Darling buddies from May - moving on

hi everyone

lily 2000

well off to sunny ? probably not spain for a guess. mind you anywhere is better than here with this rain. i havnt worked out to keep clan happy so im letting them all get on with being miserable, i havnt got energy to argue, and i dont want o anyway. my victor hasnt stopped flashing (his lense that is) since he had the new camera, but im not looking too good on photos (they do say the camera never lies).

nicky 08

hope you getting on alright with the old pills, i seem little better at moment.

lisaf

couldnt you just curse this weight thing?

everyone take care x

Hi,
still here. Lisa I will be out of the country so I cannot attend but would still like to think of Angie at the right time. Didn’t want this to be a public exchange so can you pm me please. Someone asked me if I was very low right now. Well I am sad because we lost our lovely friend and it is hard to understand why and scarey that things can change so quickly as we all paddle the same canoe. I read back over a lot of her posts and it made me feel really close to her. I realise that the one thing she would want is for everyone to enjoy every minute they have and not waste time being sad or worrying. Her optimism bounced us all along through tough times and even in the face of real adversity she still thought of others and spoke out about living every moment. So I feel the right thing is to do just that, enjoy every moment for yourself and for Angie too.
Lily x x

I agree Lily the best thing we can all do is to live and enjoy our families and friends and not whinge and moan about things that really dont bloody matter. How very very sad this has made us all feel which is correct as we should gieve for her. But we must make sure we treasure the days we have and get the most out of our lifes as a tribute to her. We must keep up the fight that has got us all this far.

love to you all at a very difficult time.

Bev x

hi there

lily 2000

i agree too, we cant change how this disease effects us physically, but we have a choice on our reactions. of course that doesnt mean were to stop having feelings but we need to learn how to move on, or we just wont cope with this disease, because unfortunetly as with angie it can be so sad. but we need to focus on some of the good things too, years ago none of us would have stood a chance at least sometimes we can be helped, shame they cant find a cure for all, maybe one day.

everyone take care, x angie if your looking down on us, were missing you.

Hello ladies

I haven’t posted before because I didn’t feel it was appropriate. I know how much you all loved Angie, and how sad it must be to lose one of your “buddies”. I was shocked by the suddeness that took her, and it goes to show that you just can’t take life for granted can you. She is now free from pain, but another young life lost to this b
y awful disease. I too read back on some of her posts, and how happy she was just before new year, its so sad.

I’m getting more and more concerned with this damn cough I have, along with the breathlessness, but I am told it is nothing sinister - so what the hell is it then. It’s another thing to worry me but it probably is just Herceptin, at least that is what they are saying.

On the garden front, I am totally sick of picking cucumbers now, even the chickens and guinea pig say “oh no, not cucumber again” when I give them some. I am looking for a chutney recipe as I have to do something with them. On Sunday we ate a roast dinner, with home grown swede, parsnips, carrots, runner beans and curly kale.

It is still very hot, too hot, especially when you are living in a mobile home. Yesterday it was 42 deg inside and out. On the plus side our new bedroom is almost finished, Mr P works so hard getting the house done on his time off, poor lad, never gets any rest. We do need a holiday.

Our daughter has been off of school for the summer for 3 weeks already, and she goes back on 5 Sept. It’s too long, she gets bored and fed up, we live in the country so there aren’t any girls of her age close by.

Stay away from the swine flu ladies, until next time

P xx

Hi,
thanks Peacock and you are one of our buddies too. It has always been like that, welcome to anyone wanting to join us. Well I will be joining you in feeling hot as I am flying to Turkey soon and I gather it is toasting there! I have not been away for 2 years and am getting very excited about it. I don’t know if it is the same with people but the dog used to cough and they said the heart can cause it. So it probably is the herceptin annoying it. I guess at this point you can either believe them and try not to worry or you can insist on seeing someone about it. What tests have they done so far, about the cough? There are also really ‘nice ordinary’ problems like asthma and allergies as you are outside gardening a lot. You could do some research on herceptin so you have the important questions ready next time you go. Good luck and if you are unhappy with what they are saying then don’t give up until they make you feel they are right x. Lorraine any news on your tablets - are you stopping them? You have been so good at keeping us looking forwards and I thank you for that. You have certainly helped me a lot. Mostly my cup is half full but every now and again!! Bev keep smiling. I know you have work worries too, how is that going? My son just signed up for the ‘run 10K’ race and I am very relieved I won’t be doing it.
Well I see the onc again tomorrow for a routine chat and grope lol.I have not seen the prof for the last 2 times and have told myself that is good as he is not worried about me and has passed me on to a junior. I am embarassed to say that I am going to be a complete porker tomorrow (even for me). Hubby said oh good we’ll go in the hospital restaurant and have a big cooked breakfast like we used to. We are also meeting neighbours for lunch and they always have the works. Then I am meeting my local BC friends for dinner. I may not fit in the plane seat!!! Hi Nicky and Lisa x x
Hugs
Fat Lily x

