Hi
Happy Valentine’s day to all you fabulous Flutterby’s xx
I got a message for Valentines day… from my son :))))) it was worth a million smiles!
Slowly getting my energy back after the onslaught of crazy shifts last week… and spent the whole day today on a study day for Infection Control… I nearly nodded off TUT TUT!!!
Had a rotten nights sleep so was up at 5 
still got this aching pain in my ribs and back and woke up really aware of my breathing and the more you think about it the worse it seems to get (think I need a good shake up)and still no results from xray its crazy how long its taking, but does’nt help the good old waiting room scenario!! AAAARGH!!!
I keep saying to myself no news is good news then start to worry that they’ve found something and are waiting for a second opinion Eeeek!! SICK OF IT NOW!!!
I have read on here that there is sometimes problems with ribs/breathing/tissue damage after R/T so really want some answers now, as some people say it can last years!!! SOB!!!
The gift that keeps on giving…!!! B****R
On a happier note the snow is finally melting and this morning I saw a small patch of grass again in the garden…
I’ve been feeding the birds all sorts through the last week and they are going loopy now as its all showing through the levels of snow we got 
So many different types of Tit’s ha ha!!! seems the only topic of conversation around here at the moment
Hope work was ok Em and things are settling down for you hon… xx
Jane I hope you managed to sleep… its rotten when it does’nt happen xx
Carolyn I think my running days are long gone now it makes me tired just thinking about it!! I have fallen down the ranks to walking now but feel so unfit, as I dare’nt attempt badminton again with my knee feeling so unsteady and the same with the gym… poor old achey woman that I am
Hope your all being spoilt rotten by your O/H’s take care flutterbys love n hugs xxxxxhugxxxxx
Hi all! Well that’s me done for now till Monday so gonna enjoy just doing naff all tomorrow and my lovely reflexology Friday!
Jane I reckon the fragile is just about right and being a flutterby we are all trying our best to flutter! Just wait till we take off!
ami I did giggle at the dog pic it’s a bit E.T. too! how lovely I can’t wait to get a dog we agreed when hubby retires we would get one as it would be too unfair to have one whilst working and bless hubby he keeps pointing out all the cutest dogs he is like a kid waiting for xmas! I knew you would be looking at comfort after all that’s why the lovely stretchy elasticated trousers! Those bras are a nightmare, I was told to try them for bed and ended up taking it off and flinging it in the night no don’t do uncomfortable these days!
Carolyn it’s rotten to have your other half away like that ,mine does sleep ins as he does 24 hour shifts in care and does around 7 to 9 sleep ins a month it will be a shock for both of us to have him sleeping at home all the time!!! How energetic rowing,running? I just about make a walk for about a mile I still get so exhausted but found a thread on the dreaded ‘H’ and felt better 'cos I thought it was just me!
Janice yes the lop sided look, I actually found that I was fretting about getting bras that fit properly as they do help somewhat but I will be going for the fillet for special occasions!
I am sort of getting back to it in work but having to get union involved was the best thing I could have done I also got some fab advice on here so between it all got sorted but you know what? I feel so let down after all the stress which was so unnecessary that I am questioning whether I really want to carry on, so I will give it a couple more months but if it is getting stressful I will be off I didn’t think I could ever be such a wuss! I kept blooming crying! But this BC lark has knocked the stuffing out of me along with my confidence!I can’t believe how different in many things I am!
Hey Jane I hope you are feeling O.K? I love that you have a great sense of the ridiculous! Where would we be without it? I have to say my humour does tend to see things around corners that some folk can’t follow but I think having been in the care profession for so long tends to make you like that ,it’s a sort of defence really and sometimes it is the only thing that gets you through!
Poor you Doz I am hoping you have got a little further with your results love it’s a b—er waiting and that won’t help with your sleep problems either! So sending a special hug to get you through. I so hope you have had some news now I just can’t believe they have left you like this but a big up for all the flutterbys who would have maybe struggled much more if someone hadn’t started this thread! (specially me!)I am sending you some of them there spoons I am starting to hide them for a rainy day! :))
Take care all and a big group hug to all Em xxxxxxx
Happiness is a butterfly
which, when pursued,
is always beyond our grasp,
but which, if you will sit down quietly,
may light upon you.
ami how lovely! X
So glad you enjoyed the picture. Yes, ha ha, he does look a bit like ET and ‘what a big nose you’ve got!’ What about this one - he looks even more like them!!
How lovely, Doz, to have a Valentine message from your thoughtful Daniel. Have you got your xray results? I was told 3 weeks for bone density xray for my wrist. It’s a long time to wait isn’t it? That times gone so it must be OK. The waiting’s horrid for you. Do let us know as soon as you hear. I know what you mean,…thinking about it….your mind starts to run riot. We all want to support you, Doz - after all it was you that brought us all together!
My running days are also over, I think. I can run with the Wii but that’s about all. Hope some sun comes out for you Carolyn, to inspire you and you‘re not too lonely without your hubby!
