chin up kerry - u can do this n yes, stop googling!!
ive been ok today - had a bit of a wobble just wondering “why” my ex went again but ive “managed” my emotions as best as i can. i do still miss him though.
have booked hollibob - ive adopted that word from you kerry- i like it!!- we are going to Devon and i am also taking one of my daughters to london to see wicked and of course we have york too - it feels good being able to have things to look forward to for the first time in ages. i do feel a bit guilty doing things while i am not at work but the doctor is supportive saying “you have to just try to do normal things to get yourself better mentally as well as physically”.
ive been taking tamox since start of may and not had period pains - just other aches and pains, particularly my lower back
i am not handling race for life stuff at all well either and some of my friends are raising funds for macmillan and i cant handle that either. too raw and close as you say. hoping it will become easier to handle in time so i can support them as i would have done.
oooooo kerry soooo sorry hun, your not being a drama queen, youve had a shite year. and you lost one grandparent, so its only natural to feel the way u do… no google though!!! try and use this time with your grandma xxx
didnt find pen, went and got one today the same, and told mom and she said oh u silly thing, its a pen!! its like everythink she gives me now is more precious since she has been ill
i get period pains, its odd, dont actually come on, but have cramps. isnt tamox a lovely thing, and for 5 years too!!! think the citalapram is working as the flushes arent as bad.
done a walk tonight with rucksack, and my feet ache. no exercise tomorrow. amy is 8 on sat, and its her party tomorrow, so im making cakes ect. xx
claire, try to think of the pluses of your ex not being around. xx
morning all. how are you all.
just packed the case of the clothes for hoilbob monday.
and having a break, , making plates of food up for Amys bday party later, its at a beads and button craft place. theyll make earings, necklace and a braclet !! i wanna play
Hi all:))))))
Notts - enjoy your night out.
claire - your husband left because he is a fool:))) You have done brilliantly well to get through all the bc crap, and you did it without him, and for that you have my respect:))))) Hugs xx
Kaz - i am trying to pack for holibobs too…will have to think of some secret signal in case we see each other:))) Are you taking the girls??? have you been to siam park? Its a water park, with a huge wave machine, mine love it. Hope Amy has a lovely party:))))
Felt awful this morning, all achey and wobbly, reminded me of tax aches. Still got aches and a fuzzy head now. Not sleeping too well either. Blaming the tamoxifen!!! Heads a shed at the moment as well, cant remember a thing, have lists all over and a very puzzled expression!!! Have got my bone scan tomorrow and something else that i cannot remember. Heyho - will get a phone call or letter if its that important:)
Kerry xxxx
Morning:)))
Sorted my travel insurance out - yay:))))
We get travel insurance through robs bank, he rang them and they will still cover me for everything BUT bc. Happy with that. Might be worth trying for anyone else in this situation.
Did any one watch the documentary on BBC3 last night, about the girls wanting to find out if they had the bc gene. Very sad. Made me panic about scarlett, how does it work??? Does it get done in the path report or do you need to ask?? Will ask surgeon on monday when i go get drained.
Kerry xxxxx
kaz - did you get to play with the buttons and beads? - it sounds lovely. i wish my girls were still little.
are you and kerry both going to tenerife at the same time?
nottsgal - hope you enjoyed your meal out. re alcohol, ive actually come through chemo with a taste for red wine - i couln’t drink the stuff before but i think my taste buds have changed and i seem to prefer it to any other now. I still worried about ever having too much to drink though after what my body has been through.
kerry - hope bone scan goes ok today and that aches n pains ease - you have got a lot going on at the mo. i start to panic that i will never cope with the same levels on “manicness” and stress ever agasin in life but people do seem to get back to normal life - just cant see how they do it yet
sun shining here. thinking about starting to get stuff together for hols but got to sort out jacks birthday stuff for next thursday - (he’s a teenager!!! aaaaargh )before i can get my head round hols.
hi kerry , posts crossed - thanks for tip on travel insurance. be interesting to hear what doc says re genetics when you spk to him. i worry for my girls too.
HI all:))))
Claire - went for bone scan yesterday. Was a doddle. Was laid on the machine and as you come out of it you can see the scan, i saw a bright patch on my spine and lay there panicking for 10 minutes. I asked the scanner lady what it was, it was only my button from my jeans! Doh!!! All that worrying wasted!!! Felt very silly and didnt look after that.
Scarlett got her school report, all very good. She got an average for dance, she is most upset about that, lol!!! The maths teacher had a dig about homework not being done as often as she would like, heyho:) Will add my thoughts to the parents section:)
Kerry xxxx
evening chaps
not posted for a while - been reading & catching up. everyone seems to be planning hols. Hope you all have nice times. I’ve been suffering the migraines & have had a spate of nose bleeds - not very nice. I worry people will think I’m about to peg it but I’m not!!! - I am mentioning it when I have my follow up though but am absolutely sure it’s nothing else I’d be straight there.
Sophie finished nursery yesterday so had some tears (me not her!) then met her new teahcer who seems lovely - they were very supposrtive about our situation & said to let them know if we need any extra support. - hoping we won’t though as sophie seems fine.
so wish I could come to york &meet you all but hey ho can’tbe helped. maybe another time eh??? still haven’t got round tobooking poenny brohn - must do that next week
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hi all - hope you all doing ok. ive had busy couple of days, doing stuff that i havent done for a good few months, like a night out with a group of girlie friends- had a bit of a boogie and a laugh. then been to watch les miserables at my daughter’s school tonight - it was fantastic. emma not in it herself but helped with the costumes. lovely to be out and about and doing things again.
jo - sorry you struggling with migraines and nose blleeds, hope they stop soon. you must feel pretty emotional with sophie moving to reception,it is so nice they are being supportive. when you looking at going to penny brohn cos i’d like to go - i could go week before august bank hol.
kerry - the glowing button on the scan must have been very scary. i think the maths teacher needs to be told what you lot have been through before she starts nagging about homework.