Hi lovelies
I’ve had a few days away so have just caught up with our postings - well your postings! I may miss a few things out but here goes! I agree with all of the comments about Angie - a sad, sad time, but she wouldn’t want anyone to stop living their lives to the full. I intend to and have thought that ever since getting BC. I have only just PM’d Tommy regarding the funeral arrangements but if any of you do know the details can you PM me? I don’t want to ask too much of Tommy at this time so he may not get back to me for a while. Although I wouldn’t be able to attend I also want to set aside some time to pay my respects to our lovely girl.
On all the other postings ‘Boys with Toys’ - say no more, weight and aches and such - again, say no more! Veggies - I wish I had more but will have to put up with loads of tomatoes and herbs, plus some rhubarb! I’m thinking of putting a raised bed in this autumn - no, not to sleep in LOL But I’ll have to keep the bunnies out so a bit more work than just digging I think.
We’ve had a lovely few days in Pembrokeshire with some friends and no kids - hooray! The sun did manage to shine each day and we all had a good giggle at lots of silly things so a real tonic in this sometimes cruel world. I’m helping YD pack today for her next holiday and then OH and I are off to watch the MotoGP over the weekend - hopefully without any rain joining us.
I hope all you ladies are having a good time - photos please Lorraine from Victor’s new camera ha ha! and looking forward to any holidays or days off you are having. I’m making sure I’m having a good time this year after our awful summer (in more ways than one) last year and to enjoy the moment - even if it’s just a small treat.
Take care all, will catch up again, hopefully before the weekend.
Nicky xx

hi everyone

lily 2000

thanks for your comments but ive always found your postings inspiring as well. and you always have loads to tell us.
i think thats the good thing about us supporting each other, cos thankfully we have bad days at different times, so at least we can carry each other forward. Hope you enjoy your holiday in Turkey (stay away from the turkish delight), i only like it dipped in chocolate, mmmmmmmmmmmmm. sounds like youve backslid on the diet a bit like me.

nicky 08

Victor is being a pain with that camera, im going to shove it where the sun dont shine, if he carries on.

just been tidying the garden, cant believe plants are actually dry even though weve had loads of rain. ive been looking for a really old wooden box, bit like a crate, i want to put herbs in it, saw one in garden centre but it was forty quid, so needless to say i left it there.
my sisters brought me a nice stand with baskets attached, and theyre looking lovely. i wish i had some spare cash, i would love a retreat in the back garden, i would have a whitewashed shed and fill it with all relaxing things, and could escape from victor and his camera.
who knows one day, my boat may come in.
went for mammogram yesterday, and i was ashamed when the nurse said i will just have to get a bigger slide. (cringe cringe) and then she was fiddling with my boob and even trapped it once. oouch! but at least she was thorough. just a waiting game again. but i dont feel worried too much. a lady at our drop in today, was showing me her reconstruction, and i was envious i would love a reduction and recon on other side, but im such a coward, and dont want to risk it effecting how i feel.

got pile of washing up, so id better go and get started, enjoy the school hols, and for those still working make time to rest and play x

Hi,
fat Lily here after the big pig out. No diet in sight for me. Will try again after the hols MAYBE! Well breakfast was yum - toast, lots of crispy bacon, fried egg and tea. Saw a junior doc again who declared ‘you are cured, I want you to know that’ followed swiftly by ‘when we see a young girl like you’.LOL. Well it is clear to me someone had escaped from the mental home next door but I thought it was sweet of him to try to be so reassuring and charming so I just said ‘oooh I think you’re fast becoming my favourite doctor’ swoon.He then spent a large amount of time on the boobies pausing at one spot so long I started to panic mildly and then declared me to be perfect. Not since the days of the hot summer with the tank top terror in pursuit and declaring love for me have I had so much attention. This could go to a girl’s head!! I am laughing typing this as it is so hysterical what he said. He he he he.
Then off to lunch which was yum again. very sensible had pate, which turned out to be enormous and ice cream, which was also huge. Came home for a rest and a caramel shortcake (this is turning into a confession lol), actually 3 but they were small :). Then dinner tonight with my lovely local BC ladies (howdi if you are looking in:)), crispy lemon chicken, fries and then eton mess. So now sitting up in the vain hope that some of this will go down so I don’t have a bad night. Yeh I bet you feel really sorry for me LOL.
Nicky glad you had a great time and that you saw the sun. It poured on us tonight and all had to run for the cars. Still no packing done here but have bought lots of cures to take with us. So excited about going away. Hubby said oh we are going on one of those dodgy planes. Arggggh didn’t want to know that, so now plane crash dreams will descend until we go. Where is YD off to this time? Are you off again soon to US?
Lorraine I feel it is my duty to try all these new puddings and sweets for you so that I can report back accurately :slight_smile: So you are officially in the lead on diets now. I think you should ask for that shed for Christmas to have next summer to enjoy, if not possible this year. Good luck with the mammo ooh I hate the big squeeze, yowee. I have 3 friends planning recons.I think it is a harder decision if you have it later as you know how long it took to get to where you are now. Not sure what I would do but would be tempted if they promised a smaller tummy I am sure.You ok Lisa?
Oh so fat fat fat Lily x

