Hi Ami…really good to hear how happy you are with your prosthesis, that gives me more confidence that I will feel the same as you do…eventually.That must be a lovely feeling to feel no different…I know we’re all reminded every day when we undress but so long as I look outwardly ok then my confidence will improve. Since my op I’ve become anxious about going out away from home, I know its irrational but the feeling is still there. I know that once I have a correctly fitting prosthesis and look ok then this anxiety will go I hope.
Morning Flutterbys
Well i’m finally coming down after a magical Mothers day morning…
It was soooooo good to see him and get the hug
Tho he didnt stay all day as he had so many people to catch up with and his (girl) friend had picked him up from Manchester in the end needed to see her Mum too… But they came back later and stayed till last night so what a brilliant catch up
Vikki bless her has had a couple of bad days so I didnt like leaving her on Sunday so Megan offered to drive to Manchester!!
Really pleased for Daniel she’s back on the scene and it seems in quite a big way… surprising what time away for him (them) has done
Had my app, with Physio and finally some release from this blessed pain in my shoulder… the shoulder blade itself has lifted??? and is pushing all the muscles forward, no wonder its been hurting and happy to say nothing to do with BC tho she said it would’nt have helped!! Now i’m all strapped up with the tapes that sportsmen wear for the next 10 days its pulling my shoulder back (and hurts like heck) but its certainly taken away the stabbing pain from my shoulder and neck!!
I cant join in with the prosthesis discussion as I didnt bother to get one… my battered boob is ok really as the misshapen bit is underneath… and unless I meet a tall dark stranger one day I guess no’one will ever see it apart form me!!!
OOOOPS!! Did I just bring a bit of sexy talk onto the forum… tut tut shame on me Hahahah!!! Hope it goes well for you Elsa and hope you get a lovely BC nurse who sorts it out for you!!
D-Day tomorrow for Vikki as she is being admitted for Epidural pain treatment, then MRI thursday so i’m hoping they keep her in till then as normally its a day treatment, but if they see how bad she is they might get more on the case… I hope!!
Annual leave week is going well…not
Physio yesterday at 8.30am study morning today at 9am Hospital with Vikki tomorrow, ambulance picking her up at 7.30am… meeting at work at 9am on thursday MRI if she gets sent home on thursday night at 7pm SOOOOOOO what to do with Friday??? Think i’ll stay in bed!!!
Hope your all well and the lovely weather is fluttering those wings
Love and hugs to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxhugsxxxxxxxxxxxx
Feeling positive today…planning some pottering in the garden potting up fuchsias and begonias for the summer. Then I’ve decided to do some baking…the perfect quiche…well that’s what the recipe says!
Tomorrow is my fitting and I think I’m actually looking forward to this now, its another step forward…Getting round to thinking about work again, which is good but really anxious about going back too. Decided to ask for some more time off in the hope that my sensitivity improves as at the moment I can only wear a bra for 1 or 2 hours a day and I am not going back to work until I can tolerate to wear it all day.
Doz…glad to hear that the physio has helped relieve your pain and discomfort…and there is nothing wrong with a bit of sexy talk!
Glad you got a result with your shoulder and here’s hoping it improves quickly for you Doz. It sounds like you had a lovely time with Daniel too.
Poor Vikki, I’ll keep my fingers crossed for her too. Horrible to watch loved ones in so much pain!!
Ohh Elsa loving the perfect quiche. All my friends have gone very Nigella on me. I laugh now about inviting them round to mine for ‘nibbles’ and wine because they have started turning out three course extravaganzas and I think the goalposts may have been moved a little too far for me (although they do say they are still happy to come for some salty nuts and nibbles!)
Hi to Ami, Janice and Jane, Emma, Cackles because I have caught up with your posts too.
Well I had a disastrous day at work yesterday and ended up very, very grumpy with one of my pupils. I’m afraid he got a bit of a tongue lashing! Not like me, it means they win lol!
Today though much better behaviour from all phew. Didn’t stop me having a wee blub at lunchtime because things were and are so relentless. Too many deadlines and not enough time,but I am a lucky girl because in a week and a half it is our Easter break and I never take my generous holidays for granted!
