Latest addition to knitted menagerie: Tippex the Rat! 
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Keep unburdening JCJ, too much to keep to yourself cannot be much help medically but can support you virtually. Like your rat but it gives me goosebumps:smileywink:!
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Another chilly day here SNOW is being forecast today/night brrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Have to go into town but not in a hurry thank goodness, everything seems to take such a long time to do!!
Spoke to ED and we are not having Xmas Dinner, everyone is coming and we will have an easy brunch, even with all the help I just canât see me being able this year sooooooooo after lots of tears, I feel such relief!Â
GUILT was horrendousâŚ
YD says sheâs delighted and feels happy about Xmas now, ED says âMum, itâs only a dinnerâ it doesnât matter the most important thing is that we are all togetherâŚmore tearsâŚxx
Straight into the lake with that guilt Katy. Â Your ED is quite right, itâs family and friends that make Christmas, not what you have for dinner. Â They havenât yet passed a law that says everyone must have a roast turkey dinner! Â Iâm going to my son and daughter in law this year and Iâd much rather have some of her wonderful lasagna but it will be turkey.
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Cold? Â Snow? Â It is positively balmy down here, Iâve just been up to town and did not need a coat on. Â Nor have I yet put the heating on. Â Plenty of jumpers have sufficed to keep me toasty warm. Â I think that is probably about to change though as itâs supposed to be much colder tomorrow.
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Love the albino rat JCJ. Â Did /does your OH go with you to your appointments? Â If so, perhaps you could tell him what a support it was and that youâd like to do the same for him? Â
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Monday again. Â Another week of work. Â Just where did the weekend go? Â I did nothing apart from potter about, watch TV and do the cross stitch. Â Itâs just flown by.
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Soup is now ready to eat so I shall manoeuvre myself to the Lunch bench. Â (Had to get the dictionary out for that!)
Chuck the guilt - the alligators need a good feed or they wonât be fattened up enough for Christmas party alliburgers and allisausages on sticks! Â Can you suggest a pot luck buffet lunch, Katy? Everyone brings something to the feast - that way you get lots of yummy food but donât have to exhaust yourself cooking.
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Talking of exhausted: hit the ground running today! Expected to cover 5/6 class until teacher got in from early dentist appt. Got to school and HT greeted me with âI need to talk nicely to youâ. I thought it would be an ICT issue as mon morning is usually my ICT tech time, but no, he said 2 teachers had phoned in sick (we only have 6 teachers!!) and could I cover 4/5 all dayâŚoh and the Chair of Governors was in supporting the class and then HT popped in to âsee how I was copingâ (new temp HT) and stayed for aaaages. I felt soooo self conscious!  Had heaps of marking to do after school too! :-(Â
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Went to Sainsburyâs (otherâŚetc) straight from school. Did 3-weekly shop (including xmas pudding that I NEARLY bought @ ÂŁ12 last time that was only ÂŁ6. Have it!! ) then met OH in cafe for dinner - lasagne, garlic bread & salad. Nom nom nom. Home. Put shopping away. Now on kn****red bench!
Well, ladies, you missed an amazing sight this morning!!! grumpy in jim-jams/slippers driving up our road behind a white-lining wagon with flashing yellow lights! We do NOT have white lines on our road - so yes, it was a contractor using an access to the uni campus from which they have been BANNED. A night-clad and slippered grumpy got out of the van to enquire (very politely) what was going on⌠the site office told us to come this way, they said. Then I tripped up and nearly fell on my face. NOT a good start to the week.
I came home, got dressed (someone suggested I should have visited the site office in night attire - I think not) to discover no-one knew what was going on. Anyhow itâs all sorted now, and a head will roll somewhere.
Which leads to the real reason for this post - has anyone got over the hot flushes, only to have them return at a later date? Itâs adding insult to injuryâŚ
Methinks a nice long rest on the Cream crackered Bench is called for this evening.
Christmas is NOT a time for guilt - I have turned down 3 invites which involve 5 hour drives, and going Next Door with my famous trifle. The bairns are all excited. Uncle Robin and Auntie Clare will stop overnight in my spare room. Auntie Clareâs due date is 23rd Dec - oh-errr!
Chin up!!!
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Oh. Meant to say: OH spoke to ES & YD about his PD dx on the phone yesterday. He reassured themthat heâs feeling fine. Â Suddenly I felt so much better, though canât exactly explain why!
Hahaha Ali. I hope Dink wears her pink jumper and mascara (see my album anyone who hasnât seen Dink in her finery!)Then sheâd be bound to win!! :smileyvery-happy:
Haha grumpy that indeed would be a sight to behold, red faced, in your jammies and steam coming from your ears!