Jo- sorry to hear about the migraines and nose bleeds, have you had your blood pressure tested or don’t you think it’s that? Sorry you’re not coming to York but if you’re still going to the younger women’s forum in Brum, see you there.
Kerry, the jeans button thing made me laugh - although I bet you were scared stiff. As for Scarlett being average at dance, maybe they do some sort of sloppy jigging about and Scarlett is more poised as a trained ballerina. More likely though that the teacher couldn’t remember who she was and put average on all the reports.
Claire - glad you’re feeling well enough to get out and about.
Julie - hope you’ve got sorted at work.
Kaz - where are you?
It’s pouring with rain, which makes me glad I didn’t go and score for hubby’s cricket team. I hate sitting in a deckcahir in the rain with the score book on my knee, trying to keep it dry while holding an umbrella. I’m also really tired today and think I have a cold coming but I made myself do 30 mins on the Wii Fit. I haven’t been exercising much in the week as I’ve been tired after work so I needed to do something at least at the weekend.
Next week I’m doing 4 short days at work. I think my boss thought I’d be back full time but I told the occupational health doctor the truth: that sometimes I am v tired when I go into work as I don’t sleep well due to the Tamoxifen hot flushes. He asked whether I’d been keeping to the 4 hours I’m supposed to do on work days and I told him that I’d stayed longer a few times and taken work home once. I also said I wasn’t taking an hour for lunch; I was just taking long enough to eat my sandwich. I didn’t see the point in lying and saying all was fine. I know my boss has problems but it won’t help him if I go back full time now and then go off sick again later on.
How u all doing, n notts i dont blame u not going the cricker, , plus dont do work u cnt coe with, like u say ull be off sick again
Kerry when u go away, we go tommaz
La, ur doing fab with all ur nites out
Jo, try cold flannel in headvfor migranes
Kerry ps u made me laff with ur button
Amys party was ace n i played too, then we went for meal last night. .
Watched moto gp today after 12 mile walk, got to get practice in for my big 97 thanx for sponsors xx
My onc gave me generic testing form n they have called me to go n have chat aug 3rd so im a bit worred, , if we do carry the gene wat diff does it make now we have had bc. . Ive no kids , my sister got frm from docs, n they just said they can give her mamogram st age 40, , wat was the documentry
nottsgal - i dont blame you for being honest with occie health, they are there to help surely? sounds as if your boss has unreal expectaions of you so soon. be kind to yourself.
kaz - what on earth is the form you mentioned - do you think i should get one? ive two daughters. where do i get it from?
HAVE A FANTASTIC HOLIDAY
felt a bit flat today, just missing the kids but they are back now which is always a relief. i did a walk with a friend which broke the day up
Hi all:))))
Notts - glad you told the occ health the truth. You need to look after your self. You wouldve got very very wet at the cricket:)))
Hi Jo - Is sophie starting school in september??? Exciting times:))
Claire - sorry you are feeling flat. Hows Jacks foot??? There are threads on here about the genetic testing, think you need a history of bc in your family to get tested, and the % of being a carrier are very low. Ring your bcn, she will know what to do:)
Kaz - we go on thursday. The doc was on BBC3 is on the i player its called Josie-my cancer curse. Basically it was a mum who had bc, and was brca1 and it followed her 3 daughters through their deciding to find out if they were carriers.
I worked yesterday, just doing tickets and stuff for jewellery to go in rob’s antiques cabinet. I just couldnt do it, kept getting all confused and putting wrong tickets on stuff. Took me 2 hours. Good job Rob cant sack me:))))))))))
Scarlett poorly sick today, up all night crying with a sore throat. No one to babysit her so she will have to come for blood tests and seroma draining, which annoyingly seems to have filled up, Arrgghhhhhh.
Hugs to all.
Kerry xxxx
Ello:)))
Kaz - i hope you have a lovely holiday:))))))))
Does anyone else feel starving hungry on tamox??? Am blaming my moods on the tamox, glum, glum, glum.
Today i lose the wig…eeeeeek! My hair is maybe 3cm long, and actually looks like hair. Will get it coloured and styled and hopefully i will like it. feel very nervous, not convinced i look ‘ok’ with short hair. We shall see. Went to get my seroma drained yesterday, had loads in it. Bah!! Missed the bus to hospital and just stood there crying, mustve looked like a mentalist!!
kerry xxxx
sorry 2 but in on your thread! kerry, oh my, cant stop eating on tamox. been on it 3 months but WTF is happening this month? want/need carbs, crisps and basically total hi cal food. feel crap 4 wanting it, then crapper 4 eating it. the cheese is looking at me.got 2 eat some.poo! alex xx
Hi Alex! nice to have another Derby Royal victim on this thread.
I was craving chocolate yesterday but otherwise haven’t been eating particularly more on Tamoxifen. My problem with it is the hot flushes. I was at a business lunch today and had to wipe some of the sweat off my face with my serviette. I was literally dripping. I looked at the other people round the table and none of them had sweat on their faces (or the men’s bald heads). I hate it. I’ve stopped wearing any kind of foundation cos of the face sweating. The only good thing is the rest of me doesn’t sweat - just my head and face.
Kerry, can totally sympathise with the crying over a missed bus. I’ve cried over a lot less than that. Hope Scarlett is felling better - she doesn’t want to be ill when the summer hols start.
Kaz - hope you’re having a fab time in the sunshine.
