Stop feeling guilty, small rant (BENCHLAND) (Part 1)

What are men like???

On the serious side I don’t think anybody apart from fellow cancer people understand the fear we all have, it just sits there nibbling at what’s left of your brain cells…big hugs to you JCJ and hope you know what’s what real soon. Such a long wait for you.

 

ED looking better and safely home, she’s superly emotional today…GS had jaundice and ED has just popped up to hos because he has a fiery rash on his cheeks so just waiting to find out what that is.

Am on the “it’s official I’m a Nannie” bench GS was sick all over me, hahaha, had a crinkly scarf on and it was all stuck in the crinkles, yuckety, yuck, yuck!!

 

Freezing cold here soooooooooooo have just munched a hot scone with lashings of raspberry jam, am just about to search for the new bench xx

Thank you for the advice about the jabs passed it all on xx

Been feeling really sick all day again today with pain under my ribs. Colleague has been giving all the gory details of her gallstone experience, which while reassuring in that her symptoms exactly match mine, has not done a lot to make me feel better! Apparently, she had to wait months for her op, because they kept putting her off! The way I feel at the moment, I can’t believe I told doc I could live with it, and didn’t want surgery!! I’d have my *head* amputated now, if it would make this discomfort and nausea go away!! :cry:

 

 

Aaaaaaa JCJ, what a rotten time you’re having:smileysad:.

Can only send lots of hugs and wish you speedy scans and results.

Am quite into “the headless” bench, though who is doing the chopping?? haha xx

Katy, I think it might be grumpy doing the chopping - she seems very keen to wield bricks and daggers?! :stuck_out_tongue:

 

Off work today, yet again. :frowning:  I’m fed up with having to mess everyone around. It’s so ‘not me’!  Grrr!

 

How long do I leave it before I chase up this ‘urgent’ MRI scan? It’s 2 weeks exactly, today, since my doc’s appointment - my CT scan was quicker than that to the actual scan, never mind the appointment letter!

Oh noooooo am having terrible thoughts of The Shining, will she be chasing us through Benchland wielding an axe???..I cannot run…

 

Yes phone everyone JCJ cause if it’s gall bladder that’s causing all the issues you at least would like to be on a waiting list, then just slip in about the MRI scan. Have no idea if stress is a problem re gall bladder but obviously not doing you any good, phone them now xx

So…my daughter was right all along…one of us IS a mad axewoman:smileytongue:  And it could be ME!!!   Right now there are at least two people at my work that really need chopping into small pieces.  Incompetent doesn’t come close to describing their work.

 

Sorry you are suffering JCJ.  Get yourself on the phone, chase the scan date.  See your GP and get yourself referred/put on a waiting list for the gallstone.  Hopefully there may also be some medication that will help you to feel better. Sending hugs and I would put cake in the lost plottery shed but you probably don’t feel like eating it, so I’ll have it instead:smileywink:

 

Back again to opticians tomorrow, I’ve done exactly what she said for the last 4 weeks and it hasn’t made a blind bit of difference (typed that and then realised the pun!) so I shall be after answers, a new prescription and new glasses. If she doesn’t agree to the new prescription this time I shall be VERY ANNOYED and she will know all about it.  Hopefully it won’t come to that.  

 

Hi, ch280, hope your mammo result is all clear.

 

 

 

 

Geez, feel like wielding the axe myself…

Dropped my tea last night a curry, went all over the cooker, worktops, floor and me, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, then around half an hour ago dropped my special hot choc cup all over sofa, cushions and floor, and am really hoping that the big splash mark disappears, so not sure where to sit on the “grrrrrrrrrr” bench or the “crying” bench, or perhaps the “p***** off” bench:smileymad:! Am going to the chippie tonight to avoid anything else.

JCJ hope you have phoned.

ch280 fingers crossed for good results.

FF have you stopped shredding? xx

Am on the “what next???” bench…

Daughter still not right and they now think a piece of placenta is roaming around, tabs until Mon and if she’s still unwell a scan to see what’s going on, no infection but in a lot of pain. GS doing fine put on 5oz, sleeps all day and awake all night haha.

Off to the “worried” bench now xx

Oh Katy, what worrying times for your ED! Hugs to you both. At least modern medicine has the means to find out what’s wrong and sort it! I hope that happens soon.