Hot flushes mmmmmm mine seem to come and go in phases minimal for a few weeks then crazy for a few, simply cannot work it outâŚ
FF how lucky, Iâm wearing the 40 jumpers and have heating on, thick frost this morning!
JCJ, thatâs just fab that your OH has told your children such a big relief for you, hard keeping eveything to yourself. You had a superly busy day and you have had a lot of pressure no wonder you are tired!!
Yep thatâs what is happening for Xmas Day, sounds awful but itâs not the dinner etc, itâs the length of time everyone staysâŚGUILT again!Â
Ali, glad you had your âhappyâ time with son:smileyhappy:!
Start hos appointments tomorrow, Mum has just come around and left me some pennies with the order to get taxis everywhere, more tears, really have to calm myself down xx
Sounds to me like you are like me, Katy, and cry at the drop of ANYTHING - never mind a hat- when you are tired?! Â Hopefully, these Hosp appts will sort you out with meds to fix the anaemia, if thatâs what it is. Iâll keep everything crossed that it all goes ok.
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Man came out to survey for cavity & loft insulation this am, while I was at work. Iâve just seen the quote and it includes a water tank jacket. OMG!! I hope he didnât look in the airing cupboard! I forgot he might and the weekend washing was âfinishing off dryingâ on the tank: ie it was *festooned* with underwear (and none of it dainty think Bridget Jonesâ Diary: âbig pantsâ!!)Â :smileyembarrassed: Glad I wonât be here when the installers come. *red face*!!
Hee hee!! Nothing wrong with BIG pants:smileywink:!
All went well today, have to double the dose of new meds so see how that works, if not there is some other new drug??? Will just have to wait and seeâŚ
Have to wait for blood tests regarding the B12 so wonât know anything for another few weeks, Dec sometime whew!!
Rainy freezing cold day brrrrrrrr having macaroni for tea tonight, good comfort food, yum and some chocolate yum and maybe more chocolate yum xx
Will have to spend this evening on the Lost Marbles Bench - went out for a meeting at 7pm, and found everywhere shut up⌠that plus the jim-jams scenario on Monday has convinced me that i need to have a good rummage in the Lost Plottery Shed.
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Ermmm - where IS the LP Shed???
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Lost plottery shed this way, Grumpy  ------->
Iâve put some chocolate cake in thereâŚshould help you sniff it out? :smileywink:
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Here are some marbles I found earlier, that donât appear to belong to me! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOÂ
Think everyoneâs marbles are all mixed up cause I found some but brain is NOT improving sooooooooo will have to search some moreâŚyum yum choc cakeâŚ
Have been sooooooooooo bad today, was in my jammies until 4 o clock, am all dressed and showered now but it soon will be time to put my jams back on again:smileyembarrassed:!
Aaaaaah poems hope itchy stops soon nothing worse!
My alarm clock was going off for 40 mins before I heard it this morning, itâs ridiculous, will have to pinch YDâs clock and have two.
Hos appt tomorrow this one a train journey, have booked assistance makes things soooooooo much easier, woo hoo xx
PS on the âsmugâ bench wrote out all my X cards today and one present to buy now, have bought all sweetie stocking fillers, oh so organised!
Aaaaaghhhh! Katy! Youâve *written* all your cards??? I make all mine - and so far Iâve not made a single one. :smileyfrustrated:Â Now Iâm panicking!!
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Iâm looking forward to a lie in tomorrow - on a school day too! :smileyhappy:- Zoladex injection booked for 10am. No point in going to school for 8.20, kids come in at 8.50 and Iâd have to leave at 9.30, so weâve swapped about (teacher I should cover on a Friday am had to go to the dentist on Mon am, so I covered her class then - or would have done if I hadnât have ended up elsewhere due to rampant lurg amongst the staff!!) so Iâm going in straight from docs. Feels really wicked! 
 Iâve earned it though: Out of uniform day today to raise money for school funds, and the tripletsâ mother thought it appropriate to send them in animal onesies!! 
Itâs been like working in a *****y zoo today!! Aaaarghhhh!!!
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Right! Off for my swim. Get rid of some of this STRESS!
Just thought I would stop by and see how everyone is doing. Â Will have to do some serious reading of past posts to catch up with you lot. Â So how about a quick catch up - in one sentence - how are you? Â My sentence would be âgetting on with life and enjoying myselfâ Â my reconstruction still needs work doing on it but my PS is off sick with a broken leg so it will be 2014 before anything else gets done. Â xx
JCJ all cards also have stamps on them:smileyhappy: so just have to pop them in the box, âorganised Annieâ thatâs me:smileywink:! Hope you enjoyed your long lie:smileyhappy:!
