Hi Nicky, I fully understand how you feel about your daughter and not knowing when you wil see here again. As you know my daughter fell in love with France and a Breton lad! I still find it hard when we say goodbye as I never quite know when I will see here again and it is so far away, in fact it is 1000miles from my city to hers! Yet at one point I thought she was going to live in Australia so I count my blessings that she chose France instead! But it isn’t easy. I take comfort from knowing she is living where she wants to be and is enjoying her lifestyle over there. i know she misses home too but she has her own life there now. I hope she finds her own place soon and that perfect job is just around the corner for her. Hugs, Val
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Hi, well I will start with hugs all round as a lot of worries at the moment. Carole I agree with the others that there is too much going on. If the rads doc says the rash is def nothing to do with that treatment, then it clears the way for you to approach the other bc docs at the hospital or your gp. He may be the fastest route, unless you managed to talk to someone today. I hope the first treatment went ok for you. Lets hope for no side effects but I think it is always best to know what could happen so you are not frightened if unlucky. You have 4 rads to go, so all done by the end of the week 
. Please be strong and sit it through to the end if they say it will make a difference. I could actually smell my skin burning and for months after if I touched the skin, I got a burnt smell on my hand. read back on my last post about separating the skin. Silk is a natural healer and if you fancy the actiform cool get them on the internet or ask your gp. Even if it is bloody pants now, you will know that you have done everything that they suggested to get rid of the bc. I think this will bring you peace of mind a little way on from now. Remember that bit, treatment done and worry with every ache? Good luck buddy and we are all with you (behind the hedge you just can’t see us). x Val you cope better than I ever could, if one of mine flew the nest so far. They have to live their life though so really it is a done deal and you have to enjoy the special times together. Hoping your hip is behaving and starting to move more freely so you can plan some trips before the winter arrives. Lisa it seems quite clear that the waxing is to blame and maybe whatever you put onto soothe it, was something else you aare sensitive too. I guess you better stick to dennis and a tache from now on 
Can you go out without people noticing it? Nightmare! Nicky what a sad time and I know just what you mean. I would be looking for great opportunities in the UK to draw her back, before she meets some french bloke and sets up home. Oh I cannot be sensible on this topic at all, makes me feel all anxious and old 
Do you have any nice plans for you and OH? Our house is in total turmoil as Robbie Williams is playing a concert in a tiny theatre near us. ED is the biggest fan ever and can talk of nothing else as the chance to buy tickets will be selected randomly. Her sister, who said I bet I could sell them for a fortune on ebay, has been told in no uncertain terms what will happen to her if she gets them and does!! I am resigned to going back to work now but will miss my free time and being able to see the babies any time. Mum is unwell so I have been with her most of the afternoon and getting her shopping. The 2 that live with us are out so a quiet house for a change. Footy and sunday cooking on the agenda tomorrow, one of my favourite days. Lily x
Thanks ladies for all your helpful words and sympathies, when you all have so much yourselves to deal with.
Nicky and Val I have the other way around at the moment to miss my 2 children in England when we are here, they had the choice to come with us and I so wished they had but, they made their lives and I do speak to them as often as I can, we skype too which helps in one way. There is nothing like a lovely hug and a kiss tho. I do feel for you both. Val your daughter has been well settled for a long time hasn’t she so she would probably find a move back to Scotland quite a strain on her nerves with such a relaxed way of life here. Nicky I am sure your daughter will do well in finding a job, please tell her she is welcome to contact me if she needs any help with the legal stuff and red tape.
Lily, Robbie Williams lucky you, or your girls I would love to see him does anyone know if he’s had his baby yet? Sorry to hear your Mum has been poorly and hope she’s on the mend soon. Make the most of the quiet times.
