Hi
Feeling quite down and need to put it write about it. I have 2 daughters in their 20’s. The eldest hasn’t liked me very much the last few years - not sure why. She went off to Uni and didn’t really like us visiting and if we did she seemed not to want us there. I don’t know why really but she had a downer on me even though I was there for her and gave her everything I could.
When I got BC we started getting on better and she actually apologised for the way she had behaved and I told her then that it was okay, it’s in the past and we have the future.
Last Friday for some reason she launched a verbal attack on me. I don’t know why. I have got rid of a “friend” who had used me over the years which I have now got rid of as I feel I don’t have to put up with rubbish any more. My daughter took sides with my friend saying that I was being petty but I couldn’t tell her the real reason why I don’t want this friendship. Daughter thinks its because my “friend” forgot I was going for a heart scan the other month. My daughter said “it’s all about you isn’t it”. I was astounded. Since being diagnosed I have dealt with it very well for everybody else’s sake but breaking up inside. I didn’t want them to see me feeling sorry for myself, which I never have. I have included my daughters in everything.
I said to her it’s not about me and I have done everything I possible can for you and your sister. She said you don’t know the half of it. I was so hurt we haven’t spoken since. She lives away from home but has been back a lot during my treatment.
I am dreading her coming home as I can’t deal with the way I felt before. I was actually scared of her and of her nasty comments and the way she spoke to me.
Sorry to go on.
Liz xx