Hi,
Lee thanks and how is your wife getting on now? Hope it is going ok for her.
Bevvy - you must miss your daughter now, but they have to live their dreams and being well and happy is a blessing on its own. I am sorry to hear you only get SSP, sorry too I have been moaning about going to half pay. It is actually under half pay as they work it out on the number of working days in each month, and they say Nov only has 20!! Not very impressed with that. If not back at work, after 28 weeks you will move to incapacity benefit too.The Gp has signed me off till the third week of Jan, which I think should be about right. When are you thinking of going back? I don’t want to do a full half term as it will be straight back into preparing lessons and marking, which takes a lot of my free time. It would be just my luck to walk back into a big review and mega stress! My school has been given outstanding by Ofsted so lots of pressure to overperform all the time. I am far from normal, let alone outstanding! All those new names to learn with chemo brain - yargggh.Have you started hormone tablets? I have taken 3 and definitely feel a bit warmer in the morning. Big test tonight as tiny terror and I are sharing and he is a little hot water bottle.
Lisa did you ever get a more supportive chair at work for your back? Nothing like hard times, to bring out support and closeness within the family, I am glad they are there for you too. A black tree, you goth!! The penguin sounds so cute, I will go mad if I miss mine in his first nativity concert. Probably the only one I will ever be off school to see too. I bet you have a silly grin on your face all the way through it! Genetics thing is tricky to know what to do. Would you really liked to have known all these past years and teenage years? I am not convinced it would stop you getting it altogether, or have I got that wrong? Just a rotten rotten thing for all of us. Is your hair anywhere near to throwing ratty on the compost heap yet? Good for you going out and I will be hoping you have as good news as possible with the results. I think if I had to have a mx or both I would have a reconstruction, especially as people keep boasting about their flat tummies afterwards, I am envious of that thought. I have never had a flat tummy, I am sure I was born with it round! Keep us posted and keep having fun when you can. My daughter was so excited as she is going out with her sisters, friends and partners tonight and going to surprise them with her news about being engaged. Then they are all out on the town. I was looking at wedding venues, the first was £5000 without any food, yikes. I think we better start looking around a bit and see what is available.
Nicky hope this weekend sees the turning point for you after the rads. I hope the trip to cardio brings you some relief too. Lorraine have a good lie in over the weekend after all those early starts. Angie the soup sounded good for cold days, my daughter makes lots of soup too. I am hoping she will do us a special one for Christmas Day as a starter. I bought a big cured ham today and will have to resist eating it early. Julia how are you now? My side effects are still sliding away but not too much to bother me. Tested myself on tomato soup today and ok so far, so will venture back into normal food gently. The op and rads planning made me slow up a bit and it was probably a good thing. The head wanted to rush back to normal but the body couldn’t keep up! Do you have any appointments to go to? I have to see the onc at rads each week and then back to the hospital after they finish. I have to have a check up blood tests of all my counts a week before I go for it. Another worry!
Hugs to everyone
Lily x
hi everyone, thanks for your kind words bevy and lisaf,
black seems to be the mod colour for decs this year. i have gone for tradition green tree covered in snow (which covered me and the lounge when i got it out of its box) and red and silver decs to go with the room which is red and white. it takes so long to put all the decs up ive been faffing about for 2 days now. i enjoy seeing it nice but its tiring, especially when you have a 13 year old who likes it like santas grotto. im trying to get organised so i can actually chill a little and watch some old christmas films on the tv. (sad or what)
last night i had a drama, i took my tamoxifen twice, i thought i would have had some side effects, but thankfully ive been ok.
nicky 08
hope you feeling a little better,
lily 2000
all the best for the rads on tuesday. i too like you went in primark after saying i would bycote them. brought a nice long cardi. had to have size 18 trousers so im feeling a bit frumpy.but you just have to try and look the best you can with what youve got.
must be lovely to have daughters to shop with, as long as they have plenty of their own money. most of my presents are wrapped now, hubby as got everything he needs and anyway he likes designer gear, so he will just have to have the money. shame because i like buying silly little gifts. i will probably get him a starbucks card again, cos he likes to go in for coffee after work each night. what are you buying your oh.
take care everyone have a relaxing sunday x
Hi ladies (and Lee)
Well, it had to get worse before it got better and yesterday IT happened. Yes, I got the Turkish Delight chocolate in my advent calendar! It’s been building up since the 1st Dec, tempting me with Fruit and Nut, Whole Nut etc. I expect to get a whole glut of Turkish Delight now - who on Earth invented that flavour? Yuk.
Glad to see you are all in good spirits. I’ll be some years off a ‘family’ nativity (I hope!) but I did used to love seeing my girls in theirs.
My Christmas shopping has come to a complete standstill as I’m pretty much house (loo) bound still. Poor OH is really finding out what Christmas shopping is all about this year! Boy, is his ‘to do’ list long today! Thank Goodness I had done the stocking presents early as they’re the one thing that takes so long and needs me to look at things rather than just order off the internet like a lot of the other presents can be.
It’s such a lovely frosty day here but I’m so frustrated with not being able to go for a long walk - maybe I’d better add incontinence pants to my wish list?
Quick note to Bev - I cried as soon as I got in the car after chemo had finished, I was so glad it was over. Also I’ve also not wanted to go to any ‘big’ events at all this year, quite unlike me. I’m just doing things that I want to do and are comfortable doing - the new me!
Hairwise - it’s coming on a treat - sorry girlies! My youngest now prefers me without the wig but I’m not brave enough (outside of home) to go without just yet. Wait until the New Year for that one! However I have a full head of hair about 1 inch long, very thick and not too much grey, but I will get a colour on it soon to brighten it up a bit. Elsewhere everything else is sprouting and growing like crazy as well - grrrr!
Have a good weekend all of you.
Take care
Nicky xx
Afternoon Girls
You’re all sounding so chrismassy… .woohoo.
Well finally decided to try the genetics conversation with Mum again and it turns out that she’s already told her mum and sister and so my cousin also knows now. So there was me wondering how to broach this when she’s already told them despite her reaction. How very odd that she didn’t tell me that she had eh?
Upshot is my Mum does not want the test (yep you read that right) but Her sis may do. Nana doesn’t want to be “interferred with” and to be honest she will be 80 next year and looks like she’s got angina as she’s been getting pains in her arms etc and your metabolism is so much slower by that age that a lot of people have cancer and don’t even know it it so slow growing so I respect her not wanting to go through tests for genetics when she’s already lived that long. But even if my Nan was clear there would still be a chance that the gene came from Grandad so Mum’s sis may have it. In all honesty it’s likely that it’s from my Dad’s side anyway so it’s probably not a problem, my worry was my Niece and my Aunt. Mum had her ovaries removed in her 30s so she’s already effectively had the prophelactic treatment anyway.
Just thought I’d share as Lily wanted to know.
I must now start the housework before returning to WorldOfWarcraft (I did mention that I am actually a stereotypical geek didn’t I, yes I did finish Tomb Raider 1,2 and 3 
Lots of love
Angie
hi everyone
nicky 08
nice to see your back, so sorry you having trouble with your bottom area, what is causing it, the radiotherapy? you mean to tell me you dont like turkish delight, (some people have no taste!) thats one of the best. now youve started me thinking of chocolate, again. and weve got none in aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. good job really.
the men in the house are watching top gear, it drives me insane. ive just watched miracle on 34th street, i love that film.
slight pain inbetween my shoulders where i have my secondaries, but im choosing to believe its not growing anymore, must just be the bit thats there (well hope so anyway)
i wish my hubby was doing more of the christmas shopping, hes brought most of the main presents, but doesnt believe in stocking fillers, so i have to take care of that. and the little bits and pieces definatly mount up. any ideas for 26 year old male?
been cleaning lately like a mad women, the only time ive ever done this much was just before i give birth. ( maybe im about to drop something out of my blubber tummy) i think id rather keep the fat than have a baby to care for. my youngest son, informs me he has a girlfriend, bless him hes 13. hope tummy settles soon, its horrid being a prisoner in your own home. you feel such a lot better after a walk. take care x
lily 2000
hope youve had a good weekend, and that you gain extra strength to carry you through the next week. my thoughts are with you x
everyone else, live laugh and have fun, santas on his way!
Hi,
well the decorations didn’t make it out of the loft this weekend, much to my disappointment, but he says they will definitely on Wednesday after rads. This will be the earliest I have managed to talk him into, IF it happens. I have Christmas songs playing through my head all the time, which gets set off by the tv adverts. I just love this time of year and hope it will be a well time for all of us, we so deserve a bit of peace and comfort at the very least. Even better if we can eat like horses to make up for lost time. My first Christmas do is tomorrow with my department. Wonder what they will make of the short hair and steroid face! I have been struggling to go to some places on my own at times. I am better at seeing new people than the old friends who have some expectation of how I will look. They get the big shock change. So tomorrow will be a big test. I found it easier now my hair had grown a bit, so hope that happens for all of you too that are feeling a bit self conscious. Nicky you have the same calendar as my daughter, she was moaning about turkish delight too! It is ok but my husband loves it. Good job as he flew to Istanbul every month, in his last job and always came home with tons of it. I used to worry they would put something else in as they sent boxes for other people too! Have they said how long the trots last after rads? I hope you shift it soon. My trots diet was pasta, potato, chicken breast, boiled eggs and white bread - nothing fried, no fruit or veg, nothing with fibre and only squash to drink. If I held that for 2 -3 days the spasms settled much quicker. If I got tempted by anything else I could be in the loo 8 or more times and so uncomfortable. They also told me I could take IBS treatments for it. I really hope this miserable phase goes soon, I know exactly how you feel, really depressing x. Whats wrong with your hair? Another Bc friend has lots of hair but is finding it just sticks up in tufts and is still wearing her wig. I found the hair dye made it really silky but mine has always been thinnish. By the way, well done for getting the old chap shopping, mine would have said they have enough don’t worry! Lorraine - glad you were ok on 2 tamoxifen. I have a sign on my cupboard to take them as my memory is still not reliable. It is lovely to go out with my girls, they make me forget all this cancer rubbish. We have been talking weddings all evening in between top gear and I am so looking forward to shopping for her dress later on. They are both very keen to find a venue and book a date to fix it, looks like May 2010 at the moment. So it will be a busy year. My son will be 18, 2 days later I will be 50 and then they will get married a few months later, followed by my 30th wedding anniversary. I think the youngest might announce something before too long as well. I hope the credit crunch is over by then!!! Hope the niggling pains ease up, I would blame the cold weather and draughts. Whats with the nesting urges?? I am fine about rads, thanks, well as far as I know, and have had loads of offers so lots of company on the journey, which will be stressful. My wound has healed nicely so hope that does not decide to pop open or do anything silly. A 26 year old male, well there are some really cute socks and pants about if he is trendy, favourite sweets, small bottle of wine, favourite biscuits, funny photo of him when young, book. Keep thinking happy Christmas thoughts x. Angie - thanks for sharing that with me. I am in 2 minds about what to do, especially with the wedding ahead and I don’t want to burst their bubble. I agree there is no point with older people unless that helps the trail for others. My Mum has decided to continue with mammos but I too think it is from my Dad’s side and I am the only female here so tricky.As a Mum I can see that it might be very hard for your Mum to take that she passed the gene on to you. Also her work in alternative medicines would go against some of the treatment so much. I think you said she was not happy with some of the treatments you had, so if you know you would not have them, there is little point finding out that standard medicine thinks you should. Have you got computer games on your Christmas list x? Bevvy how are the taste buds now? Mine have improved a lot this week but chocolate is still no good , boo hoo. Lisa I know what you mean about the old body!! I am sure I look fatter every day and I don’t think I am eating much more. Trying to do cycling on my exercise bike but no energy these days. Have a good week x. Julia hope this finds you on the up too. I have started my tablets, no effects so far. Last night I shared a single bed with my Grandson and when I went to do my teeth, the dog sneaked in too. Neither would budge so had a tiny corner of the bed and bits of me kept peeking out the duvet and getting cold. Not my idea of a comfy sleep.
Well hope you all have a good week. Has anyone got anything on this week or can we all uncross our fingers for a couple of days?
Love
Lily x x
Hi Lily
Cardio for me today! So please keep fingers crossed that they sort these damn palpitations out! Especially if it means I can have a drink at Christmas. I’ve noticed that a glass (or less even) of wine can set them off, but not everytime so that’s why I’ve been avoiding it, plus it rules it out as the sole cause. However it does make life (and me!) very dull when there’s no vino! However, over the last few days with the bowel problems I can’t say I would have drunk any wine anyway. I’ve noted your diet you stuck to and, although I didn’t think certain foods were affecting me at first, I now know differently so am also on a nice bland diet. What fun I’m having! The only upside is that I’m on an enforced pre Christmas detox and have lost nearly half a stone in the process.
