Hi Mel,
so sorry I’ve not been in touch for ages, been having a few dramas of my own! Sorry to hear you are feeling low this morning but I can totally empathise with you there. I am due to see my oncologist this thurs after my gp made an urgent referral after I went to him with some worrying symptoms.
Like you I am wishing my life away in as much as I can’t wait for thurs to come along so I can have my appt and get sorted. When I was first diagnosed it was at a ‘one stop clinic’ so I had all my tests and got the results within an hour the same day. I don’t envy you having to wait and I think its terrible that people are still having to wait for these results. How can they expect us to get on wih day to day life with something as worrying as bc on our minds.
I wish you all the very best for thurs. My appt is not 'til 4.30 but I am going to visit a friend who has just had a baby first to take my mind off it. What time is your appt? I do hope all goes well, I won’t tell you not to worry cause thats just ridiculous as I know you will, as will I.
Take care and let me know how you get on,
Kelly
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thank you Kelly, my appt is at 2:10, like you i cant tell you not to worry as it is as you know utterly impossible not to. ive tried to keep busy these last few days, ive had good days but then as it gets closer to the actual day i think it gets harder. you want to go desperately but then you also dont want to go too.
will be keeping my fingers crossed for you xxxxxxxxx
i cant stand this waiting anymore.
going for my US today, didnt sleep a wink last night, am scared to go but i will. waiting is torture. need a little bit of luck xxx
got the all clear from my US xxxxxx i feel numb tho ??? i,m ok, no BC so why do i still feel low??? i should be jumping up and down with relief shouldn’t I ???
not sunk in fully maybe. going for a sleep now as i am shattered.
if it were not for all you wonderfull ladies out there i don,t know what I would have done. thank you so much for all your support, understanding and kindness as it meant and still means the world to me.
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Really delighted for you. You’re bound to be shattered. All the emotions you go through with something like this and all the fears building up in your mind completely tired you out. Then when you can finally relax, your body just zonks out. Get yourself out somewhere nice and celebrate.
So glad to hear the results are good! Do get some rest - you deserve it. I’ve just had a phone call regarding my core biopsy results Mel, and have to go in next Thursday to meet with the consultant to ‘get my results’. What I hate about that is now I’m anxious again…waiting on an appointment. I had been told ‘if all is well, we’ll write and tell you, otherwise we’ll make another appointment for you’. Although I do admire the honesty in how they go about it - now I know that even though it might not be worst case scenario - there’s ‘something’ not right, and I have an entire week to worry about it again. This has now been 2-1/2 months since I first went to the doctor…a tad on the ridiculous side.
you and i have waited around the same time frame MJ, the waiting is terrible, it should be given its own medical term waitingitis!!! it really is pure torture. its easy for people to say dont worry, try keeping busy etc but as we well know its impossible to do that!!! just remember that there are many things that this could be that doesnt neccessarily mean its bad. I,ll be thinking about you and keeping in touch with you. you and so many other people have been right there beside me through my ordeal and i fully intend to be there for you xx
get some rest xxx
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Thanks Mel 
Waitingitis? I like that…well, the name anyways! My kids have their own little disorder once in a while that I call ‘painusintheassicus’ or ‘painusinthebutticus’
I have had a couple of missed calls on my mobile that show private number today - and would hate to think that it has been the hospital calling me for a cancellation appt. as requested! It’s my work mobile and as I’m on summer holidays now till school is back, I can’t think who else would be calling with a ‘private number’. oh well…
Hope you are getting to enjoy some of this nice weather - I’m keeping really busy - redecorating two kids’ bedrooms, did the kitchen the last few days, and getting out in the garden with the kids for ‘supervised swims’ every few hours. With five kids (two eldest come home from Canada on Tuesday) - it’s hard to sit around and ‘wonder’ and worry - so just ensuring that I’m keeping busy for now. Roll on Thursday…
Hugs right back at ya
MJ