Ive sent you PM too Mael xxxx
You summed it up so well June. All of us here are ladies living alone with BC. And us ladies will be there for each other through the good times and the bad ones. Mael and June think you’ve just made some life long friends people who really understand what your going through. We will and can keep each other going through this and learning to live again and not merely survive. Well thats how i feel. Sending you a whole lotta love. Dee xxxxx
Good morning ladies
rather sad weather here today, reflective of my mood right now
june, dee, kim what positive words from you
mael, couldn’t sleep for thinking about you, I know you will make the right decisions for you and no one else, and I totally get that. Whatever my lovely, I am here for you along with our other chums here. Remember my offer to talk privately still stands
sheena xxxx
Thank you Sheena and Kim <3
I am strongly against chemo but I may end up doing it if I have a lot of nodes involved. Or I may just sign up for Dignitas CH and go spending my savings and having a jolly good time for as long as my body doesn’t bother me too much. It’s not that I don’t believe in the potential of chemo or medicine in general to save me (ladies with nodes involved, I am sure you’ll be fine), it’s just that my particular situation doesn’t lend itself to sizeable sacrifices. I am sure it’s worth it for a lot of people, but not for me.
Indeed the weather is rather grim, after a sweltering hot night. I feel subdued, but not hung over, and I plan to get hammered again tonight. I am seeing a friend later this afternoon, otherwise I am free to mull over my disgraces, or, more positively, to do whatever pleases me. I plan to return to work full time on Monday, but I’ll have to allow time for the various scans and stuff. I am pleased they agreed to give me results over the phone from now onwards: the surgeon is so robotic and the nurse uses only canned answers – so having to interact with them is already a negative, no matter what, not to mention the waiting time and the hours off work.
I am feeling meh, but, probably because of the alcoholic haze, I am not panicking, which is great.
love and hugs x
mael
Mael your words and situation really ring true for all us girls on here. I want you to know that we are with you every step of the way. We understand and we’re meeting up if you would like that? Xxxx Dee
Afternoon mael
hope you were able to meet up with your friend yesterday and had a bloody hood drink last night x
Hopefully you were able to get some stuff off your chest, that’s such an appropriate phase for us these days!
are you going to work tomorrow luvie xx
sheena
Glad to see we are all drinking up girls. I had a crafty few Guinness for medicinal purposes last night. It really helps with fatique that i’m getting with rads. Thats my excuse and i’m sticking to it. I had a week of scans and tests too to see if it had spread. So feel for you Mael and yes Central London is good with me. June you must come down to London!!!
Glad Sheena you indulged in a nice glass of wine thats the spirit girl!!! There is a certsin liberation of mundane woes and the seemingly trivial worries of the rest of the populace! Has any of you found that? As you said before remember our mantra girls…in the words of Clarke Gabel…‘quite frankly my dear I couldn’t give a damm’ ! Repeat this ti yourself to anyone who is annoying you. Cheers Dee xxxxx
Good night my lovely ladies! It’s good to know that you are there and also knocking back the odd one to. Think I might have a sleepless night my mind is working over time
sheena xxx
Hi girls,
Just checking in with you all and sending you massive hugs xxxx It good on here but this thread i can honestly say is the best as just knowing i’m am not the only one facing BC whilst living alone has really helped me. Thanks girls xxxx
Mael! Dee! June!
Im getting a cat, rescue one! I’m telling you, this breast cancer business makes you do all sorts of things you won’t normally do!
I like the sound of the therapy mael, very calming
I’m off to bed as I am not sleeping well at all so will take my rest when I am feeling tired
love to you all xxx
Hey june!
Tell her, sorry luv, no I can’t change it, if you can’t make it don’t worry, me and the other’s will raise a glass for you. Honestly! PEOPLE,!,!!!
Xxx
June, I’ve got a son and an ex but I always stick to whatever plans I make unless I was really ill or knocked over by a bus
Friends should be relied upon, nuff said!
sheena xxx
So agree with Sheena. Balls to ur friends and their ‘commitments’ . You had BC this year and deserve a truly wonderful birthday. June your words ring so true with me. I feel exactly the same. Well we will have a glass of bubbly on ur bday and when u come down to London your having another bday party. Tell ur friends the BC girls are taking you out. And like the Queen you will have 2 bday celebrations! Xxx Dee
Mael good luck with bone scan. I was a bit frightened of having it. Had the radioactive stuff injected and then u come back 3 hours later. It was a breeze though. I asked to lie with my head on the side looking out as i’m a bit claustrophobic and that was fine with them. They said alot of people ask to do that. It was ok though and nothing to worry about and i’m the biggest wuss going! Let us kniw how it goes Mael xxxx
Mael how did u get on today? Xxx
And, June, how are you feeling tonight? x
Mael good for you think i’ll have a Guinness. Glad u found bone scan ok. You’ll breeze through CT scan so dont worry. Your bladder doesnt need to be really full its as kong as your well hydrated they see ur organs better. When they inject the dye they say it can make u feel cold or want to go to the toilet. I felt nothing and the scan is over in 5 mins. Its so narrow its a piece of cake. Hang in there Mael know how fed up u can feel. But at least after tomorrow - no more scans xxxxx.
Thinking of you Friday i’m still on my happy pills and their doing the trick. I have a pink circular days of the week tablet holder for my anti deoressant and tamoxifen. I call it my wheel of fortune!!! Xxxx
Hello and also good night I guess you are all sleeping now x
got the cat omg he is such a lap cat totally love him, pepper is the name he came with so am going to keep it
you ladies have been through more than me, no scan to date
Lovely to see your posts, would love to have a great big group hug xxx
Think he may bring out the witch in me Mael!
What’s your cats names? xx
Hi mael, ladies
how did you get on with the bone scan today?
I was seeing my surgeon today and got some unexpected news. I probably told you guys that the bcn had given me my results earlier cos surgeon was on hols. Clear margins, 3 nodes removed so sounded straight forward, on tonrads amd hormones
not the case, he’s angry because she missed out the part about the likelihood of having to have chemotherapy before rads
he explains why, because of the size of the tumour, the site, which is on the underside og my breast which makes it more difficult to treat with radiotherapy and mu age 52
so waiting for appointment with oncologist to discuss further, hopefully in 2/3 weeks
aggghhhhhhh