 

I decided to give the hospital until Monday before going into docs surgery to see what’s going on with my scan. Today, the letter came!! MRI scan is Mon 16th at 1pm. 2 weeks to wait, then probably 2 weeks for results - and at the same time, I’ll be waiting for results from annual mammo, which is Friday 6th. Oh joy! How I love waiting for NHS letters??! 

 

At least I don’t feel ill any more. I’ve decided to eat as little fat as possible in the hope of staving off another attack. I don’t ever again want to feel as cr*p as I did on Tuesday evening!! So before long, I’ll have to be careful which bench I sit on, because I’ll be so skinny I’ll fall through the gaps??! :stuck_out_tongue:

 

Watch out fot mad axe wielders and manic shredders everyone, and have a good weekend.

I am still shredding.  The novelty has worn off and it’s now a chore but I’ve got rid of all the business stuff fron the attic.  Just working my way through the personal stuff now.

 

Visit to the opticians went well, had no reason to get annoyed as, when she tested my eyes yet again, she agreed that the prescription needed tweaking and the treatment hadn’t made any difference.  So, two pairs of glasses off to be changed.  One ordinary pair and one sunglasses.  Best bit about it was that as they have been wrong from the start there is no charge:smileyhappy: Hopefully they will be ready in a week and I can stop wearing the ones from two prescriptions ago which, although I can see fine, give me a headache when worn for too long.

 

Katy - such a difficult time for you, bench hopping between delight in your grandson but worrying about your daughter.  Hope she gets sorted out pdq.

 

JCJ - so glad you are feeling better.  I think keeping off fats is a very good idea and if you fall through any gaps I’ll come and pick you up!

 

TGIF and I hope you all have a good weekend.

 

 

Well that was a thoroughly depressing trip to the supermarket! :frowning: Wanted to get some low fat snacks for when I crave CAKE or BISCUITS but fruit just won’t do. It’s so hard to buy low fat stuff that isn’t either boring as h*ll (rice cakes, cardboard - sorry, crispbread) or packed with sugar.

 

I also wanted to treat myself by buying a snack lunch to eat in the car - to make up for not having my Friday night chippies. Everything that was low fat had chilli, which I can only tolerate in VERY small amounts, or peppers in, which I can’t eat raw because they give me evil indigestion! Jeez! I’ve suddenly become someone I despise: a fussy eater!! :frowning:

Aaaaaaaaah JCJ, at the very least you have your scan dates now…

Will you have to see doc again re gall bladder?

No goodies fell in your basket then haha! You can now sit on the “healthy eating” bench, the only bench I can never find!!

FF at least you can see to shred now!

 

Hopefully find out today about daughter, she’s a tough wee thing and this is flooring her, off over to the “worry” bench xx

 

 

Well my low fat diet is now in question. Too early to say whether it’s helping, but I’ve read (NHS) guidelines that show rapid weight loss can CAUSE gallstones - or make existing ones bigger. So, I can’t risk losing weight too quickly, can I?? *eats large chunk of fat-free sultana tea bread* :smiley:

 

I shall, presumably, have to go back to docs for the MRI scan results. I am going to ask the radiographer how long the results will be and book an appointment for as soon as possible after that day - should cut out a week of waiting? Knowing my luck, it’ll be while we’re away in Wales?! While I’m at the docs, I’ll mention that I’ve bern ill again and that I do need something done about the gallstone (unless, of course, I have to have treatment for “what else is going on” :frowning: )

 

Your poor daughter, Katy. I hope they fix her soon. It’s so tough with two small children when you feel sh***y. I’ve put some tea and cake by the worry bench - and some soft cotton gloves to stop you biting your nails. xx 

At last am off the “superly worried” bench, daughter had infection (not placenta) so antibiotics working, the stomach tears are significant and she will be in pain for a while yet but that’s ok as long as you know what’s,  going on, whew:smileyhappy:!

Have just munched a cake I’ve never had before a pastry filled with choc and hazelnuts, delicious!! Will leave some in the shed including a low fat one for JCJ.

It’s been snowing here, pretty heavy but sun is now shining and it’s slowly melting, snow always looks soooooooooo pretty:smileyhappy:!