Hi
A lovely shed sounds great Lorraine - just what I would like as well - as long as the spiders kept out - yikes! A little fridge to keep a stop of chilled rose, a comfy chair and a table full of books - what more could a girl ask for? - oh, a lock to keep the irritating things out like husbands and children LOL
Lily - are you practising for the world championship eating competition? I think you are going to win! How nice though to eat what we want this year without worrying. Hope the packing goes well, I always leave it till quite late as I can’t be bothered before. Keep the sunblock high over the rads part. Hope you’re not thinking of going topless after all the admiration from your young beau :wink: All that stuff can go to a girls head you know.
YD has gone to Spain - don’t ask me where - with a friend and her family. So a bit more luxury than the 2* Bulgaria trip I’d imagine and a lot less booze. I think they’ll have a great time as the weather is looking good so she can top up her tan. We’re off in about 2 weeks to Florida and really looking forwards to it. It should be a good family holiday that we can all enjoy.
Hope everyone else is doing well, no sign of Oink Oink I hope.
Have a great hols Lily, relax and enjoy it - you deserve it. We’re up to the MotoGP this weekend so won’t be on here for a few days - let’s hope the sun shines as it’s not my idea of fun in the 1st place.
Nicky x

hi there girls

Lily 2000

you flussie, bet you were chatting the doctor up, i’ll have to give it a shot, cos they dont call me a young lady (am i jealous, no not really) one man is more than enough for me.but great news that he thinks you ok.
you sound like your enjoying socialising and especially if food’s involved, a girls got to do what a girls gotta do, well you and i do anyway. we’ll have plenty to keep us warm this winter.

nicky 08
the shed is a dream of mine, cos hubby doesnt like things like scented candles and relaxing music, so it would be my haven, but dont think it will happen.

did i tell you our hospice was going to ask the local swimming pools if they would hire it to us for an hour or two a week, cos its difficult for us with body issues, and i dont think it would be just breast cancer patients, it could be used for others with physical ailments. i miss swimming but would feel more comfortable in that situation.

busy weekend ahead, grandsons tommorow overnight, so just going to do some baking, id better not eat any. (if you believe that youll believe anything!
happy weekend all x

Hi Lily, thanks for your kind words as always, at the moment I am assuming it is Herceptin as the side effects can be : coughing, breathlessness, diarreah and fatigue – all of which I have from time to time so I think you are right. Anyway only 2 more to go and then finished, hooray – I hope the portacath can come out too asap. So far I have had blood tests for infection, a heart ultrasound, and a chest x-ray. I don’t really know what more they can test, but I will be having a “heart stress test” next month, which will certainly get me panting for breath on the bicycle – shame my dr doesn’t look like Doug Ross!! I’ve never had asthma before, but who knows what the poisons do to our body? Anyway, as for Turkey, well make sure you wear something over your shoulders when you go out of the complex, they do like to ogle western women a bit so I am told. Good luck to your son when he runs the 10 k race, when will that be? How did your appt with the Onc go? And don’t worry about the seat on the plane, they have extra seat belts on the wings for ladies of a larger size LOL.

Nicky a raised bed is a brilliant idea, saves a bit of backache and seems to keep the weeds at bay better. Glad you had a great time in Pembrokeshire and its always a joy to have time away from the kids, however lovely they are we need some space – anyone want to hire a 14 year old from me for a few days?? Enjoy the MotoGP. I agree totally, last summer was a complete wipe out so we must all rejoice that we can enjoy this year.

Lorraine (everyday matters?) a shed in the garden, your own space, how delightful. I have a plastic greenhouse, made by my OH with his own fair hands from all the packaging around our bricks and building deliveries, but it works a treat and feels like a little space that I have of my own. I just need a radio in there, and maybe a deckchair or the like to chill when I feel a bit stressed and of course a couple of G & T’s. Herbs are wonderful to grow aren’t they, I have a variety growing in separate pots, but I would love a separate herb garden. Victor and his camera??? I need to read back and see what’s been going on. Hope your mammo results are good but sorry about the wait for you. The swimming idea at the hospice sounds good news, hope it comes to something. I do find swimming therapeutic, and I realise how lucky we are to have a blow up pool, just big enough to swim about 5 strokes. It’s only 4 feet deep x 24 in length, but is great for a cool off with these high temperatures we’ve been having (42 deg some days).

I’m pleased to say that I am now sleeping in our brand new bedroom, inside our new house – Mr P only spent 1 night in here before he had to go back to work so I’ve been revelling in all this space. Bit different to a mobile home that’s for sure. We still don’t have a toilet connected up, so having to use a pee bucket when necessary, but who cares. I can’t believe how wonderful it all is, last year all that building when I was feeling so bad with treatment it felt like I wasn’t going to be around to see our new house, and thankfully here I am.

Anyway, this has taken me ages to type thanks to my hand being a bit on the slow side at the moment, so enjoy your weekend ladies, and everyone I haven’t mentioned have a good one too.

P xx

Hi,
well on my holiday countdown and still no packing. Tried all the large floaty numbers I have madly purchased without trying on and I can now be gift wrapped in a variety of colours and patterns suitable for the change in weather and scenery. Haven’t ventured near the cossie drawer yet but did impulse buy a bikini ‘for the more mature figure’. Well after all that eating I might just take it along for the ride and try again another year. I would like to have a few healthier days but it is my Victor’s birthday tomorrow and so we are doing you know what again and Sunday too to avoid a full dishwasher before we go. I have been wrapping parcels for Victor, his brother’s birthday and a bag of little surprises for little chap as 2 weeks is a long time for him. They are wrapped with a date for opening on each one. He is staying tonight and has already enquired who all those other parcels are for, wrapped in Winnie the Pooh paper!! Went bowling this afternoon as someone seemed to have decided our area need a major flood with non-stop rain and another storm. Can’t remember when we last had so many.
Nicky I got the gold medal :slight_smile: for eating yeeeh. I don’t think I will be going topless although I sometimes feel like most of the world has already seen them anyway lol. Would be a little anxious that son and his friend might creep up and catch me argggh. Suncream warning noted thank you. Also followed Bev’s advice to have a scarf to drape around area. Have a lovely weekend, Sat is supposed to be great and Sunday really rainy. So if I miss you, have a fab fab time in Florida and don’t forget my Minnie ears :). We plan to go next year so you and Lisa can be my experts to plan it. I have packed all my flu and cold remedies and hope not to need them. Lorraine no-one has called me a girl for quite a considerable time. As I said he was straight out the mental home next door, in disguise.As to being warm this winter oh gosh don’t know if I want to even warmer. Swimming plan sounds lovely, wish ours did something similar.What did you bake? You know i will appreciate it :slight_smile:
Hi Peacock well done for almost finishing herceptin too, a real marathon for you. Not sure I would have kept going as well as you have. I think you will start to see improvements once the last one wears off. Do you/will you have hormone tablets? Interestingly this young doc told me if he had his way I would stay on tamoxifen for 5 years regardless of menopause status, before moving to femara. I don’t see them until Jan 2010 as my next visit is to the surgeon.They might test my levels then. He warned me that you can be having cycles and get pregnant despite no periods for 18 months and to be very careful. I had already noted that tamoxifn is also a fertility drug.I feel faint just thinking about pregnancy at my age.I had a port too and they took it out very quickly after the last one otherwise you have to keep having it flushed. My onc visit was good and got all clear. Hope your symptoms start to ease but feel that the autumn arriving will be the best cure for you.
Lily x

Sorry forgot to say to those jetting off,

HAVE A GREAT HOLIDAY !!!

XX

Good Grief Lily what a thought the possibility of becoming pregnant whilst on tamoxifen aghhhhhh! I want grandchildren not more of my own. Still probably highly unlikely in my case as I only have one overy. Interesting the doc felt it would be better to stay on the tamoxifen for longer before switching isn’t it all so confusing.