My 4 year old is a bit subdued today. He’s not wanting a snuggle and was ‘hitting’ at the childminders today…hmmm hope he isn’t coming down with something!
Stay well ladies
I was very lucky Elsa as my hospital has a really good dept for prosthesis and the lady who fitted me found the right size straight away.When I went for my pre-op last week I bumped in to her and she says she will see me after my op to see how things have gone and whether I will need a prosthesis or not as may still be some deficit as not needing recon as such just re-arrangement of tissue.Hope it goes okay for you I am sure it will be fine.
Doz glad you had a lovely time my son won’t be home till Sept now but will be staying a while so will see loads of him.
Ami Emmy Carolyn Jane hope you had a nice weekend and being good to yourselves when you can
Love and Hugs Janice xxxxx
Hi flutterbys just a quick one tonight! That’s work done till next week and I am so tired! can’t figure if it is the ‘H’ or the job as I still get fatigued which is really frustrating but hey ho at least I can have a rest and lie in tomorrow. I so hope Doz is managing to find some spare spoons bless, has a week off work and spends it back in hospital with poor Vik I so hope they get to the bottom of things for them both! Will post tomorrow when I know where I left my brain! Welcome Elsa and twinkle toes it’s always lovely to hear from other flutterbys!
hope you are all well, group hug to all Em xxx
Hi Flutterbys
Baby flutterby update… just got home from hospital… without my little chrysalis but on the other hand
Relief that she is in the right place but lost and the house feels so empty!!
Epidural procedure went well, tho she was quite upset when she got back from theatre, she said she was awake when they did it and it felt like they had gone into her bones… i’m sure they didnt but it cant have been pleasant BUT some pain relief already tho she was away with the fairies when I left so hopefully has a settled night…
Consultant has earmarked Tuesday to operate he is waiting for MRI results but has said he’s certain its another ruptured disc!! That was a bit of a shock but I think even I suspected that… will know more tomorrow!
So much for the EEEJITS at A&E who sent her home saying it was just muscular…???
I have been backwards and forwards to the hospital 4 times since 7.30 this morning so the spoons came in handy Em xx
84 miles in total… I think I even saw myself driving back before I set off at one point!!!
At least now were getting somewhere and a good nights sleep is definately required by all!!
Shoulder is settling tho still a bit painful where the tapes are pulling it back into its rightful place… so wierd!!!
What a pair we are… then its eye time eeeek!!!
Roll on summer!!!
Love to you all wherever you are and massive hugs for all your support… Tomorrow is another day xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxhugsxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
THInk that’s good news about Vicki, but bad news too! Not sure what to say, and I dare say you don’t know quite how to feel: worried/relieved etc etc… --o --0 --o spare spoons for you Doz…
Today didn’t start well - put my card to the card-reader in the multi-story - only I forgot to wind the window down! Got over half way to my office, then remembered that my work bag/diary were in the boot of the car… Strong coffee needed! I was OK after that!
Hope the weather holds -got a few days off and we’re going to the sea… walk the dog… read… eat… drink… read… sleep… read…repeat thrice…
flap your wings gently flutterbies - don’t overdo it TOO much! Love Jane
Doz: Just a quick posting tonight. Just saw your post and wanted to say poor Vikki is in the right place now to help her, so I hope you manage a bit of rest tonight, you must be absolutely shattered! And yes, I can imagine it feels awfully strange without her. Hope your shoulder starts to improve now, flutterby and things generally start looking up for you both.
Got a letter for my 2nd years mammo today. It’s next Mon, same day as your op Janice!! With the 1st year mammo you wonder if anything can survive after the onslaught of Chemo, Radiotherapy and Herceptin? But come the 2nd, who knows??? Still, I can’t bury my head in the sand!
Aw Flutterbys… what a week ahead and passed!
Jane I can totally empathize with you, I tried paying at the supermarket with my B&Q Diamond card… oh no I hear you all saying surely your not old enough to own one of them… Oh yes I am only to leave bought card & chocolates for Vikki in boot with shopping when I got to Hospital, Car was parked miles away so had to turn round and go back, and to cap it all it took ages to find it…!! Doh!!!