Emmy, I can just imagine you flinging your bra in middle of the night, and hubby opening his eyes in the morning to find it dangling above him from the lamp shade and exclaiming ‘Ahh, bra!’ I hope you both don’t have long to get your dog - chuck in the job, flutterby, and tell them you have more important things to do, like looking after your puppy. Pour your love on the little thing.
Not sure who wrote the butterfly quote but I thought it calming and so true!
Hugs to everybody, Ami xx
Love the quote! Been an “interesting” week. Tried to leave when tired yesterday, but did a quick visit to dying man first…ended up with one of his rellies collapsing on me in diabetic hypo!! Er… HELP!! Went back to office a bit wilted only to meet someone from mental health with whom I didn’t feel safe! Bed now…need to collect spoons!!!
Sending a couple from my emergency supply! Shhh don’t tell! -----O -----O put them in your pocket! I am having the promised PJ day! xxx
Thanks for the spoons Em - gratefully received! Going in late this morning, since leaving early is such a problem!! Done a day extra in the last week, so I don’t need to feel guilty… then tomorrow’s annual leave (I’m using up my A/L taking one day a week this quarter, spreads the phased return out over a longer period)… so, spoons clanking… sipping coffee… still in PJs, contemplating a bath… today is a new day… hope yours is good… love Jane
Hi Flutterbys
Can you believe it still no results…
Rang the Hospital and they say they sent report 4 days ago… My Dr’s surgery is saying they hav’nt received it??? B****R
Oh well cant do anything else other than carry on waiting!
Ami… what a sweet quotation and how true… Last year in Mallorca while I was staying with a friend we were sat near her pool (under brollys reading)OOOH give me sunshine!!! and a Butterfly landed on my book stayed a moment then fluttered off flying round my book then landed on my leg, I stayed really still watching it for around 5 mins… soooo pretty :)xx
Jane…we forget how wilted we still get I’m sure half my problems are due to being tired… we should take our own advice and be kind to ourselves, as Em told me, people forget we have not just had the flu and can’t bounce back as quickly… er hum cant bounce back fully. full stop!! Sending hugs as i’ve run out of spoons myself
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Em… You do make me laugh with your antics sweetie as for the bra I hav’nt yet found one that is comfortable so I just don’t wear them… I never have (boobs are the only thing that never went south) but I thought after all this I should… I ended up buying sports bra’s as ordinary one rubbed where I had cordng from op (Mondor chords) now I just get the stretchy vest tops from M&S a size smaller so they fit like a glove and hold everything in place had I worn bra’s they would have surely ended up being discarded too!!
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Well flutterbys having a nice lazy day today I deserve it even if I say so myself ha ha!!
Hope the mild weather is lightening your days and you are all well love and hugs alwayz xxxxhugxxxx
Hiya lovely ! What a lot of messing around you are having! Soo unfair as if you don’t have enough on your plate ! I don’t get the waiting thing as I tend to think someone somewhere must know surely? aarrgghhh!!!That was for you!Was intending to PJ all day but as got son coming I thought I had better look decent or he will worry as he associates PJ’s with being ill! So here I am just having a quick look about as you do! The bra thing was a total nightmare as it was the lympho nurse who said to try wearing one at night for some support,yes poor Col was bemused to find my bra rolled up at the bottom of the bed which he got tangled in (it was on top of his slipper!)as he got up! Now I have the taping and am amazed 'cos it has worked so well! Haven’t a scooby how but it does which is why I thought I would try for my new bras which I add are lovely got stretchy cups so they do the job for now! Though I have to confess to two things coming off after a day out shoes and bra!!! and not necessarily in that order!
Take it easy enjoy the lazy day and yes we do deserve it! take care all big hugs Em xxxxx
Aaarrrggghhh! Sorry girls had to do that! Just popped into local shops after son’s visit only to bump into someone I hadn’t seen since before my journey, she started well enough with the usual how are you etc I tend not to say much beyond I’m doing well thank you , out of the blue she asked "Well what’s your prognosis? You need to know so you can sort your bits out ", huh??? I found my inner b —ch who answered “Actually probably better than yours as I have people keeping a close eye on me, after all you never know!” Oh I am going to hell for being such a cow! I honestly don’t know where that came from! Mind you the conversation stopped right there and she couldn’t get away from me quick enough. Hmmm think someone will cross the street next time she sees me? I just had to tell you flutterbys I am still stunned by it. Now for the pj’s I think I need them! Might even have a baileys . As ever hugs to all Em xxxxx
Doz, as Emmy says, someone must know your results, somewhere. Can they chase them up for you to end the worrying! Try not to burn yourself out over it and waste your precious energy, flutterby.
Emmy. How rude of your acquaintance!! As for your retort, sometimes we surprise ourselves with what comes out, don‘t we? I’ve done it myself over things and then thought same as you, ‘Where did that come from?’ It’s quite unlike me as I’m usually smiley and too polite and let things go over my head as I think it’s usually not worth getting myself heated, ‘cos it’s me that suffers!! Try not to let it get to you, girl. No doubt she’ll be kicking herself when she analyses it! Enjoy the Bailey’s
Jane, after your previous stress, hope your day’s been good. I’m sending you a virtual canteen of cutlery for your collection!!
Healing hugs for the soul, Ami xx
Thanks for the canteen! Amazingly insensitive question! What gave her the right!!! Amazing reply! Good for you…
It’s amazing what a lazy morning did - I felt I could tackle anything this afternoon, but it wasn’t bad at all. Three days off now - great! Just about to curl up with a book, cup of tea, and piece of delish carrot cake… Should get the wings fluttering again!
Hope you’re all OK flutterbies… and that results come SOON!
Sorry to put you in the picture she used to be a social worker and is married to a councilor, she does get quite aggressive and likes to know what’s going on I admit to avoiding her as a rule but I was not expecting it so I couldn’t avoid her I honestly don’t like to be rude and like you ami I smile and can’t be bothered as a rule and like you I tend to let it flow over over my head but this one could not be tactful to a young mum who lost her baby told her she could have more so was wasting her tears! I ended up taking care of her , I never thought I would have the pleasure to see her reaction! And as I told Doz I enjoyed it! Some people should have their jaws shut ! Just a thought! She rides with hunt and treats us a subjects! Daft woman , I.was quite polite and tried to let it go but it was lucky I didn’t slap her upside the head! She is known for being very abrupt and very tactless and hey it wasn’t meant in a bad way but I am something she has no knowledge of ( small town mentality) so she did her best to get info to pass along! Ah well I think she will leave me well alone! Thankfully! I struggle with friends so a brash stranger is not worth the hassle just spoilt what was a good day! Take care flutterbys añd rest Emxxxx
By the way found a few spoons and as jane has a canteen heres a couple for you Doz --------0
--------0 tide you over! Big higs xxxx
Thanks girls got them in my pocket for the morning when I ring Dr’s and demand action… now thats not like me at all but hey ho from now on I’ll be the type of woman who, when she gets out of bed and her feet hit the floor even the devil says cripes she’s up!!! Hmmmmm!!!
Nite nite flutterbys sleep well xxxxxxhugsxxxxxx
At last…
RESULTS all clear!! woohoo… only thing noticable was slight difference in bone due to R/T but nothing needing attention! Thankgoodness…
Feel a bit better knowing that but now wondering what all the pain and breathing awareness is all about… are we ever satisfied once we’ve been there and plodded through this marathon of recovery??
Perhaps its muscular as we do do a lot of heavy tasks at work…Oh well I live to fight another day!!!
Upside is i’m still here
Spoons gave me strength flutterbys along with all your positivity I was sooo ready to “have a rant” if results had’nt come back… We do change as Em said I would never have had the hackles up before so maybe its not a bad thing OR is it!!!
Off to the hairdressers for a makeover ha ha!!! polyfilla ready…
Take care girls hope your weekend is peaceful and cosy xxxxhugsxxxx
Hi Doz
Absolutely brilliant news!!!
Thought this quote is fitting for you.
Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday, and all is well.
Big congratulatory hug, Ami xx
Phew! What a relief Doz!
Good quote Ami - variation on the theme of:
Yesterday is History
Tomorrow is a Mystery
that’s why they call today the Present
hope you’ve all got enough spoons… I just did a bit of pottering in the garden and half an hour was enough, but it was lovely. The crocuses and snowdrops and primula are out, and lots of other things beginning to burst forth… so mild too (today). OH might tackle cleaning out the pond tomorrow. And I, with my lymph sleeve on, reallyl won’t be much help at all…(shame! No, relief!) I can provide the coffee… just finished the carrot cake…
lot of love Flutterbies Jane
Bless you Ami and Jane
Was trying to think of a counter/comment/quotation and the brain went dead… nothing new there
Still feeling a bit sore/tender round the ribs but trying to get on with it now… going to have a chat with Dr next week sometime just to go over results and to ask just what the bone thing is all about, had a chat with a Senior house Dr at work today (been doing a couple of easy shifts one to one with a poorly patient… I know!!! I should be taking it easy but it was’nt too taxing, ) He said R/T affects the density of the bone and can cause pain, also it can weaken them, so I think I need the chat to just clarify things then maybe i’ll settle!!!
Yes Jane the garden’s are really coming to life now, snowdrops are amazing this year, lots of little shoots popping through all over and I cant remember what I planted last year again nothing new there last year went by in a blur, I know I had a mad gardening spree and filled it with all sorts so it will be a surprise when they all bloom its a cottage garden and i’m hoping I got it right otherwise I dread to think what it might end up looking like…
I hope you all have a brilliant weekend I’m working nights sat and sun so might not get to catch up with you all…but love and hugs flutterby friends, where would I be without you all…xxxxhugsxxxx
Sending spoons and hugs for your nights! Take care flutterby xxxxx