happy birthday Pixie and I am so pleased at your other news. its a load off your mind. I never took out that kind of cover - after all this was never meant to happen to me!! I hope all the ladies who do have critical illness cover follow suit.
Yvette - ouch! hope your finger recovers very soon.
Erin - I am so sorry for what you have had to go through. No wonder you are feeling like this. It seems very unfair and I find it difficult to see the point of encouraging you to take part in the trial and then pulling the rug from under you like this. Please keep posting.
Rach you are a media star right enough. Brilliant.
Hi Janice nice to see you back.
Lulu hi - I agree with what you said.
Hi Jayney and Caro, Pauline and Mumszy and debs.
chuckling at GP sue, clever little thing - who wouldn’t rather be next to the boiler than out in the cold lol.
Hey Gina - hope you are not too bad
Thinking about all of you. Shenagh I am so sorry you have been having such a tough time. I hope you are feeling a wee bit better.
Am going back to work next week and its a bit scary. Having chronic muscular pain in my back and thinking is in overdrive. Feel like I’ve a cold coming on but its probably because I know I’m going back to work!
Sorry to anyone I missed.
Hugs - alex
xx
well i leave you lot alone for 2 days and it took me half an hour to catch up with you all.
erin, please dont make that your last post, we are all here to help each other through the good and bad times so please come on and moan if you feel the need, your not moaning anyway, you are just telling us how u feel. Get a second opinion and i am so sorry it looks like you still might end up with a Mx. bi (((hugs))))
Rach (going to rename you media tart)will be getting both mags, need a good laugh. good luck tomorrow, just been for my bloods, going bac for results this afternoon, hope they are okl. will be gutted if i cant get on settee with u and debs and your goppin dressing gown.
Debs, hope your doing ok. Have u got some wash powder? when me and rach come to join u we will confiscate that goppinn dressing gown and give it a good wash. Wonder if she will wash it before cp?lol
janice, hang in there you might only be on number 2 but it goes so fast, you will be on the last one before you know it.
happy bithday pixie
Right i have to go and catch up with other threads before i have to go back to hosp this afternoon. 3.10pm opp thats a joke, add 2 hours on every time. may as well stay at home till 5.10 and i still wouldnt miss my turn!!!
Sorry if i havnt mentioned everyone, sooooooo many to catch up with now, but luv to you all, pauline xxx
Happy birthday, Pixie!!! *hug* Thanks Gina for letting us know 
Erin… was thinking a bit more about your situation. I totally agree with the advice on here. I would get a second opinion regarding your options, hon. Prof. Ian Fentiman is an excellent surgeon and BC expert. If you can get to London, I would make an appointment to see him. He works at Guy’s and privately at the Nuffield at Guy’s. He is very much into breast conserving surgery, and I think you would get an excellent assessment from him. You don’t need to have your surgery there, but you could take his advice to your surgeons whereever you are. I hope this helps x
ENORMOUS pinky bandage is doing ok. Am at work, but so far no one has asked about it! What’s that saying… ‘sticks out like a sore thumb’ or something like that. I am happy to not have to explain myself 
!!! Yippee!!!
Alex: know what you mean about going back to work. Am here hon if you want to offload about it! Take it easy and remember that you are still healing too, emotionally and otherwise.
Love to everyone!
Yvette xxx
Happy Birthday Pix; hope you have plans that involve lots of alcohol!!! Love and hugs, Caro xoxoxo
My dressing gown (DG) survived the 60 degree wash, it looks as good as new, but oh how I miss my stains, how am i going to plan next weeks dinners with out looking at my DG and remembering fondly the breakfasts, lunches and dinners we have shared. Where is my inspiration? The sweat stains of another hot flush? WOE IS ME xxxxxxx
Thank god you’ve finally washed your boggin DG Rach; I’m surprised it didn’t fall apart 
Did you get my email btw? Let me know about sending you payment for Centre Parcs hon. xx
thanks everyone for my birthday wishes and to gina for bringing it to everyone’s attention…had planned to try and ignore this one but went into ‘work’ today and the lads had made a poster, a flag and bought a birthday cake with candles and everything so it has turned out to be quite special afterall!!
Caro - unfortunately i have the head honcho of the alcohol police (my mother!!!) at my birthday meal tonight and am under strict instructions to take it easy as i have my second half of the cmf on fri. But i do plan to make up for it next weekend!!!
take care all
xx
Hi Everyone,
Mind if I join in?
Diagnosed with Grade 1 Jan 09
Surgery followed in Feb/Mar and April
Radiothaerapy 3 weeks in June
Where has 2009 gone?
Back to work for the first full week this week .Tired very tired.
Anyone feel as if they have been punched in the ribcage after Radiotherapy? Very tender to touch.
Hi all,
I’m new. I put a spe post up. didnt realise you were all over here. its my birthday today too. so happy birthday Pixie. greta b/day, having received my diagnosis 2 days ago!
look forward to chatting to you all.
Hi Pix,
Sounds like you work with some really sweet people!
Have a great birthday dinner
Yvette x
happy birthday Pixie, hope you’ve had a good one!!
welcome to the new people we are a friendly bunch on here!
Rach glad the dressing gown survived, think i might put a new one on my christmas list!!! got bella today found you!
yvette hope the finger is ok!
love to everyone hope you are home by now Pauline and that all goes well tomorrow!
love debs xxxx
Morning all its about 2.30 a.m. amd the steroids are working a treat LOLxxx so in the kitchen with a cup of hot choc and half a choccie muffin my daughter left at tea time and gagging for martmite on toast but that can wait till breakie me thinks
welcome to our mad place Knitnut and gooseberry - my fab man said my hair re growth resembles a gusgog only the other day but the wind at to top of twmbalum gave it a centre parting and was making him giggle with me. As soon as we got the kite out the wind died down - hot damn!