Just staying in today such hard work pushing my chariot…xx

Katy - thank goodness your daughter now has some answers and you can get off that worried bench.  Pain is always more manageable when you know the cause and that there will be an end to it. And the anti-biotics will probably work quite quickly .  That cake sounds yummy, I’m off to the shed to get some.

 

JCJ - my daughter is on weightwatchers diet so I asked her about low fat alternatives to cakes and biscuits and she said MERANGUES.  Absolutely no fat at all and the theory is that one burns off the sugar by exercise.  So…if one doesn’t exercise then one won’t lose too much weight?  Does that make sense??

 

Got my son to come over tonight to pull out my freezer so it can be defrosted.  The plug is unreachable until the freezer is pulled out and I can’t do it myself. So freezer now in the middle of the kitchen. Once pulled out we found the instructions which say the freezer should be defrosted once or twice a year.  I’m NOT going to tell you the last time it was done but I knew it was overdue:smileyembarrassed:  Have got towels at the ready to mop up all the water.

 

Back to the fire doors at school.  I mentioned to my senior teacher that the fire doors no longer shut since the “opening/shutting thingies” were put on to the doors. She was concerned and has queried it.  Latest I’ve been told is that it is a Health and Safety requirement that these “thingies” are fitted.  BUT THE FIRE DOORS DON’T SHUT!!!  Has the world gone mad or what??  It’s an ongoing saga…I expect they’ll end up digging up the floors!!

 

 

Yep FF the world has gone mad, safety, what safety? That’s just ridiculous!

Am well impressed with your freezer cleaning after X amount of years haha!

Reasonably quiet today have visitors coming later so am on the “CBA” bench at the moment…dreaming of the choc hazelnut pastries…xx 

Have been soooooooooooo bad today, have glued myself to the “CBA” bench ALL morning! Prised myself off around an hour ago, mmmmmmmm! 

Off to the stroke clinic later blood tests etc woo hoo, soooooooo cannot be bothered:smileyfrustrated:!

My Mum is being offered a sheltered flat, we will see it on Mon, she wants to move in on Tues…and has booked removal van…don’t even want to think about it all.

So off to sit on the “laughing hysterically” bench, it’s near the “HELP” bench near the “am gonna cry” bench xx

Golly gosh Katy, what a busy life you’ve got at the moment! No wonder the CBA bench keeps grabbing you!

 

Had my 3rd annual mammo today and realised it’s 3 years, to the day, since surgeon told me “your cancer has gone”. I’d celebrate that fact if I wasn’t still waiting for an MRI scan!! Hopefully, just a few more weeks of waiting… Mammo results should be here “within 10 days: phone if you have not heard in 3 weeks” 10 days takes me to MRI scan day!! At least it didn’t hurt quite so much this time. Just a bit toe curling, not try-not-to-scream painful like the first time!

 

I’m on the kn***ered bench. Shlepping across to the hospital in the middle of a school day, and straight back to pick up where I left off, was exhausting. TFI Friday! ES might be visiting this weekend too, :slight_smile: if he can be bothered to get out of bed in time to drive for 2 hours each way! I won’t hold my breath. :p 

hope you have your feet up today, JCJ, you deserve it, still have fingers and toes crossed for you xx 

Well, saw the nurse yesterday and she said in the nicest way possible

that she thought I looked like s***!! ha ha, inspires lots of confidence:smileyhappy:!

 

Speaking to my Mother today, “well, don’t even know if I’ll move” (van booked and half her stuff packed) “just realised it’s your birthday, never mind I had to work on lots of my birthdays” (yes but you weren’t involved in a removal Mum???)

 

Away to find “the hiding from Mum” bench xx

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Katy!! You kept that quiet?! I’m donning my best Benchland glad rags as I type, whilst blowing up balloons to turn the CBA bench into a party bench. Glitterberry juice and loads of delicious sandwiches and cake will be arriving shortly. (Fatty food in Benchland doesn’t aggravate gallstones does it?! :p)

 

I’m practising my donkey on ice party turn, and I’m sure the others will be along shortly to dance around their handbags and/or do their party tricks. That should take your mind off your annoying parent?! :slight_smile: xx

 

My sister was due to start her bone marrow transplant treatment on Monday, but she’s gone down with a cold and they have had to postpone it. She:s waited so long. So frustrating! :smileymad: