Lorraine I now weigh 11st and prior to treatment weighed 9st 5lb so a bit cheesed off by my extra load to carry around and I assume this is why I get back ache so easily if I do gardening or too much exercise. Aghhh plu the fact my clothes all look as if they have been sprayed on (not an attractive look) but I cannot afford to buy a complete new wardrobe particularly as my working hours have been cut so drastically. But hey ho I would rather be twice the woman I was and be healthy! Hope you enjoyed your holiday.
Lily I am sure you had a great time meeting up with Nicky again how lovely to be able to have a face to face chat. Hope you too have enjoyed your holiday is sounds lovely.
Lisa congrats on the new addition to your family I am sure they will let you share in his care (particularly the broken nights!) enjoy the little chap. Hope you are feeling better now sounds rather a drastic way to lose weight.
Nicky hope the apple cider vinegar helps personally I prefer a G&T!
but it is worth a try.
bevvy
i have put on even more weight than you. i weighed in at 111/2 stone before treatment, and now am a whopping 13 stone, at 5"3 Its very overweight, im not giving in to all my temptations now but its not making a lot of difference, but im glad to be here too. like you.
it would be nice for something to go right, without having to work so hard at it though.
lily 2000
have a brill holiday, just go for it at swimming pool, the men will just be so busy looking at the young ones wont notice you.(dont mean that nastily) i still need to sort things out before swimming, but used to love it.
angie
hope you ok?
nicky 08
hope you enjoyed garden centres, and meet up with lily. i recently met up with magsi, it was really nice.
lisaf
aunty lisaf, its so lovely holding a new born baby, really special enjoy!
Hi
Lily and I had a good chat and general catch up on Thursday evening. Unfortunately it was the only time in the end that I had free due to work and being off with daughters over Easter - but we managed:-) 2 hubbies seemed to be able to talk just as much as we did so they didn’t feel left out! Poor chap trying to take our order at Pizza Express had his work cut out trying to get us to stop talking and make our choices though. Lovely to meet up again and I’m sure we’ll aim to do it again when we can.
No real news or exciting stuff from me (other than the above!). Daren’t weigh myself atm as we seem to have eaten out every day for over a week now. Although my weight is OK I don’t want it to creep up any more - I was quite happy losing 3/4 of a stone when I had my ovaries zapped before Christmas.
Will just be pottering around this weekend digging a big flower bed and planting our some shrubs - as long as the weather holds off. Back out tonight to meet with friends and then, hopefully, a quiet week ahead. We’re up to London (again) next weekend but this time to watch my brother do the London Marathon. he’s chosen this charity for his main fund raising bit as I said this had been the most supportive of me since last year. Let’s hope he wins LOL.
Take care all, hope your throat is better Lisa, have a good weekend.
Nicky xx
Nicky and Lily, glad you managed to meet up and sounds like the other halfs got on well too!!
Its glorious here today which makes my mood so much brighter, done a little potter in my garden but after brother put fence up my garden has been demolished but the patio also has never had any sun so he now wants to take that up and put decking down at top of the garden, yipppeee all sounds good.
Enjoy the rest of the weekend all xx
p.s. I cant remember who was doing some sponsored bits - if you p.m. me I will sponsor you
Hi,
well back to the mountain of washing that follows a holiday. Booo! I had such a lovely week and feel like my batteries got recharged for the mad panic that hits schhools at this time. Had a lovely evening with Nicky and hubby and hope we can do that again in the future. She is right those two can talk for England too! She was very sweet not to mention the mad moments I had showing that I still have chemo brain. Doooh. We actually had good weather and I even went in the outdoor pool. It was small but had this jacuzzi/wave thing going on so if you timed your stroke right (easy for me as slow) you could keep swimming and never get to the side. Little chap had to be dragged out moaning each time and declared he never wanted the holiday to end. Bought loads of clothes. You know when you are not looking for something you spot nice things. YD moved house this weekend so went to have a look yesterday. It has what you would call ‘potential’ ie needs a lot of decorating. They were blissfully happy until their dog tried to eat a hedgehog and had to have spines pulled out its gums. Ouch. The local cats (dozens and dozens) are in for one big shock as the previous owners used to encourage them into the house and garden. They have 2 dogs that chase anything that moves.
Lisa your throat sounds absolutely horrible and must be like swallowing lumps of rock. Really hope this finds you improving and don’t go to work through it or it will never go. That was an order! Love the baby’s name and hope you can get a lot of fun and cuddles from sharing him. It is Bev and I doing the race for life, well walk in my case! Lorraine hope you enjoyed your break away. Where abouts did you go? I have over indulged big time, can I confess? Bev and Lorraine too ashamed to confess but I am with you in this tubby trouble.Back to the gym for me next week I think I must sign up. Saw the photos of me and can’t really talk myself into saying they are all just unflattering shots, can I? Right I am going to do something about it as I think my insides are showing signs of accepting fruit and veg at last. If that doesn’t work its lipo yikes!!! That should scare me into action. Nicky if you were slimmer you would be anorexic!! Thanks for fitting us in as I know it prob made the week really hectic. Just keep doing whatever you are to keep that healing going, must take protein, etc to repair I guess
Lily x
Enjoy the sun this weekend
hi everyone.
lily 2000
we went to skegness, weather wasnt too bad, stayed in a butlins caravan. last minute thing. took my 13 year old and a friend, and we had some good moments laughing our heads off. i had to make sure i was sitting down at time, because of the old bladder works. the jacuzzi sounded lovely, was it shared or your own private one?
where was it you said you stayed?
even you getting in on the fitness craze, who can i share my fatty moments with now, because im still not ready to join the fitness club.
Sounds like everyone had fun all round then. My niece has chicken pox so avoiding now after spenidng all last weekend with her!! Throat much better and you know me, havent been off with it.
Well, first weigh in on wedenday and Im not thinking optimistic, I just want something really bad to eat!!!
Just a quick moan I read in the news today an article suggesting that Cancer was not down to bad luck but a poor lifestyle aghhhhhhhhhh! I was so incensed I emailed the press office the following:-
"I am contacting you as I am incensed by yet again reading an article suggesting the patient is responsible for his/her illness. I am refering to the comments made by Dr Rachel Thompson that infer there is no bad luck attached to suffering from cancer but is bought about by a poor lifestyle.
I am just recovering from being treated for breast cancer I have undergone surgery, full lymph node removal, chemotherapy and radiotherapy all of which has been a harrowing journey. Before I was diagnosed I led a full an active life which included working, swimming every week, pilates classes, belonging to a rambling group, gardening etc I hadn’t eaten red meat for 20 years, ate mainly organic food, drank in moderation and weighed 9st 4lb which I do not consider being classed in the obese category as I am 5ft 5.
I am so fed up with reading that it is my fault! that I had cancer. My brother-in-law also is two years into recovering from bowel cancer and again had surgery and chemotherapy. Likewise prior to discovering he had cancer he was a very active man, playing tennis, badminton, sailing and he has never been overweight.
Give us a break it is extremely unhelpful to a recovery from these horrible cancers by continually reading that it must be our fault in some way. I do take responsibility for my health and know that I am not responsible for my cancer. Neither of our cancers were of the inherited kind and neither of us are smokers!"
I was so disappointed as Lily and I are raising money through the Race for Life Event and to think our sponsor money could be used for this kind of research is very disheartening. I do realise they need to advise people but surely there is a way to deliver that information without making us all feel guilty to have bought it upon ourselves.
Hi,
Go Bev and well done for doing something and not just sitting back and taking it. I hope they have the professionalism and courtesy to respond to you. Proud of you x.
Lisa hoping you are getting better every day and shame on you for not taking a day off. They won’t give you a medal you know, even if you act like a super hero!!lol.Hope the baby does not get the pops, should be ok if being breastfed I think. That must be the most positive thing I have thought about a boob in ages! Make sure you go to the loo, cut your nails beforehand and wear thin clothes for the weigh in!!! Just a few tricks I have heard people mention, not that you would need it. Good luck x. Lorraine your holiday sounds like it was a lively time and lots of laughs must have done you the power of good, even if it put the old muscles under pressure. We stayed in Hampshire and yes the pool was just for us but not very big. I would love one but I think it would be expensive to run with the heating, etc. Maybe if I win the lottery.Do not panic about the gym, it would take several years to make an impact on me and I will give up long before then. It is so hard as I am more than a little scared about pushing myself, not having ever done it before. Most worried about heavy exercises on the arms and shoulders so said no to them.
Well I was really tired after my first day back at school. Someone’s birthday so giant cake, yum. Then got to lunch and found mould on my roll so had no lunch and felt sick. Enjoyed getting my first free nolvadex prescription but took little chap with me who spotted Scooby Doo plasters at an extravagent price and had to visit the sweet shop with the display of penny (gosh most are 5p each now) sweets so that made up for it. Really enjoyed Britain’s top model tonight, anyone watching it? Nicky hope this week is a little calmer. Angie if you are logging in big hugs and worried about you. Can we help in any way? Don’t like to think of you without our support, especially if you are facing tough times. Still hoping you are busy following other leads.
Hugs everyone
Lily x
Hi Buddies
Back on board after a couple of (nicely) busy days. After meeting up with Lily and Victor we were out on Friday for someone’s leaving do at work then on Saturday meeting up with some friends. I’m just looking forwards to a few quieter nights this week. You go for months not going out once and then 5 times in a week! Had a lovely weekend in the garden digging out an big flower/shrub bed. Even though OH and I say it ourselves it does look good! Now, after all the lovely sun we’ve been having, I need it to rain - well at least at night. ED and a friend went to Eurodisney yesterday for a few days break - can you believe it she is 20 and her friend 23! They love it! Cannot imagine how excited they will be when the come home. She text me last night to say they were having dinner with Mickey - I thought she was joking but I don’t think she was! YD and I had a day shopping yesterday, down to Portsmouth and sat in the sun having lunch. I’m getting those awful V shaped sun marks what with being outside all weekend and they are so annoying to get rid of when you start wearing other tops. We then returned via Southampton for a bit of IKEA therapy and then more retail therapy. Back home quite late but a good day, her last day off is today and then back to the grindstone. A lot of hard work due now as her A2’s are in June.
That’s my catch up, hope everyone else is doing well and enjoying the sun - this could be summer for all we know. Must dash OH needs pc for a map.
Take care
Nicky xx
well done bevvy, it does hurt when people make such careless remarks, lets just hope she doesnt end up with bc, cos then she would have egg on her face. i am in the catagorie she talks about well the overweight bit anyway, but i too went swimming, walking and was generally active, and eat reasonable sensible, so seeing as i couldnt perform a miracle, got on with it when bc was diagnosed,
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lily 2000
can you post the address of holiday place, i would like to give it a try, was it megga bucks? cos i know your rolling in it(only joking!)
i havnt sorted free prescriptions out yet, still on my pre paid one from last year. i was suprised when they told me the bone tabs cost something like 100 pound a month, how ridiculous is that.
nicky 08
you do so well with having bone mets, i really pay for it if i do heavy lifting or gardening, and onc said i had to be careful, but god knows how i can lose this tub if i dont do these things.lisa, i think baby should be ok, i was told they are immune from most things for 3 months for some reason. and you take more care of yourself,
take care all, better do some housework, how can 3 people make such a mess in a day, ill never know.
lots of love x
Back to another long day meeting till 9pm tonight but to make up for it having the day of on friday as we dont get paid overtime.
Bevy, good on you for emailing them. I went through a its all my fault phase as I am most of those things, overweight, not majorly fit, been on pill for years and drink too much, but then so do a lot of my friends so it surely cant be down to lifestyle on its own, Im also BRCA 1 which is probably the reason Ive got it but then why doestn some of my aunties?!?! Can go round in circles and they dont know the answers so I never am but does insence me!!!
Lily - twinning again how good was Britians next top model, although gutted as really liked the blond girl!!!
Nicky - euro disney eh, never thought I would be a disney girl but florida won me over totally could go allll the time
Hi,
well it had to happen, with rushing all over the school and not having my own room. I fell over trying to carry things going upstairs and made a right splat fool of myself. Fortunately only little year 7s were about who all gasped and then watched silently as I collected my pencilcase that had continued rolling for some distance after I chucked it. All I can say is i forgot how much it hurts but no permanent damage, my wrist took the worst and is grumbling a bit. No surprise with it trying to hold all of me up. Insomnia is returning so I have been forcing myself to stay awake tonight and hope not to wake up in a panic about something I am dreaming about. Couldn’t even remember what it was! I am not getting hot flushes yet but seem to be getting prickly heat instead. Anyone else getting the prickles, they are annoying like wearing rough wool trousers or a jumper/
Lisa,make sure you enjoy your day off in lieu, I am glued to Hollyoaks at present, which is covering a very unpleasant side of everyday life, but gripping stuff to see how they deal with it. Also glued to Holby city and Hells kitchen, so just sofa lazing these days. Lorraine it was from one of the Uk holiday companies that do self-catering and it was pretty pricey unless you were sharing it between the 10/11 it holds. Will try to have it to send tomorrow, remind me if I forget. Well I was rolling but on the floor lol. Nicky that would have been so funny if you had called my hubby Victor, he has no idea I call him that!!! lol. He has sponsored me for £50 so now I will be forced to complete the 5km. You are having a lovely time! Nice to be tired from lovely things rather than c…p ones like last year. My youngest, who you met is about to do As exams but no sign of anxiety yet, far too laid back and more interested in his 2nd attempt at the theory tests. I am sure your daughter is much more focused, girls usually are.
Better go as arm nudging me to stop
Take more care than me!
Lily x
oh lily poor you sounds painful, mind its the pride thing too aint it!!!
Oh stopped watching Holby when got ill as dont like seeing hospitalsanymore than have to lol, but now marco, wow could watch him all day, he’s such a scruff bag but has mesmorising eyes and is sooo intense, glad Grant went tonight mind!!!
Well off to bed and tomorrow at 9 am have my first weigh in with w.wtachers - arrrgghhh, better have worked otherwise will be noshing cake tomorrow!!! x
Hi
Poor you Lily! Hope the bruising isn’t too bad, there’s not much you can do to stop yourself if your hands are full is there? Not a good day back I take it?
Lisa - hope the weigh in gave you some good news but don’t give up if it didn’t, it does take time for your efforts to show.
Lorraine - stop clearing up after the lazy people! They should be looking after you. My energy does seem to be returning after the chemo so I’m grateful for that and really enjoying the sun at the moment. Everydaymatters eh? My motto as well. Will be keeping everything crossed that nothing awful happens to me (or any of us) this year so we can all look back on last year as a really bad time but enjoy the moment now. We’re all just coming up to the 1st chemo dates I think. I started on 8th May so think I was the 1st. I slipped a bit with low neuts so finished about the same time as the FECCIES but much earlier than the CMF girlies. I intend to celebrate the passing of that anniversary as one I don’t want to remember.
Bev - I too saw the article and get so annoyed when experts mention what causes cancer. It’s just not that easy as I would not be your ‘usual’ candidate based on their last research. If it was that simple everyone who drank, didn’t exercise or was overweight would all have cancer - which they don’t. I’ve given up reading the articles now, when they find the real reasons and real cure I’ll start to listen!