I spoke to the nurses when I had my zoledronic infusion on Saturday, they all agreed they think it is from radiotherapy. I’m shivering one minute and burning the next. The infusion did what it said on the packet, gave me full body bone aches so I’ve spent all weekend in bed. I think I am very low at the moment and my immune system is shot. To add to the problems my diabetic control has been dreadful, I don’t think radiotherapy can do this but stress can, as can infections but despite my shivering I haven’t had a temperature so I think it is just stress. Oh well only 3 more to go now the YIPPEE. We’re planning to take a short break away so don’t be concerned if you don’t hear from me. I just hope I will feel well enough as have been looking forward to it for a few weeks.
TTFN Love Carole
Hi Carole, well its nice to hear you sounding like you are coping a bit better. Those magic numbers, down to 3 rads brilliant well done, remember the whole thing keeps fired up after the last one so keep trying to cool the area down if you can. I know it is not easy though. As to no temperature, I remember my gp saying that often the slightest temp makes you feel the worst. I think its because the big temps knock you out more so you just don’t want to move or do anything. I am still not happy though that you have so much going on in one go. Glad you asked the nurses and they would not say that if they had not seen similar before. How about doing a post on the rads section on here or reading through posts to see similar cases. You must sort the diabetes control out though as that is serious!!! Well Ed waits anxiously to see if anyone gets Robbie tickets so fingers crossed she will be lucky. MD and little chap went to an Ollie Murs concert yesterday. He is local to us and played where V concert had been. I have the cutest picture of little chap wearing an Ollie t shirt and hat at the concert. They loved it and were very late home for a Sunday. he starts junior school tomorrow and goes back to being the youngest one again. The schools are separate so it is a completely new experience. My first day was spent on an extremely uncomfortable chair, squashed in a hot room listening to talks almost all day. How can your bottom get unused to hard chairs? I was so wriggly and uncomfortable. The kids are back tomorrow so I better wake myself up a bit and try to get to bed earlier, as 6.10 was dire this morning, yawn, yawn. Victor had his ECG and he was surprised when the nurse told him she saw a blip on it. We are a bit shocked but I think there are blips that docs ignore so hoping for the best when we go for the chat. Victor, little devil has been hiding the fact that he has pains from me and accidentally revealed this in a conversation to someone else, that I was earwigging. No doubt so i could not order him to use the angina spray! He said he had pains while gardening. I hoped you stopped gardening straight away I replied. he said, well there was no point really, everyone has the twinges!. I said, I will be very cross with you if you go and die on me!!! He has also said he would refuse any surgery ever and I have told him I would have him declared insane and get power of attorney to force him!! Ha ha Lily 1 Victor 0. Take care Lily x
Aren’t men just stupid when it comes to looking after themselves and also not telling us stuff!
I quite agree Val, so good job they have us keeping them in order Well managed to make a small weight loss bringing it to 12lbs in total in 11 weeks. Its a small amount every week but they addup and I read that slow loss tends to be permanant so I will persevere, secretly hoping to reach a stone loss before the end of sept. Trailing in Yds shoes who is already beyond her first stone . It has been really quite an effort to keep my eyes open and stay awake when the alarm goes off. In fact I have 3 set to make sure after sleeping through 2 one morning. I think I need to post earlier as it often wakes me up or I get distracted thinking about something. So here goes my first earlier post. Little chap had a lovely first day in his new junior school, so that is a relief all round. I said do you feel small there and he said yes the big ones are enormous Nanna, probably as big as YOU. I had to tell him that Nanna is actually really small and we had to stand infron of the long mirror to check just how little I am. He is way over my shoulder at 7 years old so I am wondering will he catch me up before he is 10!!! We then brought Victor in the picture and little chap was just above waist level so he better hope he takes after him if he wants to play basketball lol. Hoping everyone had a nice day and GO P GO, nearly there Lily x
Well done on keeping up the weight loss Lily. Who was it thaat said they were not overweight just under tall!
Carole, I hope you are managing to get to the end of your treament of reaiotherapy. We are all rooting for you and hoping you will feel better when you do not have all this travelling and can rest a bit more.
I have been to the Genetics Clinic with my YD today and gave a sample of blood myself in case they need it in the future.
I hope to get my wheel chair tomorrow. I was told on the phone this morning ( without looking up my details) that there was a HUGE waiting list for them. I kept cool and said I know but the lady I handed the form to said she would mark mine as ungent and gave her this new woman a brief list of my difficulties. After looking up my details she said I would probably get one next week as they had one in the pipeline for me. When I was out they called to arrage delivery tomorrow…now was that my phonecall that did it or not? Just hp[e I get them first thing tomorrow as it was too late to return their call.
I am stil struggling in the morning and in bed get off to sleep but get stiff with lying on my back and tutning over is harrowing. But once all the painkillers kick in I am like a new woman! As I cannot get out much I have been shoppin on line and ordered a lovely pair of boots tonight plus some Udderly Smooth cream for my dry legs ( I have to wear those devine tight stocking for weeks and weeks yet and skin gets so dry. Also bought 3 tops in the carity shop on the way home with my daughter plus a lovely scarf…must be feeling better! Love to you all, Val
sorry for all the typing errors but am sure you wil get my drift!
Hi ladies
Sorry for not being on here recently, quite a lot going on but I have been reading, just not posting.
Carole- must be nealry done now? Today or tomorrow? Wishing you all the best with the recovery from that nasty rash and that you feel OK to go on that short break. I’m sure it will help but don’t overdo it, as Lily says the effects will still be there for a while even though the actual treatment has finished.
Lily - well done on the continued weight loss, especially as you’ve been on hols and probably easing the diet a bit whilst not at work. I hope Victor’s results don’t require anything more than an odd tablet or two. However, getting men to take anything is a problems isn’t it? I really don’t know what goes on in their brain when illness and pain happens to them? OH is always complaining about his back aching but will he take a paracetamol? Will he heck! Glad Little Chap enjoyed his first day, I’m sure he will love it as you say he is so bright, a nice stimulus for him.
Val - you keep on getting stronger day by day, I hope that the pain goes soon so you wake up feeling anew woman rathe than having to wait for her to appear! Is the wheelchair temporary whilst you recover form the op? I hope so, and that you’re not needing it longterm.
Lisa - bet you’re busy as usual! Hope all is well with you and yours.
A bit of a down time for me as I said. We made the choice to put our dear little (and she was by this time!) moggy down on Monday. It really was for the best as she had lost loads of weight and we wanted to do it before it got worse and she got distressed. So we (me and her) spent a day in the garden on Monday before the deed was done. I had thought to go later in the day, one to see the vet who had been treating her and two as it would be quiet. Big mistake, the surgery was full of people coming in after work! Luckily I had my sunglasses on when I left so they couldnt see my tears However we all know it was the right time for her and it was very peaceful. I shed a few tears at home but feel better now as there was nothing we could have done and she was nearly 17 so had a good long run at it. Also had to tell YD, who’s back in Paris, so got that over and done with last night. Yd is currently having lots of interviews for jobs so I hope she gets something soon. She already has a contract job she can take but it only lasts 3 weeks, however it’s in the bag so if nothing else comes up she can start on Monday and keep looking for other jobs. Also still flat hunting but they are keeping their fingers crossed about a flat they viewed yesterday. I’m also not feeling as weepy about her going, she is obviously very happy being back amongst friends and living in one of the worlds greatest cities - who can blame her! However I will try and discourage her from finding a French boyfriend, as with your daughter Val, as that would mean she wouldnt be back.
Nicky x
Thanks ladies, just a quick post from me as I’m waiting for the taxi to take me to the 24th rads, last one tomorrow yipppee.
I’ve got to see my GP tonight, she’s got to try and find out if I’ve got an infection as she says I do have a fever with 38 deg which is causing the diabetes problem. I didn’t mention before because I didn’t think it was significant but I’ve had a painful swollen eye since Sunday which looks like I’ve been punched 
so I’ve been self diagnosing on google = as you do = and one of the conditions is occular cellulitis which means IV AB and could be life threatening, please dont let it be this. I’m so looking forward to my short break away I can’t bear to think something might stop us from going. Wish me luck. I’ll pop back this evening to let you know
xxx
Nicky I am so sorry that you had to put your lovely pussycat to sleep. I know what this entails as I have had to do it with a few cats of my own who had reached the same point where it was cruel to keep them when they were obviously struggling. My vet allowed me to have time on my own with them for a few minutes to say my goodbyes. The trouble is that there is so much history with you and your pet especially when the children have grown up with the cats in the house. I always found it very distressing so understand how you felt and are feeling now. Hope your daughter gets a more permanent job soon and that she finds somewhere to live that she likes and is near her place of work too. As for French boyfriends…at least it gives us a bolt hole in the centre of Bordeaux for wee trips away! But I do miss her so much but she wants to live in France. I did ask her once if she ever split up with her man would she remain in fRance and she told me she would as she loves the weather and the life style over there. She cycles everyshere and the tram system is fantastic. The go cycling in the Pyrenees and take tents etc with them and can go to the beach near Cap Ferrat when they have time off. So I fully understand why she loves it there.
Peacock I am worring about you and all your problems that you have especially the rash and the eye problem. I hope you get all thses things sorted. Please let us know how you get on as there seems to be lots going on with you at the moment.
I am doing dine and awaiting the wheelchair delivery which was to be beteen 10 and 4pm. So hanging about the house…actually I am stretched on the sofa and my OH has just come in and is making coffee. The aroma is always better than the taste I think. Then it is raid the fridge to see what we will have for lunch. I hope the wheel chair is just for the time I need to heal after the op but it could come in useful when we are out as sometimes I get worn out so I could conserve my energy if I used the wheelchair sometimes. depends what I think of it as I have never had one of my own before. I did try my other’s one but that was one you coud not wheel about yourself and this one is. Will let you know.
My dad is causing me concern as he had been talking about getting a new car. A smaller one. We spoke to him 2 days ago and offered to take him round to look at other types before he ordered on. He siad he was in no rush and he was wanting one in October. He is 87 so needs one that he can get in and out of easily. He told me last night on the phone that he has been to garage and ordered one. I don’t think he even had a trial run. We looked up the car and the reviews about it and the seat does NOT go up and down nor does the steering wheel move. He is a tall man with long arms and legs so I do not think this car a Citroen c1 is going to be suitabe for him. But will he listen? £ weeks ago he went to get a new suit, made to measure. This is a man who is happy in casual clothes and goes nowhere except to the supermarket or to walk the dog. He didn’t go to M and S where he usually goes but toa bespoke men’s taylors…help me boab…as we say up here…I am losing the will to live! Not really…Love Val
Saw my doctor today she confirmed I have an eye and a chest infection, so from tomorrow on AB’s.
Start tamoxifen next week I think I need to give myself time to get over everything else.
Last rads tomorrow HOORRAAYY
Will be in touch again soon, take care everyone xx
HI All, i can’t believe Ive missed so many posts, been trying not to get lap top out at night and concentrate on housework and jewellery but not doing to well with it then too busy to post at work. Nothing to report here.
Val, hope you got your wheelchair and I love your flair for buying things jeleous
Carole, poor you sounds like had right rough time, hope you get your break away cant think of anyone who deserves it more xx
Nicky - so sad about your moggy, it’s heart breaking isnt it, not sure how i would cope. Hope you arent missing your daughter too much, silly statement I know.
Lily, hope its still 1 -0 Lily, men eh! Robbie tickets sooo jeleous, I didnt even know with not being on internet as much, have seen him before i think he’s amazing, not the best singer in the world but his attitude and presence is amazing, I see him as a real bloke, says it like it is, bit messed up and aint afraid to admit he has bad times.
Night all xxx
Hi, Carole I am not in time to sooth your anxious post about the eye and thank you for letting us know that it is/sounds like a more routine matter rather than the terriblt thing you googled. Have you not heard of google mania when you read things on there? My friend tells me she is dying every time she googles her symptoms!! Yahoooo well done that woman for the last rads tomorrow. You have done so well with all this other stuff going on. Have you got smoke coming out your t shirt yet? I did! Take care, take your tablets and enjoy some extra free time after the rads, I think it will help you a lot. Val you must tell us about your wheelchair antics as its bound to be a bit of an adventure at first. i hope it allows you to have much longer trips out with a handy seat for when you need it. PS I hope you have given hubby a few driving lessons in advance ha ha. Don’t want you ending up in the hedge lol. Lisa Ed has seen Robbie, Take That, etc whenever she can so is devastated that none of us registered got the chance to get tickets. What is the most popular jewellery at the moment, is it still the blingy balls (you know what I mean!) BTW have you seen the pigeon fancier and has he stopped panting yet lol? Nick that was so sad reading your post, so sorry to hear about your little cat. Such a long time to have it, so it will take a while to get used to the gap. Will you have another one? Horrible to have to ring to tell the girls too . Almost evryone I know whose kids went a long way for uni, stayed there as they had 3 years with friends and it became a second home. Son was given a double bed, which arrived today and will no doubt lead to more sleepovers!!! At least he went to bed earlier so maybe he will wake up for work instead of me going back time and again to drag him out. ED is now mentioning she would like one but as son was the only one left at home until she came back, he had alreay moved into the big room. So she shares her smaller room with her massive clothes and boot collection. Little chap tells me the other bedroom is his. When they were all here we had another bedroom but Victor swiftly took it over as a study as he often works at home. I am currently typing on his new computer which arrived today. Just in time before the old one finally packs up! Its so slow but this whizzes along Nice big screen for ageing eyes too. Victor went back for his chat with the doc and I gatecrashed as he was going to be sparing with what he told the doc about his pains. Stupid man (both of them). Doc said ECG doesn’t look TOO bad! What the heck does that mean? Aren’t they ok or not ok? Whoever had checked it had put big circles round parts and sent him notes but I couldn’t read it from my chair. Cholesterol is up a bit, pains are continuing on exertion, Victor has refused to use the angina spray when he has pains (after chemist warning of monster headache) and doc says so I think it looks more or less ok! I asked if heat caused it, he said no. Victor asked re cholesterol, not that either. I asked if potassium, he said no. So I told him just how bad victor was on holiday and pains lasted 9 days in total. So he said well shall I refer you to a cardiologist? Unbelievable conversation as a heart specialist had already said he needs more tests to check some areas. Victor hesitated, being a hospital phobic and wanted to sneak out of it. I convinced him, that he is too young to keep saying perhaps I better not do this, or I can’t do that any more, can I eat this. It has really changed his outlook and attitude so I said I think you need to know for peace of mind. Either you are fine and can stop being careful or you do have heart condtion (apparntly his symptoms indicate a type that only shows up when in actual pain) in which case its even more important to know and be monitored. So Lily 2 Victor 0 we now wait to go for a heart stress test. Victor on a treadmill he he. Lily x x
Hi ladies
Carole, at least you know what it is and can stop googling as Lily says! Hooray that the last rads is today, bet you can’t wait. Enjoy the break, are you going with Mr P? I hope so. Hoping that all the redness calms down quickly and that the ABs sort out all the problems without causing any more - you’ve had a tough time of it. I meant to have said thanks for the offer for help with my YD, that’s very generous of you and I know you have offered before. At the moment she is coping on her own, and with her friends there, but it’s good to know there is a friendly adult face for her to contact.
