cycles of misery to go’
think Christmas does help us all
popped into the JM and stocked up the extra large knobbly Twiglets
see you later, hugs to all
kay x
Hi ladies, can I just say you are such an nice bunch. I know your advice to others has assissted and helped them. I still think this thread is bonkers though.
Hi nannabarb, I realise i have had the same diagnosis as you. I was both DCIS and Lobular. Im also HER2 positive and er and pr negitive. With 3 positive nodes. I thought I was the only one as I couldnt find anyone on this site with the same or similar.