ladybowler
sorry only just realised you wrote. it was too dark so i pointed it out hehe! its very cold! 
haniban xo
morning guys still no letter as of yet ? if its not here tomorrow i think im gonna call the docs. hope your ok. sending love xo
charys
she said it should be within two weeks?
thanks though
haniban xo
charys
im just so scared and worried.
have work today ??
haniban xo
before i even got to work i had a woman screaming shouting and swearing for somthing by boss has done ?
morning ladies
hope u all ok, give docs a quick ring and see if u can ring breast clinic up so puts your mind at rest.
thinking of u all big hugs xxxx
sarah2016
im in work all day today 
feeling worried and scared again
:,(
hugs
haniban xo
sarah2016
i work at carphone so i end up searching on my phone all day i just feel like i know its gonna be bad news when i go. im 22 and want to do so many things and love my boyfriend so much and we want to travel. i only got my first flat with him in july. i keep losing my sh*t to be honest. hes on anti depressants as it is and has debt and i want to just help him and be young and happy.
im sorry im being negative
haniban xo
best of luck tomorrow by the way! sending love a good posative vibes and let me know how it goes!
just popped home and my letter has come my appointment is next friday - ages away. what am i meant to say to work! im meant to be in that day, i have to get a train to the hospital 45mins away.
haniban xo
just stressing and scared and minds overdrive *sigh*
charys
its awkward cos only 5 of us work were i work and only 2 of us work a day, also my boss goes out with my best friend who ive not be getting on that well with recently. think ill just message him and tell him i have a hospital appointment that day. and no i dont have family membors with bc. im scared of losing my boyfriend.like if he leaves me. like if anything serious happens. hes my world. i dont want to tell anyone else anything untill after ive been.
haniban xo
Oh yeah…that is indeed a bit awkward…well…you don’t need to share anything you dont want to; so some vague details of a 'medical appointment ’ will suffice. If questioned you don’t need to disclose anything…just say you’d rather not at the moment
ladybowler
im struggling im sorry. i just want my boyfriend to constantly hold me :,( hes not coming straight home tonight hes going to see him mum.
i hope you have a lovely evening and have funsies.
lots of love
haniban xo
ladybowler
glad you had good evening.
messaged boss last night told him cant work next friday had hospital appointment n he just said ok and changed the rota. i have work today, are you doing much today?
sarah2016 how is everything?
much love,
haniban xo
ladybowler
thanks sweetie.
happy to hear you getting back to work soon.
i need to get more christmas shopping done ? been to worried to think about anything else. we were meant to be getting a real tree ? and meant to be going christmas shopping day after my appointment. we shal see.
bloody cold! 2 degrees here in wales!
have fun wrapping or doing your tapestry.
lovess
haniban xo
Hi lv ive had fantastic new its breast tissue in my arm pit think its something ti do with breastfeeding but they said on the ultra sound there was nothing worrying so the lmyph node wasnt swollen like once thought xx im sure u will br fine hunni big hugs xxxx
sarah2016
im so pleased for thats massive weight off your shoulders, i hope im as lucky.
haniban xo
feeling very negative n scared today so many what ifs
not good today really panicing. crying on phone to boyfriend not long ago. this is the scariest time of my life. dont know what il do if it is what i think. im sorry. im just such a mess right now. not coping very well. just got bad feeling bout this