Pauline good luck for tomorrow and the final swamping - no more steroid or SE after this! are you up for rads I think i remember you said you were.
I shud head back to bed - fab man is in manchester mixing work and pleasure - glad he’s had a nite out withh friends and was able to watch man U win without me tutting in the back ground. Dogs are of course with me and have had me pinned from both sides for the best part of 3 hrs - perhaps that why i can’t sleep???
love to you all nite nite hope your all in the land of nod xxxx
p.s. imagin Pixie; a birthday without a hangover the next day will wonders ever cease (mine was the same) lMAO xxx
Rach i always miss you when we do these after hour strolls through cyber land LOL… glad DG survived his 60 degree wash… sounds a bit like my downie which i snuggle under all day… it has ice cream and lactulose on it the mo (interesting combo hey) so its going in the wash tomorrow!
pixie belated birthday wishes sounds like you had a really nice day… cant believe its now OCTOBER!
welcome gooseberry and knitnut… belated happy birthday to you too knitnut.
alex good luck going back to work… i do worry about that myself a bit… think ill have forgotten everything and feel like im the new girl again… i had only been in my new post for 6 months when i got diagnosed… but i do work with lovely staff and have a couple of the girls coming over on sunday all the way from glasgow so im looking forward to it.
pauline hope those pesky neuts were behaving themselves this week… good luck with the chemo.
Lorenzo lash my one remaining eyelash is still hanging on in there.
Lulu xx
6’25 and i finally gave in and had me marmite on toast now I can take my next load of ‘roids’ sorry i missed you lulu, love to lorenzo!
Good luck Alexa and is it goosegog or knitnut going back to work? !!!Going to get the kids up now - ohhhhhh moooooooo! xxxR
Good luck rachel and pauline!! had a slightly better nights sllep last night steroids all gone now could have joined you for a chat but treied to snuggle and doze!!
Off for rads planning today, but hope swamping goes well girls!!
love debs xxxx
Hi ladies, i too could have joined you in the early hours. went to bed and read till 1am and then tried to drop off but didnt till 6am then woken up by a text at 7.15 so not much sleep again. well done to the DG thank god it survived, we will have to remind you what you like eating.
LAST SWAMPING TODAY!!!YEY CANT WAIT
rach, got rads consultation next wednesday so at least thats another stage underway.
I too worry about going back to work. I have been off 5 months for surgery and chemo and haven’t bothered about being off but as i have come up to the last chemo i have started to feel guilty about when to go back. I thought i would go back part time while i had rads and told work as much so they are expecting me i think. but my doc disagrees and thinks it will be after xmas and i am inclined to agree with her now as i have no energy for anything. i feel i need to spend time building strenghth back up but i feel guilty about it.
and to add to that…
it really gets my goat when you see these BC victims on the breakfast tv (this morning) who have had surgery, imediate recon and rads in last few months and sit there looking glamerous with all their hair. NO MENTION SHE DIDNT NEED CHEMO thats why she looked great. she made it sound like a breeze, my boss will think i’m putting it on if the sees interviews like that. you girls know what i mean i think.
oh god i have waffled, sorry
Thanks to you all for the good wishes for today, will be on later to fill you in, have a good day luv Pauline xxx
im sorry to report Lorenzo didnt make it through the night 
he lost his fight for survival at 7.55 am and has offically gone to eyelash heaven.
pauline good luck today hunny… i spoke to my cancer care nurse about returning to work in the new year and she said dont put pressure on myself to return because some people find it too difficult to go back straight away and that it may take 6 months after treatment ends before you are feeling physically and emotionally fit enough to return… i was a bit shocked because i never thought about that before. if you got signed off it would be down to your GP so i think your work would just have deal with it… i know women who have rads and no chemo and still find they have extreme fatigue for months afterwards so dont put pressure on yourself hunni.
rachel hope your getting some rest after you swamping.
debs good luck with your planning session.
lulu x
Pauline… You are so right! There is an enormous difference to recovery if you have had chemo. I am annoyed to read about the BC victims on breakfast TV who are claiming that it is a walk in the park. I did not have IV chemo, and I can honestly say that even with what I went through (which is no where near the grief of having chemo) WAS (AND STILL IS with the Zoladex+Tamox) NO WALK IN THE PARK!!! Even though I still have my hair, the physical effects have really taken a toll. All I can say is what you saw on the TV is TOTAL fantasy land, and they must have really good stylists to do the make-up and hair.
Geeeeeezzzzz!
I think this unrealistic image of BC sets women up for feeling bad about themselves… for example, ‘Why can’t I look like the person on TV’… ‘I should look perfect, too, after having such a serious illness’, etc.
That’s total cr*p!
Survival is about character, not about looking good!
Please don’t rush back to work thinking that you have to because others have done so. Your recovery will be unique to you and it is very important not to rush that. I am sure your medical team will give you support in the form of medical certificates if need be.
Anyway, I wanted to also say a very BIG congrats to you Pauline for your last swamping today. Sending you a hug for that! xxx
Lulu, hon… sorry to hear about Lorenzo x
hello everyone…well now winter is setting in (it is up north anyways!) I thought i’d post a pic of the REAL glamourous side of BC
- wolley hat… £5 ebay
- Wolley Jumper… £15 little shop in brighton
- wolley long cardi… £2 oxfam
- BCC Pals… priceless!
love to all
xx