Val, how I remember that phrase, so help am boab! My Aunt and Uncle lived uinner Edingurgh for a few years and we loved to pick up the expressions when we were younger. Good luck with your Dad, it must be very difficult to control him, and I mean that in a nice way. Btw when we were looking at cars for our daughters to drive we decided the C1 was too small so I really don’t think it would be right for your tall Dad. I hope he listens to his daughter.
Lisa, nice to see you, to see you nice Sorry you are so rushed but that’s a good thing. Any wild plans coming up with your mates? Did I see a while back that you have planned another short break, or am I just expecting it?
Lily, what a packed house you have, I hope little chap will be willing to share ‘his’ bedroom with his brother and cousin when they get older! I friend of mine has just had her daughter come back to live. She had moved out into her own flat but got lonely! We keep telling our 2 that we will change the locks if they want to come back! Only joking of course but OHs side of the family seem to have a habit of returning to various parents in their 30s and evn 50s when things go wrong so there is history there! I’m glad you went with Victor to the doctors, what would have happened if you hadn’t? They only hear what they want to hear, and it sounds like he wouldn’t have heard a lot from what the doctor said! I do hope it’s cleared up soon with as little medical intervention as possible as you are right that he shouldn’t have to be changing his lifestyle at his age to feel well. OH is also a medical phobe so would avoid anything at any cost, I do understand!
Thank you all for your kind words about my little moggy, she was such a part of the family and the girls had both had her, and her sister, as kittens when they were 4 so had lived with them most of their lives. We also had had 2 ginger kittens just after we were married so OH and I haved had cats pretty much all our marriedlives so it will be odd not to have any around. For now we won’t get a pet, I don’t think it’s fair to get another cat as the sister of this one was run over in our lane not long after we moved here so I couldn’t bear that to happen again. We may look at getting a dog, which our D’s would love, but not for a while, I need some time off from pet responsibilities as you can imagine it is only me that does the hard work!
YD is doing well with the job process and we are keeping fingers crossed that she gets a good offer soon. Still no luck with the flat hunting though which is a bit worrying. They don’t want to pay the agency fees, can’t blame them as they all have to pay a months rent for the ‘service’ so have been looking at private deals but I think they might just have to do it as time is running out.
Have a great weekend everyone, weather is looking fab and I hope that extends up and down wherever you are. I love the September mornings, all bright and cool with the sun coming out later. One of my favourite times of the year.
Nicky xx
Hi, Nicky every single person I have told about Victor has said the same as you, that their Oh’s are doctor phobic and will never go. Weird. It must be us gals that keep the GPs in work then! Victor had no chance of wriggling out of it. He was transparent and nowhere sneaky enough to get past me ha ha. I did wonder if the gp thought it strange when I walked in the appointment too but he soon realised Victor has amnesia about medical issues and was asking me the questions!! He has always maintained that I am super brave and that he would not agree to have any of the things I have done, done to him. This really annoys me that he would think this although the reality is very different of course when faced with it. The kids told him off too and said he would go and thats it! He was sent a pack to check for bowel cancer, well checking for blood in the stools, just after his landmark birthday. Today he received a letter saying he had failed to complete it within the set time and would be dismissed from the system unless he returned it soon! I really am NOT organising that test for him lol. Looking forward to a sunny weekend. P well done and hold tight for the after effects that keep burning for 5 days I think and then you will feel yourself improving rapidly. You have done well and I hope evrything improves now. Val hope you are improving daily too and did your wheels arrive? Don’t sign up for wheelchair judo just yet!! Lisa hope the sun stretches as far as you. How’s the diet going? Lily x x
