The agony of waiting will be over this morning...

In about 4 hours time I will be with the Breast Consultant and hearing the results of my fine needle biopsy which was carried out last Thursday. Since the biopsy I can feel a big lump under my breast which I couldn’t feel before, it may just be swelling as my breast is very bruised and still purple and yellow :o( I have tried so hard to be positive about the results but have convinced myself that it’s going to be the worst case scenario. I had a large brandy last night and slept ok, but my mouth is very dry, keep wanting to wee and am physically and mentally exhausted. My blood tests results were ok other than high glucose, so I’ve also convinced myself I have diabetes as well! T am seriously hoping I am a hypocondriac lol. 3 hours time I will be back in the hospital waiting area…I hate it there…I will post my results later. Signing off and terrified of the unknown :o(

Hi Daysie,
As you so rightly say, soon you will know, but the waiting is really, really hard and horrible.

Not much I can say really, except that once you know the results it will be a teeny bit less awful… and hopefully you’ll get some positive news.

Try to keep occupied between now and then, avoid google, eat chocolate or cookies or cakes or whatever works for you. We are standing here alongside you, best we can.

Gentle hug

Oh Daysie,

I will be thinking about you this morning, and really hope you get good news!

With much love,
Shelley xxx

Hi Dasyie

The waiting room is just the pits. Waiting for bi-opsy results I found really difficult; you try to convince yourself all will be well But the next minute I was wondering how the hell I tell my mum. Her mum had BC; her sister currently undergoing treatment. I hope you have someone going with you.

I’m leaving for the Breast screening department in about 30 mins as I have my first annual mammo this morning. Lets hope we both have the good news we want.

Lots of hugs
Lynne

Thinking of you Daysie and lynne, fingers crossed you get some good news xx

Hi Daysie and Lynne,

Wishing you both good luck this morning, will be thinking of you. Lots of hugs xx

Hello Daysie
By the time you read this you will know the results. I hope it’s good news for you, but strangely it’s a relief just to know the outcome and what needs to be done. Not knowing is always the worst bit.
I’ll be thinking of you and Lynne - good luck with your appointment too.

Daysie & Lynne, good luck to u both today, hoping for good news for both of u, be thinking of u. Let us know how u get on x

Hi again, Just wanted to say good luck to you as well Lynne. Am thinking about both of you!

Luv, Shelley xxx

Hi

Just back from hospital (only a couple of miles from office- very convenient when I had my rads).

Arrived about 20 minutes early but straight in; new high tech mammo machine took 5 mins for pics only waited about 10 mins after for radiologist to have a chat.

ALL CLEAR: what a relief it wasn’t quite see you next year but can we do you again in 6 months as a couple of calcium specks near surgery site. Look begnine, but as I had DCIS they want to ere on side of caution.

Just phoned my mum with good news & hubby upset my appointment was over early as he was back at office for a meeting he hoped to miss!

Now just hoping Daisy has good news all my fingers are crossed for her.

Many thanks for all your good wishes.

Take care
Lynne

I suppose I should do some work now; but brain can’t get into work mode.

SimplesL, that’s wonderful news… glad they are being cautious all the same and hope it continues to be nothing more. Why would your brain go into work mode now? Go celebrate!

Still thinking of Daysie and hoping it’s good news…

That’s a positive outcome Lynne, you must be so relieved. Just waiting to hear from Daysie now.

Lynne - great news!

I do hope daysie is ok x

I’m really pleased for you Lynne!

Let’s hope Daysie will come on soon, and tell us all she’s had good news too!

Shelley xxx

I received the news I had been dreading this morning, I have breast cancer, it is quite large, 6-10cm in circumference, shaped like a computer mouse behind my nipple area. Next Friday I have my sentinal lymp node removed for biopsy and some blue dye injected. Then I have 6 months of chemotherapy (once every 3 weeks) to reduce the size of the tumour, the consultant said it will make it easier to operate on, after that a full mastectomy, then radiation treatment, then a reconstruction if I want one. I am in complete denial and shock, have been amazingly calm. Can’t believe this is happening to me, but nothing I can do except try to be strong and go through it all. My friend, who is a midwife, said my condition doesn’t sound typical BC and asked me to check that they didn’t get the biopsy muddled up with somebody elses. My breast is completely swollen with lumps, which has only happened in the last 2 months, aches, throbs, stabbing pains, how could all this appear in 2 months! If anybody is facing similar circumstances, or already going through this and come out the other side successfully, I would appreciate and welcome any advice and contact. I will move my next postings to the ‘newly diagnosed’ area.

Oh Daysie I am so sorry you’ve had to join us. Just over 6 months ago I was in the same position as you, I had a large 5cm tumour that appeared from nowhere. My life exploded and turned upside down when I was diagnosed. I know exactly how you feel. Just to say there is hope, ihave been through 8 lots of chemo, it’s horrible but doable and shrunk my tumour to virtually nothing. Then 4 days ago I had a mastectomy and immediate DIEP reconstruction and am still in hospital recovering. Just to say there is light at the end of the tunnel, I will be going home soon to start putting my life back together and so can you. Huge hugs and please message me if you want any more info xxx

Hello Daysie,
I too am so sorry you have to join this club no one wants to join.

In August 2010 I was diagnosed with what turned out to be an 8cm start-size tumour in a very similar location to yours. I had neoadjuvant chemo (FEC-T) then mastectomy, node clearance and immediate LD flap reconstruction, then five weeks of radiotherapy. The chemo reduced the tumour significantly, surgery went well and I am now fit, well and NED (no evidence of disease). I have been able to keep working pretty much all through my treatment (had 8weeks off after surgery).

Obviously it isn’t pleasant, but it is doable, and there is an ‘other side’ of this.

You will find great support here, people who ‘get’ your feelings and fears, people who are wlaking, or have walked, this path.

Be very kind to yourself, try to do some things this weekend that you enjoy and lift your spirits.

Big big cyber hug.

Hi Daysie

Im so sorry youve had to join us, was hoping you would get good news.

Its horrible when you are first diagnosed and comes as a complete shock. I was dx 16th august, had lumpectomy and just about to face chemotherapy. Many said it will get easier to deal with once you have a plan of treatment and it really does. You will get lots of support on here so post as often as you want/need to and ask any questions. Also the helpline is there if you need to talk things through with someone.

Dont google there is lots of scary out of date stuff on there. You can get lots of info on here and read on others experiences.

Big ((hug)) for you x

Just wanted to send you a massive hug Daysie, the support here is fantastic and we will all get through it together

Jules
Xx

So sorry Daysie. Good to read some positive posts from ladies who’ve been through similar to what you are facing.
You’ll get lots of support on here and will no doubt go through many different emotions. I can relate the the calm numb feeling when you first get the diagnosis.
Good luck Daysie.