I really hope the weather stays good for your weekend and you get to sleep…read…eat…sunbathe…drink…doggie walk etc xxx
Ami… 2nd mammo, crikey it does’nt seem long ago that you were supporting us for our first with tales of your own first one, where does the time go?? my 2nd is in Nov and i’ve only just got over the dread of the first but bless you…I wont let you down I’ll be there holding your hand and again I promise I wont look ha ha ha!!! you will be fine flutterby xxxx
Janice… I will split myself in half on monday you and Ami can have a hand each I do think you are soooo brave, I really hav’nt got the wherewithall to get my head round recon… I’m such a coward really and my inner strength leaves a lot to be desired lately!!
So I do admire you… you will look a million dollars when its over with but there again you already do xxxx
Em…I’m not surprised your feeling so tired bless you… work, H work, H its a tough combination to get through so sending a large spoon back so you have a lovely restful weekend xxxx
Carolyn… you did make me laugh with your tales of Nigella lunch’s I would be serving crisps and nuts etc too nowadays… in days gone by we used to do progressive suppers and one night the girl arranging it sent the same instructions to 2 of us so we ended up with a starter “2” maincourses puddings and drinks… it was’nt until we left our house after eating a rather large plate of Beef Wellington and turning up at what we thought was a refresher dish (lemon sorbet) only to be served up a Steak Diane…ooooer!!! No wonder I’m over weight now… years of abuse ha ha!!! I have to tell you I have lost another 3Ibs so that 7 in the last month woohoo… cant tell tho!!!
AS for blowing it with your students… they didnt win hon it just proved your human and it will have left them thinking even if they didnt show it… hope your son is ok and not brewing something??? xxxx
I’ve just heard our Ward has come down with a D&V virus thats going round… I dont want to go back SOB!!! Thats the last thing I need at the moment AAAAAAARGH!!! Had to put on of those in at some point
Well flutterbys the day begins with a meeting at work then going straight over to see my girlie and hopefully will be able to go over with her for the MRI so a long day ahead me thinks…
Love and hugs to you ALL we are getting a large formidable flutterby forum and there’s not enough space to write to you all but each and everyone of you are in my thoughts flutter gently girls big hugs alwayz xxxxxxxxxxxxxxhugxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Girls got MRI results she has an infection in her spine, Discitis.
Will not be coming home for a while now and may need surgery as it has destroyed a disc with being left so long… not the best of days
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Aaww Doz… everything seems to come upon us at once sometimes. Horrible day for you all, but… treatment will now begin, in order to heal Vikki. Makes you feel so flat, doesn’t it? I’m thinking of you both. Hope tomorrow will bring a chink of sunshine for you, flower.
Love and a big big hug
Ami xx
So sorry lovely what a bummer! I am being polite! At least you now know what it is now, am sending you huge hug and more spoons to get you through Em xxxxxx
Heartbroken for her she must have been in agony for the past 4 weeks Discitis is dreadful i’ve nursed several patients who have contracted it after surgery and seen all of them scream in pain when we’ve tried to move them… I cant begin to imagine what she went through when A&E made her do the stretching exercises and sent her home saying its only muscular… its sad when you have to admit lack of faith in the system you work so hard for Just praying this time they get it right!
Thankyou all so much for your thoughts and comforting words/spoons and hugs so much appreciated and sent back with love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Just heard from her, they are doing a biopsy this morning so will shoot off now and hopefully catch you all later love always xxxx
24/3
Biopsy done on her spine (should get results wed) and she is now flat on her back on a broad spectrum IV antibiotics for 6-12 weeks as until they know what strain of inf,. it is they wont know what they are treating… she will not be home for quite some time, tho they have said she can go in for treatment towards the end as an outpatient… 4-5 times a week
Been running myself ragged but now treatment has started maybe I can have a chill out pamper time tonight BATH PJ’S AND A FILM!!! Heaven!!!
Hope you are all well and fluttering happily in the SUN love always xxxxxhugxxxx
Doz words can’t describe how awful it must be for Vikki.I know how bad it must be when the N.H.S lets you down so badly no wonder she was in so much pain just hope that she will now feel more comfortable and know that at last she has a diagnosis.My thoughts and good wishes are with you both.Thanks for thinking of me even with all your troubles you are truly a lovely person.Well done losing weight but you look good anyway.