Hi, i don’t know about anyone else but I haven’t been able to post, the site was completely scrambled. What fantastic weather today. We went to a county show and it was huge with so much to see and eat . I took all 3 girls along and the 2 babies and they were very grumpy at times due to the heat. We watched the monster trucks ripping cars apart and crushing cars (my choice) and dog racing (Yd’s choice), MD was on a mission to check out all the food halls and Ed wanted the shopping stalls. I think the only thing we did not see was a huge area of road building! It was very traditional too with horses competing in a ploughing competition as well as all the modern machinery. There was a big fun fair, newfoundlands rescuing people in a lake, helicopter rides, tractor rides, horses, classic cars, wood carving, corn dollies, you name it, it was there. An enormous place to get around. Then back here to cook dinner so I am shattered tonight but such a lovely day. Hope you are all ok especially thinking of Val and Peacock and hoping things are looking brighter for both of you this week. Nicky I hope YD soon gets settled so you can at least rest easy thinking of her with a job and a roof that is hers. I will soon be on the warpath with son as he needs to get himself into gear if he is going back to uni after christmas, he says he is but who knows! Lisa did you get all your jewellery completed? There were lots of private sellers at this do today and it was lovely looking at all their ideas. Take care all Lily x
Sorry not been on much. Have been in a wee bubble of my own. Not wanting to see anyone yet feeling a bit alone. I know that sounds nuts but that is how it has been. I went upstairs to get ready for bed when all of a sudden out of the blue I was in tears. I had been thinking about Mum and about how I want to be normal again, to be able to do stuff instead of sitting in a chair, and generally feeling sorry for myself. I cannot even bear to call back a few friends who have phoned me cause I feel so low. I did talk to one friend about it though which helped.
Yesterday I went out for the afternoon and we went up to St Andrews which was buzzing with people as parents and students were arriving with all their stuff for the new term. My Oh pushed me in my wheelchair and asked me if I wanted to look in several lovely shops we passed but I did not want to do that which is not normal for me, but I was happy just people watching and taking in the ambience. We bought fish and chips and sat in the car and did more people watching. I felt better last night but I know that things are not as they should be.
Then I had a wee look at my diary and realised it is onoy 3 weeks since I had this major op and really I was doing well. i did think about speaking to my GP but I am getting my bloods checked on Wednesday and seeing my Oncologist on Friday and I will be abe to have a heart to heart with my BC Nurse as she is always at the clinic.
So just wanted to let you know why I have been absent. I am just so fed up of having to accept that my OH is doing everything. I do little bits like puting on the washing and folding the laundry but everything else is just so hard to do. I have knotting I could be getting on with but I just cannot muster up the energy. The worst day when I burst into tears I didn’t even want to talk and I couldn’t switch my brain off as I kept thinking about things. I look at people walking up the road and wish I could be that person I used to be who could cram so much into one day and never ran out of energy. It feels good to put this down in words to you and I know you wil understand. But wanted to let you know that I haven’t “popped my clogs” that I just needed to step back for a while. I am finding recent new changes on here hard to follow, I am thinking baout you all and I know my problems are small compared to many on here. Lots of love, Val
Hi all, at last I can post, couldnt post over weekend like lily said scrambled, mind I thought it could have been my brain,
Congrats to Carole on last rads, she’s on a wee break isnt she?
Nicky - no sun here you must have hogged it all!!!
Val, im not surprised your down after everything in the last few months but think what you have achieved.
Lily - glitzy balls eh! an the nomination bracelets are popular at mo and Im about to have a big push on making lots of new bits and updating my site and facebook page - just finding time as work manic, Mr pigeon has given up at long last, well hope so. Liking the 2-0 - why are men like that. my dad wouldnt return his box neither…
Nothing much here just busy as and new project at work which is very exciting but manic so chilliung tonight. Just realised that its 5 weeks till im back at hospital and Im a stone heavier now than when I went in so wont b e happy so diet time, just ruin it at weekend…
Well thought (even though on diet) I would spread my social calendar, this weekend my bessie mates 40th who is still confined to bed and wheelchair so stopping with her on Sat and inviting firends up for small gathering, next weekend women vs cancer night, weekend after another 40th (yes all my friends are hitting it), weekend after a 2 night stay in Manchester to watch super league final, see Sister Act and then 3 days later 5 days AI in Salou - ouch, diet…