We’re not Christmassy either yet, will wait till next weekend. I also (usually) love this time of the year but with everything else that’s going on I must say my joie de vivre is taking a bit of a hit!
Lorraine - yes, the rads are causing the problem as they also hit the bowel as well as the ovaries. So it’s not unexpected but certainly unwanted! I may have avoided this time of the year as well if I’d known how long they’d last! I hope your aches are nothing to worry about. I ache at times but feel it’s my posture or sometimes even the damp weather as the bone damage is similar to osteoporosis and I know you can feel achey in damp weather with this.
Hi to everyone else, hope the weekend was lovely and this week is a good one for you all.
Take care
Nicky xx
Hi Nicky,
best wishes for your appointment today and I hope they will sort you out so you can enjoy Christmas with a glass in your hand. This has reminded me of the rotten no eating days on cmf, which made me so fed up. Hoping yours go soon and keeop us posted how you get on today. I am so jealous about the weight loss though, silver lining in every cloud!
Lily x
hi everyone
nicky 08
hope everything went ok today, hopefully youll be well in time for a glass or two at christmas, youll have to treat yourself to something really expensive as a treat
my friend phoned today she said she lunched at the Ritz recently as an early christmas present of her sister, anyone else any stories of the high life theyve lived?
still doing the decs its getting like santas grotto!
going out this evening though so i hope i dont nod off.
lorraine x
Hi - Wow what a lot to read, will respond properly on Thursday when back in office as the dial up here is soooooo slow. Had the supporters club party yesterday which was good, have now finished clearing up - leftovers for supper tonight. Lily: Don’t have any apppointments until Nuclear scan before deciding in Herceptin, will have “discussions” about hormone stuff later. I want to have a decent Christmas and then deal with the next lot.
Will talk more on Thurs.
Love to all
Julia
Hi,
it suddenly occurred to me today, that all the family have talked about is my health and latest appointment, since February. Now it is what is the latest on the wedding plans!!! How good it is to have another topic. I went to a dinner party not long after I started chemo and it was the topic virtually all night with concerned faces. Every time I changed the subject to them, they answered and switched it back on me. Sometimes you just want to forget all this and be normal. I love talking to all of you on here but I think it might be time for my ‘outside cyber life’ to push cancer into a little corner and not let it take over so much. I might start talking about the weather again. LOL LOL !!! By the way after having dinner out tonight with my school colleagues I have the fattest stomach ever.
Confesssion coming up:-
2 x toast with victoria plum jam and coffee
ribena and a lemon drizzle cake
cheese omelette with bread and butter and more ribena
Chargrilled double chicken breast with savoury chips (lots of)
lemon meringue cheesecake
Coke to drink
Massive dose of indigestion tablets and water!
I feel so better now I owned up - NOT!
Nicky were they any help today? Hope there is some good news that they can sort it out.
Lorraine best living up I have done is going to a garden party at Buckingham Palace when I was 18. Since then, my brother got married in St. Pauls Cathedral and we had lots of Japanes tourist taking pictures, must have thought we were famous!!! Then the reception was at Claridges. That is the only wedding my daughter has been too!!! So not too much pressure to do a grand job?!!! LOL. Might have to take out another mortgage with 4 of them to pay for. I have always fancied tea at the Ritz, trouble is hubby works in London so not keen to spend any more time there. Julia hope the supporters lunch went well, shame you had to clear up though! Keep us posted on the next bit when it starts, until then forget it all and have a great time. Thanks that reminded me to go and take my tablet.
Hi to everyone else
Lily x x
Hi all
Thanks for you kind thoughts about all of my ailments! The only one I don’t seem to mention these days is my BC!
Appt went well ( I think/hope) yesterday and I was able to stay in the room the whole time without dashing to the loo! This was one of my dreads! However OH let me down again by coming over all faint! For Goodness sakes get a grip, man! Anyway, I was reassured that my heart problems were nothing to worry about medically, just the worry and discomfort on a physical level. That does help when you think you will die from a heart attack every week! I have been prescribed another type of tablet which should limit or stop the episodes which hopefully has few side effects - we will see! The consultant is sure it’s down to dramatic changes in hormone levels rather than any other causes. I was keen to treat the causes rather than the symptoms, if possible, but as I value my lack of oestrogen more than taking too many heart pills I guess I will have to keep taking the pills. It is possible that things will stabilise anyway once my body is used to it’s post menopausal state, after all it’s had a dramatic change recently and palpitations are a sign of the menopause starting in some women. I’m also to have a 24hr heart monitor on at some point soon, which you wear at home. She (consultant) is keen to see my palpitatons on it so I suggested I have several large drinks as this is the most likely thing to start them off! There’s hope yet
Will keep you all posted and I really hope the SE’s are minimal.