ST lovely to hear from you and even better that you are having fun! Jan not too far away but far enough nothing much you can do with PS having a broken leg!
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Well, had assistance on the trains which was excellent but why o why do passengers cram and push to get on the train??? It really bugs me that they cannot wait until people get off the train, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I was standing with my chariot waiting to get off and the guy that was helping couldnât get the ramp down cause the twits were all pushing and shoving, so so ignorant:smileyfrustrated:! Itâs one of my pet hatesâŚ
So def have Burning Mouth Syndrome and oral thrush, mmmmmmmmm, been so lucky this year, haha! Still have to wait about the B12 so it maybe that or peripheral neuropathy (spine issues and brain signals) already have pn elsewhere. New drug may help.Â
Away to try and find the âluckyâ benchâŚxx
Now you are showing off, Katy! :smileywink:
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Enjoyed waking up naturally this morning BEFORE my alarm (set 1 and 1/2hrs later than normal! :)) Â Felt really guilty sitting about drinking tea when I should have been teaching Y5/6! Â Penultimate jabbing done - but is it?? Just realised that my onc appointment is in June; expecting to end Zoladex in May - ie last implant in February, but wonât have seen onc to find out whether to stop!! Bit unsure how to proceed there!
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Had the **** scared out of me this morning! :smileymad:  Letter from NHS. These ALWAYS put me in a tizz. This one started âunfortunatelyâŚâ What? WHAT??? âwe have to alter the time of your appointment with Dr ⌠to 3.30pm on June 16th 1014â.  IS THAT ALL?  WAS THAT NECESSARY? Appointment was at 3.20pm, 16th June anyway! They have already sent me a letter to change the doctor.  Itâs SEVEN MONTHS away. It could change again by then! Have they any idea at all what goes on in our heads after a BC dx?? Grrrr
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Katy, talking to my (new, temporary) HT this morning (felt I had to explain why I was late) and he says he has 3-monthly injections that âkeep him aliveâ too! Vitamin B12 injections!!  I immediately thought of you. What a co-incidence?!  He said he was soooooo ill: couldnât even get upstairs, barely knew his own name, and they thought he was a goner. This was 12 years ago and, honestly, he looks the picture of health now. Plays golf regularly and seems to manage to trot around school OK, and bob off on holidays!  He retired from another HT post and is helping us out short-term, so I guess he must be at least in his late 60s if not older. Just thought you might like to know that!
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Have a good weekend everyone. Iâm going to make my Christmas cake tomorrow!
I hope you remembered to get some of those pixie slippers for the camels, Ali? Dinkâll love them. :smileytongue:
Oh what a beautiful morning!!! and the rest of the day⌠so took Our Millie to - wait for it - to Morecambe for a walk along the prom and a cuppa at Ritaâs Cafe!!! Felt quite sentimental - aaah.
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Civic Trust AGM this evening, will be a tad boring, but drinks in the pub afterwards is good fun.
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Christmas??? Whatâs that??? This house doesnât do cards and presents any more, so I send a nice cheque to my friend Ruth who is a medical missionary in Zambia for the local children to have a nice time. Bless them, it doesnât take much - a teddy and a scarf to play Mum and Baby, a football and a pair of shorts to pretend being Beckham, some nice soap/body lotion for the parents, and jobâs sorted.
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hope everyone is getting appts/pains/vit deficiency sorted out - I am waiting for a letter from the clinic so I am a bit preoccupied at the moment.
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Happy Anniversary Ali:smileyhappy: your family will look so cute with your pixie slippers and bells, add the camels and that is a WOWEE surpassing all!!
Oh JCJ letters are horrid, your stomach always flips, you will need to give BCN a phone so you know whatâs happening, set your mind at rest. I am showing off hee hee but I donât DO cake making so Iâm not that smart!! I donât know anyone who has deficiency so thank you for your info, if itâs not that and blood tests were a fluke I will assume itâs all the meds.
Now my turn to be green, feel quite envious of your walk grumpy, breakfast at Ritaâs was lovely, hope you are ok, has all your snottiness now gone??
Oh no ch, thatâs not good, hopefully you are not in pain.
Well another sunny day here, really beautiful but extremely cold, am on the âgood girlâ bench, house half tidied and bedding washed already:smileyhappy:, buzzing around now so I can have a nap later, so there is method in my madness!! That hoover is still trapped in the dark, dark cupboard, itâs not getting outâŚsimply not happening xx
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