Back to work for me today, not too bad, just a bit boring. I do prefer being off! However I then don’t get paid so a bit of a catch 22. Only tomorrow and half day on Friday to go.
Hope everyone is OK, enjoy the sun whilst it lasts.
Nicky x
hi everyone
lily 2000
i hope your not black and blue from your fall. wouldnt want anything to stop you getting fit, now would we.
you made me chuckle, you spoke to nicky about it being funny if she called your hubby victor. did i tell you when i met magsi, thats what she called my hubby, because ive called him that on here.
lucky enough ive called him that to his face before, and i squeermed out of it by explaining, it was when he was in a strop id said that.
nicky 08
i try to do as much as i can around house, because im not excercising at gym or anything, and not working either, so need to keep fit somehow, .
hubby made me laugh the other day, ive lost the little dangler i used to keep my phone on, and i was saying where can i keep phone now. and hubby came up with"keep it in the pocket of your bra". it made me laugh to imagine, a ringing booby. anyway come up with any more useful ideas for bra pockets?
just took grandsons back after going the local gardens and lakes, they have one of those barefoot walks, it goes through all different chickened out, cos the water bit is freezing.
oh and im still having problems with the waterworks when i laugh, does anyone else? i have never laughed so much as this last year, how mad is that?
anyway take care girlies, dont do anything i wouldnt do, so that leaves lots and lots. but dont blame me if you get into bother.
take care.x
things under foot, the mud being the worst. they loved it. i
Hi,
sorry will be quick today as snowed under with coursework deadlines. No bruises really but felt a bit sorry for myself today(no-one else did obviously) and thought I must take it easy and not rush. Then found I had been given cover lessons and break duty and had the busiest day they could ever give me, running around all day. So close to tears too many times today, the kids kept me going by being so sweet and trying hard. Managed to keep drip-free but a few tough moments. So I announced to everyone who would listen that I was overwhelmed by a day like that and they all oohed and aahed in sympathy and told me I should see someone else, not them! So I guess I need to decide whether to toughen up or to admit that I am not 100% still and say I can’t do all of this. Tricky one as a bit proud about saying I can’t do anything.
Worse things happen at sea! Will sleep on it
Lily x
Lily I think its hard as people assume you are back to full strength, people trying to think of us but they really dont appreciate how much we have been through, they just cant and i think well i know i have and im sure other have, have tried to but a brave front on so people just think we can deal with it all and are fine but we all have aches, pains, niggles and are highly emotional!! Take care and take it easy (says me!!).
Well what to do with my pocket in bra, oohh dear me, can only just squeeze falise in never mind anything else!!
Well girls, I lost 4lb on week one at fat class soooo that’s a stone and 4lb since January (mind the stone was in a few weeks and blibbed since then). Celebrated tonight after finally got home with a large wine and a fudge (lower calories).
Nicky, I cant remember my chemo date will have to get diary out, Im sure it was about 15th May but not sure but should mark that day, I was soooo scared, bottled it before I went in and was a nervous wreck, the manager held my hand and couldnt beleive I could walk and talk afterwards but yuk those first few days…
Spenidng Friday getting caught up on paperwork at home and my garden, seeing my nurse and anything else I can fit in.
Hope everyone okay, Im still worried we havent heard from Angie, if she managed a honeymoon she should be back by now?!?!
sorry you finding it tough lily, you need to get control of this situation, before it becomes habit, sometimes a straight no is what it takes. i too like everyone to think im ok, but we cant keep a lid on it, if we continually push ourselves, it has to spill over. and why should you be in tears, you have done so well, but i think now its all over, it is harder. but it is important that you enjoy everyday of your life, no excuses, go for it! sorry if it seems like im being horrid, you are special, and you need to realise it if others dont.
lisaf
well done, for the weight loss, i keep blaming tamoxifen, but others have done it, so i probably could if i tried harder. i feel like ive given up at the moment.
hope everyone else is ok, and i too wish we could here from angie,