Generally feeling a bit better with the ‘other’ problem. However still dashing to the loo but less frequently now so I hope things calm down from now on and I can escape my prison. I was let out on good behaviour yesterday to go to the hospital so did survive at least an hour on the ‘outside’.
I won’t write my food diary as it’s so boring - you are right Lily - I expect I am suffering like you did during cmf. However, good to see, from the above confession, that you’re over that now! Enough said that it was also another Turkish Delight day ;-(
Answering the question about the highlife - my OH’s old company were involved with computers - when there used to be money in them - and we had a very good corporate hospitality time. This included VIP visits to Atlanta Olympics, various Grand Prix’s, private viewing of Sistine Chapel and (one we couldn’t go to as it was my daughter’s birthday) world premier tickets to James Bond plus party after. Oh, how we used to live!
On that note I’ll say bye for now, hope everyone is doing well.
Nicky xx
Careful what you wish for Lily. Realy life has just asserted itself in the form of my Bank cancelling all my direct debits… so that’s what they mean by showing compassion during times of genuine financial difficulty is it… brilliant. Irony is I just invoiced a load of things last week and I do have another bank account that HSBC can’t touch so excuse my language but ****them.
It takes more than a bank to intimidate me now
Nicky… That must be the first time I’ve heard of a doctor requesting you have several large drinks. You enjoy them 
As for the high life well I used to temp at virgin records so met a few people and I have an invite by a peer to go into the house of lords which I am looking forward to.
Right gotta tell OH about the bank now and hope he doesn’t blow (which he will and probably should as I did… I mean, honestly isn’t that a bit like throwing the baby out with the bathwater)
Angie
Hi,
ooh Angie so sorry to hear that you have all that to deal with. You give them hell. Don’t spare them. If we have to have BC at least throw it at them if it will help. I have several times and shut up unfeeling people who try to lord it over customers who are just expecting a reasonable service. The big C helped the job centre to process my incapacity benefit and put 7 backdated weeks of benefit into my account today, after they have done nothing, since mid October, while disputing one day of my claim with the SSP lot. I mentioned 30 days of driving to rads, numerous tanks of petrol and £81 of car park tickets for the pleasure of visiting the hospital. So I am not doing very well at pushing it in a corner am I? Hope you get things sorted out ok.
Nicky, so you have other things on your mind too!! Not least a husband who wants to get in on the action!!! Is he ok? Hope the trots are fading as you have had a good day. Just take my word and creep back into ordinary food really slowly. just one extra thing at a time. I have still not tried salad, onion, fresh fruit, etc yet but have got back on lots of things like cake, biscuits, yum. They taste even better after a long absence. I still can’t eat chocolate though, as still very low on saliva and things just won’t go down my throat, eyes still watering for England when it is cold or windy too. I was worried I would still have the trots during the operation, so I understand the extra pressure that puts on you. Especially as nerves tend to bring things on even more. I am glad that the annoying palpatations are not a sign of heart trouble. You should have told us you were so anxious, poor you. Just enjoy the enforced drinking though to test it out. Lots of luck with all these things you have still hanging over you.
Well I had my first rads today. They found my rubbed off tattoo with a magnifying glass. I thought I might have to have another but ok so far. Well only the first day so it will be a while till I see how I fare I guess. I had to buy my own cream, stingy lot. They were on time and was out my 9am appointment by 9.10 so we went off shopping for a bit. The only problem I had was that the warning siren is really loud and made me jump out my skin just when I was supposed to lie still and breathe gently. I hope I get used to it or I will fry too much lung with my chest fully expanded in fright mode!! Already fed up of the rush hour queues, 20 mins to go one mile today and will get worse near Christmas I am sure. The onc had left a note on my file for them to check I had started my novaldex tablets, so they will be active when I stop rads. A nice little gesture I thought but they thought it said Zoladex!!! Oh no no no not those big things! Quick exit!