Hope your shoulder is improving.
Ami hope all is okay with you on Monday will be thinking of you when I am awake op is not till afternoon so will be thinking of you all morning.
Jane enjoy your rest you deserve it I once tried to put my Boots card into the cash machine so we all do daft things.
Emmy have a lovely weekend.All you other lovely flutterbys have a lovely weekend I wil post next week sometime to let you know how I got on love and hugs Janice xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
p.s got a lovely trinket box for mothers day from my grandsons and it has a butterfly on the lid how appropriate
What a nightmare of a time for you and Vikki. You must be fizzing about her treatment at A and E. You must also be physically and emotionally knackered!
Quite funny, I’m sitting in bed with hubby, he’s on his laptop with headphones on watching tv and here I am on mine. We’ve just had a huff with each other over something silly. Now I just feel like giggling. I don’t care what anyone says, men are much more easily offended than us!
Right girls. Better go and massage his …ego. Night my dears. I am thinking of all of you even if a bit rubbish at mentioning you all,
Hope you are a bit rested today, Doz, and Vikki is a little more comfortable. I expect you’ll be backwards and forwards to the hospital. It’s been very misty here today so hope it hasn’t held you up at all. Thanks for coming to hold my hand on Monday. I shall do an Emmy and giggle at the thought when I’m in there …you, me and Janice, all 3 holding hands. Mines also an afternoon appointment so I’ll be thinking of you Janice. I think you two will have enough on thinking about yourselves without the burden of me!! Yes, Emmy, as Doz says, H & work is a tough one to get through, so look after yourself, flutterby, soon be done!
I’ve also tried to get money with the wrong card! I have 2 which look the same. When it wouldn’t allow a cash withdrawal at a counter, I said to the teller, I never had a problem with the other machine at the side of him! He actually agreed and said he’d get it looked at. It was only when I got outside I realised….then I daren’t go back in!! I felt such an idiot!
Carolyn - I’m tittering at the picture of you both propped up in bed with your laptops after the huff! It reminded me of some friends who, when my O.H rang them one morning and asked what they were doing, replied “We’re in bed, playing with our laptops!” O.H retorted “Oh yeah! I’ve heard that one before!!” Hope you’ve massaged his ego, Carolyn!! But more important, made up.
Hi Girlies
Having one of those nights when the brain wont slow down and the clocks go forward in half an hour eeeeek that means soon it will be 1.30 and i’m wide awake!!!
Had a bit of extra stress on this past couple of days as if the other was’nt enough!!!
My annual leave (bus mans holiday) ends tomorrow and i’m due back on nights on Monday… BUT
the ward is closed due to Noro virus, cant risk passing it onto Vikki…It would crucify her if she got it now, though I would’nt be allowed to go to see her with working on a contaminated ward, and I could’nt bear to not be with her through all this at the moment till we get results of biopsy back, she’s very low in mood having trouble with the venflon it keeps tissuing so they have to keep moving it… sound familiar Emmy?? They are now talking of putting a central line in bless her, so at the moment she’s looking like a huge ball of cotton wool and tape, so all this lack of support for me would only add to her stress, so had a word with my Dr and Occupational Health and they all agree to take a weeks carers leave as my head would’nt be functioning well enough to work!! Sooooo I have a sick note from my Dr… but as I hav’nt sent it yet i’m expecting a call when I do as i,ve been told by our Sister she wont give me carers leave
I am going to stick to my guns and not work till the ward has re-opened but I just know i’m going to get a very hard time over it
I’ve rang tonight to explain and say I wont be in next week and the Nurse who took my call was very supportive and said she would have done the same… I just dread the call on monday which I know will come oh my… what a predicament
Ami and Janice my thoughts will be with you both on monday the hand holding goes without saying we’ll all be there with you no tittering Ami I promise!!!
Carolyn you brought a smile with your bedroom antics ha ha!!! hope the… ego has been well massaged and your talking again!!
Em I’ve got the spoons thanks sweetie could do with the sandman if anyone knows how to summon him???
Well if I dont try to sleep soon i’ll get my second wind and go on writing all night!!! so sleep well flutterbys and enjoy your weekend xxxxxxxxxxxhugxxxxxxxxxxx
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