It was my birthday yesterday and I had a day out at the seaside!! which was lovely as the weather in Eastbourne was really good.( My son (obviously in his own bubble) forgot his mother’s birthday boy does he have some brownie points to make up.) Hubs had to stay in the car at one point as we didn’t have any change on us and the traffic wardens were out in force. So I had a lovely walk up the beach by myself and really enjoyed being able to reflect on where I am now as opposed to last year. I also thought of our Angie. We went out in the evening to friends for dinner and one of them had made me a cake which consisted of lots of chocolate and beetroot!! now I know that sounds really odd but it was delicious the poor love had to grate raw beetroot and said her kitchen looked as if a massacre had taken place but apparently it was a healthy chocolate cake fantastic news!!! didn’t know they existed.

Well Lily have a lovely lovely holiday and have fun frolicking in the sea you daring girl in your new bikini I am very impressed go for it! remember to put the suncream on before going out and keep a scarf on you at all times to cover bits up.

Well done Peacock nearly there!! and hope you feel better when the dreaded treatment stops.

Nicky glad you had a good time in Pembrokeshire. I have a couple of very small raised beds for my veggies and it does seem to work better as you don’t have to trample on everything.

love to all.

Have a good weekend.

Bev xx

hi everyone

peacock

love the sound of the greenhouse, and ive never tried g+ts something for the future. talking of herbs, have you ever grown mint, cos i have got some and it seems to be dying maybe its because ive never cut any off it. i have brought thyme and sage this week, they where reduced cos end of season. dont know if i will use them in anything but may start to.

lily 2000
a bikini i definatly couldnt get away with that. youll be getting old victor excited. and if your more fertile on tamoxifen you better be careful. im ok ive been sterilised, it was 14 years ago mind you.
but then again im a good girl! i made choc muffins for kids but i tried using brown sugar which is made of half sweetener, but i dont think they cook the same, so u save calories anyway cos you dont enjoy them.

bevvy

i think ive seen the recipe your talking about was it nice? i too love having 5 minutes alone to think about where weve got to. have you got any daughters cos they dont seem to forget birthdays.Anyway happy birthday, i wont ask how old you were.

take care everyone, and if i havnt mentioned you hope your all ok. x

Hi,
well the cases are more or less packed. As usual I ran out of room and have started to fill up everyone else’s as I can never decide what not to take. Basically if it fits and it is not winter wear it is coming with me just in case. Really hard to decide how to cover up and stay cool and try to look ok. I have now made Victor’s case too heavy. He has got his own back by putting all the adapters, mosquito devices and dodgy looking items in my case,so I won’t be amused if they get my knickers out at the airport to see what the metal objects are.LOL. I am so excited I could fly there myself. We had a bbq today for Victor’s birthday. He was given a lot of pressies for his holiday and has had to unpack to include them. In the morning I have to take our dog to the kennel and I hate doing that. Then out to lunch for a family meal. Hope to pop back on to say bye.Lorraine it was actually easier to get into a 2 piece than trying to snake into the skin tight hold you all in one piece. My tummy is awful but I am hoping that it will look much nicer when it is golden. Depends how busy it is at the hotel or beach and how many skinny people are around. Bev yes I was part laughing and part cringing at the revelation about getting pregnant. he trained in Scotland and is more pro tamoxifen than my main onc who likes femara, when you switch. Happy birthday yesterday. I have a foggy memory of yuor birthday at the same time as Victor’s. Bet I say that next year too lol. Walk on the beach sounds lovely. I used to like visiting the sea while on chemo.Naughty son! Struggling with the beetroot in a choc cake, guess you have to try it first. Thank you I will try to be careful with my rads burn but the rest of me is toast!! Thanks Peacock. Nicky have a fab weekend and holiday afterwards. Lisa x
Lily x

Hi,
hope the sun shines on you all for the next few weeks and will miss you
Bye
Lily x

hi everyone

well its up to us all to keep posting while lilys away, cos she always seems to keep us going. im so fed up of this weather, i really thought it was a going to be a good summer, well weve got more to come, so lets hope the rain goes away. still not doing so well on the diet, my eldest son is with us at the moment and hes very good at giving advice, according to him ive got to ditch the bread,and he even moaned at me having porridge for supper tonight, (cos id had no tea and didnt know what to eat at 10pm, )evidently porridge wasnt a good choice. i thought it was better than eating something naughty, seems us fatties just cant win.had grandchildren for the weekend 3 of them, and was so shattered been to bed for 2 hours.but i’ll probably still have no difficulty sleeping tonight.
three of my family have done the race for life today, shame it rained but they said the atmosphere was great. needless to say i didnt do it.but then looking after 3 kids wasnt an easy option.
hope your all ok, and the rain isnt stopping you getting out and about too much, seems a shame when its at the weekend, its ok for me i have time in the week, but those of you working its a shame.

night night x

ooppsss hope i havent missed the jet setters leaving, have a fab time away and enjoy!!!