Hi to everyone and hope you are ok
Fried Lily x
hiya all
Cant live up to your high life options - Im an easy pleased gall!!! Angie give them some grief - my poor credit card is going to be maxed otu as been buying lots of pressies for xmas before teh made rush starts next week and cant resist love buying people pressies! Diet not too well, tablets I hope are giving me major bad headaches and anticipation of bone scan on Monday, hope they find a vien, jsut very scary as I’ve heard of so many people with bone secondaires that have no pain - in fact my back hasnt been hurting since I got the date of my scan!!! he, he.
Went to see my lovely niece doing Mary Poppins yesterday, she’s 4 and was a pengium, adorable, biased I know. Had a week wobbly moment incase dont see any others but then me and my brother had to muffle our giggles and the faces and actions of the kids - Christmas - love it!
Lily - hope rads continue to go okay, you must be able to move a little, I used to hold my breath and always wanted to cough but was told could do but was terrifed would be zapped elsewhere!!! Good luck witht he wedding, sounds like you have some standards to beat!!!
Nicky - get those wines down you then
Love to all - lets hope we can have a lovely Xmas and a better 09!!
xxx
Oh Lily… Sympathise with you driving in the rush hour, how I haven’t missed that! Gotta go to Carlisle for 9am myself tomorrow… meeting the gynae to talk about these pesky ovaries and the screening programme (already know what she’s going to say about that, it’s not very effective at all)
Nicky Hope everything calms quickly for you now, you could try rad brom homeopathic, or even xray.
everyone else, hope you’re having a nice sunny day like we have here
Angie
Woohoo my living christmas tree has just arrived from crocus and it’s lovely.
We thought having a living one would be a good idea so we can grow it for future years, another part of my “I am going to live a loooong time” planning
highly recommend them if you want one ask me and I’ll message you with a link so you can go buy one.
Angie
Oh they’ve all gone… sorry 
Hi everyone on here,
Lisa I am with you on overspending on pressies. I was not going to do sacks for my children but already have bought each 28 small pressies!! So sacks again for another year. My little Grandson is going to be totally spoilt with everything scooby Doo I can find. I get such pleasure buying things for them. Also 7 weeks backdated incapacity benefit came in at quite a tidy sum and great timing too. You sound really positive and so good to hear you have been able to get out and enjoy things after all that 2008 chucked at you. How is the hair now? Is ratty in danger yet and any sign of Dennis’s?
Angie hope you get on ok with the next appointment, and that they can help you to decide what happens next and when. Your wedding is getting closer, only 9 weeks till February now. I have a fake tree as dog’s feet and Grandson’s feet are likely to get spiked by needles. I love a real tree though and we always planted ours, one is leylandi sized now. We got the decorations up today which is making feel really festive now.
Did any of you feel pressure on your chest after rads? I had it today for a while after I came out, might mention it tomorrow. Only 13 trips left!! Tablets are warming me up but no big flushes just generally getting back to my normal temperature. Waiting to see how it goes over time.
Wrap up warm, there is a big chilly spell coming, apart from you Tamoxifen babies who will be cheering the cold on no doubt!
Lily x
Hi all,
As I have now finished all the invasive treatment I assumed that I would be getting back to normal (whatever that was!) however my body is taking a little longer than my brain to get it’s act together. I still have a disgusting taste in my mouth 24/7 and have taken two different medications drops and tablets which don’t appear to have worked. I don’t really want to phone the GP again as I do not want any more medication. I have been eating live natural yogurt everyday but not sure if it is doing anything. Likewise now the rads have finished I am experiencing sharp pains in my chest and the boob is redder than previous and feeling knackered again. So I am wacking on the aloe vera cream. Also still experiencing horrible sensation under arm around the shoulder of discomfort and tenderness on touching. Oh I am so cheesed off with having things still wrong with me. Sorry for the moan girls as I know many of you are suffering far more but it almost seems worse when you are over going back and forth to the hospital and just feel life should be easier (I know it is compared to a just a few weeks ago but I am so impatient) I use to say roll on christmas now I am saying roll on next summer!
Hope life is getting easier for all of you and apologies for the rant but it feels better to let it out and I can’t burden my poor family with my moans. This is really so out of character for me as I am normally upbeat and get on with things. I hate BC and everything associated with it apart from the lovely contact I have had with all you girls!..
love Bev x